posted on April 20, 2007 at 4:28 pm

the coffeee shop
i’ll have a baggie of each
the widow
the shiva
the other two
outside a shady guy says
you wanna buy something?
i say yeah what?
he says gimme 80 euros now
i say what for
he says quick
i say why
he says gimme 80 euros
i say ha ha
go away silly man
you think im a nidiot?
guys sitting round on boats drinking beers
furtive transactions in shadows
familys buying sooveneers
lotta people on bikes
last nights show was good
quite a lotta people
they liked it
we rocked
what can i say
hotel room tonite like a cell
no amenities
very austere
in a basement
tonites gig souled out they say
thats only the small room at paradiso
big room has big metal band on
we used to play the big room once
pause for readers to become misty
as ttb contemplates his gradual demise
still its good to sell out where we are
why here?
well i guess a lotta pommies coming over
stoners from all walks of life in the eu
to see us rock n blow a number
slip into that universe next door
unlocking that door legally
going with that sweet greene iceing flowing down
amsterdam red light mr what do ya want?
van go go museums?
im sitting backstage
on the net
rockn roll
the heavy metal pounds somewhere above us
i follow the red line to our room
its a rabbit warren of people n corridors down here
waiters n cooks running around
roadies n people from a tv station
a driver who used to drive for us 20 years ago
i rememember this n that he says
soon will go on n rock the nether regions land
more of this

36 Responses to “am star damn”

  1. avatar
    CSTCoach | 20 April 2007 at 5:41 pm #

    Take ’em to that other place, SK! Raising a glass your way in the hopes that you transcend, as you guys always do.



  2. avatar
    John Garratt | 20 April 2007 at 6:04 pm #

    I’m fretting over the logistics of an upcoming gig. Oh how nice it would be to have outside management to handle all that hassle! And, you know, to be in Europe and all that neat shit.

    John Garratt

  3. avatar
    Fnadroin | 20 April 2007 at 6:07 pm #

    Glad Krefeld went well. I told my old man to go. Are star damn!

  4. avatar
    fantasticandy | 20 April 2007 at 6:24 pm #

    ah killah,
    is it ‘my dying bride’ droning in the background?
    the most miserable sounds ever made
    emanate from those men.
    but someone miscalculated didn’t they?
    t’other hall’s half empty ‘init!
    while youv’e had to turn ’em away.
    oh, well, them’s the breaks.
    some lucky people are in for a dutch treat tonight, that’s for sure!
    love to all,
    andy L.

  5. avatar
    Fandorin | 20 April 2007 at 6:28 pm #

    …and that piece you play…the motet, the gorgeous renaissance music. poignant. what is it? Tallis? I need to know! And how it blends into Saturation…so expansive…rather The Cathedral than The Church

  6. avatar
    nickfiction | 20 April 2007 at 6:29 pm #

    i like the rolling paper dispensers in the coffee shops, instead of napkins…oh and tobacco instead of sugar!

  7. avatar
    restaurant mark | 20 April 2007 at 6:32 pm #

    there’s no gradual demise in the quality of the music…so you’ll be fine.
    now listen…you can’t stay in amsterdam…can’t stay in the coffee shop…don’t make the others come looking for ya. by the way, i’ll have what you’re having ; )

  8. avatar
    well at least | 20 April 2007 at 6:37 pm #

    do one more tour. But make sure you bill it as the final tour. people will show up like crazy. oh yeah and make sure you do it in the states!

  9. avatar
    davem | 20 April 2007 at 7:03 pm #

    You should be sold out at every venue.
    One week today and I’ll be a rootin’ and a tootlin’ to Brighton.
    Kiss me quick SK, but rock me ssssssslllllllloooowwwww.

  10. avatar
    yekra mloclam | 20 April 2007 at 7:16 pm #

    “the widow
    the shiva
    the other two”

    Please do divulge…
    What were “the other two” that you chose ??????

    Sounds like you got the “deluxe air-raid shelter suite” at your hotel.

