posted on April 16, 2010 at 12:16 am

sitting backstage in chicago
waiting to go on at 8ish sharp
park west baby
oh yeah nice venue
we drive up from madison
madison turned out nice
nice gig
drive up
stop at starbux
soy latte soy oats soy smoothie
balmy weather
warm weather
we drift along
discussing this n that
fly along the road
hit traffic in chicago go slow
here we are
feeling a bit numb
feeling a bit dumb
feeling like some thing
i sing i play i try to remember the words
i old and tired too
so old and tired too
remember no spring chicken
no dolt in his prime
an old geezer pushing himself on the endless road
in a room with no windows
air conditioning pumps too remorseless
in the darkness where i freeze n dream
shuddering under crispy sheets
and plumpy pillows
i wriggle as i dream of my other lives
suntanned against white sheets
freckled and faded
deep in some night alone
at the presents clocklface
at the very very edge of time
confused reluctant
regrets i hadda few
oh columbus
oh vienna
this means nuffink to me
down by the river
i shot by maybe
i hurtle hopelessly onwards towards my death
everyday i die a little more
everyday i cry a little more
pick up my guitar
n play
just like yessaday
i get on my knees and prey
people assail me with their ideas
shake your hand
hand your shake
i dunno
im a stupid fucking singer
i make up words
i make up musics
i drive around from town to town
on the edge of everytown
i everyman
i more than most in the least
i travel in your mind
alone in your head n you cant get in
ok i gotta stop
i gotta entertain em
i gotta sing
i gotta go

33 Responses to “8ish sharp”

  1. avatar
    JJ | 16 April 2010 at 1:52 am #

    I'm traveling the same inevitable road, hurtling towards……no safety or surprise, The End. We wait for you, though; in every town. The music compels us. No one else surviving does quite what you do. A siren song for lost souls. Hope your dreamscapes are not plagued by heartaches, rest up and wake the City On the Lake….Tonight, Tonight.

    Waiting down South for the Caravan to arrive May 1; Dark's Pandemonium Circus pulls into town. Anticipating.


  2. avatar
    David Connell | 16 April 2010 at 2:28 am #

    Drove 2 hours to see you in Madison and it was worth every second. I hope you realize how much your fans appreciate everything you guys do. What other band on the planet would give out a CD and a program at their shows, let alone stay together for 30 years and continue to make challenging and quality music all without huge financial success? The setlist you guys picked on this tour was simply stunning as well. I never ever thought I would hear you play "Comedown", "My Little Problem", or "Already Yesterday". Thank you as always for keeping it together for your small buy loyal fans. You never packed stadiums or sold millions of records, but your music is a very personal experience. It isn't for the masses. It is life changing music that means the world to the people who fall under its spell. Thanks again Steve and don't ever forget what your art means to the lucky people who fell in love with it. I bet "Disarm" will slay them in Chicago tonight!!

  3. avatar
    I love you..who are you? | 16 April 2010 at 2:31 am #

    On the money Steve

    This is a strange relationship,
    but I like the taste of the holy walls you're knockin down

    In 10 years time you'll have wifi in your head and you will cyber out
    to meet us and perceive our reading sensations.

    Weird world out.

  4. avatar
    LF | 16 April 2010 at 2:42 am #

    Neither everyman nor stupid; a singer, yes.

  5. avatar
    evilren | 16 April 2010 at 2:45 am #

    nice Kilbee, I especially liked the part about freezing
    and dreaming under crisp sheets–life on the road.
    You better get back to your warm studio and work
    some pictures to sell to amend for all this. I wouldn't
    hesitate to exchange jobs with you (just saying).



  6. avatar
    Freddie | 16 April 2010 at 2:56 am #

    “i dunno
    im a stupid fucking singer”
    Yeah, so stop singing like you know s**t then. Hahaha
    Unfortunately m’ lord, that is part of the price of being adored.

