posted on July 17, 2007 at 5:55 am

i dunno
here we are…..
i see ive slipped into the 100s when i was offline
from the 60s into the hundreds
on the blogge charte i mean
like rip van winkle of the blogge world
you little prick whos about to ask
why do you even care?
no i do not care
i will not be rewarded by going up or down
i know i give good blogge!
christ…youre getting
muse : me
off the cuff displays of spectacular weilding of the eng. lang
im erudite
im hip
im working class anti-hero
never worked a day in my life
im like those rappers who jus’ rap bout themselves
im this!
im that!
i remember my friend marc bolan said to me
im the groover n i move right in
when im on the floor the kids yell for more more more..
the trend of the artist to talk about himself
as a primary device in his art
oh i love to talk about myself baybee
im jimmy braggart
im pat ingmyself-ontheback
i can really dig me deeply childe
but its all a laff
yes andy millman im having a laff
do the ladies find my braggadocio attractive as somebody wrote?
im just a stupid manne blurting it all out
oh i dont mind myself tho…….
muse: youre not paranoid youre schizo
and you makes 3 little muse
are you following me?
this is nonsense
you coulda been reading something really good instead
all the things you coulda read
and you read this
i competed for your attention
and ive got it
so ….
muse : say whatever it is you want to say !
i dunno
is this writers block?
muse : thats when you cant write nothing
but admittedly this is pretty darn close
minna has arrived
i will ask her some questions
s. why are you here?
m. because …is that the question?…i was bored
s. i hate that word bored….
m.ok i was feeling unsatisfied with what i was doing
so i decided to do something else
s. who is alltime favourite singer?
m.god thats hard….mmmm…david bowie
s. oh thats strange….
m. he always makes things interesting
s. alltime most hated singer
m. christina aguilera
s. yes shes definitely up there….
ok what is your favourite film?
m.the roman you know which one it is
s. no i dont….
m. it’s a great story about a princess (audrey hepburn)
on holiday who falls in love with a journalist
writing a story about her.
s. one word please on the following people
1marc bolan
2uma thurman
3john f kennedy
4jesus christ
5 me
1. rock
2. myself?
3. vietnam
4. did he exist?
5. squirrel
s. thank you
the doodles call me the devil squirrel
more questions
s.why is it this way?
m. because God wanted it this way. you like eggplant?
m. i sure do!
s. isnt it great being my daughter?
m. since this is a steven kilbey blog
and most of the readers worship s.k i’ll have to say :
it’s really great, wouldn’t want any other man to take his place.
s. you have 4 sisters…which is most like you?
m. aurora, she’s as sensetive as me.
s. whats in and whats out?
m. in: openmindedness, sophistication and high waists
out: selfpity, people who take themselves too seriously
and…big boobs
s.why do you like gossip mags ask me this question too often… i find them interesting in some strange way…
s. did you inherit my good looks
m. of course i did: freckles, bad teeth and thin lips
s. what are you gonna be?
m. don’t have a clue…i’ll see where life takes me,
s. what do you expect from life?
m. knowledge, death and love
s. 3 good qualities you expect in a male?
m. respecful, mysterious and cultivated (HANDSOME)
s. 3 bad qualities?
m. disrespectful, ignorant and selfobsessed
s. that should do
ive got all those qualities..
one last question…
do you remember that nasty naughty little game
we used to play on/with elli
where you and i would suddenly run away
and try n hide…
1did you enjoy it?
2do you think she enjoyed it?
3and how bad am i , daddy, for enjoying it?
m. 1 i really loved that game….i felt like i had all the power…
and it was my revenge for all the times she hurt me
2. non monsieur….the tears weren’t really a sign of fun now ,were they?
3. yes you’re a bad daddy for enjoying making your children cry!
ha ha ha!!!
thank you minna
special guest *
4 2 day
mmm thats it i guess
oh i think i’ll go n look at my teeth n lips for a while

61 Responses to “at paranoias poison door”

  1. avatar
    Thelonious | 17 July 2007 at 7:45 am #

    SK, I saw King Lear last night. You’re starting to sound like him. This isn’t meant to be insulting, just an observation.

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 7:47 am #

    well sheeyit…first in line…funny minna should mention david bowie as her fave singer…had ziggy stardust running through my head as i read the first bit of your blog…you big mega-super-star you…
    love always
    -The Hellbound Heart

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 7:49 am #

    crap…the quick and the dead…

  4. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 7:55 am #

    “A freckle once made a vow…..never to live on anything foul”….words of wisdom from my wonderful,precious,and clever…and very much missed, grandmother…,as always,genx xxx

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 8:47 am #

    me tinks de muse needs u 2 roll a big one n share.t a gravity/kree a t.v.t. ……E.lash

  6. avatar
    col mamarkley | 17 July 2007 at 9:13 am #

    relevancy is overrated

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 9:19 am #

    Some folk feel that meditation is best practised in the morning. It can, though, happen at any time. This is just as well because today a request has gone out for as many people as possible, all around the globe, to enter a state of elevated consciousness at the same moment. In the UK, that’s 12.11pm. Californians though, can’t participate unless they rise before 4.11am. New Zealanders will need to stay awake till 11.11pm tonight. But if ‘The grid’ really needs to be ‘fired’ to save the people of this planet from themselves, I suppose we’d all better do our bit.

