posted on June 24, 2007 at 6:22 am

light
camera
action
pull it out of thin air
reach up and take it
as fast as it can fill you up
overflowing freely
endless as it is
better than pleasure
better than hedonism
subtle movement
ongoing motion
better than sleep
better than food
what
what could be….
what could be that good
lover ?
but
oh no
no but
but there is a but
i dont want another but
childe theres always a but
a catch
a loophole
a condition
but i just want the thing
the thing you spoke of
the thing beyond things but not thing
no longer any things
anything at all
you mean
yes
union
reunion
you mean to become part of
you mean penetration of things
you mean interpenetration
you mean swallowed
you mean digested
you mean no longer myself
you mean say goodbye to all this
no no no no no
my time beingness
future
past
all are thought
now
now!
not when or then
the time being now
only ever now
where am i?
you know who you deeply are
where am i?
you know everything
already
oh time being in gloria excelsis
oh time being in hell
oh time being on earth too
oh time being to kill and brutalize
oh time being to heal and reunite
oh time time time
where was i?
now
now?
right now
if you can remain now for 3 breaths
everything
for 3 breaths
i see such ugliness out there
deformation
senselessness
the cold
the repulsive and unloved
i try to love them but i fail
the sad and the sick
i try to empathise but i feel
nothing
pleasure comes again
resistance is futile
tangled up in all these pleasures
like weeds in a lake
the deep lake of myself
the real time being
the eternal
yes i am eternal
you cant even touch me
so deep deep down i am
a million miles above
steve kilbey and some others
the shallows
the baby pool
still holding on to the side
afraid to let it go
holding on to themselves
playing with themselves
never never imagining
underneath it all
union
calm
peace
cessation
pure unending bliss
nothing to do
nothing need to do
but art
but music
but life
all lead here
no i cant believe it
you should believe it
no i cant fathom it
no you cant
noone can
until you enter it forever
until then
kilbey you are made of the elements
reconstituted fragments of space
from the big bang
from the creator who created his creatures
kilbey you are stardust
kilbey you are linked to everything
just not feeling it
feel it man
no i cant
well maybe a bit
yes i can feel something now
its kinda warm
its kinda moving up my spine
the chakras go ping as it ascends
power
will
life
my desire for life which reconstituted the stardust
my need to live kilbeys life
dont talk about me like im not here
kilbey you are anywhere but here
or now
here = now
but you are not in the equation man
what is this …a poem…or what?
nothing
im just talking out loud
im just borrowing your male homo sapien fingers
to type this message in your english language
so that you may yourself understand
kilbey does not equal kilbey
kilbey + more
kilbey – the bad bits
is there anything left?
kilbey as a saint
you want to be a saint so much dont you
yes yes yes
then take it
oh i cant
not me
what about….
go on
well i dont have to tell you do i?
oh yes
that
and
that
and
some other thats
thats n buts
reduced to 2 words
time being
but that
steve kilbey
but that
the killer
but that
now remains here
always

43 Responses to “aperture”

  1. avatar
    lily was here | 24 June 2007 at 7:24 am #

    i just felt like i was tangled up in blue, + swimming in a whirly pool of colours with you. Oops, am i the only one here? 🙂

    x

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 7:41 am #

    tangled up in blue???

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 7:51 am #

    No buts about it sk, you’re one in a million you are.
    Love you always,
    Amanda

  4. avatar
    isolde | 24 June 2007 at 7:58 am #

    you have a one in a million butt too

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 8:19 am #

    A mirror is never alone.

  6. avatar
    mattdavison | 24 June 2007 at 8:29 am #

    AND WITH THAT HE EXITS STAGE LFFT

    TURNS BLINDLY DOWN THE SIDE OF THE THEATRE AND VANISHES………

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 8:35 am #

    yes mr kilbey…maybe you are made up of pieces of the big bang but you have far more star dust in your being than the rest of us…maybe if i looked into your eyes i’d see whole galaxies and constellations tracing their orbits in the darkness of your pupils…thoughts like supernovas behind your eyes…words like comets shooting from your lips that blind me with their brilliance and beauty…
    love always
    -The Hellbound Heart

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 8:55 am #

    tangled up in blue.that would have been the herring…lover?only share,if its not all there..some things we know…some things they flow..it tingles,all the way.extended past the outer aura,and into the core,the smelter..its beyond words,and its never been rehearsed.its gravity and magnets.its compulsion and propulsion blown away……eleviator music for the big cats.

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 8:58 am #

    wow!i think i missed this…..thanks Mr.Kilbey…you are exceptionally brilliant genx xxxxxxx

  10. avatar
    fantasticandy | 24 June 2007 at 9:09 am #

    steve,
    quote from dudes of neptune song called ‘little white truths’,

    ‘the stardust, recycled goes round and round, nothings ever lost, it can only be transformed.
    the carbon in your body was forged inside a star,
    how does it feel to have travelled this far?’

    i know where your’e coming from.
    luv,
    andy L.

  11. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 9:14 am #

    what i meant is…i have really missed hearing your ….poetry?,love,genx xxxxxx

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 10:19 am #

    where are you?……….embedded,ingrained,unsurpassed,here,now,found,calming,still unknown,unrealised….the english language needs more wordsthan i could muster!

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 10:32 am #

    Me thinks you been at the reefer again…

  14. avatar
    daniel12 | 24 June 2007 at 10:40 am #

    Jeepers. there seems to be some “inbetween time” between your postings on me computa.

    This one definitly wasn’t on me computa at 4.22. ?

    I commented on it around 5’ish but my comment seems to have been lost in the internet makmosss.

    It was quite eloborate but i can’t be bothered trawling my(challanged) shorterm memory for what it was.

    Basically it was along the lines of …

    I agree with ya in theory but we cant all have the luxury of such idealogigal folly.

