posted on July 16, 2007 at 7:58 am

how hilarious to see myself on youtube
in all my arrogant glory
opining a loada bull
acting like im a marquis or something
success is fun
but failya shapes ya
thats for sure
i dont know how i feel to see myself
its not a problem most people have
or imagine they would have
watching yerself on the telly
rambling on with a penchant for bullshit
lord kill-bee of rozelle
supercilious surly broody moody mean
but not magnificent
people didnae dig my uppity attitude
my sneering and my nasty little smile
admittedly i cut a dashing figure back then
whenever it fucking is im talking about
but my know-it-all-ness ruins my good looks
i come across as an uptight fop
no man of the people
no regular joe
but some clever-dick prick
with a line in big words
la muse: things havent changed much….
anyway
(who let her outta her box ?)
im attracted and repulsed by these visions of myself
is this interesting to you….?
i always wondered how it would feel…..
seeing yer face in mags on tv etc
its just……..
nothing
believe me
youll get no succour from it
if you do ….youre already lost
being on some silly show
acting like a jerk and a right berk
it just didnae suit me
i didnt have the showbiz personality
i could have now…if i needed to
but then
it didnt dawn on me
to play along
but i dont come across as a rebel
more of a prat
its a hard thing to pull off
that thing popular people do
getting the mixture right
mystery
humanity
looks
originality
universality
marketability
i had some in spades
others i had a void suit
now im so tired of all this
to an olde man it seems like trifles
im asking myself what is the purpose of my life
not
where am i in the charts
but the answer to both those questions is silence
i like the new me better by the way
but i wanna relive my life as the new me
the new me i never knew
i wanna go back and have another shot
knowing what i know now
muse: which is?
umm….let me see
gee its hard to put into words
muse: its a feeling, isnt it…?
look the reason i write this blogge
is because ive led an unusual life
which is simultaneously a cliche life too
a modern sob story
on a modest scale of course
thrills n spills
i been hi
i been lo
i seen it up close
the best n worse
i lived my life fully
i did it m-y wa-ay
anxiety still haunts me as ever
famous or infamous
there was no getting away from me
no person
no drug
no fortune
no humiliation
no song
nothing
could get the me outta me
i was stuck with myself
hating and loving myself ridiculously
fucked up on a superioty/inferioty complex
mystery achievement…stop breathing down my neck
i wanted everything n i ended up with almost nothing
i wanted nothing and i got all this
at least i have my dear readers
to some how help me come to terms
with the idiot in the mirror
people to ponder my heartfelt words
and then write a comment
that has only the most tenuous connection
to what im talking about
my brilliance and stupidity encircle you here
i will continue to dazzle n disappoint ya
that is my nature and that is my fate
heyday was yesterday
and that was such an easy game to play
now i place a need to confide away
scarlets got a fever
and my veggie hotdog is ready
tonite more kilbey/kennedy
its getting near finished
see ya 2morroe
keep the comments relevant
ok?
ttb

83 Responses to “ardent n unbridled”

  1. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 16 July 2007 at 9:19 am #

    very wise of you actually to not have played along..all those years ago..were all idiots in the mirror

  2. avatar
    Tony Pucci | 16 July 2007 at 9:30 am #

    E=MC2

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    adrift | 16 July 2007 at 9:32 am #

    I like the new you too, steve. I think we all do.

    To continue in the quotes thing (but I can’t remember who said this one): Youth is wasted on the young..

    *sigh* ah, those were the days.. I lived in Rozelle, above the blues music shop on Victoria Rd. used to wander down darling st to balmain park on sundays.. nice part of the world, that.

    So many things I would do different – some the same, but most different.
    jane xxx

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    veleska1970 | 16 July 2007 at 10:22 am #

    ah, but you’ve had such a rich, interesting life, steve. we can’t change the past. i used to sit and dwell on what has happened/what i was/what i did/etc., until i was crazy about it, but i’ve learned that my past is what it is. i guess we all come to that realization at some point.

    “people didnae dig my uppity attitude
    my sneering and my nasty little smile”
    i always felt that you were putting on airs then. how, i don’t know. i just did. you just seemed to be working so hard at it at the time, i guess. but doesn’t youth always have some arrogance to it?

    oh, poor scarlet. the cold weather must be getting to her. i hope she is feeling better.

    lotza love…..

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    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 10:24 am #

    Oscar Wilde wrote that. (“youth is wasted…..”) So true.

    Sorry Killer but I have to agree -In the paisley heydays I thought you were prattish, but now I think you’re great!,
    My pathway to SK and the Church was via GW, and The Ephemeron; not the usual route.

