posted on September 13, 2008 at 8:43 pm

sitting here right now a very happy olde space rocker
ya see
i always wanted to make this music
the big music
the music without boundaries
the blazing incandescent screaming sighing formless racket
i hear it in my head
ebbing and flowing as natural as nature
organic music electronic music guitar music
oh i know what an electric guitar is capable of
oh i know how a bass changing in the nether regions of music
moving thru the depths like a plesiosaur
i know how drums can pound the rhythm to yer brain
i know a voice singing the right words
i know where those words can send ya
and i’m beginning to realise
and im beginning to see the light
we put a band together to do the gig
tim had the incredible idea of the band
hanging together a few days longer
and making an album in the spirit of painkiller
ya see
and ya can go back n check my blogs from may 007
this record was done fast
yes fast and so full of love
most beds recorded in one afternoon
polished off with about a weeks overdubs
its quicker and easier when you play everything yerself
no arguments no explanations
no nothin’
just you and yer axe or mellotron or whatever
tim amazing on drums n technical side
sent it to polinski
he did his thing
he inserted his” hesius dome” trip (check them out)
and voila
we have built and improved upon this formula
gathering together
the crew of ss painkiller
have recorded some music of rare beauty and brilliance
the beds are down ie the backing tracks are ready
oh this is beautiful stuff
look…i am good on my own
i can play all the instruments (cept drums)
but the real joy in music comes from 6 people
all extremely different
bending their minds towards a common objective
a tall order…maybe…but thats our goal
and heres what you need
music which is not stiff or locked into song structure
music which can scream and roar
music which can hover and caress
music which can brutalize and crush
music which can soothe and unite
music that sends you baby
sends you to that other place
yea creature the other fucking place
you only get there thru drugs sex magic death
ah ha
now i now you read my blog searching for that other place
you listen to my music
because i have dedicated my life to ferrying people across
my whole everything is to reach that lovely lonely shore
where things are sweet and holy (etc)
and in the last few days
me and the others
have certainly been building sonic bridges
to that distant shore
where music breaks free of its bounds
and it explodes the way you always hoped it would
when you cant tell n dont care whats playing what
all the instruments
a pulsing bass
a pounding drums
a lonesome slide
a looped and looping guitar
radios appear…the random improbable music in the static
polinski filters it through his delerious vision
adds other stuff in
wow im so high from playing this stuff
we should do a songy song someone says
i yell out some random chords
of course it works
everything works
the music is structurally simple
it drones and reiterates itself
and it builds it changes it crashes it subsides
everyone played great
we got it in the can
boy i hope this band plays again
cos we are ready to already be the best
oh this is very sublime stuff
my favourite type of music
wild free and timeless
long or short
instinctive music
savage music
its not hard to play
its not easy either
you gotta love it
put yer ego aside
feel the joy of being part of a machine
painkiller the record touches on this
now the band is combining electric electronic
organic found sound
indian strings maintain tension
the distorted guitars burst into white light
the bass suddenly accelerates as the drums pick up
something comes in on the radios
a fragment of a song is captured
it bends into our song
becomes part of our song
the instruments all keep shifting against each other
forming brief alliances before shattering into disparate atoms
still the music hammers home its point
and this is where
when the music starts to hammer home its point
that the sex and magic and drugs come back in
because there is some orgasmic thrill of riding a wave
an oceanic wave
or a short wave
or a synaptic wave
or a musical tidal wave of intent
hurling the players before it with inevitable momentum
free of all constraints at last
no history
no future
no he said we should do thats
we just jammed
and the gods of music
and apollo himself
smiled favourably on our endeavours
seismic rocking shimmerbursts shibbolethic bam boom bim
wacka thwacka crash burn bang
oh oh
and up she rises
wo wo wo wo wo wo
a siren wails on a lonesome prairie
we ride across a sonic desert
wondering at the ambient stars
twinkling like little cymbals
we pick up moments
examine them
cast them aside
clip clop clip clop
a firestorm appears swallowing us up
we are spat out on the info super hi way
cruising and destroying
eating up the miles
hauling ass down a black corridor
i dont know
what do i know
its naive hopeful music
its optimystic
go ahead make my day music
get down on yer knees music
gotta backbeat you cant lose it
blah blah blah
im sure you get the picture …right
maybe i’m deluded
i dunno
thats it

40 Responses to “a deeper fix”

  1. avatar
    eek | 13 September 2008 at 10:12 pm #

    Hot Damn!

  2. avatar
    fantasticandy | 13 September 2008 at 10:37 pm #

    sounds like the kind of thing wev’e been doing lately……
    i kid you not!
    your’e so productive these days steve….
    i can’t wait to get my greasy mits on some of it.
    andy L.

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 September 2008 at 10:54 pm #

    Happy Birthday from where it is still yesterday.

    Tickets to exotic states of mind, destinations handwritten on colored lined notebook paper, glued with shiny jems and jewels from the art supply store, and just now stuck through the gap under your front door. Big handful of them. Just now.

