posted on February 15, 2012 at 10:07 pm

conceit

i search in the sun for the final axiom

that one liner that can make sense of everything

my whole life the universe the lot

stumbling and fumbling

fuming and frauding

i grope the darkness

am i inside my own mind

there is no answer

intuition is a behind the scenes peek

premonition a sneak preview

gotta hunch gotta hunch

never ever a free lunch

your owner gender with its own agenda

now being a boy is something else again

i remember streaming through trees

i climbed up a trunk and removed a pale blue egg

the weather was sultry and angry that day

a storm had turned the afternoon to black

a warm premature night had fallen on us

soft bells tinkled far away

magic climes of childhood on my skin

before i traded my naivete in

before i started hankering

anyway coherency seems to elude me

you know i mean well

well i mean i mean what i meant to say

take it as given

understand it as said

me n my head

what will we do when full of dread

and keep the children fed

we sped towards the end

 

 

37 Responses to “{} {} {}”

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    . | 15 February 2012 at 11:19 pm #

    three aqua heads with pointed ears
    are they standing still or do they fear
    what the other ones are thinking, queer
    images in our minds materialize & disappear
    they fly to the top of their mountain & steer
    down an ancient runway to their golden pyramid
    a grey black sky stretches from there to here
    & it rains drops of our ancestors, passed & dear
    this bondage has gone on for way too many years

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 15 February 2012 at 11:45 pm #

    Just wondering…was that sentence supposed to read ‘magic chimes of childhood on my skin’ , it appears that it would ring an irony with the sentence before such.

    Thanks again for the B- Day wish , the premature news of my princesses demise was greatly exaggerated …she had a delightful day…her day to bask in the glow of the warm , all following spotlight , the little bugged has 2 more celebrations left. She will have had 6 !!!! fifteenth parties including Valentines Day activities by the end of this upcoming Saturday…which she is the hostess of a 25+ kid indoor waterpark/ sprinkler funland ,,,,,she will be the talk of her little school comprised of little angels of both genders. Yes, Killer…I spoil my offsprings to no end…I have some $$$ from the injuries and medical negligence ringing along with a lifetime of disability income, but I do miss working so much …I’m fully retired at the young age of 45( but it has so many drawbacks…I enter the hospital on th 20th to begin a new round of possible life altering pain/ steroid injections into my cervical spine, to go along with my many lower back problems.

    I am quite nervous about this one, the aftermath is always the hardest…once I was so bad…I was stuck in bed for 100 hours, so all those out there that I may annoy…think about 100 hours stolen from you, that is the life I am deeply entrenched in…is it life??? Is it living???? Sometimes it all becomes so distorted. But I truly am afraid of this hospital visit. And I got rocks the size of bowling balls, so it must be frightening.

    Have a grand day, and can you please allowi Woffles to come out of that wretched small bedroom. What did ya trickier a again with large sums of money…hahahahaaaaa…it works for me all the time.

    Dazza

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 15 February 2012 at 11:50 pm #

      Sorry folks, she will have a finale of six parties, not the fifteen I typoed above…but she is such an angel , I believe I may change and update her avatar , she told me that that’s a baby pic and she’s a mature 4 yearold now, like her beautiful mama, she takes no prisoners also…

      DJK

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    Boriah | 16 February 2012 at 2:19 am #

    Man, why dont you simplify things? fuck poetry, fuck philosophy, you just live and dont think too much. Just a 6-pack, a walk by the beach, a glance at the bikini girls, yeah, over there, see them? Watch sports on telly, perhaps some videogames at late night. Fall in love. Literature and poetry were useful when we were teenagers, but now they´re worthless because they all are a lie.
    Cheers

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      thetimebeing | 16 February 2012 at 6:44 am #

      yeah whatever

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      princey | 16 February 2012 at 8:20 am #

      ya kidding Boriah, aren’t you??????

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 16 February 2012 at 2:16 pm #

      Boriah-
      You just described my neighbors…
      That’s crazy psychic…
      All I hear every morning is beer bottles being dumped into a garbage container, I can
      practically count them…the fuckers don’t even recycle and I
      don’t know how many of ya r familiar with a city like Chicago that
      Has more miles of alleys than some cities and towns have streets…
      It’s a totally different universe, fuck en a , I grew up in the alleys of
      my city and used to jump from garage roof to roof , about 10 feet , as a teenager- while stoned and diluted on something…I was the prince of that shit…
      But, you are flipping psychic- how cool- SO AM I !!!
      Here is a premonition : Marty and Tiare touring the states in spring- late spring…
      And tearing thru a heartfelt set every other night !!!