    Indeed, you are getting older. We will all get old, not any one of us can escape that. Don’t feel sad about it. You make people happy with your music. And you’re taking care of yourself so you still got a lot of life in front of ya…decades baby. You’ve got daughters to wed and grandchildren to meet, songs to write and paintings to paint, places to go, people to see, things yet to learn.

    See ya in the Confederate States in about two weeks! xoxo

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 April 2010 at 3:03 am #

    for an "old geezer" you gents put on great live shows still though. long after most bands have petered out and are just shadows of what they were.

    you made an interesting statement on WRUW, the interview you did tuesday afternoon, you mentioned how the you can tell that the last album and your first are still the same band. within that framework the band has evolved, each album is different than the last. this I think is what makes a band great. the ability to do this.

    ah well, see you saturday. and probably sunday.

  8. avatar
    plumlady | 16 April 2010 at 3:22 am #

    Under The Milky Meteor
    Did you happen to see the meteor that landed in Wisconsin? Evidently only as big as a golfball once it approached earth but looked much larger (at least on my 42" tv).

    Pondering back on many past midwest shows; is it true that UTMW video was filmed at your show at the Guthrie Theatre in Minneapolis? What a great show that was…whatever year that was…my mind fails me remembering years, names, even places. So don't look in the mirror and think that you're old….your yoga has you in incredible shape and I'm thinking I better increase my practice to something a big more rigorous before rigamortis sets in.

    You look awesome and sing like a sweet bird. And Marty just rocks out like a mad man…incredible!

  9. avatar
    SEARCH EFFORT FOR CHAD RYMAN | 16 April 2010 at 3:22 am #

    Sometimes your posts echo such sadness, and often echo my thoughts of growing older, feeling alone, having regrets — but we carry on as others need us: For what variable reasons do they need us? Or do they really. Sadness comes more often of late than yesterday's carefreeness, but trying to remain strong … In case I can be of some help to someone in need. I can not help them if I am weak. Peace & love.

  10. avatar
    cazziem | 16 April 2010 at 6:08 am #

    Last nite whilst you were giggin I was enjoying an acoustic evening with an escort 18 years my junior, and I certainly didn't feel old. have to say though I came home feeling it is a crying shame that there is so much talent out there who'll never get the chance to have even five minutes of fame.

    well, never mind SK even if you do feel old, as we all do from time to time, you're half way through this stint and will soon be back with your girls and in NK's arms.

  11. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 April 2010 at 7:06 am #

    Volcano pierce the air,ashes blockout the air traffic..Northern Europe is at a standstill due to eruption on Iceland..
    Rock on

  12. avatar
    melissa | 16 April 2010 at 8:07 am #

    i just love that picture with today's bloggy, looks so cool (against the black background) 😀

    Hope you're havin fun travelling around the countryside 🙂 All those lucky folks, getting to see the best band in the world 😉 … sigh!

    take care SK! xx

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 April 2010 at 9:17 am #

    Thanks for keeping us up to date, love that we can read & c u.

    You must be getting tired and homesick but you're nearly half way. You've made a lot of people very happy and a lot more still to c the gigs. That would make it all worth it, and the money hopefully it's pouring in and lots of merch is being sold.

    Take care and keep on rockin all over the US.

    Peace & love

    ps lucky you're not planning on flying to/from Europe at the moment.

  14. avatar
    veleska1970 | 16 April 2010 at 11:06 am #

    don't underestimate yourself. you have made so many people happy with your wonderful music, me especially.


    lotza love…..

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 April 2010 at 11:41 am #


    Although your painting is now days younger than you are, it will always remain clean and pure.

    If you get tired, think of ole Bob, about to turn 69, and check out all the shows he's gonna play this summer, eastern europe and greece and the rest. Would hate to be the roadie in charge of getting his weed through customs, etc, etc. He would love to only be 56.

    Long live the Church (and I aint talkin about the Catholic church, no, no).