    I always waited before seeing the latest film, listening to the latest music….because I want to experience “it” without the hype ( either way)…listen/watch it through my experience not some rock journo’s or film journo’s…..
    and I like the sometimes slow slow process of discovery, and the sometimes even backwards; like for example yesterday I bought Heyday, which all yr ttb-ers know so well and I don’t; but will listen to with completely different ears than my 23 yr old ones, and it will mean something to me because of those coments and your characters and the great ttb paisley debate of (06/07?). I looked at the cover and laughed, seeing four x paisley shirts and thinking about all yr comments.
    I like that sense of discovering a jewell that everyone else already knows about..

    I think we all wish we coulda been wiser “back then”, and acknowledge that even if we were, we would still be thinking in our futures about what our pasts may have been like. I remember as a primaryschoolkid in Melbourne’s cold winter mornings wondering how different the world would be if I’d woken up 5 minutes later,
    or earlier….

    xxxKittyKat

  6. avatar
    sharka | 16 July 2007 at 10:49 am #

    mr kilbey…

    let me count the ways…

    you have seen it,
    and been it.

    and expressed it,

    so we also know it!

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    isolde | 16 July 2007 at 11:08 am #

    I don’t know what the purpose is to your life but you’ve certainly brought me lot of happiness in fact if I hadn’t clicked on a link to this blog 18 months ago I wouldn’t have had to listen to so much music and go to so many concerts and buy so many damned records and meet so many wonderful people online and in person and as a result listen to even MORE music meanwhile trying not to smile ALL the time cos of thinking about something you wrote and I wouldn’t had had this continual feeling of inexpressible joy and delight at finding someone who thinks about things kind of like I do and learn so much about human nature from reading the comments and the best part of all this is its straight from one heart to the other without having to negotiate all those physical encumbrances like time and space and physical matter and social conventions its just so great so THANKS for being exactly who you are and always have been even if it was the 80’s and who could bear to watch a video of themselves from back then anyway? and I can’t think of one so called popular person who isn’t vacuous, ok maybe apart from johnny depp and he doesn’t do so many interviews chat shows as far as I know cos he doesn’t NEED to so what are you worrying about anyway?

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 11:24 am #

    Regrets

    I’ve had a few

    But then again….

    I empathise with you, old china.

    I recall a time when the world and all its possibilities for me loomed before me and I simply had to CHOOSE how I was gonna conquer it. I thought I could DO ANYTHING, that I would OF COURSE be very good at what I did and I would NATURALLY be famous.

    What happened? The world had other ideas. I pissed away opportunities and prioritised badly. What little natural talent I had was not ENOUGH. Whatever other prospects I had I fucked up one way or another with….my personality I guess. I got called arrogant by more than I care to recall when in fact I was really just shy. I think this mistake is made often and may even have been made about you SK.

    That Irish band sings ‘I still haven’t found what I’m looking for’….well, they are still streets ahead of me because I never knew WHAT I was looking for. Still don’t.

    I sound bitter but I’m not really. I met the love of my life when I was 4 years old and that person is in the next room reading stories to our children right now. That could well be my purpose and destiny right there, but when does one know for sure?

    In the end I guess I was never gonna be a contender. Which is the difference between you and me SK.

    You WERE a contender. Maybe you didn’t win the big bout, but you will leave a legacy behind you of great value. You have given great happiness to many and lived long enough to know it.

    B.Bon

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    esne snoner | 16 July 2007 at 11:26 am #

    ah regrets – what a waste of time they are especially for one who has lived / is living such a full life oh yes we would all be wealthier if we had done this and not done that but in the end we have to reconcile ourselves to the fact that we made the best decision at any point in time previously based on whatever surrounded us then – me – all the same stuff but i’m still living, breathing, soaking up as music as i can lay my hands on these days and that is all i need – very happy to know (deafness excluding) that will stay with me till the last breath is inhaled – biggest problem for me is figuring out what tune i want pumping into my head when that happens – the youtube clips are amazing – major nostalgia trip (and i usually rail against that stuff) but ok in this case when there is a here and now also

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    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 11:38 am #

    keep it relevent…ok, steve…you’re not the only one who looks back on their youth and wishes that things had gone differently, somehow…but i guess the things that come to try us are the things that end up making us wiser and better in a lot of ways…
    -The Hellbound Heart

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    davem | 16 July 2007 at 11:43 am #

    The new you is less intimidating but you still ooze presence and charisma. You can still be arsey from time-to-time too – ’tis part of your charm.
    I’m not much of a You Tube fan but I guess I’ll have to go and have a mooch at you.
    If you could go back and have another shot I’m sure you could “play the game” better, make a bigger impact etc but…..the records you’ve made could NOT be bettered. They are the treasure in my collection. The best albums ever made.

    davem
    xx

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    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 11:49 am #

    Steve Kilbey’s consumption of a veggie-dog shows that he is one of the greatest people ever to walk the face of the earth, in the company of Pam Anderson and other great devas. He is the incarnation of the Future Buddha on this plane.

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    J Street | 16 July 2007 at 12:10 pm #

    Killer,

    I’ve avoided many of the clips on youtube–the quality is poor and sometimes clips stop in the middle of sentences. Who needs that?

