posted on February 17, 2009 at 7:46 pm

wake up early kilbey
youre flying off to perth wa
tonite night off
tomorrow rehearsal
fri sat sun triffids outdoor perth festival
right now sitting here in n bondi
surrounded by rain n darkness
it seems a long way off
some plane
some airport
some taxi
some other room
somewhere else
if i dont hold my mind down
it floats off
off n away specially on mornings like this
while the rest of the family sleep on
the kids dream dream dream
the rain goes tap tap tap
the wind goes ooooh rattle ooooooh rattle
the cars in the street go whoosh
the ringing in my ears goes zzznnnnnngggg
my old heart goes thump thump thump (dont stop yet)
my stomach goes groan flying groan
the clock tick tick but never tock
my mind goes silent
the constant stream of ideas is turned off
i experience the silence
my mind goes blank
but what do i think of during the blankness…?
small parts of me go on calculating n plotting
somewhere in here
in my mind bigger than the universe
in my mind which can imagine infinitely
in my tiny closed grumpy mind
so small it cannot admit even one more outside idea
my small mind my big mouth my stupid smirk
my blah blah blah
my bits of blu tac
my bits of paper
my meridians of pastel dust
my empty plastic bottles
my empty cans
my old lolly wrappers
my stupid bag of dope
my nasty olde coff
my constant anxiety
my messed up messy mess of a room
the city skyline has disappeared into a fog
the clouds swallow up sydney
and frankly
who cares
the sharks bite
the crooks crime
the hoods from the hoods in their hoods…no robin hoods
the tedious lumpen proletariat chasing one thing after another
the recession which is king out there
the planet starting to rebel
the morning starting to arrive
a soft grey light suffuses my room
some hoarse crow barks outside my window
my feet are cold so cold at the end of time
i hear noises of humans getting up
winter around the corner now
the streets are not inviting
bizness men get up feeling sick drinking cawfee
numbly button up their suits
drive to work
and each gasp on the cig
jangles yer nerves and fouls yer breath
you arrive at yer job
a beencounter in a widget and sprocket company
shuttup kilbey somebody has to count the widgets
ok ok
i just an imagining it after owl
mr widget fidgets at his pesky desk
the quick brown sprocket jumps over the lazy plug
the figures sway back n fourth on his screen
his new cup of cawfee says drinka me
his new cream cheeese bagel says eata me
his next cig says smoka me
he stands in the rain in the big end of town
look i’ll play the part myself
i’m standing there
(looking handsome in my suit, if i may fairly say so)
i’m standing there
you saw me standing there smoking my bagel etc
down in the doorway with the other smokers
if i smoke 20 a day at ten minutes each
why theres 200 mintes gone…just like that
plus walking up n down the stairs
plus the cigs n cawfee make me weee like the billy-o
plus going out to buy more cigs n bagels
its a wonder i been counting any widgets at all
i sit back at my desk
my buddy sends me a message on face book
gee…i read it for a while
until i need another cig
the boss tells me to come in his office
uh oh
we only need to count half as many widgets cos
uh the depress…i mean the recession..
but the govts injecting 3 billion into widgets so
(gee i hope they hit the vein!)
and ah…i need another cawfee n cig now
i need to calm down
half as many widgets as before….hmmmm
can i do that ? i wonder as i loll in the doorway
making insolent faces at the passersbys
and blowing smoke rings into the ether…
illusion shattered
the kids all suddenly get up
last night scarlet and i went outside
ooh what a dark day she said
ha ha
now they tumble out of bed laughing n talking
the woofle clutches a balloon that seems like it may burst anytime
the doodles got their own thing going on
gee i’m lucky i aint that widget guy
(that suit tho…it was quite bee coming)
i just gotta getta onna plane to ye olde perth
at the ends of the earth
4 hours to fly
i wonder if other triffideers from sydney will be on that flight
youth group?
mel o?
i’m gonna get my lapp top out n write some stuff i sposed to do
the new church album must be coming down the line soon
youll be glad i aint a widget counter
you be glad i a singer
you be glad i so good wiff words
you be glad i aint gotta suit
you be glad i aint gotta jobbie
you be glad i sing the body alektryk
you be glad i anticipated all your dreams
and put them in these songs
listen to em n weep
weep cos ya love those damned songs so much
weep cos we all gonna die
weep cos the pollens making yer hey fever play up
weep cos kilbey is at the top of his game n climbing
up n up n up
into the sky
the indian rope trick
i pull my ladder up after me
and i ascend into a world of dakinis and angels
up there
i am finally ‘preciated
(present company accepted…i know you depreciate me)
and my every little whim is catered for
trouble is
i am now such an ascetic aesthete
(look those words up if you dont know em)
i am practically whimless….
but whimming……errr….no
there were some important things i needed to say
there were some imperfect things
there were some foolish things
these foolish things remind me of you
i take me leaves
n bid you all frond a dew
as i take to the thin air
in a very heavy machine
god i hope i can believe in it
see you in the west


33 Responses to “a dark day”

  1. avatar
    restaurant mark | 17 February 2009 at 9:22 pm #

    have a good flight and a great show steve…
    take care

  2. avatar
    Freddie | 17 February 2009 at 9:32 pm #

    Have a safe journey Sir Steven.