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 10:00 am #


  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 10:26 am #

    Hey Col,got a light?

  10. avatar
    veleska1970 | 17 July 2007 at 10:33 am #

    “i know i give good blogge!”
    yes, i agree.

    “m. since this is a steven kilbey blog
    and most of the readers worship s.k i’ll have to say :
    it’s really great, wouldn’t want any other man to take his place.”
    and i second that one, too.

  11. avatar
    NickFiction | 17 July 2007 at 10:57 am #

    interesting , as usual….

  12. avatar
    Celticat | 17 July 2007 at 11:05 am #

    Fucking hell Steve, I’m sitting here and laughing my box off! I can emphasise (what a wankword)with you so much.

    Na thats just crap. What I mean is that your blogge made me laugh, feel good, grounded just by words.

    I re-lived heaps of memories of talking with my kids like that.

    So there.

    Up yer bum..


    Love Celticat (bloke)

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 11:20 am #

    “Roman Holiday”..What a magical movie! Haven’t seen that for a million years!{has it been that long?} ..Yes….xxA

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 11:27 am #

    “3 good qualities you expect in a male?
    m. respecful, mysterious and cultivated (HANDSOME)”

    Fuck, that´s me!!!!

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 11:50 am #

    Minna seems to have inherited her Daddys sensitivity…twill be a blessing,and a “bugger”…but its a great thing to have!…genx xxx

  16. avatar
    boggy | 17 July 2007 at 11:54 am #

    interviews seem to be your way of getting over the writers block.

    so why don’t ya interview us?

    ya never know what you’ll find out.

  17. avatar
    adrift | 17 July 2007 at 12:30 pm #

    sounds like minna’s got a good head on her shoulders! and there’s naught wrong with freckles, bad teeth can be fixed (if it’s good enough for Bowie..), but thin lips you both might have to live with, since the only quick remedy involves bits of beasties.. Sounds like you done good on the dad job, sk. 🙂

    happy tuesday.
    jane xx

  18. avatar
    restaurant mark | 17 July 2007 at 12:34 pm #

    great one today…not close to nothing at all…i was kind of entertained really.
    take care

  19. avatar
    col lamarkmey | 17 July 2007 at 1:30 pm #

    revelation is overwhelming

    …and attempting to light your vaporizer is a definite no no

  20. avatar
    John Garratt | 17 July 2007 at 1:40 pm #

    Another vote for eggplant!

    John Garratt

  21. avatar
    self-love-awairness-pitty-pride-adornment-honor-recognition-reliance-gratification-deception-accepta | 17 July 2007 at 2:00 pm #

    a thousand songs will
    to describe the mystery of this place

    the first time the last time i
    my eyes to avert disgrace

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 2:02 pm #

    what a lucky young lady she is..!To have a strong yet gentle{genius} man like you as a bench mark*.Although,your girls may find it difficult to meet a man anywhere nearas special as their Dad*

  23. avatar
    Tony Pucci | 17 July 2007 at 2:09 pm #

    right on sk
    life is the little sillynesses
    ‘mongst the seriousnesses
    enjoy your day
    and your charming daughters
    pooh, ch’fish

  24. avatar
    knot | 17 July 2007 at 2:26 pm #

    another granny word of wisdom
    my gran said that freckles were
    elf kisses
    and the people with the most freckles were best loved by the fey

  25. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 17 July 2007 at 2:33 pm #

    No comment in reference to Bowie. In world news JUly 18 will be the birthday of Nelson Mandela. This paragon of peace and racial reconciliation will be in his very late 80’s or even 90 possibly. If and/or when he perishes South Africa will become a malevolent cesspool within ten years akin to Zimbabwe. White fright and flight will rapidly occur and the massacre of all the nation’s indigenous, majestic wildlife will be imminent. Nelson Mandela and Bishop Desmond Tutu are veritable saints. Younger South African politicians will not and are not emulating their pacifism and inclusiveness. A great country will be no more. I REALLY HOPE THAT I”M WRONG !

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 2:35 pm #

    Indeed. I agree with boggy.

    Conduct a poll.

    Become a pollster.

    Poll the constituency.


  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 3:20 pm #

    “pat ingmyself-ontheback” just got added to my list of side orders on the ttb menu….along with “like a photo of a sandwich” and “the sea takes the sand in it’s mouth” – or perhaps that last item should be on the apperitif list …hmmmmm……

    hi B.Bon.