    I don’t know whether this helps or informs a little as to why you were the way you were, but consider–

    If your heroes were Bolan, Bowie and whoever else, how could you NOT go in front of cameras and people and not be a self-absorbed fop? If you’ve spent a good chunk of your time involved in watching and absorbing glam rock and the attitude, then it stands to reason that the thing emanating from your central point of reference would be an indulgent, smartassed and unbearable sort of indifference to whether the world cares to listen.

    Whether or not one would actually like the old Killer or the new Killer is irrelevant. It is, at the end of the day, about the songs. And they have never stopped being brilliant and they have never stopped shimmering.

    You can write all you want about how you were in an interview, how the band looked with bowl haircuts and paisley, whether Ploog was paying attention, who was high, etc., but it’s the tracks that matter and the songs that matter more. You should never feel inferior or nervous about something as basic as that.

  14. avatar
    Symon | 16 July 2007 at 12:26 pm #

    Ah Steve…if only Dorian Gray helped us to relive our lives as well as recapture our youth……how much better would we be at most things with the experience we have gained from just being there and having done it before with all our raw mistakes.

    I love your line…love it thoroughly…”I wanted nothing and got all this”. That one has floored me…must be special in its own way having people who value…really value… your insightful thoughts and thinking.

    Shalom

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    eek | 16 July 2007 at 12:42 pm #

    Maybe it’s because I never saw any of this stuff back in the day (until about five years ago I’d never seen/read any interviews with any of you — for me The Church was exclusively music. I didn’t even know who was who on the album cover photos), but when I look at those early interviews (and the performances too) I think you look less the pretentious little prick and more ill at ease — nervous even. I get the feeling that you were very aware of the absurdity of the whole “game” and could never quite throw yourself into playing it. The phrase “too smart for your own good” comes to mind. While I certainly don’t want you to be stupid I do think that your intelligence, coupled with your personality, sometimes makes your life more difficult. However, it’s also what I (and I suspect many other of your fans) find so appealing about you. You aren’t like everyone else and that has been clear for a very long time.

    i like the new me better by the way

    Yes. I do too. Obviously I didn’t know you then, but you seem so much more comfortable in your own skin now. You seem to have grown into yourself and seem much more comfortable and assured. That assurance shows in your performances, interviews, songs — all you work really (even this blog). I think you are becoming comfortable enough to let you out. And that you — the new you if you will — is very appealing. I’m delighted to have met the new you. 🙂

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 12:53 pm #

    one day,standing on the windy beach…shouting profanities at the universe…i threw both of my hands up in the air…..making the “zero” gesture with my fingesr on both handss….i was screaming”I f..king started with nothing…i know 100 ways to do what i think i gotta do…..i do it ..and what do i end up with….f…king nothing”then i put my handsclose to each other and join the tips of my “gestured”fingers together…it makes the “infinity”symbol…if ya start with nothin and ya end up with nuthin…..all said and done…ya got infinity,ya just gotta know how to get it together…%.gen

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    restaurant mark | 16 July 2007 at 12:59 pm #

    it’s always weird going back and seeing yourself from a different time period…hell it’s sometimes strange seeing recent pics of myself. and of course you’ve changed, grown, but at the same time i’m sure there’s things that are the same…i tend to think the core of people generally stays the same…it’s just what you’re putting out there and where you’re pulling it from changes. and that’s based on growing up or older, and from hopefully learning from he mistakes you’ve made. i look back and cringe at some of them, but at the same time i know i don’t want to do that again, so hopefully act or respond differently now. and sometimes i probably don’t cause it’s just who i am…for better or worse. anyway…one things been consistent, your creativity. keep it up man. take care.

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    adrift | 16 July 2007 at 1:10 pm #

    spot on, j street – spot on.

    and steve, what would you have done different? Not changed the music, I hope. Not changed a note.

    an amazing musical heritage you’ve created, one that’s been appreciated by, and touched the lives of, millions. you are who you are, you are the sum total of the experiences of your life. Change the experiences = change the result.

    you’re the poet laureate of our lives and, I sincerely assure you, I wouldn’t change a thing. 🙂

    jane xxx

    paisley or no, you rock. 🙂

  19. avatar
    Richard | 16 July 2007 at 1:25 pm #

    It is an unexpected fringe benefit of being singularly unfamous that I can browse the net with no fear of ever being confronted by ghosts of myself being interviewed in 1986 about why I thought The Church was the best band in the galaxy.

    In my 20 year old universe the 30 year old Steve Kilbey was so central that I happily embraced, even emulated, his arrogance and affectation. If everything I said and thought and did was right, how could the man who was writing the soundtrack be anything but perfect?

    Now, all these years later, my universe is a much bigger place.

    There’s much less of me in it and all my unconditional love is taken up by people other than myself and my idols.

    So what does it mean that I am sitting here, way past bedtime, struggling to tap out some words that I hope you and the others here may read?

