posted on May 7, 2010 at 9:40 am

madness futility
no utility
in the margin
chargin’ up my i-god
the chemistry which takes me to heaven
rebounds me to hell o i’m back again
reborn as this dragonfly-man
cast from some operetta
unbound prometheus
time carves me into this shape
the random currents of flux
ready to let go
come and take it
spirit come and take me now
my eyes hurt in the cold electric light
reality has set in it has congealed
the room is warm
i glow dull red
my sins screaming after me
they demand my anxiety
i cough up my brains
i visit the houses of the dead mornings
no you dont wanna be me
no you dont wanna be you
no you cannae do what ya like
but no you never do what you must do
i give up
i surrender
things are going well
money comes in
money goes out
figures move on a screen
i withdraw n i lose interest
i divide the indivisible
in this red lit room surrounded by my junk
my dirty washing
my dirty magic
i am many men
and capable of many more
i fascinate myself as a reptile fascinates a mouse
with repulsion i recoil as see myself go by
my voice oozes from some empty factory
where mindless auto-mons construct random phrases
my youth has fled n run off with my old face
wreck less with a band on
fuck charlie can slap you about
i look like a lobster in my movies
none of you can imagine
ooh my eyes hurt and ache
the world becoming dimmer
the sound blurs into a roar or a silent ring
people return to the moon
the first world war has been averted
the meek shall inherit the earth
the strong shall inherit the meek AND the earth
steve kilbey shall inherit a new body and name
but my will to create will endure forever
iao iao ao ao io io
lo and beholder and beauty in yer fucken eye
the great god pan is dead
the people from the oldest times
from fair atlantis
from teaming lemuria
from fragile lyonesse
from greeces golden flowering summer of love and war
the hindu goddess unleashes kundalini
you know who i mean
all of us in it together
all from a single flash we come
all from a single point
all from the glow of gods heart
look let all the people from the olden times remember
we will all live again
it is promised
blessing or curse
oh i want something so bad
something no one can afford
no service
no connection
no availability
read my column
dig my garden
feed my machine
i am the time being
one of the very best
one of the very worsted
rarely medium

28 Responses to “as the autumn leaves”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 May 2010 at 11:22 am #

    mr. dorian gray:

    I was in the mood for a road trip, perhaps to drive somewhere far to see yer band.

    But, alas, no tour dates . . . .

    at least put something out there, on your web site maybe, plans for a fall tour, a 2012 tour, something, anything.

    your fans,
    as represented by Wilfred Paradise, Esq.

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 May 2010 at 12:14 pm #

    Is that a banana to your temple?

  3. avatar
    Richard | 7 May 2010 at 12:23 pm #

    "rarely medium"

    well done

  4. avatar
    Freddie | 7 May 2010 at 2:09 pm #

    Don't shoot yourself in the head with a banana. I already tried that. You'll just end up with gunk in yer hair that attracts flies. :^|

  5. avatar
    LF | 7 May 2010 at 2:12 pm #

    Sounds like your i-god IS fully charged, Mr. K. Some say that what we desire most is to keep desiring. So perhaps you have what you crave.

  6. avatar
    cazziem | 7 May 2010 at 2:48 pm #

    Lovely to be reading your blog once again SK. I'm sure, like you that we live again and again, but please do me a favour? Give those of us who thrive on your creativity some kind of password, cos next time round when you 'inherit a new body and name', I will still want to look you up and hear what you have to say!

  7. avatar
    Jason Haas | 7 May 2010 at 3:09 pm #

    Mr. K,


    tha's all.

    Jason from Milwaukee

  8. avatar
    Melquiades | 7 May 2010 at 4:45 pm #

    yes, rarely medium
    but possibly a medium?
    body gets older
    your music gets wiser

    And, the strong are the weak
    and hopefully they will not inherit the meek & the earth. we shall see. we shall see.

  9. avatar
    fantasticandy | 7 May 2010 at 4:53 pm #

    in flux again!

  10. avatar
    eek | 7 May 2010 at 4:55 pm #

    "no you dont wanna be me
    no you dont wanna be you
    no you cannae do what ya like
    but no you never do what you must do"

    No kidding. Just can't win. >:(

    You would be so bored if you were medium. It would just kill you.

    umm…oh Steve…that isn't a Twilight calendar I see over your shoulder, is it? Oh no, oh no, oh no. 🙁

  11. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 May 2010 at 6:14 pm #

    i love all this but when do you start work on your next " isidore " album . the last record was "OK" but not as good as for get yourself. maybe you should for awhile

  12. avatar
    evilren | 7 May 2010 at 7:09 pm #

    Anything beyond the limit or grasp of the human
    mind is either illusion or futility, thinking opens new avenues. I prefer the middle path of avoiding extremes–it's like Blake and the whole return to innocence thing.


