posted on June 15, 2006 at 10:53 pm

last nite in sverige
swim in the river
walk with my daughters
lunch n dinner
chi gong on an old pontoon in the reeds
ducks n geese n swans
soft swedish sun
never wanna leave
love the ones in aust
but love these 2 too
always a catch
cant ever get it right
one door opens
another door closes
half empty
half full
half ajar
dread tomorrow
in aust right now doodles starting school
sweden its one am
sit on a bed typing to ya
fell so sad fiendss
ah theyll getalong just fine without ya
after all they have before
2 places at once?
elli stop yawning
so hard to walk away
walk away in silence
wouldnt ya know it
thats how life ends….

42 Responses to “assortment of colours”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2006 at 11:12 pm #

    Yes but were looking forward to seeing back at the Bergs.
    See you soon
    Mud man

  2. avatar
    Handyman | 15 June 2006 at 11:31 pm #

    My heart goes out for you. They are with you whereever you go. Trust in that always.

    Hope the school arrangement in AU works out.

    See you soon. Hugs the girls tight and look forward to the light at home. Travel safe and enjoy the last of the rest.

    Love ya,


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    Anonymous | 15 June 2006 at 11:38 pm #

    Hard to write a song that completely encompasses those feelings eh?
    You said theyd be in Sydney next year anyway.
    It’s hard not to be there when your children are growing up.

    Have a good flight you old starling.
    The Metro’s gone into voluntary administration.

    Dutch Pierre

  4. avatar
    one rigid finger typist | 15 June 2006 at 11:43 pm #

    hey dude, I wouldnt complain. the grass appears to be green on both sides for you.

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    flowerpower | 15 June 2006 at 11:54 pm #

    Sweden oh sweden…my breath was tken away by a Stockholm family in 1990….they took me … I met their daughter on a train a month earlier.(God I love trains…espcially when elegant seductive women are sitting opposite you in a compartment!) ..rang em out the 19 yo stranger…they loved me like one of ’em…my heart just couldn’t quite grasp their was HOSPITALITY in the biggest sense…rode th bus to work with the Dad…the family and the city just seemed so Civilised compared to the burbs in Melb.

    Try this track when peering out into the stratosphere…Serpent Easy…it made total sense from 30,000 feet.

  6. avatar
    (('{~_~}')) | 15 June 2006 at 11:57 pm #

    Very hard to walk away. There’s nothing like the love for one’s child.

  7. avatar
    damien | 16 June 2006 at 12:00 am #

    Don’t know how you keep it together, Steve, not being able to have all your kids with you all the time.

  8. avatar
    mike a | 16 June 2006 at 12:38 am #

    Sorry you have to leave your daughters in Sweden…

  9. avatar
    veleska1970 | 16 June 2006 at 1:09 am #

    mmm…very difficult to leave, but you must. and what makes it all the more difficult is that you had such a wonderful time with them. but, the girls in australia miss you, too. wouldn’t it be nice if everything was easy?

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    fergal | 16 June 2006 at 1:12 am #

    as a father who has had to drag himself to the other side of the world from his son, i feel for ya, sk.
    all i can say is that from you blog it seems u were [understandably] equally reticent to leave bondi a few weeks back …

    bien viaje amigo

  11. avatar
    Renee | 16 June 2006 at 1:27 am #

    My niece whom I’ve raised like my own child for the past fourteen years, flew to Florida yesterday, as she’s been doing by herself since the age of six. When she was little it was hard simply because she was a child traveling by herself and she was still such a baby. Now it’s like having your best friend or a close companion leave you. Now that she’s older I appreciate the young woman that she is becoming, and am watching her evolve. Time goes by so quickly. I feel for her father who only sees her twice a year, with every visit something about her has changed I’m sure. I know that is of no consulation, but feel blessed that they are yours, and life is so much better with them in it, you seem like such a great father, you talk about them with so much love and adoration, they too are blessed. You have left them such a legacy of poetry, art, and music. How many kids have their father’s music on their ipods? My niece’s father doesn’t even pay child support! (Don’t get me started on that one!) Anyhow, you’re doing a great job and they know you love them very much!

    feelin the love

  12. avatar
    captainmission | 16 June 2006 at 1:31 am #

    it must be awful, but know you are loved by your children, your family and your people. time and space man, it’s just a boundry we put there to stop it from happening all at once, and i guess as cliqued as it sounds, love is the trancsending force.
    hey i’m half way through the venuss underground, it’s very good i love all that prescriptive language. ‘Gotta get me a meerkat.’
    You may enjoy ‘Perdido Street Station’ by China Mieville.
    That’s an awesome read and totally immersive story, perfect for a long plane ride.