  28. avatar
    sharka | 17 July 2007 at 3:20 pm #

    minna is a worthy guest!

  29. avatar
    beekill | 17 July 2007 at 4:02 pm #

    what’s happened to Matt Davidson ?

  30. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 4:13 pm #

    matt davison is really steve kilbey….his NZ alter ego

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 4:20 pm #

    one thing’s for sure, we’re all selling ourselves- trust me on that one.

    Hm, I?? schizo eh? I haven’t been diagnosed with that one, I’ll keep seeing my schrink just because you said so 😉

    About that Violettown interview: I see where your deep study of Shake Spears “Taming of the Shrew” has developed your personality. haha *strokes chin, gets out magnifying glass….

    I saw you as a polite young man, a bit demure, a little sad the interviewer thought you hadn’t done many interviews- not in his view. You’re the kind of guy I’da liked to have as a friend then, more now. You’re fairly easy going (in my book)…hey this is getting emotional!!A ah god, me me me, moi, uno, cya.

    A Muse!

  32. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 17 July 2007 at 4:34 pm #

    I hate to be patronizing but the greatest vocalist is Steve Kilbey not David Bowie. SKs vocal virtuosity came to the forefront on Starfish and they have been the best ever since. Other great vocalists are Jim Morrison, Lennon, McCartney, David Gilmour, Thom Yorke, Chris Martin, Morrissey and Eddy Vedder. There are many others but our 52 year old self-denigrating blogger is the best. Chrissie Hynde is arguably the top female vocalist. The Seekers Judith Durham is also something special. So is KD Lang.

  33. avatar
    JJ | 17 July 2007 at 4:39 pm #

    …..Twentyfirst Century TimeBeingMan at home with lovely daughters. Cat’s foot, iron claw, Minna’s answers innocent and raw. (I like her vegetable preference).

    Would you consider taking up camera again and sharing the interview with images? Been a while since your magic lens has regurgitated anything.

  34. avatar
    CSTCoach | 17 July 2007 at 4:58 pm #

    nice to see ya enjoying the full house, sk. 🙂

    after all the interview talk, you’ve stepped into the other chair, put on a new chapeau.

    ahh, the things you learn from the young. big boobs are out? was that a pun, or meant to be taken literally? perhaps both, if your famous wit has been passed on.


  35. avatar
    davidcwelker | 17 July 2007 at 5:02 pm #

    out of the mouth of babes

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 5:20 pm #

    blank verse

    A real you
    one of your most successful painting
    with your soul
    in it
    you painted it
    but you couldn’t recognise it
    when you see yourself again
    at another place
    another time
    it was you
    you wish you were always on the another side
    but this side
    is more true
    i put it here
    cause i like it
    i was really touched by it
    and i thought maybe i understand it
    but i was wrong
    as usual
    so it is

    So it is…
    I think
    It hurts
    Don’t know how deep it’ll be
    But it hurts
    Maybe not as serious as I thought?
    … Or opposite
    I’m playing
    Playing with fire
    knowing someday i’ll be burnt
    into ashes
    now I’m laughing
    laughing at my foolish
    I’m weeping
    in the fire
    Feeling the bliss,
    feeling the nihility
    Who are you?
    What are you doing?
    Where are you going?
    What’s your life?
    What does it mean?
    Nothing at all
    not a story
    not a song
    not a blog
    it’ something else
    So it is

  37. avatar
    Ansible Jon | 17 July 2007 at 5:30 pm #

    i think we learn more about you via the conduit of your progeny than your own ramblings. candor is a beautiful car crash we can’t not watch. it is a gift.

    and if i may: sir, it is ok to care about your rankings. caring overmuch is off-putting, but so is denying you care. we all care, and you should too. it’s ok, ok?

  38. avatar
    Finn | 17 July 2007 at 6:01 pm #

    Heh, Minna seems quite sophisticated for a teenager.

    So Steve, about the interviews on the Youtube. I actually watched all of those yesterday (thanks for pointing it out) and I didn’t think you come off as an arrogant prick or anything. Matter of fact, the main problem is that interviewers rarely (if ever) ask about anything interesting. I would say blame music journalism, not your younger self.

  39. avatar
    JUNIOR PAINKILLER | 17 July 2007 at 7:20 pm #

    thank you minna for being special guest today, hey if you are “devil squirrel” can me be “muskrat love”???

  40. avatar
    davem | 17 July 2007 at 8:00 pm #

    But I love my big man boobs.

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 8:15 pm #

    Do you live in Texas, par chance?

  42. avatar
    finn | 17 July 2007 at 8:25 pm #

    anon, no, not beneath the Texas Moon, but in Chicago, Chicago… my kinda town. Do you know a Finn in Texas? not a common name in the US.