    I am not fully awake from a nap and dreaming about this very thing, so I pass it on to you with pleasure. In the dream someone gave them to me. Have a new year full of everything. Especially love.

    syrinx (the sleepy)

  4. avatar
    veleska1970 | 13 September 2008 at 11:32 pm #

    belated happy birthday, steve. here’s to 54 more!!

    lotza love…..

  5. avatar
    the dean | 13 September 2008 at 11:33 pm #

    listening to the last piece on painkiller as the twilight faded into night – the sublime low rumble, organic bulging bloops and growls, whale like and subterrainian, distant thunder and rain on the roof.

    For those who read this blog and haven’t got hold of a copy of painkiller, you are the deluded ones.

  6. avatar
    flyingbird | 13 September 2008 at 11:58 pm #

    My painkiller is still on its way, can’t wait… but I’m also enjoying the time waiting for it, the feeling is just so Sweetly bitter.

    Thank you Steve for a completely intoxicating read, what a good way to start a sunny sunday!

    (I Need a video of the whole gig as other fans do. Please make it happen as soon as possible.)

  7. avatar
    linjo | 14 September 2008 at 12:31 am #

    Oh Steve thats such a truly inspirational read. To be able to do what you truly love in life, I am glad you are happy with your lot. Cant imagine someone of your temperament ever being the ‘man in the suit’. I have just walked out on my pissy little coffee shop job after 18 months of suffering the ego’s of small town, done nothing, been nowhere hicks with bad grammar hitting their power play buttons, so pathetic. I am going back to aged care soon and plan to continue my studies in this area. At least I can bring light into someone’s life, a purpose for getting up in the morning. So much love you received from your true fiends yesterday!! Linda

  8. avatar
    matt davison | 14 September 2008 at 1:02 am #

    Oh Oooo!! the church are in trouble…

    Remember them>???

    Help "Iva" bring back the Icehouse

    Ps* Davvddson….Who's ya new misses?? Hmmmm

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 September 2008 at 1:24 am #

    Hope it was the happiest of birthdays with cake and candles and the whole shebang. You do seem to handles these anniversaries well, old chap. I’ve put another run on the board myself this week…time does fly, no?

    Best wishes,


  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 September 2008 at 1:41 am #

    u sell it well bud!! looking forward to hearing it

  11. avatar
    linjo | 14 September 2008 at 1:47 am #

    ps: Can you buy Painkiller without a credit card?

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 September 2008 at 1:52 am #

    give to us sk give it straight or not ,


  13. avatar
    eek | 14 September 2008 at 2:06 am #

    linjo — yes, you can pay Karmic Hit with a money order. The payment options screen is towards the end of the order process, and this is where you can check the money order option. Once you check that option I believe they give you a mailing addy and all that stuff.

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 September 2008 at 3:14 am #

    Painkiller cd deserves to be No. 1.
    Where are all those reviewers for the papers, come on give it the review it deserves, spread the word. It was well worth waiting for, what an enthralling listening experience, exceeded the expectations of a great cd, it's a brilliant one. Can't wait to play it again this aft, need the daily painkiller. Hope the band plays again, if you do Melby around C'Mas, give us Sydney fiends a Chrissie to remember too. Fingers crossed.
    Half listening to Rockwiz last nite when I heard the name Steve Kilbey come up in a question – your definitely flavour of the month.
    Have a great week.

    Peace & love,

  15. avatar
    Leelinau | 14 September 2008 at 3:28 am #

    in the
    ‘sonic desert’


  16. avatar
    souqie | 14 September 2008 at 4:24 am #


    Crystalline Rush


    Every hour God sends

  17. avatar
    markobears | 14 September 2008 at 4:49 am #


  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 September 2008 at 5:33 am #

    Steve, corbu, I see YOU, and I can read your mind. I know where this is coming from and where it’s leading. YOU must understand by now that it’s simply that easy for ME to know much, much more than anyone here. YOU won’t call ME arrogant, and it would be quite like admitting Phoer to call ME delusional. Unavowed, my dark corbu . . . tsktsktsk: Frica has a new OWNER who fails to acknowledge that he can not OWN the already OWNED! Kelly on, corbu – such is life. Dig on. The borrow pit’s open for digging, treating all borrowers alike; same as the borrowers they fall under.

    MP x

    PS: Happy belated birthday. I hope someone close pulled on your ears. If not, go on . . . you superstitious superstar!

    PPS: I owe you big time. Soon, corbu . . . soon

  19. avatar
    markobears | 14 September 2008 at 5:36 am #

  20. avatar
    davem | 14 September 2008 at 6:29 am #

    Bold claims, but really exciting.
    I believe in you totally.
    At times like this it’s frustrating being stuck in blighty…the karmic hit mail-out hasn’t reached here yet!!

  21. avatar
    flyingbird | 14 September 2008 at 6:54 am #

    Thank you Souqie.

  22. avatar
    eek | 14 September 2008 at 7:03 am #

    great clips souqie. Thanks for posting them!