    Ah, ah. Wilfred Paradise

  16. avatar
    Richard | 16 April 2010 at 12:24 pm #

    nicely said David Connell

    though let's not give up on world domination

    it's like that Death Cab lyric:

    "a book elegantly bound
    but in a language (they) can't read
    ……just let"

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 April 2010 at 12:57 pm #

    Actually it was the Reptile video that was video taped at the Guthrie. The band was actually on stage at the time the meteor made it's entry, harolding the band's arrival back to Madtown since '88.

  18. avatar
    kurlyfry | 16 April 2010 at 1:40 pm #

    i have no poignant words, but maybe a bit of encouragement….i was at the show at park west, and it has been a hope of mine to finally see the church in concert, since i was introduced to the music many moons ago. it was indeed everything i had hoped it would be. we all age, but i am grateful for the memories we all leave behind. thank you for giving of yourself to inspire us all.

  19. avatar
    fantasticandy | 16 April 2010 at 1:45 pm #

    oh… dem olde bones still got the magic in em though eh?
    rock 'n role or bricklaying…..
    was there ever a clearer choice.
    love ya kilbey….for rollin' on down them dusty roads.

  20. avatar
    davem | 16 April 2010 at 1:57 pm #

    You look great SK. Significantly better than just 6 or 7 years ago!!

  21. avatar
    David Connell | 16 April 2010 at 2:11 pm #

    Yeah Steve, while you were thrilling us in Madison, this happened at around 10:15pm:

  22. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 16 April 2010 at 2:11 pm #

    A short but very laudable article in Timeout Chicago recommending readers to see the venerable "The Church."

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 April 2010 at 3:49 pm #

    I saw u in Chicago, ur voice still like silk. i agreed with u , a teary eyed walk down memory lane. The songs made youthful memories rush back, dates that never quite went anywhere, all the apartments i rented playing Starfish while moving furniture. Metropolis reminded me of the first meeting with my husband. I think i played this "tape" nonstop in his car without a complaint from him. Thanks for the memories. I love the band. Please return to Chicago soon.

  24. avatar
    m.p.k | 16 April 2010 at 4:03 pm #

    SK… you may be feeling old but you sound better than ever before -much better than when you were younger in my opinion. I've been listening to old bootlegs and seriously –those days are better left in the past. You sound 100X better now than then in my ears. Not only that, but the Church's last decade or so has produced the best music. This tour is great as a celebration of your career but the momentum is definitely in the present!

  25. avatar
    Broken Toys and Heros | 16 April 2010 at 4:34 pm #

    Well SK I hope Chicago was as an enjoyable experience for you as it was for the countless fans who were greatly entertained by an incredible performance by The Church last night (for the Park West-the place was packed).
    It never ceases to amaze me how the four of you can play so seamlessly together. The humor and ironic banter between songs left the audience in awe and wanting more. They were very quiet as you spoke to us between songs because most attendees of concerts never experience a band that CHOSES to interact with them. I overheard so many people at intermission and at the end of the show that were so swept away by the performance that they can only have wished for it to continue. I could not even count the standing ovations that were filling the atmosphere (4 I do believe ???)

    That was what I was so hoping for. Our love as fans for everything that you and the guys have created over these 30+ years – energized in appreciation that we can emit back to you. Peter, Marty and Tiare, along with Tim spent some time after the show in the lobby area with us, remembering so many great tours that had Chicago as a stop along the way. I was able to take a picture of Peter along with my very close friend Ben (stealth blue from ur blog community) and he was overcome with appreciation. We missed you after the show- but we do understand that being accessible 24 hours a day is very taxing on anyone. I hope all is well… and the tour continues on a high note from the energy that Chicago radiated. I am proud of my city for that. I left a disk with pictures that my 18 year-old son Alex took at the House Of Blues show last June09 with Tiare. Some of the shots are very good and couple of the pictures taken of Peter make him appear that he is glowing amongst us. I really love the picture of you softly crooning us with unabated emotion and also of the ones where you are tearing it up on you bass which you were so born to play.

