posted on August 12, 2008 at 9:02 pm

all you need is a way in
a way in
a way in
the palms open
the patient vegetation
the path half stoned
the gate swings
sometimes you cant take a trick
sometimes it doesnt matter if youre good or bad
the more desperate you are……
when you start trying to force things….
when everything keeps going wrong
people misunderstand
no ones on your side
you think of the outrages and you bristle
you think of the truth and it scalds
you think of all the times….
this place.
nice weather
you grew up here
all those snakes and spiders
never got you once
the sun got you tho
got you good when you werent looking
nothing brings you pleasure anymore
its just a fight
you cant ever win now
its just…..this and that…
red tape
accounts
an appointment
take your medicine
get something fixed
you cant get what you need back there
words glide from you if you want…but so what?
its all kinda moot
a done deal
nothing personal
destiny after all
accept it all as it comes…..bah!
the rats keep running faster
nibble nibble gnaw gnaw
whats undone is undone
time and tide
lost all your letters when the ship sank
bad poker game / dead mans hand
you start to remember something
it happened a long long time ago
somehow you can still see it in your mind
did this happen to you…..?
is this a story….?
remember
youd worked hard
youd done what was asked and you were resting
and then that thought came
that burning thought arrived in your mind
the name of a city
a place you had to go
ive already done so much you moaned at it
but the name of the city was your only reply
get someone else you thought
but still just that name
no no im not going you thought …didnt you
im not going there no no
but the name was like a gong crashing in your head
it seems to appease it when
you walk to the docks
2 ships
one to your destination
another to another city altogether
joppa
at the last moment
you jump on the other ship
you pay for your ticket with your last bit of cash
you settle down in your berth
you look in the mirror
an old man
white beard sunburnt face
penetrating eyes but what do they penetrate if not yourself
it feels better now we are out at sea
the name has stopped pounding
the sea air is cool and soothing
you feel tired
you lay down and sleep
when you awake
the ship is starting to go up and down
waves fling it about on an agitated sea
the water crashes over the deck
the sailors work at the ropes
they pull in the sails
they strain at the oars
the ship sails down into a huge green chasm of water
the captain is screaming to the men through the storm
the ship is as helpless as the smallest leaf on a tree
it spins and lists and shudders
the sailors are praying and crying out
still you hide in your berth
though there is no hiding place to be had
the name of the city pounds in your brain
NINEVEH
NINEVEH
NINEVEH
finally
even you
even you
the most stubborn old fool ever
you realise
you realise how it must be
its me you scream
its me
its me
its me!
you stand on the deck
awash with water
you stare into that wild water
you stare into the grey green depths
at the white crested waves
no one tries to stop you
and you jump
the shock of the cold water
water fills your lungs
you cough and splutter
the sea swallows you down
the water is calm again
the sailors somehow save their ship and get to joppa
while you
in some stinking purgatory
some fishy darkness
you in the slime and guts
breathing as you can
eating as you can
travelling somewhere
you know
you can never escape your destiny
what must be
it seems
must be
and you were picked
chosen
selected
this task was fallen to you
the monster spits you out
on the cold sand
you have arrived

45 Responses to “abide with me”

  1. avatar
    princey | 12 August 2008 at 10:55 pm #

    Ahh to escape to Nineveh, wouldn’t that be sumthin’. One of my fave books by the one and only!
    Thanks for another beauty sk.
    Love AManda
    P.S.Thomas Thomsen of D, there’s also another video on the kk myspace site, “maybe soon”. I noticed sk is reading the lyrics off a cuecard which is a worry, I remember Frank Sinatra started doing that towards “the end”… 🙂

  2. avatar
    cita | 12 August 2008 at 11:12 pm #

    Have you ever read moby dick?

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    Richard | 13 August 2008 at 1:00 am #

    do we jump off wrong boats because we weren’t meant to be on them in the first place?

    or are we destined to jump off because we were destined to climb on board?

    on a logical level the idea that everything is pre-ordained makes perfect sense, yet to many (I imagine most) the notion that we have no control over what happens is deeply counter-intuitive

    maybe it’s essential to the grand scheme that we mistakenly believe that we can affect our destinies

    or maybe it’s just that logic is a limited tool and that, somehow, we can truly have some bearing on what happens to us

    having just made some very big decisions in my life and the life of my family (jumping from one ship to another that is slower and more stable), I hope it’s the latter

  4. avatar
    tim | 13 August 2008 at 1:01 am #

    bravo!