    I mean , who’s goona tend to your trash and bog flusha ?.

    Luv ya work anyway

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 1:17 pm #

    yes blogger is stuffing up all the time this last week.

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 1:18 pm #

    anon 8.32pm

    he’s at the reefer everyday

  17. avatar
    relic | 24 June 2007 at 2:05 pm #

    Killah. Sainthood is overrated.

  18. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 24 June 2007 at 2:43 pm #

    Today’s blog should inspire all to download Boston’s “Higher Power” into their IPODS! Great prose and great lyricist=Steve Kilbey.

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 2:53 pm #

    dare I suggest that aint reefer talkin’, nor madness; it’s the everloving truth of existence, born of meditation, chi gung, icy bergs, killer genes, love, wisdom, and surrender..
    the celebrated Mr K performs another feat on Sunday

    thankyou once again Mr K …what a fab box of gifts you’ve given these past few days….

    and this one perfect for moi, at the start of my workin week….ttb and a deep breath!

    ta!

    KKat

  20. avatar
    verdelay | 24 June 2007 at 4:20 pm #

    It was a good book.

    Yes, I’d say a cracking read, but slow in parts. I can’t remember the first few chapters at all, but after a while it got quite racy and psychedelic and I couldn’t help but turn the pages… The second half was a bit slower, perhaps. Quite sad – it had me in tears. Certainly deeper, more cerebral in tone. Fewer characters but better drawn, less picaresque.

    I won’t spoil the ending. Suffice to say I didn’t really get what it was about until the very last line…

    It was a good book. Not sure I’d read it again right now, though.

    There’s a whole library to get through.

    v

  21. avatar
    syrinx | 24 June 2007 at 5:34 pm #

    I took the computer out of the picture for awhile – now I think I have The System out of my system.

    Catching up with your writing is *making* my Sunday. Hidden treasures everywhere. Exactly the thing.

    🙂

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 6:26 pm #

    I felt the Unio Mystica once- and prolonged for a Time…It was complete freedom and bliss, a highly charged pure psyche…No death, just awareness and continuum…~BUT~ it fades….and i don’t really have a key to get back in…or the love and money…So….D*TX*..oh yeah, the brink of crisis and death will lead me back!!

  23. avatar
    davem | 24 June 2007 at 7:09 pm #

    It’s always interesting to receive little insights into the biggest creative force behind the worlds greatest band.
    So…..the title for the upcoming compilation album is your baby? Not just a play on The View?
    Love you more,

    davem
    xx

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 7:48 pm #

    hey anyone:

    Kilbey won’t respond so maybe someone else has an idea…what happened to Richard Ploog? Lately we’re getting a lot of his name dropped. It makes me wonder…

    Scott N.

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 9:58 pm #

    hes a gardener now

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 June 2007 at 9:58 pm #

    did you feel that?..i felt that!

  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 June 2007 at 12:42 am #

    G’day Steve.

    Can you tell me a little bit about the new Church album (collection of singles)….coming out soon ?

    Thanking you.

    MHVN

  28. avatar
    boggy | 25 June 2007 at 12:48 am #

    brian, do you only listen to music produced by vegetarians?

  29. avatar
    cita | 25 June 2007 at 12:58 am #

    mmm’the deep lake of myself’I loved reading that. Fathomless Kilbey.

  30. avatar
    meeeeeowwwwwww.. | 25 June 2007 at 1:06 am #

    hum sugga laaga
    hum sugga laaga

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 June 2007 at 2:04 am #

    one of these BUTS is way back in the rear,due to ongoing “nothingness”.. cannot seem to find it in me to look anywhere but here, now

  32. avatar
    the dean | 25 June 2007 at 3:33 am #

    “They call me The Seeker
    I’ve been searching low and high
    I won’t get to get what I’m after
    Till the day I die

    I asked Bobby Dylan
    I asked The Beatles
    I asked Timothy Leary
    But he couldn’t help me either”

  33. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 25 June 2007 at 4:31 am #

    happy happy killer
    soft boot ,wax n wane
    by the light of the silvery moon,
    marty velvet in tow,powels pow wow, peter proud piper, and the killer ,sink me soon ,bat eyed and radared,..ive often been sometimes forever…
    love ya jonny cracker panther mange ,,. soft boot slick willy , erskine ..love ..love …happy happy killer

  34. avatar
    kat | 25 June 2007 at 4:34 am #

    the deep lake of myself ;
    love that line.

    been wearin’ my church t-shirt for two days, sk.

  35. avatar
    aLL THE qUEENS mEN | 25 June 2007 at 4:42 am #

    WHY DON’T IT DiG lIKE thE wAY?//? I mean,>>.//////.

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 June 2007 at 4:44 am #

    SK, Have you read ‘On Chesil Beach’ by Ian McEwan? I would not be so bold as to instruct you to read it, but it is, in Killer parlance – ‘a corker’.

    I do usually evangelise on behalf of any author, but this book is something else. Makes you love the written word.

    B.Bon

  37. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 June 2007 at 4:47 am #

    I do NOT usually evangelise etc etc.

    Jesus and maria……I’m tired.

    Adieu

    B.Bon

  38. avatar
    ? | 25 June 2007 at 4:49 am #

    plcebo efekt

  39. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 June 2007 at 4:57 am #

    yup

  40. avatar
    women and bears | 25 June 2007 at 5:27 am #

    man baby child……

  41. avatar
    we fear to tread where lost souls have died | 25 June 2007 at 5:36 am #

    cue White Rabbit

  42. avatar
    If U had a Boa | 25 June 2007 at 5:41 am #

    Rock n’ Trippy ‘ol

  43. avatar
    sharka | 25 June 2007 at 8:19 am #

    freaked out!


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