  11. avatar
    ~ | 20 April 2007 at 7:39 pm #

    I’ll have whatever
    he’s having
    with sugar on top
    peaches with chocolate sauce
    do they make
    vegan whipped cream?
    I mean, if you can have vegan steak…
    why not
    I say
    I want to see everything with the eyes
    of my Heart
    anew in violet flames
    er, frames
    um, contacts
    it doesn’t matter what we do
    where we are going to
    we could stick around
    and see this night through
    I want to take photos
    of the things cameras can
    capture, anyway
    write or paint about unseen landscapes
    and interior decoration
    I want dessert first
    terrible lucky beast I am
    4 leaf clovers and lucky horseshoes
    wait are those blunnies that horse is wearing?
    after the guys go out in boats
    with their piss vinegar and moaning
    well these guys say ya only rent beer
    and sometimes ya gotta get pissed
    same guys say the same about water
    just passing through
    except that water is free
    in wild places
    and it stays positively in the bloodstream
    mixes with salt that crawled out of the
    carries chi
    like time in a body
    a geni in a patina lamp
    rub the lamp
    3 times
    make 3 wishes
    memory you trickster
    behind eyelids
    the oldest images played there
    have weird subtitles
    like cuneiform or cumuliform
    difficult to translate into any modern tongue
    except body language
    laying awake in bed warm without covers
    the din of metal
    will stop as the drummer tires his wrists of fury
    the girls working their way through school
    washed out the diner smell from cloths and hair
    long ago
    hailed a cab
    to visit some modern art museums
    the paintings there
    blow her mind sweet jesus!
    she’s been by car and train
    not a lot by airplane
    sure she’s…
    a bit…
    she’s a van go go dancer
    ready and


  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 April 2007 at 8:22 pm #

    Ah, but the important thing is the time being, is it not? Fortune smiled once or many times, but it was not yours to own. Boethius and The Consolation of Philosophy will make it all right.

  13. avatar
    knot a poet | 20 April 2007 at 9:17 pm #

    “Do you not see how necessary a world of pains and troubles is to school an intelligence and make it a soul?”

    Do like Keats, Brother.

  14. avatar
    Violettown Dot Net | 20 April 2007 at 9:29 pm #

    Have a great show and stay away from those 80 EU bags. They blow holes in ya soul!

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 April 2007 at 10:12 pm #

    Just 1 week to go sk, hang in there my sweet. I hope you get to see your daughters in Sweden, that’s one sure way to put a smile on ttb.
    Take care and love always,

  16. avatar
    verdelay | 20 April 2007 at 10:18 pm #

    clear blue expression
    I sense you are somewhere in the vicinity
    of your element

    warming your hands around it


  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 April 2007 at 10:22 pm #

    what do you call a man with 29 rabbits up his bottom?……….Warren….and with that ,I think I should go back to bed.

  18. avatar
    ed in fl | 20 April 2007 at 11:22 pm #

    You are living the life most of us just dream or read about….

    ed in fl

  19. avatar
    fantasticandy | 20 April 2007 at 11:52 pm #

    best wishes to veleska.
    she’s had a lousy week,
    some jerk in a truck nearly killed her tuesday.
    her car’s totalled,
    and she’s in constant pain.
    a CAT scan is booked for monday.
    she’s one of the best people on this thing and i damn well hope she’s going to be ok.
    neptunous healing vibrations coming your way girl,
    big hugs and loads of love,
    andy L.

  20. avatar
    Douse The ~ | 21 April 2007 at 12:41 am #

    sometimes fragmented prose is
    pleasing to the mind’s eye, but
    this ~’s dribble is tripe. I want to ignore it but it’s like a train wreck. it’s all tongue-in-cheek and cliche’s I’ve heard for the first time.
    It’s like he/she thinks they are an impressive writer. some are fools, some are blinded by their own incompetence.

  21. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 21 April 2007 at 1:04 am #

    Every recording Steve Kilbey performs on is golden. It only took three listens for me to realize that “Dabble” splenderously dazzles. Steve’s music is worthy of eternity.