    I’m sure glad you’re not a widget counter.

  3. avatar
    the dean | 17 February 2009 at 9:42 pm #

    just downloaded ‘pangaea’ from itoons. very dreamy. fellow worker turns around says ‘is that the church?’ ay it be.

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    princey | 17 February 2009 at 9:47 pm #

    Goodbye, goodluck, goodgigging, goodgod I hope the flight’s smooth’n’bumpless all the way (of course it will be ok sk!)

    Look forward to blogs from the west,
    Give your (genius) mind and voice a rest,
    You know we fiends think you’re the best!
    (my lame poem for the day:)
    luv Amanda

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    Hellbound Heart | 17 February 2009 at 9:51 pm #

    ….got up at god knows what time this morning to have a colleague meeting and raced like a blue assed fly to get to work early….only to find that the person who was holding the meeting was coming to school late……GGGGRRRRRRR!!
    tell ya what, they don’t make widgets like they used to, do they……somebody oughtta lodge a complaint to the appropriate authorities…..
    love always…….

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    jax | 17 February 2009 at 9:56 pm #

    good luck killa on the west coast of your little island.. I was listening to Stolen Property this weekend -what a masterpiece.. fly safe**

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    veleska1970 | 17 February 2009 at 10:09 pm #

    have a safe flight, steve.

    lotza love…..

  8. avatar
    iseult | 17 February 2009 at 10:27 pm #

    bon bon voyage

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    esne snoner | 17 February 2009 at 11:13 pm #

    happy tripping mr bizness man – didn’t see it myself but i was told reliably that triffids fronted by kilbee supporting mr cohen was a treat and a real fine tribute to david m – they’ll love you for it in their home town – enjoy i say

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    Anonymous | 17 February 2009 at 11:13 pm #

    does that clock go “cuckoo”,or “dong”,or does it have a rickenbacker chime?:) xo if it had a cowbell,itd go “tock”!;D haha,

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    EDD | 17 February 2009 at 11:32 pm #

    Go on down there and take a look…you’ll probably find an AC/DC CD(HA). That happened in my apt. complex. The landlord just left all the stuff strown around the dumpster. I love apt. living!!!!!

  12. avatar
    Queen Hatshepsut | 17 February 2009 at 11:42 pm #

    Wow. Every day you amaze me more.
    “my constant anxiety”

    Yes, I can relate to this.
    It is raining cats and dogs here in L.A. too. It was actually hailing a little while ago where I was working. But alas, tis to be expected as we are truly in the dark days and months of winter. Whatever winter Southern California can muster up.
    It’s enough for me.
    Good luck to you…in the west.
    somewhere up there

  13. avatar
    fantasticandy | 18 February 2009 at 12:33 am #

    can we interact with each other again please steve?
    this moderation thingy really bugs me…………
    good flying and great gigs olde boy!

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  15. avatar
    melissa | 18 February 2009 at 1:16 am #

    ‘if i dont hold my mind down
    it floats off’

    .. ha! I love that πŸ™‚ I’m off in la-la land most of the time myself.

    Hope you arrive in Perth safe and sound ~ and that the Triffid’s shows are a great success over in the wild west (I have no doubt they will be πŸ˜‰ )

    All the best SK!


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    Anonymous | 18 February 2009 at 1:50 am #

    m home pusskhatt!!!hee hee,lucky ye can not actually let this one go through onto the comments,huh…hee hee…i lurve yoo,handsome steven jonny killerbeamer,lurve,yer lima bean monkey,with GORGEOUS hair darlinge!!dibbee turned out to be a seven foot giant called jordan…haha,he made me look smashingly gorgeous too,{apparently,;)}xoxoxoxoxohope yer flight was a pleasant pheasant,with good company,n all.vaccuum cleaners suck,n gravity pulls.;D xoxoxo n turbine jet engines keep yer do gliding aerodynamic wings…just aask the sugar gliders.maybe planes would be more aerodynamic if they had fur!!haha…shhhh…caffeinatered.xo

  17. avatar
    Damien | 18 February 2009 at 2:58 am #

    Would you care to come around to my place for dinner when you get to Perth tonight, Steve?

