posted on May 11, 2011 at 7:01 pm

my eos

the night is weird and wild

i enter it on tippy toes

i find it via a map of evening

the night is tonight

the night of long knives

the night of the panther

daylight long since gone

i appease my hunger with shadow

i fill my throat with echo

i go down to the night waiting offshore

the night is freezing and rubbing its hands

the dirty wind is full of cold grit

the night whistling up some alley

the night wide awake and dressed up in stars

the night is out back of a bar

the night squeezes in under your door

the night in the house where everything moves

the night in the house where everything still

the poet is nervous

his anxiety crushing

the night is more than his poor head can take

the white icing of moonlight falls on his pillow

the eyes of the night one thousand in all

the flowers expire their breath in their vases

a cat screeches outside but drowned in the wind

nothing tastes good in the seaside cafe

the waitress seems like shes got the moon in her eyes

a man comes in he looks like a monster

another man comes in he looks like a freak

a third man joins them with the face of a crab

something strange has come down on this city

and it walks abroad flagrantly real

the end of the road and the end of our fun

i smash at the hands clinging to me

i go to a doctor who gives me a needle

i go to a whore who gives me an hour

i go to a bakery and blow all my bread

i go to a nightclub as plain as the day

i go to a meeting hi my names steven

and i am addicted to the night so dark

and i lurk in its belly and i run through its prism

and i watch the minutes turn into years

wee small hours linger in crystal

and the children grow up

and the summer is gone

 

 

30 Responses to “anodyne line”

  1. avatar
    brazen | 11 May 2011 at 7:30 pm #

    “Now is the winter of our discontent”

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    meg manestar | 11 May 2011 at 7:46 pm #

    very amazing.

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    Kristine | 11 May 2011 at 9:23 pm #

    The white icing of moonlight falls on his pillow – gorgeous!! The night sounds so beautiful when you write about it.

  4. avatar
    Wilfred Paradise | 11 May 2011 at 9:40 pm #

    steve – this one needs music – please get back in there w/ your bandmates, make it happen – the music makes it all that much more special – wilfred paradise

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 11 May 2011 at 10:56 pm #

    I was the one before you
    I was the last in line today
    I wore broken shoes a cobbler
    couldn’t fix
    I stood near a window so as to
    look but never touch
    I heard the laughter of little ones
    I prayed they never caught my vision
    I am ashamed of who I am
    I am ashamed of what iv become
    I am ashamed of the heroes I
    once worshipped
    I am afraid they are all gone
    I am afraid no ones left to save us
    I am ashamed afraid and now lost.

    AsAlways,
    Darrin K.

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    Anonymous | 12 May 2011 at 1:18 am #

    i go to a doctor who explains what was heard
    i go to a whore who tells of her childhood’s hurt
    i go to a bakery kneeding dough til it rises into bread
    i go back in the night as he speaks of his work
    i go back in the morning still… again day here on earth

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    Lara | 12 May 2011 at 5:34 am #

    Really like this one.

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    . | 12 May 2011 at 5:36 am #

    nothing’s the same in this strange ‘ol town
    the circus is leaving along with the clowns
    an invisible man transforms himself into a frown
    to profess his melancholy which is quite profound
    unable to enjoy the job even with the likes of this crowd
    he drifts away on a summer breeze and sleeps in the clouds
    away from the noise, the clickety clack of the wheels outbound
    one city to the next, with traditional big tops or the dark underground
    a sideshow spectacle, the kind you can hear, but cannot be found
    locked up in his cage, cold and naked, with just a stool to sit on
    5 bucks admission, men, women, and children are invited to come along
    they throw apples and coins at him just to see if he’ll scream out loud
    to reveal his position, oh wouldn’t invisible’s ol’ mother be proud
    they don’t see the tears, but they hear the cries and the sounds
    so many years not knowing where he’s going, so much running around
    he’s tired, so tired, he just wants to have a nap and lay down