  13. avatar
    Brad | 16 June 2006 at 1:38 am #

    Internet on the run as of late. Work full swing. Summertime in the land of Ponce De Leon landing. Just checking in. Read up, up-to-date on the kilbesphere.

    Love that travel. I beg you. Oh what a better man I would be if I might see more of this earth. Po-dunk, stuck in the dome of “central Florida (= south Jersey).” Out of this state only thrice in 15 years, to go to Church shows in Atlanta mind you. Met you.

    So this time around a few stops in the land of yanko oranges eh? Cool. And I won’t even have to travel far. I won’t have to leave the state. The Church will come to me. Dreamed it ahead of time. And the lady in my life is willing to travel to see it with me. Looking forward to it.

    Love ULTC.
    Loving the blog too.


  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 June 2006 at 2:26 am #

    another paradox right?
    leaving something/someone
    is so difficult
    but only because you experienced/shared
    something beautiful
    can’t have one
    without the other
    when im
    choking on
    a goodbye to
    someone i love
    i imagine
    the alternative
    what if we never
    had this time
    so the goodbyes
    though i hate them
    are necessary to
    the hellos
    so … embrace it sk
    though you can’t
    bypass the pain
    cause you
    and your lovely family
    have what matters
    love baybee
    and that is
    what this
    whole life
    is about
    isn’t it

    lots of love

  15. avatar
    dig | 16 June 2006 at 2:42 am #

    Sounds very hard
    You’ll see them again before you know it.
    Some people take their relationships for granted, it’s pretty clear you don’t, it’s harder the more love you have.
    I have a friend in Gothenburg who I dearly love, havn’t had the cash to get there and see her, so I really loved hearing stories of Sweden thank you.

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 June 2006 at 3:20 am #

    Don’t walk away in silence.
    And it’s hard to miss someone you’ve never met so fucking hard.
    A whole lifetime spent away from you.
    And the losses, the losses, the losses.
    But if you’re still with me…

  17. avatar
    buzby | 16 June 2006 at 3:26 am #

    OT, but do you like sigur ros?

    takk is one of my favs… also, speaking of buckley. sketches for my sweetheart the drunk really grows on you. a different appeal from grace for sure… but, you’ll love it just the same. it’s brill.

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 June 2006 at 3:37 am #

    how lucky you are to have so many people to love and love you back.
    safe trip back!

  19. avatar
    RAWRAMP | 16 June 2006 at 4:03 am #

    very hard to walk away,have a safe journey.
    On a Buckley note ,know exactly where you’re at there,what a waste of talent ( have some great ‘boots ‘of his if your interested?)my ‘significant other’Lynn,a massive fan of JB,was not a happy bunny the other year when MWP at the 12 Bar remarked to her that he thought JB was ‘overrated’ and that his Dad ( JB’s not Marty’s!) was better..
    You said that you’d listen to old Boley till u die,i feel the same, just as i do with music i grew up to (Harley / Mott /Sparks )there’s something about those years when one is aged from 15 to 18 dontcha think??

    Pop paper people printing rebel insane . Take care

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 June 2006 at 9:29 am #

    You have nearly made me cry…and I’m a complete hard-arse so it takes some doing….

    One’s children do occupy a particular place in one’s heart…the softest of the soft spots.

    Your heart is breaking a little bit, it’s clear to see.

    Chin up, old soldier, your heart will mend.


    P.S. I am feeling close to forgiving you about your cardboard box comments…but I’d say that feeling will subside…

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 June 2006 at 9:36 am #

    Don’t be sad sk, at least you got to spend time with the girls and you’ve seen with your own eyes that they are happy and love their daddy so much. Just remember the beautiful time you all had together and you’ll see them again sometime soon.

    Amanda P

  22. avatar
    carousel | 16 June 2006 at 9:40 am #

    two places at once
    and stuck somewhere in-between

    safe travels

  23. avatar
    sue cee | 16 June 2006 at 10:47 am #

    Big hug snyggy! Cant even think of words to make it easier…you’ll see them soon again … you must be so proud of them and them of you. Put some happy music on that ipod to stop the tears on the plane!

  24. avatar
    sue cee | 16 June 2006 at 10:50 am #

    Or do what I do when Im unhappy…spend big on some music. Actually, I do that when Im happy too!

  25. avatar
    Galamor the wizard | 16 June 2006 at 11:29 am #

    Love the Grantism at the end of that one! Hope you survived that terrible flight from Europe.

  26. avatar
    verdelay | 16 June 2006 at 12:22 pm #

    I expect there were angels with flaming swords at Stockholm International Airport.

  27. avatar
    eek | 16 June 2006 at 1:07 pm #

    Even though the physical distance is great for you and E and M, you clearly have a beautiful relationship with them. I admit I’m a bit envious. Through all my teenaged years I lived only one mile from my father, but the relationship was always very strained and there were years where we neither saw nor spoke to each other. My father and I had a distance physical proximity could never bridge; you and your girls have a closeness physical distance can never destroy.