    I can think of two things.

    You’re still writing the soundtrack.

    And through this blog I’ve realised that – difficult prick that you are – I like you.

  20. avatar
    Noel Christian | 16 July 2007 at 1:31 pm #

    The midlife thing is a modern invention. I turn 36 this year, and quite possibly reach the halfway mark of my existence. But it’s meaningless in ways. Sure, I squandered too much of my youth and my talent, but it adds up to nothing.

    So I take a page from history, thinking of Julius Caesar and those other giant men. The battlefields of their youth only served to groom them for their real work, their impact, during the second halves of their lives.

    Time to make breakfast in the states. All the best!

  21. avatar
    John Garratt | 16 July 2007 at 1:41 pm #

    “keep the comments relevant
    ok?”

    Hey! Don’t tell me what to do!

    John Garratt

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 1:50 pm #

    What you perceive as the “prat” or the smarmy smart ass prick…was more often received by us as a” Majestic and noble creature”…i was always surprised to see the amount of “people” cueing to go backstage after a gig…i figured that the women must either have grand “tickets on themselves”,or be so out of it that they were past all nervousness or any form of shyness..xxA

  23. avatar
    daniel12 | 16 July 2007 at 2:07 pm #

    Sure you were a bit of a pratt back then but it’s nothing to beat yourself up over. You wer’nt a criminal who ruined lives or anything.
    Many young men have a superiority complex but fortunantly most of us don’t have record of it on youtube.
    I think the problem for you was that you behaved the way you did in Australia.
    Had it been Britan it might of even worked in your favor. It almost seems expected that popstars should behave like pratts there.
    Yes i was put off by your 80’s telly persona but it was the 80’s and there were bigger wankers about.
    Your head up your arse plum in your voice thing did catch my attention though. However in truth it was only because it reminded me of aspects of myself i was trying to jettison.
    I can remember an interveiw with you and Richard Wilkins where he asked something like ” so what’s next, another album, another tour”. Now one of those aussie everyman rockers would of answered something like ‘Yeah mate were finishing this tour at rooty hill on friday then were off to Byron to demo some new stuff’.
    You answered something like ” were a rock band , we make albums and tour, I mean it’s not like were going to branch out into parachuting or something.
    It was such an awkward interveiw it was comic. RW couldn’t wind it up fast enough.
    I wasn’t a Church fan so i have to ask myself why i even remember something like this.
    I think it might be because as an unsure of myself adolesent i perhaps saw it as a lesson in how not to behave.
    I was a bit of a pretty private school boy back then and i used to get accused of arrogance. I’ve had great dificulty blending into the aussieworld mainstream. I hate contact sports and when i said mate it sounded fake. Needless to say i used to have the shit beaten out of me.
    I dreamed of escaping aussieworld though being a touring musician. Problem was i didn’t have the confidence to front a band and i have a total aversion to self promotion. I imagined i could be one of those blured guys in the background who secretly writes the stuff yet has no public profile. I know now that this appoach dosen’t work as you totally rely on others. I still enjoy playing music but i must admit it sometimes irks me when i get attitude from lesser musicians who’ve played the game. I guess my regret is that i didn’t have the balls to give it a go. All those punches made be want to keep my head low.
    You have nothing to be embaressed of.
    I think i do though.

  24. avatar
    Krissythegroupie | 16 July 2007 at 2:08 pm #

    I thought the ‘tude was hot.

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    sharka | 16 July 2007 at 2:18 pm #

    Steve,

    I saw you on a show called “The Factory”, I think it was, many years ago, where you played a little bit of “Fireman”.

    You spoke to a lady with big hair and a gentle demeanour.

    I thought you seemed like a very cool guy- thoughtful, intelligent and gentle. (And handsome, of course!)

    A good role model!

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 2:18 pm #

    peek ya creammin frockents elephant !or dog still wrike ya nowd…/XYZ

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    CSTCoach | 16 July 2007 at 2:25 pm #

    hola sk,

    eek wrote: “until about five years ago I’d never seen/read any interviews with any of you — for me The Church was exclusively music.”

    It was the same for me. Until the net and shadow cabinet, prob’ly around 1999 or 2000, I knew nothing about you guys other than the music, and the only pics I’d seen were album covers. At first i didn’t want to know more, i wanted the music to speak for itself.

    Of course i’ve since searched youtube to check out old vids and interviews, to compare what you guys said about your work to what i’d felt. some were good, some were not. but i’d have to again agree with eek, i never saw overbearing arrogance, rather discomfort, shyness, ill at ease. I guess because in such situations i feel that way myself.

    your body of work speaks for itself. And as for the past, how many people learn from their past and change? not so many. i think you’ve done awfully well, and as someone else said above, having got to know the man behind the music a bit through these blogs, i think yer quite alright.