      (Wish you could join them SK…we surely miss ya !!!)

      Darrin JK

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        Boriah | 16 February 2012 at 5:52 pm #

        Thanks for you words Darrin. Well, read between the lines. At a certain age…why complicate things? We want a quiet life. We read a lot in the past, we fucked a lot in the past, we drank a lot in the past, we had our fights in the past. Now it´s time to relax. Why torturing yourself? Do you have a PS3? Get one, it helps a lot, man, believe. There´s a videogame out there for you. You wouldnt believe it. Now off for a beer and a chat with a chick, wish me luck mister.

        And Kilbo, stop demonizing “Dabble”. Here´s my morning song far ya:

        “Chiiiiiiiiiiiinaaaaa, I saaaaaw your siiiiiiister on the Niiiiiile”.

        No bad blood here.

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          BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 17 February 2012 at 12:01 am #

          Hey B,
          Look…I think ur cool, and take it from someone who has had many war of words on this blog since its inception and the previous one before it…blogeeez will come out from behind the curtain if u become a bit controversial. If that happens, which it might, I will defend u greatly.
          I have played guitar and music, professionally and as a hobby, for 35 years.
          I have been painting artistically for nearly 25 years.
          I have been writing and have been published (poetry in the National Library Of Poetry) since I was 17 years old.
          I am fully , medically disabled and my prognosis is grim and degenerating as I write this.
          But…I do not really have time to relax as I am chasing a newly crowned 4 yearold daily as my sweet beautiful bride works 60 hour work weeks in upper financial management…
          But I try my best to relax when I can, with my hobbies and my children fill my sails with the energy to soldier on.
          So…
          I love ur writing, opinions , and contributions…I will always stay positive for ya, just please b careful where u tread …it can get ugly here in words…really really fast.

          A fan,
          Dazza

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            Boriah | 17 February 2012 at 6:01 pm #

            Hello Darrin, and thanks again for your words. I´m sorry to hear about your illness, I wish you all the best in your fight against it. As for myself, I am a full professor at the second most important public university of Spain. Two degrees and a PhD in food chemistry. Outside Spain I´ve been working at universities in France and Portugal. I teach/reasearch food chemistry but everytime I have the chance I dont miss the opportunity to speak to my students about music. As a hobby I´ve been playing music in bands and now I have my own little studio where I make music. Whatever, after a hard working day I dont want to go home to weep or complain, I have to be positive: some beers, beautiful women, music, and videogames. I´m neither a yes-men nor an arse-licker. I particulary think they arent doing any good to Kilbey. I´ve been a loong time fan (since Heyday) and when I was 17 I was listening to “Unearthed” non-stop (now I´m 38). I even have a fucking Kilbo self-portrait on the wall of my living room. So I think I can give my humble arrogant opinion as well as the rest, even to give a bad review. In any case, far from my intention to cause any harmn to anyone. If you need any help from me you know where I am, Dazza.

            Thanks again.

            Cheers

  4. avatar
    colette | 16 February 2012 at 4:38 am #

    Duc de l’orange

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 16 February 2012 at 5:06 am #

    After watching the MoshCam interview, I would have to say , after seeing you blokes for 16 shows…they all have been better than the last one you did. I saw ya in the rough patches, but I think Chicago brings out the best in all of you.
    But what really always stand out for me is June 23, 1990 in Chicago at the Navy Pier Ballroom in front of …around 2500???
    I did some side work for Arista and was a District Manager of a record store chain in Chicago/suburbs…I hung out and talked for a while with Jay…you walked up on us talking and tried to “shooo” me away and I laughed at ya and than you started laughing and you said…”that wont work with the likes of you mate???” and i replied “Ummm NO !!!” and you laughingly pushed me and said “well okay than…” you smiled and winked at me and walked away…Jay said…”He’s actually a lovely man…” and I replied …”thats the 5th time Ive talked to him , and NO he’s NOT” and we both laughed for a minute.

    Chicago has a new amazing outdoor pavilion that seats 7500 and faces away from the skyline…out into the beautiful lake, so the sound just floats along each and every fan and than…out to the waves…Saw RUSH there recently last year and they sounded amazing, like climbing in a wonderful time machine.