    • avatar
      Anonymous | 12 May 2011 at 2:42 pm #

      …was the smile at the foot of the ladder

  9. avatar
    Jonny Hollywood | 12 May 2011 at 6:28 am #

    my future t-shirt endeavor will read something like this, got jazz??? I just heard the new song and I love it 🙂

  10. avatar
    ticktockclarice | 12 May 2011 at 7:55 am #

    Oh my god, are you freaking KIDDING me? “The white icing of moonlight falls on his pillow” You just casually toss amazingly brilliant lines of imagery like this into your blog like it was NOTHING. Where do you GET this stuff from?? You are so in touch with your muse sometimes (most times) it’s scary. And there are half a dozen similar lines in this one that i could quote (“i appease my hunger with shadow”, anyone?) You spoil us, we are so not worthy. I think i will always remember that line, the same way i always remember a line from a book called “White Oleander” (book was ok, not particularly memorable) but the line went something like “The city hummed and glittered like a computer chip in some great unknowable machine” Just completely nailed it. This blog captures beautifully the lonely, endless, melancholy quality of night and the urgency and insistence that our demons seem to have at that time. Brilliant stuff. On a lighter note, my 11 year old son tried out for the drama programme of a highly regarded local school yesterday and got a call back!! I’m beyond excited! He has to do the dagger speech from Macbeth and he’s never really been exposed to Shakespeare before. His first comment at reading it was “Is this the dude that holds up the skull?”, ha ha. I think i have my work cut out for me. Have a great day everyone xx

  11. avatar
    Mavellous | 12 May 2011 at 9:58 am #

    special.

    xx

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    mattyc | 12 May 2011 at 10:17 am #

    your verse is cold and dark and beautiful
    most fear the night and her sterile breath
    and her muffled voices
    and her quiet secrets
    but you see the possibilities…
    if you sold her your soul.

  13. avatar
    captain mission | 12 May 2011 at 6:56 pm #

    it’s cold enough for stray cats to freeze
    the sharpest night cuts the trees
    it’s dark enough to flood the soul
    and fill it like a black hole
    on nights like these i feel defeated
    hung drawn and quartered by adversity i cannot even see
    sliced and diced and put through the shredder
    but when i read the time being
    i feel much better.
    for i am not alone

  14. avatar
    matthew | 12 May 2011 at 7:43 pm #

    Damn, that was great.

  15. avatar
    robertmadore | 12 May 2011 at 11:36 pm #

    Who is Greta Gertler? She’s playing in my (very small)town next week. There was some mention of Bondi in the wee article. From yer neck of the woods Steve?

  16. avatar
    Boriah | 13 May 2011 at 6:01 am #

    Listening to “Aviatrix”, what a great song…
    You should put out that “Getsemani” song.
    Regards

    • avatar
      . | 13 May 2011 at 11:54 am #

      i agree. Aviatrix is one of my all time favorites. i love the outro.

  17. avatar
    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 13 May 2011 at 11:40 am #

    I Am getting very concerned about the low number of followers that comment on your blog site since April 25th. The numbers have been staggering low or below 30 (and all while some of , if not, your greatest daily work has been created) . I know that many do chose not to engage in ‘commenting’ for threir own personal choices and in the past, this subject became part of a heated debate with a devoted fan favorite . I am just concerned that apathy is a disease and spreads without warning or prejudice. I will do my part to keep as many people involved and embark on a crusade to share your written word with many others.
    AsAlways,i
    Darrin K.

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 13 May 2011 at 11:54 am #

      Look- I don’t mean to heat anything up AGAIN, with some of you . but when the numbers are in the teens, the last thing I want is for our beloved moderator to ‘pull the plug’ because what’s the point if its perceived that the numbers are dwindling because of apathy. Let’s all be heard !!! Let’s reinforce what SK truly means to all our separate lives in a joined, living and bragging community. Because I once read a lyric in a somewhat cheesy song that said: “if I can’t hear your voices, feel your heartbeats, how am I certain that your still even out there”

      AsAlways,
      Darrin K.