  22. avatar
    Tim | 21 April 2007 at 1:47 am #

    You’d have
    to play
    all those songs
    they want you
    to play

    If you wanted
    to play
    those bigger

    a catalogue
    too vast
    to please

    but i’m glad
    you are

  23. avatar
    isolde | 21 April 2007 at 2:04 am #

    glad everything is going well sk

    thanks andy for letting us know, veleska – very sorry to hear about your accident and i hope you are ok

    dear ~ the thing is – really, everyone is pretty tolerant here – lord knows i have written some drivel in my time so don’t want to criticise you but it seems most people who like sk are into subtlety and ambiguity, delicacy, sensitivity, all that sort of stuff, you don’t need to shout, less is more etc etc, originality is good, appropriation is cool if in small doses, but a lot of these phrases you use – well to see them bandied around its kind of unnerving, although I don’t want to seem precious about it

    it is very difficult to express ourselves but when you write as yourself and say what you think you are delightful, as is everyone here

    looking forward to checking out your blog in the future

  24. avatar
    malcolm arkey | 21 April 2007 at 3:03 am #

    Hello Isolde –
    “when you write as yourself and say what you think you are delightful”

    …thing is, who or what exactly is “yourself” ?

    can you define that ?
    can you even define that for the person you usually think of as “you” ?

    i’m guessing this is one of the points ~ is making.

    Have a little listen to the words in “Night Sequence” on BWTB.


  25. avatar
    kat | 21 April 2007 at 3:26 am #


    rock on! still doing the splitz?


  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 April 2007 at 5:03 am #

    el mo 2’s “reptile” rocks the nether regions
    thanks for letting out your whitehot ardour on this version
    just delicious

  27. avatar
    davem | 21 April 2007 at 5:06 am #

    Good morning SK.
    I trust that you were wonderful last night.
    Love to you Veleska.

  28. avatar
    stealthblue | 21 April 2007 at 5:32 am #

    wish I was there…
    I love The Church,
    and I love that city on the Amstel.

  29. avatar
    cvodb | 21 April 2007 at 5:52 am #

    I was at the Paradiso last night. The small room… yeah, but blowing a lot of bands I’ve seen there recently away. Soldiering on despite the sound probs… good on ya.

    Thanks for a great show. Considering trekking to Utrecht tonight to see ya again.
    Five pictures there, more coming

  30. avatar
    isolde | 21 April 2007 at 6:25 am #

    hello mal arkey

    yes indeed

    perhaps not

    its all manipulation, fantasy, unreality, but seems to me it’s not whether the character is real, it’s whether the heart in the writing is real

    love and peace to you too

  31. avatar
    ~ | 21 April 2007 at 8:25 am #

    a dreamer, yes
    old enough to see devils
    young enough to know angels
    around every corner
    perhaps then
    another’s dreams will seem unreal knowing
    only their desires and fears
    and of your own,
    and of mine
    mal arky
    true aim
    the point is the evolution of the self
    to continually seek to know
    the true self
    to follow the dream within the dream
    as Poe pointed out
    the illusion of reality
    recognition of cycles
    and symbols
    how we learn here
    and grow toward the sun
    from the soil
    love for warmth
    growing pains
    lessons seasonal
    teachers I have always respected
    the ones that won’t accept less
    than your best
    make you want it for yourself
    however many times you fail
    in the process
    truth ain’t pretty
    it is no less than
    nice of you to say you’d read my blog
    I have images posted in my element
    that speak from my heart as words may never
    delicate spring blooms of bleeding hearts
    drip white not red
    the purity of their longing
    yes, and the fire from red, white heat
    your courage to overcome is great, anyone blessed to count you as friend
    healing and peace to you, may your pain be brief and you find yourself back on your feet again soon
    caroline, thanks for the photos!


  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 April 2007 at 2:32 pm #

    well wishes to veleska.

    rock on sk

    ya killer

  33. avatar
    Anakki Mayhem | 21 April 2007 at 10:18 pm #

    The Church… Amsterdam… la fée verte… & other things green & beautiful… oh, I wish I could’ve been there…

  34. avatar
    melquiades | 21 April 2007 at 10:30 pm #

    Nice array of pictures cvodb!

  35. avatar
    cvodb | 21 April 2007 at 11:23 pm #

    Thanks. 🙂
    I just bought a ticket for the Hengelo show, hope to take some more pictures there, from another angle.

  36. avatar
    Gareth,Notts | 22 April 2007 at 11:07 am #

    best wishes to you Veleska

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