  13. avatar
    JJ | 7 May 2010 at 8:11 pm #

    Hail, Atlantis. My own age stares me in the mirror; I don't feel it, but the reflection shows it. Another life promised to us all? Life/Death/Rebirth…..I cannot say. What is below the surface, behind the screen, from a single point emerging.

    I know this: TTB is one of the very best indeed. I love Autumn, though tinged with sadness. Autumn of life for me.


  14. avatar
    persephone2u | 7 May 2010 at 8:56 pm #

    sweet autumn melancholy.

  15. avatar
    david duchow | 7 May 2010 at 9:10 pm #

    today marked the opening of the exhibition "Rimbaudmania" in Paris (on for next 3 months at the Galerie Des Bibliotheques De Paris)… "Season in Hell – A Self Portrait", a video with my images and Steve reading the Rimbaud poem is being shown in the multi-media portion of the show. Even Picasso is in this show!!!! After Paris, this huge exhibition will travel to Charleville France, Rimbaud's hometown, where it will be exhibited for three months as well.
    David D.

  16. avatar
    Queen Hatshepsut | 7 May 2010 at 9:14 pm #

    Holly: I think it is a Twilight calendar over his shoulder in the picture. I know far too much about Twilight for my age. ; )

    SK – beautiful, crazy, wild, wise words indeed.

    As always,

  17. avatar
    Georgia | 7 May 2010 at 9:39 pm #


    I have been enjoying your posts…and your photographs are an extension of your paintings. (BTW I am digging the New Moon calendar. Twilight is what the Brontes were 150 years ago…and I am all about that. )

    And just like that-you just made me like you after wanting to thrash you about. 🙂

    You see, I just finished reading No Certainty Attached. I spent a year trying to decide-do I read it or not. Your words and your music speaks to me unlike any other modern writer. Music is my inspiration-not my interpretation. Steve you are amazing…a renaissance man. A romantic spirit in an unromantic world. You inspire us to be prolific.

    And then I read the words.

    And it was so painful to see what you put yourself through.

    It was so great to see you look so healthy and so…relaxed and funny both this year and last. It is like you are a modern day Odysseus….


  18. avatar
    princey | 7 May 2010 at 11:14 pm #

    You write about ageing alot sk, don't forget, with the ageing rockstar follows the ageing fan, so we're all in the same boat. We'll still love ya when you're old Killsy, and I hope you'll feel the same way about us:))))

    BTW,the first Isidore album is one of the BEST album collaboration thingy's you've done sk, I can't wait for the next one, "but that's
    nothing new, nothing newwww". I've had that album blaring in the car all week, what a masterpiece!!!!

    Hope you had a good workout at Iceberg's and a delish brekky on the deck:)
    Love Mandy

  19. avatar
    m.p.k | 8 May 2010 at 1:02 am #

    No mere blog entry this. Real poetry. Almost seems a shame to send this level of work into the web's seemingly eternal but somehow seemingly shallow spaces.

  20. avatar
    matt davison | 8 May 2010 at 1:15 am #

    Seems as If you are crying out to Jesus (yet again)…..

    SK + JC = answer.

    I wont evangilise again SK, but it's just that I care…


  21. avatar
    M E M | 8 May 2010 at 1:41 am #

    last time i saw you
    you are
    more beautiful
    and radiant than ever

  22. avatar
    eek | 8 May 2010 at 2:37 am #

    But Matty D., SK has already found JC!

    SK + JC = Isidore

    And it is GOOD!!!

  23. avatar
    steve kilbey | 8 May 2010 at 4:30 am #

    right on sister eek!

  24. avatar
    Georgia | 8 May 2010 at 8:10 am #

    Isn't it all whether you are the light or you are the mirror?

    I suspect with Steven, the light burns thru him.

  25. avatar
    Richard | 8 May 2010 at 10:27 am #

    yes eek

    I agree with the other bloke

  26. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 8 May 2010 at 10:29 am #

    i cough up my brains…..oh man you have to be in a bad way to do that……i've been so ill that it felt my brains were going to be squeezed out my ears…..

    you are a radiant being….

  27. avatar
    Georgia | 8 May 2010 at 9:02 pm #

    Steven….perhaps it feels already yesterday…but it is time to move the calendar to May. 🙂 That is the April photo…. 🙂

  28. avatar
    Jason Haas | 9 May 2010 at 4:07 pm #

    …careful with that banana, Eugene…

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