posted on March 27, 2011 at 9:09 am

a troubled night

i get up over and over

i have a piss or have a drink and walk around a bit

but i always return to the same dream

a huge city where its always night

somewhere in town is a huge apartment block

inhabited by some loathsome  evil

right at the top of the building lives this terrible thing

i myself living in another tall apartment block

at the top of which lives my employer or benefactor or whatever he is

i am scared/in awe of this person who has some power over me

i cant work out if he owes me a favour

or if i owe him one but we are seemingly bound together

one of my daughters is missing presumably in the bad tower

i keep petitioning my boss to help me rescue her

i make the long trek up  the lonely stairs to where he lives

full of doubt full of trepidation

sometimes hes there

sometimes no one answers my knocking on his door

he is rich urbane and knowledgeable

i can never clearly see his face

sometimes hes angry to be interrupted

sometimes he promises me help

he gives me a pistol

he has friends in the police

we should alert the police

other times he says no police we’ll take care of it ourselves

i wake up i stumble thru the house trying to shake it off

when i lie down the dream starts up again

the city of night

the 2 apartment blocks

sometimes ive arranged a big group of vigilantes

we climb up the stairs of the evil tower to find my daughter

and the others missing in there

sometimes it seems like a huge terrible worm is at the top

sometimes its empty

sometimes hideous ordeals that amount to nothing in the end

then i’m back in the tower where i live

“go up and see him!” urge the various changing people i live there with

or sometimes on my own

i climb up and up the stairs

to see him

he again gives me the pistol or suggests the police

at the police station i stand in a line

but the station always closes before i get to the top of the line

at the evil tower ive broken in with my pistol

up the stairs i go

empty or full of foul things

i battle and struggle alone or with comrades

we never find our missing ones

the evil at the top is always elusive

eventually at the end of my last dream

(i must have woken up n fallen back into it 15 times)

eventually i realise

why yes of course

its the same tower

why yes of course

the man i’m working for

is the evil thing

a perfectly detailed world with solidity and dimension

all within my heaving mind

i sit here now unable to forget the torment of it

is it the great gothic novel?

is it a warning?

or is it just an incredibly complex recurring dream?

i dunno

but i cant shake it off

hell!

27 Responses to “bad dream ?”

  1. avatar
    Once | 27 March 2011 at 9:18 am #

    I’ve dreamed this too. With different symbols; but the theme is so similar,
    that I cried when I read this.

    If I open the door to your tower, and take the stairs to bis office door – I can see your boss cleary.

    He is your self-doubt.

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      Once | 27 March 2011 at 9:19 am #

      **his. Typo. Sorry.

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        Once | 27 March 2011 at 9:37 am #

        **Clearly. Or maybe his name is Cleary. I didn’t sleep last night, either.

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    princey | 27 March 2011 at 9:23 am #

    oooh that is a hellish dream, you poor thing 🙁

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    Richard | 27 March 2011 at 9:38 am #

    I could probably find a use for the worm!

  4. avatar
    Once | 27 March 2011 at 9:42 am #

    LOL – Seamus Cleary! Manager of Kilbey Towers!!

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    andy | 27 March 2011 at 10:06 am #

    geeeze killer!
    that is one tangled portent of something/anything…….
    many years ago i had this recurring nightmare in which i was chased by
    a witch on a broomstick.
    sounds funny yes?
    it wasn’t.

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    neptune | 27 March 2011 at 10:21 am #

    sometimes I try to go back to my dreams … the good ones, that is.

    I also have very scary dreams, and have to take medication to help to keep me from my dreams … It’s just what happens when I don’t take my meds to help knock me out.

    today I went back to sleep (without meds) cuz I was up late, so then, of course I had a bad dream. It wasn’t ‘horrible’, but not good either. I wonder what it means – but mainly if you just pray about it and take dreams as a warning, it couldn’t hurt……

    I am sure this will be on your mind for days — just don’t let it eat you up … just pray about an answer of what it means — that usually help me.

    Also, make sure there are no items in your sleeping area, that could be used as an entryway for bad spirits … even books, I read. I recently took a bunch of books out of where I slept, and it helped.

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    mari hall | 27 March 2011 at 10:23 am #

    Sorry about your bad dream SK. It’s good to write your dreams. Good and freaky ones! They roll forward into the next special life’s adventure. Resetting the inner soul and mind. They say eventually you will be able to control dreams. I have yet to put it through the test. Dr. Phil just had a show all about dreams. There were two dream experts on. One of the interesting things is that you can talk to yourself just as you are falling asleep to ask questions in your dream and even have some control about the dreams content. I hope this helps. love

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    Lisa | 27 March 2011 at 10:26 am #

    Since it is recurring, this means you have something in your life that is unresolved. These messages from your subconscious and unconscious play out in your dream life but to have it happen 15 times in a row over and over – that’s just nightmarish. Persistant li’l bugger!