    Iv met and talked to you many times since 1990 and in 2006 you grabbed my wife Laura outside the Park West in hot steamy August at , like 1-2am and took some pix, you were in a great mood, it was a perfect show and you kept on looking at me and asked if you knew me , and I replied yes…and that we met and talked over 10 times and you laughed and asked if you were nice to me and I said…”of course NOT” and you laughed , squeezed my wife for another picture and we all laughed and talked some more. I am a Chameleon, every time someone meets and sees me…I look different the next time we meet. Its my disguise I guess…the ability to blend in…like a symbiontic being.

    Dazza

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    Cocoamo | 16 February 2012 at 6:45 am #

    Some of my favorite renditions of man’s quest for the magic bullet (both quite suitable for children as well)…

    Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (the totally campy BBC series, not the movie or book)- Searching for the answer to life, the universe, and everything,

    and PI

    http://www.amazon.com/Pi/dp/B001DLWF8U/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1329338325&sr=8-1

    Your Friend in Pennsylvania
    (Now in Cocoa Beach)

    p.s. – So nice you found a place with a view, from a fellow view freak.

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    * | 16 February 2012 at 8:15 am #

    when i am full of dread
    i see the lacking humanity scratching at the thin veneer of civility,
    overhear envy leaking from the hearts of supposed friends
    feel desolation and apathy rising under my feet
    and smell the waste of superficiality
    the stale taste on my lips a reflection of the dark world i inhabit
    the one i choose to feed

  8. avatar
    princey | 16 February 2012 at 8:19 am #

    Like it sk….are you sitting there in your new studio with that peep hole to the glorious views of Bondi?, lucky you 🙂

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    Cocoamo | 16 February 2012 at 8:30 am #

    Sorry to post twice, but reading my 3rd Tesla book (Wizard, The Life and Times of Nikola Tesla, Biography of a Genius), I came upon quite a quote from him:

    “We are whirling through endless space, with an inconceivable speed. All around us, everything is spinning, everything is moving, everywhere is energy. There must be some way of availing ourselves of this energy directly. Then, with the light obtained through the medium, with the power derived from it, with every form of energy obtained without effort, from stores forever inexhaustible, humanity will advance with giant strides. The mere contemplation of these magnificent possibilities expands our minds, strengthens our hopes, and fills our hearts with supreme delight.”

    He then went on to accomplish extraordinary things with electricity.

    He believed everything was determined by resonance. That is what we feel in your music. Somehow you have tapped into the source.

    Your Friend in Pennsylvania
    (Now in Cocoa Beach)

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      thetimebeing | 16 February 2012 at 4:03 pm #

      thanks m!

      • nina
        That Lady | 16 February 2012 at 6:50 pm #

        this truth has a beautiful resonance….. love the quote… love your work sk…. the answer is 42
        <3

  10. avatar
    Michel | 16 February 2012 at 5:31 pm #

    The final axiom…
    Our lives may only be the souvenirs of other living persons.
    (Jules Supervielle – L’enfant de la haute mer)
    Sorry I don’t know the exact english title for that book.

  11. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 February 2012 at 9:31 pm #

    Got any stories about recording Seance, guy?

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    Wilfred Paradise | 16 February 2012 at 10:30 pm #

    Steve – there is no end to it all. it only gets better. keep on. and enjoy. WP

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    DavidP | 16 February 2012 at 11:52 pm #

    the one liner theory of everything?
    Positive + Negative gives birth to Neutral
    As Above, so below
    how about this one from the ancient esoteric Christian text The Book of Thomas the Contender in the Nag Hammadi Library, when Jesus says:
    “For he who has not known himself, has known nothing, but he who has known himself has at the same time already achieved knowledge about the depth of the all.”
    I was reading this article today and found it very interesting and relevant to your question
    http://www.belzebuub.com/articles/the-process-of-creation-in-the-universe-and-enlightenment

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      brokentoysandheros | 17 February 2012 at 5:46 pm #

      This is just a joke so chill folks…

      Jesus also said : “Okay,Okay ….jokes over guys , someone get a ladder and a hammer and get me the fuck down from here up here…. I got somewhere to be……..Hello…Hello….’Fuck -now I’m pissed’ …..Alright you fucknuckles , I’m gonna be back in a couple days and it won’t be pretty….