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      thetimebeing | 13 May 2011 at 1:05 pm #

      let me worry about that darrin
      i can monitor how many readers i have and the numbers are good very good
      the number of comments doesnt always correlate to number of readers
      i dont ask for comments for sake of quantity
      thank you
      me

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        BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 13 May 2011 at 2:09 pm #

        Thats cool SK, I guess I also miss the contributions of some past ‘regulars’. I am genuinely happy for you and iv involved my 20 year old son and his little lethal arsenal to ‘read and feel’ more than the daily posts of some of their peers or even mentors. They say that they like what they’ve tuned into so far. So, again, EEKIE… I apologize for the rift we had some months back and I hope all is ok with you. And SK, if the #’s are up there, has there been any talk about packaging this/these treasures for more to enjoy or for us gray-haired gents and beautifully aging ladies to relive and rekindle your fine work?

        AsAlways,
        Darrin K.

  18. avatar
    Christina | 13 May 2011 at 1:28 pm #

    Rest assured Darrin,that as Steve has said, just because there aren’t always many comments doesn’t mean the readers have deserted.
    Like myself, there are still many out there that love reading Steve’s musings but don’t always feel the need to copiously comment…

  19. avatar
    davem | 13 May 2011 at 4:23 pm #

    Many, many of us here every day whether we comment or not. I never miss TTB but don’t always feel I have anything appropriate to say.
    We all love Steve!
    Have a great weekend folks.
    x

  20. avatar
    DavidP | 13 May 2011 at 9:56 pm #

    yeah, I reckon perhaps sometimes some regular commenters arent sure what to say for whatever reason, that happens to me at least. But I think its nice Darrin that you care about having an active community here. Certainly I can understand that this site is a great release for you from your daily woes as I guess it is for many people too.
    Many thanks to you Steve for hosting this online community here where folks from all walks of life can come to enjoy your art and interact with you and fellow appreciators. Many thanks to you and all for putting up with any of my long-winded comments at times especially if you weren’t sure what the heck I was on about. It seems most people enjoy not just Steve’s posts but all the comments on them as well going by what I have seen different people say over time.
    Well, it must be coming up to about a year since I started posting on here.
    My TTB 1st birthday as an active commenter! Some of you have been doing it since it began 5 or 6 years ago I think. I was just reading the blog for a month or two getting a feel for the place before I started posting.
    I found Steve’s spiritual yearnings very similar to my own and thats what got me started posting if I remember rightly.
    It has been a good experience for me hanging out here. I have learned a lot about freedom of expression, tolerance, non-judgement, disarming honesty, humility, self-deprecation, human foibles, artistic endeavour, sk word play and numerous other things!
    Thanks Steve for sharing your musings and allowing others to have a voice here and thanks to all for reading and participating. Now hit that donate button now folks!

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    Jmb066 | 13 May 2011 at 11:31 pm #

    No fear Darrin, I am still here. I read this everyday before I go to work and comment when I feel the need or have something to say. Reading Steve’s Blog is a must for me to get my day going, its my coffee so no fear we are here.

    Jason

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    Karen | 14 May 2011 at 11:10 am #

    Ive been reading this blog for a year in Julyish so Im NOT one of the “older” readers well Im 47 im older… but I hadnt know of this blog till midwinter last year..”stumbled” apon it …cant even remember how?… but I read a poem & I though good lordy this is great ( well I dont say good lordy really) I had no idea that the lead singer of the church wrote poetry ..then I had a squizz @ his paintings .. LOVED the Judgement of paris..anyway to cut a long story short ( I lost my mind* lalala)….
    been reading most days ever since that fateful winters day blog read..
    & I do post comments but half the time I think why did you say that be better if I DIDNT post comments ..sigh..

    sure theres many many readers just not all want to reply for whatever reason


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