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    Freddie | 27 March 2011 at 11:53 am #

    Your dream is rather complex.

    Yes, we are all dual in nature like that
    
but the whole drive of your dream 
is to get the missing child back, right?
    
So I went to


    http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/v.htm

    just to look up some of the different 
and very typical elements of your dream.
    
You may think they’re way off base

    but this may also give you some more insight.

    “To dream that you lose a child, represents losing hope. It may also suggests that a project is not working out as you had wanted it to.

    To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs, indicates that you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual, emotional or material journey. The dream is also analogous to material and thoughts that are coming to the surface. 

    To dream that you are climbing a tower, denotes your quest for spirituality and unconscious ideas that may be surfacing. 

    To dream that someone or something is evil, denotes a repressed and/or forbidden aspect of yourself. This part of yourself may be seeking recognition and acknowledgment.  Alternatively,  evil may also be a reflection of your strong, negative emotions like hate, anger, etc.

    To dream that others are wealthy (your boss/benefactor), suggest that you need to draw the support from those around you.

    To see a gun in your dream, symbolizes aggression, anger, and potential danger. You may be dealing with issues of passiveness/aggressiveness and authority/dependence.

    To see the police in your dream, symbolizes structure, rules, power, authority and control. You need to put an end to your reckless behavior or else the law will catch up to you. Alternatively, the dream refers to failure in honoring your obligation and commitments.

    To dream that you are having difficulties contacting the police,  suggests that you have yet to acknowledge your own authoritativeness in a situation. You need to take control and be in command of the direction of your life.”

    Oh yes, definitely an awesome gothic novel
    and a song too…I’m thinking something a bit more heavy and hard rockin’.
    Go for it! :^)
    
But on a more serious note
    
clearly something has gone missing in your life
    
and you need to get it back.

    You keep going up that flight of stairs 
looking for answers with little hope of getting them

    You keep going up that flight of stairs ready to fight
    
sometimes with gun in hand

    but you always end up back where you started.

    You clearly need to get that child back
    but there are things standing between you and it
    things that need to be addressed, whether real or imaginary.

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    Craig | 27 March 2011 at 12:11 pm #

    Indeed. Good questions. I wonder if we will ever know the truth. The thing that comes to mind for me is something I came across just recently. In Genesis it states that a deep slumber fell upon Adam. From this point forward it never mentions that Adam ever woke up. Could it be that he/we never did? That this evil interloper at the top of the tower has taken the helm of the ship? If so, it’s time for a mutiny!

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    DavidP | 27 March 2011 at 12:44 pm #

    seems like the divine is trying to teach you something
    hence they kept placing you in the same dream
    it can happen like this
    there is something they want you to learn, to see
    the two towers
    the two opposing powers
    flipsides of the same coin
    the divine father
    and the shadow of the divine father
    you trying to rescue consciousness from the darkness
    with the pistol of elimination of the egos
    it takes an inner war to get to inner peace my friend
    the forces of good are on your side
    to the battle!
    “And by evoking the glorious forces of life, simultaneously you have evoked the sinister forces of death.
    The former and the latter are yourself, so do not fear.
    Confront them, know them, subdue them.
    Your destiny is to be Master of both.”
    – The Flight of the Feathered Serpent, page 107.

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    monksphere | 27 March 2011 at 1:05 pm #

    Yes sir, that’s a bad dream in my book. Speaking of books, am reading one about G.I. Gurdjieff who states in deep sleep dreams don’t occur, they only occur in the transitional state between sleep and waking. He goes on to say people have dreams because the connections between the “three brains”, which he describes as three centers, one being our base instinct, two is our emotions and three our intellect, are still active. Hope that mouthful made sense. Am still trying to digest and absorb his philosophy, it’s pretty complex, which seems to always go with the territory. And trying to read one of his books…you’re in for a long night! At least I am. Your mention of the great gothic novel reminded me of Lovecraft’s stories which 95% of the time seem to reference his dreams. Perhaps a novel or short story, published or not might help you. Well I suppose that’s it for now, sorry if I rambled. I sincerely wish you sweet dreams and good night.

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      DavidP | 28 March 2011 at 12:04 am #

      hi monksphere, I think we dream the whole time, it is just we typically don’t recall the ones which occur during deep sleep. The more vivid, lucid ones do tend to occur when we are in that light sleep phase.
      There is a book called The Peace of the Spirit Within which explains all about the esoteric side to our psychology like Gurdjieff attempted to do but this very profound book is very clear and precise and easy to understand written in modern everyday language with practical exercises to try out. This book states we have 5 centres, the three you mentioned and the other two are the sexual and the motor centres. It also explains about the causes of sub-conscious dreams, lucid dreams and conscious astral experiences.
      Worth reading when you are done with the other one.