  5. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 13 August 2008 at 1:35 am #

    Herman Melville was the great, great, great uncle of Moby whose real name is Richard Melville Hall. Today’s blog was profoundly rooted in stark reality and profound imagery. Save me St. Martin De Porres! He’s the guy who benevolently fed mice and rats and insects because they were criaturas de Dios.

    Painkiller is turning into one of those urban legend teenage R rated movies released on Friday the 13th. I palpably sense that the Painkiller movie will be a slasher film featuring mynah birds and SK at mortal war with Vishnu trying to intervene and the soundtrack will feature “The Man Who Sold The World” “Block” and “Hummingbird”. Ted Nugent will accidentally take Acid and grill himself to death and star as ravaged carrion. A mynah bird will rescue SK before he takes his first bite but Sk will have a black-out because he drank too much at a Dudes of Neptune concert with Ronnie Wood. Sk will hide Woodie from Mick and Keef and the Woodie will kill a mynah bird and a violent animal rights activist will mistake SK for Woodie and the film will implode.

  6. avatar
    steve kilbey | 13 August 2008 at 1:39 am #

    hey brien…….
    thats crazy

  7. avatar
    Polydora | 13 August 2008 at 1:55 am #

    I surmise that I live in a co-creative universe. Free will gives me the ability to act autonomously and affect others for good or bad; and what an invaluable lesson that is! Yet, by the same token, free will has its limits, for it is also affected by the free will and actions of others. Is this not in some way a mirror of Newton’s Law of Force Pairs, or even Karma?

    I believe fate and chance meet each other at the crossroads and do a dance each and every minute of every day.

    Love the dreamy stories, Steve.

    All this reading of sailing, and sailors and fishy darkness is making me a little seasick. Off to rest my head and dream of the shore.

    g’night all.

  8. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 13 August 2008 at 4:02 am #

    Welcome to Nev City, NI(NEV)EH where all earth’s creatures will come together and sing songs of love just cos…
    The Nev Man

  9. avatar
    craig1.618 | 13 August 2008 at 4:06 am #

    i’ve been trying to comment since i got back

    but it’s been very hard to find any words

    you see….. my mother who lived with me and robin

    well…… she died august 2nd

    we had been swimming that morning and all was fine

    robin and i ran out later that afternoon

    and when we returned

    my mom was sitting under the mulberry

    she had passed away while we were gone

    it was and is the worst thing i have ever experienced

    i am just going through the motions now

    life has become a constant sadness

    they keep telling me this too will pass

    but i have a hard time believing them

    first my sister….. now my beloved mother

    she was only 58 years old

    i thought i would share this with you sk

    having lost your father

    perhaps you could understand

    how horrible this feels

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 August 2008 at 4:25 am #

    No destiny. Everything is cause and effect. You smoke, you get cancer. You practice your bass guitar and have an angelic barritone voice and are in the right place at the right time and write great songs, you make an impact on the world. Oh for many to have done that just once Steve, just once. To believe our paths are pre determined just seems wrong. Cause and effect.

  11. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 August 2008 at 4:36 am #

    hey, the green depths ain’t that bad, at least it’s quiet down there! As for being spat out onto the sand, there musta been a chick in a bikini about!hahaha There’s always a silver lining, or at least a coffin lining!!!!!!!

  12. avatar
    knot | 13 August 2008 at 4:53 am #

    indeed
    thank you my brother for being my friend

  13. avatar
    Lian | 13 August 2008 at 5:13 am #

    My deepest condolence to you, craig1.618.
    Take care of yourself, it is the best thing that you can do for your mum.

    Much love,
    Lian

  14. avatar
    linjo | 13 August 2008 at 6:16 am #

    All you can do is follow your conscience whatever and however it comes your way, what happens then.. well at least we dont have to feel guilt, which is such a heavy burden.
    Ronnie Woods supposedly drinks two bottles of vodka a day and has a new 20 year old girlfriend. Be a magnificent shag wouldnt he!! Linda

  15. avatar
    steve kilbey | 13 August 2008 at 6:55 am #

    craig
    i am saddened by your mothers passing
    deepest sympathy
    sk

  16. avatar
    Lian | 13 August 2008 at 8:28 am #

    and I’m verily touched by your words, nothing ever makes me sadder than letting him down .

    I have the exact same feeling towards my parents.

    …ah, whatsmore, you are just a perfect being.

  17. avatar
    lookey-likey, you shall not pass | 13 August 2008 at 9:04 am #

    Ronnie Wood’s 18-yr old Russian girlfriend looks like Gail Tilsley off Coronation Street!