      DJK

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      Cocoamo | 18 February 2012 at 11:54 am #

      Reminds me of a saying (I love to tell my right wing friends):

      Two wrongs don’t make a right, but three lefts do.

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        BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 18 February 2012 at 4:48 pm #

        Nice !!!

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    mattyc | 17 February 2012 at 3:19 am #

    “and we sped towards the end”

    It’s a funny race isn’t it?
    No-one ever told us that we were racing at all.
    Many advised the path to take, but we fucked it up and got lost anyway.
    Don’t even know if the guy in front of us is winning or losing.
    And the finish line?…
    I’ll keep running ‘though I’m feeling a bit winded…
    hope it’s all downhill.

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    jaime r.... | 17 February 2012 at 11:04 am #

    Nice SK,
    Eyes blinking at the stars is sometimes all we ares.. Congrats on the new digs.. Wishing yu peace and a quiet mind.. Ive got a nasty brew compilation w Isi2 n Gb3 scary how timeless your music is.. Its good to be in the garden.. Rock ur Bliss n yu cant miss.. :)aime

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    Kristina | 17 February 2012 at 11:36 am #

    Gee this singer (from New York band, A Place to Bury Strangers) sounds like you, Steve…

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p9XUEb_ZZis

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 18 February 2012 at 9:40 am #

      Hi Kristina,
      I have mentioned them on this site B4. I own all their music and I have seen them perform and met Oliver and discussed our beloved moderator, Oliver is a fan. They really remind me of a iconic Chicago band that I grew up with and are friends with, Ministry ( at least their wall of sound concept) and in concert, Oliver even sounds a whole lot more like SK. They are a nice solid band on the rise, and it doesn’t hurt that they have a crossover to the wonderful world of KILBEY…

      take Kristinas advice everyone and search it out, she is spot on and it may become a new band for some of you to enjoy.

      Dazza

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        Kristina | 19 February 2012 at 7:25 pm #

        Yeah Dazza, they’re great aren’t they ! Good to see them back again with some new stuff – the title track,”Onwards to the Wall” is a standout.
        They sound a lot like Jesus & Mary Chain at times but Oliver also sounds uncannily like Steve in the early Church days at others.
        Interesting to hear he’s a fan.

        But are you a fan of his, Steve?

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          BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 20 February 2012 at 10:11 am #

          I hope he is, or will take a heartfelt spin of these young chaps…it may be difficult for some to get around the whole ‘wall of sound’ concept that they excel in…

          I spell my 4yr olds name the same way…so ya must be special too…

          Dazza

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    Anonymous | 17 February 2012 at 4:03 pm #

    Memories of those childhood days. I loved swinging from the branches of the willow trees, ah to go back to those carefree times, if only…..

    Wish u had of been at the Sando lassa nite, would have nearly had all the Church playing. MWP was in fine form (must have been his peppermint tea, only herbal). U might have to up the ante in the comedic stakes, he was coming out with some good lines, but think you’re still winning on the laughter meter. If u both get tired of playing would love to c a comedy duo act. When TP came back upstairs he said to Marty the guy downstairs is playing Under the Milky Way, wonder if he knew half the Church was playing in a room above him. Hope u can arrange a SK vs MWP gig again, probably be more banter than playing, but who cares, the crowd would be pleased either way.

    Hope your new home is giving out good healing energy, and full of good vibes. Happy new beginnings in your new abode.

    Have a happy weekend.

    Peace & love
    Therese

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      Narelle | 18 February 2012 at 12:45 am #

      Hello Therese
      How good was the concert last night!! Been a long, long time since I’ve been to a show that was so relaxed…must of been way past 12 when it finished. Marty is just so interesting…knowledge of music…and the humour…priceless
      have you heard the new CD yet? its brilliant…every track…’the new scientist’ reminds me of bands like The Crusaders and Spyro Gyra…excellenta
      can’t find the tour site on youtube (it is there) so I have a question…can you remember the two artists that Marty recommended…Bonnie? and the other name/s starts with the letter F
      cheers
      Narelle

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    Galamor the Wizard | 18 February 2012 at 1:37 pm #

    Steve,
    When is Life Somewhere Else coming out?

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    hellbound heart | 18 February 2012 at 7:50 pm #

    hi-dee-ho steve…….gotta copy of the Hammock cd comin’ on the mail for me and man, am i stoked…..
    love always…..


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