    My best wishes to you for your trip home to be as stress and hassle free as possible, and for the glow of your really very wonderful relationship with your girls to sustain you.

    PS Sue C is making sure your new nickname (snyggy) sticks! 🙂

    PSS And I’m feeling mighty guilty right now for feeling so happy that you’ll be touring here soon.

  28. avatar
    John Garratt | 16 June 2006 at 1:33 pm #

    “love the ones in aust
    but love these 2 too
    always a catch
    cant ever get it right”

    I can’t see what you got wrong.

  29. avatar
    OTTOMT | 16 June 2006 at 2:35 pm #

    Focus on the time when Elli and Minna will spend their year in high school in Aus with you, NK, Aurora, Evie and baby Scarlet. It’ll be near perfect and certainly chaotic, how fun!

    Be sad when you need to be sad (oh! that was so nearly cat stevens)


  30. avatar
    gavgams | 16 June 2006 at 3:05 pm #

    Ole, Renee..
    Sais it all beautifully. You turned things around the best you can. Leaving a legacy of love and humanity.
    Check out Yeat’s “Lapis Lazuli”, SK.

  31. avatar
    CSTCoach | 16 June 2006 at 3:23 pm #

    you’ve hit it yet again, sk. in choosing to do one thing, in devoting oneself to one path, we at the same time close off so many others. it’s a tough call.

    leaving is always so sad. even when i’ve planned a trip for so long, in the countdown days i never want to go. always buried under the weight of nostalgia…

    what’s done is gone forever every time…

    on another note, saw the TV footage of you guys in Budapest. Looked like a great show! and I must say ole SK was looking fit and trim, vibrant and full of energy (a high complement coming from an elite level athlete dontcha know ;-). Too bad Peter was drowned out in the voiceover. I thought your comments were great. “they worshipped us”… “we’re one of the best bands in the world, you know…” 🙂

    safe travels.


  32. avatar
    12str | 16 June 2006 at 5:20 pm #

    dear sk!
    as i sit on my balcony in the evening sun..smooth silk sweet summer breeze in my face..birds singing..cold ambrosia in my is so good!
    been playing heyday in my car for a couple of days now,and i recall why i came to dig the chrrruch so much back in the days..
    remember the first time i heard you.
    it was the video for the unguarded moment(what else is new;))the only swedish live music tv show”måndagsbörsen” at that time had the good taste of playing it..
    thought it was so cool and it really hit me right between the eyes..
    so i started to buy your records..
    i think i fell in love with the ambition and intent together with the beautiful sense of melodies and arrangements..i never before heard music that spoke so directly to me..the lyrics and the music combined made magic..
    man i really think youre the only band that ive ever heard that can make a difference with every new release..and this blogging thing is so cool…thanks for making me feel somehow involved in something
    id admired for so many years..

    safe trip back home..


  33. avatar
    davem | 16 June 2006 at 5:22 pm #

    Thinking of you Steve.


  34. avatar
    Krissythegroupie | 16 June 2006 at 5:40 pm #

    I love that song.

  35. avatar
    Elduvik | 16 June 2006 at 7:06 pm #

    You’ll have plenty of love from your three little ones in Aus- theyre just waiting for their daddy to come back. So, you’ll be very happy again soon.
    Have a smooth, smooth journey!


  36. avatar
    stealthblue | 16 June 2006 at 8:16 pm #

    You are a blessed man. In the very least, your loved ones are ALWAYS “with” you…on all sides of the globe. I feel for you having to be so torn though. Sincere best wishes for you and the family. Have a great, safe trip back…well, you are probably already in the air by now writing some more very inspired words. Take care, blessed one…

  37. avatar
    lorrain | 16 June 2006 at 11:11 pm #

    Fatherhood may be the greatest experience, and the most tearing. I am sure they will feel it as you embrace them, true Man.
    Hellos, Love and Compassion

  38. avatar
    gigi | 16 June 2006 at 11:50 pm #

    Weirdest thing, I was just playing that video. Feel the vibrations for ya SK.

  39. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 June 2006 at 3:58 am #

    keep the faith
    all things will work out
    and sydney needs you

  40. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 June 2006 at 4:19 am #

    remember the melody lane ballroom?you could see yourself in the mirror at the back

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 June 2006 at 4:25 am #

    wonderful eve in the port land you were kind my friend wanted your socksanyway we all shine on big little brother i jus lov your stuff you and the boys YOU GUYS ARE CONSTANTS IN AN EVER SHIFTING TIME T>Y>

  42. avatar
    david | 17 June 2006 at 4:58 am #

    hey big little brother see yuo guys in sellersville

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