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 August 2008 at 9:04 am #

    craig..
    trust in your heart
    you are there with her
    in all your being
    be peaceful.. it is a place you can share with all..
    blessings..
    jr…….

  19. avatar
    eek | 13 August 2008 at 9:33 am #

    Craig — I’m so sorry. My thoughts are with you.

  20. avatar
    tim | 13 August 2008 at 11:22 am #

    sorry to hear of your loss craig..my condolences to you and yours.

  21. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 13 August 2008 at 11:24 am #

    do you know what your mum would want you to do, craig? she would want you to go on and live your life to the full and to find happiness again (soon)…i feel for you, just think of making the most of the life that your mum helped to create…
    peace and love…
    ps…brien, you’re a funny bastard… 🙂

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 August 2008 at 12:50 pm #

    Yeah, goddess-worshipping Nineveh – conquered by the Assyrians and razed to the ground by the Babylonians. So much for the enlightened cultures of the East.

  23. avatar
    lily was here | 13 August 2008 at 1:01 pm #

    It was so sad to hear about your mum Craig. In time your body and mind will unpeel from the numbness and life will start to feel real again. Peace to you x

    Great blog today sk. sailing ships, old man & the sea … LOVE Ganesha and the cars too xxx

  24. avatar
    ross b | 13 August 2008 at 1:04 pm #

    and you were picked
    chosen
    selected
    this task was fallen to you

    sometimes i wonder why bother with the grande scheme of life at all if it's merely a continual circus of death and birth birth and death…it's easy for the spiritualists to talk of such things but it ain't so easy when loved ones die and accidents happen and all the rest of it..

    maybe it's about getting landed, and jus doin' yr best with what y' got.

    wishing you & all well, r.

  25. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 13 August 2008 at 2:30 pm #

    My mother’s 59. I hope she’ll live another 20 years. I wish my parents could be with me for the rest of my life. I can’t imagine life without them. You have my sympathy, Craig. I’m sure that eventually you’ll recover from your loss, even though you’ll never stop missing her. Keep her in your heart and cherish her memory.

  26. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 13 August 2008 at 2:39 pm #

    Bowie also reads from a cuecard, Amanda, although that is due to years of drug taking (whereas with Sinatra it was just old age). Hope Steve’s alright!

  27. avatar
    veleska1970 | 13 August 2008 at 3:22 pm #

    to craig~~i’m very sad for your loss. i know how it feels because i just lost my mother this past january to a massive stroke.

    hugz.

  28. avatar
    are you sure? | 13 August 2008 at 4:24 pm #

    Bowie reads from a cuecard? you mean has lyrics on a teleprompter?Due to years of drug abuse? You mean coke addiction between ’74 and ’76 has just started to affect him? How bizarre.

  29. avatar
    Cee | 13 August 2008 at 4:48 pm #

    Craig,
    So sorry about your Mom. Lovely that you all had a nice swim together; hold on to all the wonderful memories and she’ll never be too far.
    Cee

  30. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 13 August 2008 at 5:02 pm #

    Best wishes to Craig and friends and relatives of his mother who will have Eternal Life!!!!

    My Indian engineering friends love SK’s Vishnu artwork. The radiant one !

  31. avatar
    fantasticandy | 13 August 2008 at 5:08 pm #

    craig…..in a way, i envy you.
    your mon passed on in the garden of the home she shared with her loving son.
    she may have only been 58…..
    (and, god knows…steve ‘n i are nearly there ourselves.)
    but i bet she gave out oodles of love!
    my mum adored my adopted sister, despite her being very wayward and troublesome, and later fawned over her two sons too…..
    there didn’t seem to be any love left for me, she actively disliked my wife chrissy and had little to do with my two daughters.
    i lost my dad when i was 19 and mum saw me as her non-paid ‘odd-job man’.
    when i started a family of my own…
    she just disowned us….lock, stock, ‘n barrel.
    i read about her death in a local newspaper.
    i was not even invited to her funeral, she had in fact left istructions to other family members telling them not to inform me of her demise.
    my eldest daughter and i did however attend despite her wishes.
    the only part of her estate bequeathed to me in her will was a large cardboard box.
    inside was every gift, present and card chrissy, i or my girls had ever given her….all boxed and unopened….each individually wrapped in a piece of newspaper pertaining to the date the item was recieved.
    you are a lucky man craig,
    to know a mother’s love must be a wonderful thing….
    i’m sorry for your loss, it seems as though she has been taken too soon.
    the love will remain with you forever though…time will never dim it’s power.
    the pain WILL ease…after a while you will start to remember more of the good stuff!
    and start to laugh again…..
    all the very best to you craig,
    and indeed to all of you nice people out there in blogland.
    TTB AND the comments have become an essential part of the day….
    almost like an extended family……

    killer…i think it’s good that you question your motives, and your abilities too!
    you maintain your ‘edge by doing so.

    and brien…nevets ‘n woody gettin’ smashed at one of our gigs?
    ….i wish!!!!!!!!
    luv to all,
    andy L.