  43. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2007 at 9:12 pm #

    No fiction,no, mistake! Relevance is/was taken advantage of… here…Honest to it reads …maybe the questions are 5D ….KEEP IT RELEVANT PEOPLE~!!*****

  44. avatar
    veleska1970 | 17 July 2007 at 9:55 pm #

    okay~~about yesterday’s interview issue….forgive me for revisiting it…i didn’t have time to properly comment on this one as i was rushing out the door (as usual). my impression of the interviews that are on youtube is that of a confident, but somewhat shy and quiet guy. and smart as a whip, too.

    your daughter is lovely, steve. very insightful.

    i’m with boggy~~how ’bout it, steve? we all got the chance to ask you a question, so why don’t you ask us one? i think it would be quite an inner-esting experiment, and even more so as to what it yields. maybe to make it easy for you, just ask one question and how each one of us answers.


  45. avatar
    veleska1970 | 17 July 2007 at 9:56 pm #

    that should be “see how each one of us answers”. i type too fast for my brain sometimes….my fingers race ahead and my noggin lags behind. 🙂

  46. avatar
    paul lightfoot | 17 July 2007 at 10:12 pm #

    Finn said : “Minna seems sophisticated for a teenager”

    Finn do not underestimate the teenagers of today. They ARE sophisticated. My teenage daughter was completing a creative writing project for school last night and what she threw together in 5 minutes was… well, quite incredible.

    Paul L

  47. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2007 at 12:02 am #

    Look sk, you’ve made it back into the 80’s in just a day!! Proof you do give good blogge!!
    Have a beautiful day.
    Luv Amanda
    P.S. Are your new recordings finished yet??????

  48. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2007 at 12:11 am #

    I think Matt D must be saving up all his creative energy so he has one poignant thing to say to SK when in the land of the long white cloud

  49. avatar
    not who you think it is unless of course i am not the self i think i am i just keep going until i ru | 18 July 2007 at 1:00 am #

    i am an AAMERICAAN
    and i am fat,
    but what wasn’t it, wasn’t what i really wanted to say,

    you know, it was something.
    i never bother to read
    you ardent fans

    and their post

    i should and i do
    to a point, but my attention
    is limited to the objective at hand

    (why suffer fools – but then again why suffer me?)

    like a fool, i left my post (posted my post)
    on yesterdays blogg
    “ardent n unbridled” read it

    if you choose, #82
    it seemed most appropiate to todays topic
    amongst all us fools

    what d0 i really have to say?

    ps. i hope your all getting all the imagery…

  50. avatar
    melquiades | 18 July 2007 at 1:14 am #

    great Q & A. lovely daughter.

    I think this blog is a very worthwhile read, man.

  51. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2007 at 1:17 am #

    you at 11am

    your just matt davison in italics

  52. avatar
    and again i find my self here running out of time running out of space, but never time always space | 18 July 2007 at 1:30 am #

    Yes, it is MELQ, definately, but wait a minute,

    i can’t help but thinking of me….

    that was sooooo…

    stupid to post, i mean…

    if you happened upon it waywardly, fine!

    but why call attention to it?

    and now i’m even making it worse…

    what the hell, who am i?

    maybe that dude, the otha day truly sees,

    i a m t h e s h a d o w, t h e h o l l o w m a n

    t h e f o r m w h o w a s f o r m l e s s

    i a m d r u g i a m a r t i s t i a m n i g h t m a r e

    …comon’ man,

    only “the shadow” knows… right? wrong?

    or otherwise,

    forget about it….

  53. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2007 at 1:33 am #

    cmon matt

    your giving me the creeps now

  54. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2007 at 2:27 am #

    Make a wish!Steve,and girls!….a special day,in the faery world ! make awish whenever you all get a chance

  55. avatar
    eek | 18 July 2007 at 4:11 am #

    Devil squirrel, eh? Haha! I love it! Well you are a cute little rodent. 😉

  56. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2007 at 4:30 am #

    boggy and veleska,

    it looks like he’d like to ask us questions quite often…well not that often. I got an e-mail and he blogged about painting ’round a month ago. I’m talking like he’s a third person- hey steve!

  57. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2007 at 4:36 am #

    Ok the shallow shadow
    or shadow’s shallow

  58. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2007 at 4:40 am #

    drug, artist n nightmare

  59. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2007 at 4:59 am #

    they all hurt

  60. avatar
    christian escherbach | 18 July 2007 at 6:19 am #

    Dear Minna, so effortlessly charming and astute…your olde Dad (& Moms) must be gratified.

  61. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 July 2007 at 5:14 pm #

    hey kilbey you’ve been saying the same stuff for years hows about you get out of your comfort zone and help the starving or some thing useful and i’ll take some spelling lessons

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