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 September 2008 at 7:14 am #

    😀 I have just indulged in the herbal mighty one,in honour of the SSPK-no evil .letter RRRRIPPPPP steve,x

  24. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 14 September 2008 at 7:58 am #

    OHHHHHH YYYEEEESSSSSS!!!!!!!!! sounds positively orgasmic….
    painkiller is on its way to me (i hope-it’d better be, i’ve forked out hard-earned moula)…..
    love always….

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 September 2008 at 9:02 am #

    I envy you sk. I ask you all, when was the last time you were this passionate about your occupation? For me, never.

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 September 2008 at 9:35 am #

    Be you a player or a consumer music is as essential as breathing still strung out waiting for my painkiller…

  27. avatar
    princey | 14 September 2008 at 10:39 am #

    Yeah, this is my happy high!
    Love Amanda
    (Thanx souqie for all the clips, so good to hear&see sk bendin' that bass! hot tomali!! 🙂

  28. avatar
    isolde | 14 September 2008 at 12:39 pm #

    drive me wild and set me free there’s nowhere else i’d rather be ferry me ferry me cross the sea

  29. avatar
    fantasticandy | 14 September 2008 at 12:54 pm #

    the youtube vids are great!
    but let me make something 100% clear…….
    it’s only HALF the real band…..
    so it’s only HALF the cure.
    don’t get me wrong…
    it’s still better than anyone else,
    but for me it’s only a partial fix for what ails me.
    where’s coffee hounds?

  30. avatar
    veleska1970 | 14 September 2008 at 1:39 pm #

    thanks for the uploads and links, souqie!!

  31. avatar
    kat | 14 September 2008 at 2:45 pm #

    ya, thanks souquie. cool vids!

  32. avatar
    CSTCoach | 14 September 2008 at 3:13 pm #

    yeah! you, my man, are truly amazing. it’s incredible how prolific you’ve become, in so many different forms, all at once. reminds me of all the solo albums you put out around the time of Starfish. But now you’re also doing collaborations with people like Polinski (memesis, painkiller, now this brilliant new venture), Martin Kennedy, Isidore, the EMC stuff at KH, simultaneous to new Church stuff. In each project a new aspect of your self and your vision is revealed. Incredible.

    Still waiting for my copy of Painkiller. Hope it arrives in the next couple days. Can’t….. take….. the pain….

  33. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 September 2008 at 3:59 pm #

    i feel so left behind. no painkiller…..but happy about the band recording. keep on truckin’ sk


  34. avatar
    davem | 14 September 2008 at 4:27 pm #

    I hope the painkiller pack drops soon sk.
    It isn’t long until the west mids vegan festival. It would be good if you had some postersromo leaflets etc that fiends could download and distribute at appropriate events like this one.
    I know we can do it for one-off gigs etc but it would be excellent as a general resource, so we can spread the word about your magic whilst we’re out and about.
    Also, Spiritualized gig next month. Again I’d be happy to print off a load of leaflets to leave at the gig if you could put a link for us to download either here or at your myspace page?
    We need more people to know how fucking amazing your stuff is!!

  35. avatar
    davem | 14 September 2008 at 4:30 pm #

    Sorry, I meant posters/promo….too much lentil bake and vegan wine at lunch.
    Love to all.
    And Happy Birthday to Ricky if you’re reading mate.

  36. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 14 September 2008 at 7:31 pm #

    2000 to 2008 has been Sk’s greatest era. “Acoustic and Intimate”, “Dabble”, “Isidore”,
    “After Everything Now This”, “Paralel Universe”, “Forget Yourself”, “Beside Yourself”, “Uninvited” and the to acoustic Church Cds. No comment on Painkiller until it arrives to my austere abode.

    The London Times slammed the new “Queen” CD. I prefer solo Brian May Cd’s. He’s got great tone.

  37. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 14 September 2008 at 7:50 pm #

    To me, SK’s greatest achievements are (so far):

    1. Forget Yourself
    2. Gold Afternoon Fix
    3. After Everything Now This
    4. Priest = Aura
    5. Sometime Anywhere
    6. Hologram Of Baal
    7. Uninvited, Like The Clouds
    8. Beside Yourself
    9. Dabble
    10. Starfish
    11. Isidore
    12. Remindlessness

  38. avatar
    persephone2u | 14 September 2008 at 7:51 pm #

    Just purchased Painkiller and hoping it will be a good soundtrack for my upcoming vacation! I do hope I entered my address correctly in the shipping details as the shipping page wanted a state, even though I listed the UK as the shipping destination. I just put in Middlesex even though it’s the county…and every time I write that out I giggle like a silly schoolgirl. Gotta love some of the English names.

  39. avatar
    ...being here, doing this... | 15 September 2008 at 12:16 am #

    being part
    of the
    exchange of energies
    (between creators & appreciators)
    the same as
    taking part
    in a spiritual dance
    between souls

  40. avatar
    lily was here | 15 September 2008 at 2:37 pm #

    I dont think we can even begin to fathom or imagine the beast thats about to be unleashed, unless we were in the vicinity of Oxford St last week. JLK said …not long, not long


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