    “i always wondered how it would feel…..
    seeing yer face in mags on tv etc
    its just……..
    nothing”

    That’s been my experience too. I’ve done mags as you know, and also radio and DVD. After seeing that first piece of published work, the novelty completely wore off. Now when i see a fresh feature on the newsstand, i scan it line by line to see where they messed it up. that’s all. it’s really such a mixed blessing. in writing and in coaching i’ve already found that the public face is necessary but unpleasant. but without it, no one would buy the work and you wouldn’t eat.

    really looking fwd to the new albums. your work gets better and better with each passing year. that’s another thing to be proud of, when so many successful artists just become parodies of themselves (did ya see duranx2 on that earth concert thing? awful!!)

    ryan

  28. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 16 July 2007 at 2:34 pm #

    SK is a mind of a higher order who is a musical icon, esoteric writer and a refined and visionary painter and artist. His self-denigration is endearing and it impels him to fully actualize his boundless talents. The man merits gourmet vegan food to placate his luminous palate.

  29. avatar
    malcolm arkey | 16 July 2007 at 2:45 pm #

    “it didn’t dawn on me
    to play along”

    Bravo…
    Today has been a great day
    of healing and rapprochement
    for all the
    psychologically scarred reporters,
    journos and nervous media wrecks
    that were forced to interview the
    ‘old you’ back in those days…

    Ya didnae think they
    really wanted
    to ask you all
    those inane questions didya ?

    I imagine,
    that for a young TV reporter,
    being handed the “Kilbey interview” assignment
    was somewhat akin to a
    British MP being given
    the Northern Ireland portfolio.

    Oh well – it certainly made for
    interesting Australian TV back in the 80’s and 90’s.

    I used to sit there pissing myself
    at the sheer tension of the awkward
    silences in those interviews…I’d
    always wonder who was gonna break
    first…but of course it was always
    the journo.

    blood out of a stone…
    slippery fish…
    couldn’t get a handle on it…
    what’s your take ?…
    but isn’t it true you once said ?…

    too too too funny…errrm, for the viewer, that is.

  30. avatar
    SweatyWheels | 16 July 2007 at 2:46 pm #

    I engyoid this blogge v. much. My personal bumper Zigge is similarly ill – and self as it happens. But I do love the winter. Scary to see you all speak of mirrors as I find myself watching “Withnail & I” with a glass or two of Shiraz Rose. Tunisia beckons.

  31. avatar
    almoc larkmey | 16 July 2007 at 2:58 pm #

    Thankyou XYZ/Bishop Spooner,

    And as we all know, this week is “Sledyxia Wenaressa Week”.

  32. avatar
    JJ | 16 July 2007 at 3:02 pm #

    I’m wondering….would you “play along” if you had it to do over again? Would you have the patience and tolerance?

    I never saw the superciliousness or arrogance, but then I only saw you on stage. I thought you were witty and aware with your comments up there, first time back in ’88.
    You seem fairly approachable now, especially via this blogge vehicle. I appreciate how you make yourself and your thoughts so accessible.

    We all change. Who is the same person they were 20 yrs ago? I think I’m the same at the core; on the surface – I learned new skills.

    Looking forward to the new discs.

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    zebob | 16 July 2007 at 3:17 pm #

    I don’t regularly watch myself, but it can’t be avoided when shaving in the morning. I do what I can with arranging my front side to appear respectable. Aside from trimming the whiskers, I spend some time grimly assessing the ravages of time on my thinning hair.
    Up until a few months ago, I didn’t worry too much about the back. So imagine my shock and horror when I looked up at the security screen which was showing the posterior of my scalp. Is that my balding scalp? I immediately felt the urge to roll my trousers and scuttle across the ocean floor.
    Video is awful as well. A reedy voice coupled with braying laugh. It’s difficult to see one’s self and not be self-critical. At least for me.
    I think part of my initial attraction to The Church was the arrogance that came through in spades when I first heard “Under the Milky Way” so many years ago.
    Like I’ve said before, it was so unlike anything I’d heard before. The arch vocals, the impudence, the attitude. For me, it was very rock and roll, but in a way I hadn’t heard before. The bass and blazing guitars just sealed the deal.
    As I’ve aged, I’ve had the same recurring thought. “If only I could go back …” but that’s not going to get us anywhere. So I try to do what I can on a daily basis. The whole self-improvement bit. Getting fit. Being the good dad. Try to be a gent. Avoid meat products when I can help it.
    I’ve always wanted to learn the guitar but got incredibly frustrated trying to pluck out the chords. I know, stick with it, it’ll get there.
    -z

  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 3:22 pm #

    CSTcoach-your self-aggrandizing is tiresome.