    Enjoy Friday off and rock Cleveland into the ground saturday night. We all will be waiting here patiently for your return to our windy (and very warm lately)city. and I will remember to get the band some chocolate- seeing that is a commodity that was once treacherously stolen from your grasp (those little bastards !!!)

    Concert Review (Spoiler Alert) :

    Very simply…the greatest band on this earth-once again showing why in a performance that easily makes you forget all other past tours and you live in the moment with there brilliance warming your senses, engulfing your person and making you once again realize why you came to love them so dearly many years ago or just yesterday…and can only wish for every such performance to never end. I will not singly praise each song, multiple encores, or the humerous exploits of the evening-I only can hope that everyone who is preparing for their next show(s) will bask in the perfection that is:

    THE CHURCH !!!

    Darrin K.
    Broken Toys and Heros

  26. avatar
    m.p.k | 16 April 2010 at 5:16 pm #

    i remember my dad about your age… he kept saying "i'm getting old". that was back in the 80's and the geeezer is still kickin' it in his 80's. he's still doing all the same stuff. he never talks about being old anymore. just a phase sk? who knows what old is anymore? 100?

  27. avatar
    Mr. Argent | 16 April 2010 at 5:22 pm #

    You have exhibited to many how to be authentic and true to their métier. Do feel proud.

    Let the restless spirit out and it always comes home with new ideas.

    Your music is there for us every day, on demand. We are grateful.

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 April 2010 at 9:29 pm #

    It could be worse, you could have the carrer and musical skills of Echo And The Bunnymen. 🙂

    May the travels you take and road you pave be smoooooth.

  29. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 16 April 2010 at 9:52 pm #

    ….feeling a little homesick? i think so…..
    we all be travelling the same road, sirrah, we all got the same destination waiting for us, but ah, what a journey…..what's on the other side?
    <3 love always………

  30. avatar
    Yo Devil Squirrel | 16 April 2010 at 9:56 pm #

    Do you spell check or do you just
    know the way of all words.
    I've never seen a mistake.

    Can't stop thinking about your road metaphors, realities and their
    depiction back to us (your collective reflective id) via yet another lonely internet highway.

    It's all so mind boggling really.

    I bet I've even spelled squirrel wrong…

  31. avatar
    merveilleuse | 16 April 2010 at 10:47 pm #

    never without hope.

    see you in Charlotte.

  32. avatar
    princey | 17 April 2010 at 1:35 am #

    Hi sk, thanks for the backstage blogs, quick and to the point! (except for the "death" bits). "Oh Viienna, this means nuffink to me" haha that made me laugh! you always pick on poor Midget Ure haha
    I'm with Melissa a bout the pic, its really cool maaan (hi Melissa:)
    What a bout a little vid on your day off, to feed us hungry fiendssss hmmm?
    Take care over there,
    love Manda

  33. avatar
    Saint Louie | 18 April 2010 at 9:44 am #

    Thanks for comin to Chicago Steve'o n Churchy's, & The Church Heads!

    Hey, my Girlfriends favorite band is Type O Negative (don't know why and don't ask why? But she's lovin' you guys the more i play you 🙂

    But the lead singer died from Type O (Peter Steele)…we went out and got ripped, but regretfully i could not make it to this Church show or any other! We put you on the jukebox though and won a trivia game (long story).

    I consultated her and we drank n drank n drank with friends…drank ourselves silly. So guys, if you can, sing a song for Peter Steele, the lead singer of Type O Negative if you can? I actually met him and he was a very good soul n guy!

    If not, just keep singin!!!! All is right with the World since The Church are still on stage and rockin, like a drive through window, just drive up to the window and grab yourself a new regimen, huh? Life is wierd n never knows what it's gonnna throw at you so enjoy the BLAST while it last. You'll never fade because your in the minds n ears of us fiends!

    Cheers, n thanks for Rockin in the USA!!!!!

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