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    DavidP | 27 March 2011 at 1:35 pm #

    sk, go with your own interpretation as to what it meant
    if you had an initial gut feeling about it then that is the right one
    there are universal symbols we can be shown in dreams which have the same general sort of meaning regardless of what language we speak
    the language of dreams and of the astral is symbolic and intuitive
    there is a guide to dream symbols towards the back of the astral book
    but much depends on context and only the dreamer knows all of the intimate details of the context of the dream and the context of their life which is why only the dreamer is in the best position to know what the dream meant
    you are still learning how to load and aim the pistol and have not yet learned how to fire it

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    Cocoamo | 27 March 2011 at 1:38 pm #

    Of the perils and joys people describe in having children (I have none), it never occurred to me that worry for their welfare would extend even into your nightmares. Wow.

    Your dream seems full of symbolism – wonder if one of your metaphysical friends can read it?

    Dreams in which the setting is the bed you are in and that begin with you being awakened from sleep are unsettlingly real.

    Years ago, I would send off my poor husband to work at 6 a.m., into the sub zero temperatures and icy roads of Pennsylvania before being able to catch an extra hour of sleep before having to trudge off to work myself (after caring for the horses and dogs…but, as usual, I digress…)

    Invariably, after settling back into sleep, I would dream that I heard footsteps coming up the stairs from the basement, steps of a murderer come to get me. Adrenaline would surge through me and I would be paralyzed with fear. After I finally woke with a start and a rapid heart, it took a while to realize it was only a dream.

    You would think I would have given up on that extra hour of sleep, wouldn’t you? Anyway, after months of that, the murderer came closer and closer, and then suddenly I lept from the bed, croutching low with a knife, and confronted the evil one. Finally, I prevailed in the conflict, and the dreams stopped.

    Hope your demons are vanquished less traumatically.

    Your Friend in Pennsylvania
    (Now in Cocoa Beach)

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    Lara | 27 March 2011 at 2:07 pm #

    In the Breton lais of Marie de France, the heroines are often locked away in towers, usually by husbands who they did not choose to marry. Handsome lovers magically appear, but Marie is no Disney; the lovers never free their confined loves. Some of the women watch their love die, some stagnate, one jumps from her window and gets revenge, but one simply walks to the door and finds it unlocked.

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    Narelle | 27 March 2011 at 2:15 pm #

    nightmares are awful…imagination/thoughts spiralling out of control…for the greater part
    had a similar one a couple of months ago…lots of people trying to escape the chaos…a hugh old building…I remember well
    found/rescued a little girl in some corner of the building, alone and frightened…I still think of it as I don’t know why this particular little girl was in my dream/nightmare…
    I guess its the real need to feel secure and safe…and any hint of threat to security throws up horrid memories and the resulting feelings of fear/dread
    take care

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    deacon12 | 27 March 2011 at 5:38 pm #

    Maybe you just ate something weird.Happened to Gomer Pyle and Ebenezer Scrooge.

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    captain mission | 27 March 2011 at 5:53 pm #

    that’s a powerful dream your subconcious is processing, i’m no expert but the towers could be ‘extremes.’ you may need the middle path. the child is something you have lost, some innocence, a sence of wonder perhaps lost to experience, the boss is perhaps an aspect of yourself holding the other personas at ransom. the police possibly represent the controlling authority within your self that is impotent help you in your quest.
    ultimatly only you can decipher the symbolic representations your dream uses but that’s just my guess.

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    eekie | 27 March 2011 at 6:39 pm #

    Your evil “benefactor” needs to be defenestrated tout de suite!

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    Charlie vs The Beatles | 27 March 2011 at 7:02 pm #

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=db6JIrLu_wQ&feature=BF&list=ULvh55KUr-ILg&index=2

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    meg manestar | 27 March 2011 at 9:03 pm #

    i agree with alot of most of the above..i think that dreams can be interpreted on many levels..not just one…and who knows, maybe in multiple universes’ lessons have been learnt for us to learn again and snapshots from other causations help in this one..who knows what we dream there…were does the soul journey? These are questions that only nature knows the answer…but i have found by personal experience….ask for a good dream…you may get Grace and a great nights sleep…just chucking it out there…asking can’t hurt.

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    hellbound heart | 28 March 2011 at 7:52 pm #

    dreaming the same thing time and again? somebody/something is trying to tell you something
    love always……

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    redgrevillea | 3 April 2011 at 9:37 pm #

    I often have dreams involving staircases. I may be walking downstairs, could be in the open air somewhere, and they just seem to dissolve on me, waking me up in starts. Recently I had a dream I was walking up a street that became too goddamn steep to climb. I didn’t seem troubled though. I woke up nonetheless because I couldn’t continue climbing.

    sometimes wish it was all easy street!


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