  35. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 3:29 pm #

    At least in interviews you look much more better than in videos, because you have to admit The Churchy videos are horrible

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    Jen Jewel Brown | 16 July 2007 at 4:28 pm #

    dear sk, you were always DAMN entertaining though. and didn’t we need creatures that bit the hands that tried to pull your strings as they fed you? many times the polarity was cartooned, but the notion of that rebellion is what alternative is all about. what rock’n’roil is all about.
    watcher rebelling against? watcha got marlon? you have to be good enough though, don’t you? you are/were amongst the wittiest, most acerbic, most hilarious and eloquent of musicians to ever open a mouth in public. most can hardly talk at all. their talents lie more in strings, sticks and keys. the gentility that tempers is welcome now, of course. who wants to be stuck in adolescence? maturity beckons…she’s cool; that’s how i feel anyhoo

    hi to any twin goddesses who venture here

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    knot | 16 July 2007 at 4:29 pm #

    See the chains which bind the men
    Can you taste their lonely arrogance
    It’s always too late
    And your face is so cold
    They struggled for this opulence
    See the suns which blind the men
    Burnt away so long before our time

    …sound familiar? kind or cruel,
    Truth is a treasure, Brother.

  38. avatar
    dean9000 | 16 July 2007 at 4:44 pm #

    I guess it never occurred to me to pull you up on you tube…. a literal wealth of clips to choose from…. by getting to know some of you on this blog it gave me an interesting perspective on how you were on your interviews…. you could already see the been there done that attitude…at times annoyed and other times engaged… i enjoyed them all… you can drive yourself crazy thinking about the if I knew what I knew now…. it’s obvious you have a lot left in the tank and I personally can’t wait for more.. continued success with your sessions… sounds like things are moving along… btw I always try to stay relevant it’s just that my ADD kicks in from time to time… I have found ways to use it to my advantage though 🙂

    trying to stay relevant,

    Dean

  39. avatar
    JUNIOR PAINKILLER | 16 July 2007 at 5:21 pm #

    funny you mention your videos, me was watching them last night at violettown, me thinks “IT’S NO REASON” shows your beautiful looks the best…
    mjnjr

  40. avatar
    Cee | 16 July 2007 at 5:31 pm #

    …I figured your tongue was always placed firmly in cheek…

    and we’d laugh and laugh, and laugh! (WITH you, of course)

    Cee

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    Ansible Jon | 16 July 2007 at 6:08 pm #

    watched the movie “the fountain” (originally titled “the last man” last night. peripherally knowing you as i do, i think you might enjoy it. funny how i could have seen you in the role of the 24th century traveller.
    watch it and you’ll understand,
    mr. number one daddy…

  42. avatar
    NickFiction | 16 July 2007 at 7:27 pm #

    personally i like that one interview on Youtube where you are clearly fucked up on some kinda dope or another. and you are smoking cigarettes like a guy who don’t really know how to smoke cigarettes. Also i like the recent one from the Godor club in Hungary where you are clearly disgusted by the interview, that’s a great one. It’s funny how we all realize our social faults , but cannot stray from them…….

  43. avatar
    NickFiction | 16 July 2007 at 7:46 pm #

    I forgot to mention that i finally got my copy of ” Mimesis ” the post today, so far I really like it !!!!!

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    isolde | 16 July 2007 at 8:17 pm #

    and another thing
    it was the interviewers who made us really suffer anyway
    that time molly meldrum, with the best intentions, came up and told you not to be afraid of success, well we were squirming it was like when your parent humiliates a sibling in front of everyone, it made us love you more
    Imagine if you’d had someone with a bigger picture of the world interview you, maybe michael parkinson or someone like that back in the old days when interesting people could actually discuss ideas or something on tv other than engage in self promotion, it would have been great, those music interviewers, and they were mostly unctuous sleazebags and pimps, were only doing their job feeding the machine, but really it was so limiting they bored the crap out of us much more than any of the musos

  45. avatar
    verdelay | 16 July 2007 at 8:57 pm #

    I agree with Isolt (as I usually do, liebekind).

    I always saw you as a serious writer who just happened to work in the pop format. Sounds pretentious because…well, it is. Like Lou Reed is pretentious. Or Bowie circa Diamond Dogs. I consider Earthed a tour de force, but it was Remindlessness that really took my breath away. I’ve never even thought of you as a ‘pop star’, failed or otherwise since then.

    Those turkeys had no idea.

    v

  46. avatar
    knot | 16 July 2007 at 8:57 pm #

    oh yes indeed, the “music industry”.
    now there are two words that should never be married.
    one being an insider for many years,
    one could not help but be utterly disgusted.
    people misrepresenting numbers just to get some cheap satin tour jacket
    or that backstage pass sony arista omg bmg etc

    repulsive

    the industry has nothing to do with the art, it is all about the machine

  47. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 9:02 pm #

    been a long time since you put any photos up kilbey – come on – chop chop

  48. avatar
    Demeter | 16 July 2007 at 9:20 pm #

    Favorite brand of veggie hot dog?
    Curious cats want to know.

  49. avatar
    knot | 16 July 2007 at 9:30 pm #

    B.Bon~
    You are a lucky fellow.
    Happily ever after was never in the cards for me. I surmise many others could say the same.