  18. avatar
    jaime r...... | 18 February 2009 at 4:03 am #

    Hey Killah,
    Nice happenstance for all that matters
    the songs is like a manta ray over sky,,
    these gifts are worth bold gold… sendin some love as usual..
    Excited to say the least….

    ask Marty for some Sea and Cake.. hes got a whole data disc I gave him.. tell him to pass it on… you will dig these guys royalle styley..

    Nice writing… Some of the details are so vivid and captivating.. I cant wait to blend and shriek with the Time being…
    btw whimlessness is overrated.. as a function or disfunction…??? heck playing with Scarlet is soul food… indulge

    take care Sk..

    jaime r……

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    eek | 18 February 2009 at 5:30 am #

    You would look mighty good in a suit, but I’m so glad you didn’t take that path.

    I imagine your hypothetical fellow employees are glad you didn’t take that path either! πŸ˜‰

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    stealthblue | 18 February 2009 at 6:15 am #

    Hiya, Steve. Just thought I’d check in and say howdy. Had to get my dose and catch up a bit. Nice to know yer out-n-about.

    Yeah, that whole fire bug thing is really devastating, made me very sad…like a lot of other things in the world I guess. I’m just trying to keep it all in check…this planet and all of us animals. Thank God there’s still some goodness to cling to. Have to keep open to it. Just seems like the gates of hell are swung wide open lately, eh? Gotta keep deflecting I reckon.

    Well, in all sincerity, here’s hopin’ all is well with you, the fam, and the other rockers. Happy, safe, and rewarding travels to you, dear friend. Hope to catch you on the road again when the time comes…

    With white light,
    Ben V.

  21. avatar
    daydreamer | 18 February 2009 at 6:26 am #

    Good morning, SK! Good luck with everything. I’m going to bed now.


  22. avatar
    eek | 18 February 2009 at 7:55 am #

    Pangaea is lovely. πŸ™‚

  23. avatar
    Leelinau | 18 February 2009 at 8:39 am #

    I just heard a very decent version of Reptile done by the Smashing Pumpkins. Dunno when it was or anything, but damb, they got your shit DOWN!

    His vocals were a smidge hard to hear, but still….


  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 February 2009 at 11:48 am #

    Hope you had a good flight, must have a few Frequent Flyer points.

    Looking forward to the new Church album sure it will be one of my fave.

    Good luck with the concerts,lucky Perthites. (Hope they are filming some of them.)

    Peace & love

  25. avatar
    catchow | 18 February 2009 at 12:32 pm #

    fine and funny description of your early morning!
    SK…a widget counter?!!!!could it be???…what a waste for all of us!
    i like much better “you anticipe
    our(your?) dreams and put them in
    your (fabulous )songs”!
    SK…an aesthete? sure! but …
    Have a lot of good days in music
    for perth festival…wish i could
    see you in the west…

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    matthew | 18 February 2009 at 3:36 pm #

    Hahaha, funny reading SK!! …But actually I already recall you in a rather dapper suit in Sydney, Selina’s – GAF tour if I remember correctly. It was raining a lot.

    Anyhoo – by way of shameless self promotion (shaman-less self preservation?) (Widget-counters’ association-less bagel approval?) whatever… my own expansive online excursion: “Songs In Blue In Green”, shall also be coming down the line soon… by way of iTunes, emusic and Amazon MP3.

    Ok, obsequiously curtseying my way outta here….. my very best in WA.

  27. avatar
    matthew | 18 February 2009 at 3:42 pm #

    PS Steve, I’m with Andy – the individual comment approval thing is a bit tiresome… hopefully there’s a better way? Cheers anyway.

  28. avatar
    persephone2u | 18 February 2009 at 4:07 pm #

    Have a safe flight and good luck with the shows!

  29. avatar
    davem | 18 February 2009 at 7:15 pm #

    Safe flight SK. We all know how much you love the old air travel.
    There aren’t many days I don’t give thanks for you. Today is no exception…you make my life better.

  30. avatar
    captain mission | 18 February 2009 at 9:32 pm #

    travel well killer

  31. avatar
    steve kilbey | 18 February 2009 at 9:44 pm #

    i hate the comment approval
    but im not having that idiot back

  32. avatar
    princey | 18 February 2009 at 10:12 pm #

    OH,now we have to get used to the time difference in Perth…sheeesh!
    Better late than never tho:)
    love Amanda
    P.S. If it keeps the scum away, author approval is fine by me :))))

  33. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 February 2009 at 11:10 pm #

    i do like the damned’s songs.

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