  32. avatar
    fantasticandy | 13 August 2008 at 5:13 pm #

    oh….
    i just checked back on what i wrote!
    family,
    family,
    family.
    but it does make a change from
    fender,
    fender,
    fender.

  33. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 13 August 2008 at 5:15 pm #

    Bowie’s drug addiction went on for much longer than that. I don’t know for how long he’s had trouble remembering his lyrics, but it’s not like it’s something that happened overnight.

  34. avatar
    craig1.618 | 13 August 2008 at 5:32 pm #

    thank you all for your kind words

    your stories and your thoughts

    craig

  35. avatar
    JAB | 13 August 2008 at 6:12 pm #

    Jesus Christ, Andy. That was an emotional nosepunch. Please don’t take this the wrong way but some people just need to have their ass kicked, alive or not.

    And to Craig, I send positive healing vibes your way.

  36. avatar
    fantasticandy | 13 August 2008 at 6:56 pm #

    hey…. that’s ok ‘jab’.
    i just wanted to say we are all gone too soon,
    but some of us leave a legacy of love…it’s not the length of time we have here that matters most….
    it’s what we do with it, how we conduct ourselves…….
    how much we give, not what we take.

  37. avatar
    JAB | 13 August 2008 at 7:11 pm #

    Couldn’t have put it better myself Andy. Prost!

  38. avatar
    davem | 13 August 2008 at 7:15 pm #

    Much love to you Craig. And I was so sad to read your story Andy, my mate.
    I'm off for a couple of weeks, but will try to check in on my hero (& all my friends on here) from time-to-time.
    I tried to e-mail jlk about the Painkiller pre-order but it bounced back at me.
    I'll just have to find a way to get on to KH next week.
    Love to all!!!
    SK – you're a genius and I love you.

    xx

  39. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 13 August 2008 at 8:28 pm #

    Andy you are vintage like wine. Many people including me would have been torn asunder if my mother treated me like that. People have an all too human propensity to vent out their frustrations at good people and placate the bad people. I’m irreparably emotionally and psychologically damaged, but it’s ” Nobody’s Fault But Mine”. I chant “Vegetarians of the world unite and take over” from my padded room while listening to “Heading South” and “June.”

  40. avatar
    steve kilbey | 13 August 2008 at 9:16 pm #

    davem
    send me yer address at gmail
    i’ll send you a pack
    and fix me up later
    ok?
    i dont want yer hols ruined!!
    sk
    andy
    i cant believe yer mum was like that
    and im fucking sorry that she was…
    to the rest of ya
    what ya hanging round here for
    theres a new blog a’coming soon
    real sooon
    sk

  41. avatar
    tim | 13 August 2008 at 10:19 pm #

    odd but this morning at work, i noticed that the ring my mother had given me years ago was broken..

    it was gonna have to be cut off anyway my fingers have grown that large…

    destiny, fate, pre-determined path or cause and effect..self-determination…ah life is different things to different people.

    all i know is we are all connected deeper than we realise sometimes..

    heres to better days!!

    think i will give her a call.

  42. avatar
    princey | 13 August 2008 at 10:53 pm #

    Craig, Veleska and Andy, so sorry to hear about your mums, hope you’ll be all ok and coping without them, we love ya all! Now I feel even sadder ontop of the news that sk is doing a “one-off” Painkiller gig in Sydney and nowhere else!
    See ya,
    love Amanda

  43. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 14 August 2008 at 6:33 am #

    Dear Sk:
    Im so sorry for hanging around and contributing over 400 dollars to you last year without ever receiving a thank u. Right back at u F U

  44. avatar
    jeff beck | 14 August 2008 at 9:49 am #

    That’s Brien gone, then,,,

  45. avatar
    Lian | 14 August 2008 at 1:11 pm #

    Hey Brien, are you sure SK didn’t say? ^^


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