  50. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2007 at 10:10 pm #

    I bet NK’s got you rapt around her finger and only she, the twillies, the bumper and the doodles see the real and soft unpretencious SK. : )

  51. avatar
    Tim | 16 July 2007 at 10:14 pm #

    Steve…you are far too close to be objective..i’ve done appearance on tv, been in the paper and everytime can’t stand the way i look…or sound..i had my own radio show for 16 years and today i still read commercials and still hate the sound of my own voice…cut yourself a break dude…you are reading the label from inside the jar, here. Those you tube interview, especially the one where there’s talk of de-mystifing the music…I agree with you completely and didn’t see it as arrogant, i saw it as someone expressing how they feel…do you wish you had lied? Do you wish you more forth coming…If today’s time being has a problem with the old time being….chalk it up to maturity…which i think is what you were getting at but cut the former time being a break cause at least you were real in those interviews….or at least to me you seemed like the real deal…not just saying what you thought you were supposed to say…
    anyway…forget the mirror…it lies…it lies…it lies…my two sense…love ya for who you are man…not what you were…can’t wait to here the new tracks…

    tf

    p.s. bought Earthed and and mimesis on the weekend AND put some dollars in the the “honesty box” so go have a second veggie dog…you can afford it!

  52. avatar
    Tim | 16 July 2007 at 10:27 pm #

    btw

    i can’t find veggie dogs that i can stomach anywhere…

  53. avatar
    Daberhasher | 16 July 2007 at 11:02 pm #

    yes, i think it’s fairly safe to say we could all “see” this you even through the prickly pratdom, why else would we have hung about for so long… so glad you’ve let yourself out and as always, let us in… your creations speak of your true self…
    and hell, at least your not this guy…
    inappropriate yoga guy

    cheers then,
    erik

  54. avatar
    inappropriate yoga guy | 16 July 2007 at 11:25 pm #

    erik..

    how dare you?

  55. avatar
    MATTDAVISON | 16 July 2007 at 11:30 pm #

    a little poem
    ———————–
    an explanation for the age and wise
    ———————–

    Life Transitions…
    introspection
    Life……

    This is a new dimention
    ever changing
    Our Life
    that grand Opera
    String cortets…waiting
    a vast and tiny universe
    in minds depths
    swallowing tears
    looking back at the mirror
    of our past fears

    Is it a future mirror
    or a new reflection?

    The real spangled banner,
    nothing about a wrecked
    and weakened culture

    Our eyes shuffle like a disk in the sun

    Dreaming about those mortal coils
    fishes passing,swimming in grand palaces…

    While our hearts experience love at the core
    Minds leave dead strips torn away

    Our condition is surface level
    while we
    speak to the soul

    Self-efficacy beliefs

    The result
    we eventually choose
    the stary night

    The face
    The eternal
    The faith

    Looking back at you
    from where this thought
    had it’s place

    In another time

    in another space………..

  56. avatar
    ed in fl | 17 July 2007 at 12:26 am #

    I thought you sounded fine – not that pompous…the shirt is killer though!

    ed in fl

  57. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 12:27 am #

    daberhasher.. are ya avin a laugh!!? is he avin a laugh!!? errrrr he’s avin a laugh.

    Andy Millman

  58. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 12:33 am #

    dyslexics of the world UNTIE~*!…/xyz

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    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 12:35 am #

    Hi Steve,
    How great of you to write…
    I hope your daughter Crimson is feeling much better by now.
    *Cues ‘Crimson and Clover* song by the Strawbs in head
    Love that song.
    brb,

    A Muse in CA

  60. avatar
    the dean | 17 July 2007 at 12:59 am #

    I have not seen the afore mentioned utube and don’t think I will. Can anyone look back and not see a time when they were a cringeworthy prat. Fortunately the past is gone and the future untold.
    Out of all that confusion you’ve emerged, surrounded by your family and that’s for keeps.

  61. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 1:01 am #

    It makes me giggle to think you’ve watched yourself on youtube like the rest of us sk, and imagining your reaction! From what I’ve seen and heard, you just give “no bullshit” answers that always puts off interviewers and makes their job a bit harder and uncomfortabe..hee hee. But I remember the Steve Kilbey of the eighties did have the “arrogant & mean image” in oz, but you just stood by what you believed in, and let people kknow about it I guess. Knowing you now, you’re not like that at all, right?
    So how about posting a recent photo of the dashing figure as we know and love him today:)
    Take care and love always,
    Amanda

  62. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 1:46 am #

    J.J.B. …xxx

  63. avatar
    Sunshine | 17 July 2007 at 2:02 am #

    Ah, but Steve, you know that most red-blooded women love a guy with somewhat of a bad boy image, don’t you? It ups the ante in the sex appeal department.

    If I ever become famous (by some horrible stroke of bad luck), I would have it in my contract rider that all my interviews must be done in shadow or with my face obscured. I abhor being filmed, and viewing it afterwards is a real ego deflater. I can’t imagine how you deal(t) with all of that attention.

    ~Sunshine

  64. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 2:12 am #

    This is gonna sound a bit sappy but…
    as i was reading today’s blogge
    George Harrison was singing his beautiful song “Don’t fear the Darkness.” Is that the right title? He speaks to us, Steve.

    I used to be very anxious, but I think I beat that rap (most of the time)! I get a little persistant about writing to you and The Church sometimes. I’m glad you like your self more now- I think marriage and your immediate family is doing you well. Thank you again for the music and art.

    It’s easy to say, “Don’t fear the Darkness”. Life isn’t all that easy. If I were to do a few things differently, I’d have pursued music, vocals, and dance more. Honestly though, I was always kinda private- yeah sure “I’m glad you love my art! Thank you very much and give this and that, and some un-repeatable comments.” My own undoing. I’m sure I was worse than you say you were. Through it all I loved myself, kinda hated life sometimes though. Always, I really enjoy the peace in an art and architecture studio. Sorry to bore the others!! 🙂

    Outta the box? It was a coffin sorta thing and the nails were going through my head, body all fatigued 80% of the time for a about a year. blah blah blah. THAT changed me.

    I must be the only one whom hasn’t seen your YouTube interviews. Well, me ‘n genx! hi baby! 😉 Um, could you do a huge favor and give directions about how to get there? Please! snicker snicker;-)))

    Amused in CA

  65. avatar
    eek | 17 July 2007 at 2:55 am #

    Just go to http://www.youtube.com and do a search for Kilbey. They’ll pop right up.

    (too lazy to do a clickable link right now 🙂 )

  66. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 3:04 am #

    brooom vrooooom!get in, CA!essssgo! MUSE!…xxxx

  67. avatar
    matthew | 17 July 2007 at 3:22 am #

    A little hard on yourself SK… I used to hang out for the latest Kilbey interview back in the day and always found them fascinating… then again, there was/is an idiot in my mirror too. (just slightly left of the night friends, as I recall)

  68. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 3:34 am #

    is your brilliance relevant?

    rmch

  69. avatar
    Steve's Plant | 17 July 2007 at 4:11 am #

    matthew that’s really funny

  70. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 4:26 am #

    Matthew…i think it’s relative,not relevant.ha ha!../xyz

  71. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 17 July 2007 at 4:31 am #

    For Fans of the Go-Betweens, there’s a rather lovely story online about Robert, Grant and the old and new days, in the Brisbane Courier-Mail.It’s at

    http://www.news.com.au/couriermail/story/0,23739,22067633-5003421,00.html

  72. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 4:35 am #

    and that is applicable to rmch {my original intention was to add to rmch’s comment,but “Matthews” fitz as well}…./xyz

  73. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 17 July 2007 at 4:37 am #

    Sorry, try that again… it’s at couriermail.com.au, under the music drop down menu. Sorry, can’t figure the links thing here (anyone want to explain?)

    http://www.news.com.au/couriermail/
    story/0,23739,22067633-5003421,00.
    html

  74. avatar
    eek | 17 July 2007 at 5:02 am #

    How I do links (I’m sure there is another way, but this works for me) is I got to my blogger acct and hit the create a post button (make sure you are in the Edit Html — not Compose — mode) then create the link there. type say… Go-Betweens story … then highlight it, click on the link button and paste the web addy in the pop up window, and click the OK button. That should create a clickable link in that blog entry. Copy and paste that info from the create post or edit page into this comment box and you should have a clickable link.

    Go-Betweens story

    🙂

  75. avatar
    eek | 17 July 2007 at 5:05 am #

    Oh, and then you just delete the post you made on your own blog. 🙂

  76. avatar
    ELVIS | 17 July 2007 at 5:07 am #

    kilbey
    you shuda been
    me

  77. avatar
    steve kilbey | 17 July 2007 at 5:54 am #

    elvis
    ooh im glad i wasnt…!

  78. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 6:16 am #

    Jen Jewel Brown

    You’re a great girl for putting that story up here for us, I would have missed it otherwise.

    Thank you

    Thank you

    B.Bon

  79. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 6:17 am #

    VIVA LAS VEGANS!….xxA

  80. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 5:18 pm #

    shut up kilbey

  81. avatar
    an anonymous n0n-user | 17 July 2007 at 9:42 pm #

    in 1988 i saw you…
    in 1991 i fell in love with you…
    in 1997 i thought i was you..
    in 2007 i’m just as confused as you…

  82. avatar
    sharka | 18 July 2007 at 3:31 pm #

    When you’re a young fella you’ve got every right to f*ck up.

    Now you’re old and wiser…

    and I think you’re doing great!

  83. avatar
    Centuryhouse | 19 July 2007 at 10:55 pm #

    Good stuff you’ve written SK. That search for understanding & meaning is what it’s all about, it seems.

    Daniel W.


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