posted on March 20, 2017 at 10:25 pm
abide with me

abide with me

yeah yeah yeah i know i was being stupid

but i took some codeine

then i went out and had a drink and a smoke

i was at some friends place outside

i was gonna make a phone call to somebody maybe my mother

next i thing i know a bunch of concerned people are hunched over me

you were out says frances who is a good friend as shes like cradling my head

im sweating and my head is throbbing

i beg for no ambulance and i sit down for awhile and then i go home

frances incredibly kindly slept on my couch so that she could keep an eye on me

ok thats enough of that

yes im going to the doctor tomorrow so whattya think shuttup with the advice and listen

because the place i went to wherever i went where i went

ah yes it was the purest bliss

an incredibly beautiful person she was talking to me there

we were talking oh for hours in what must have been only a minute or so of unconsciousness

a beautiful place maybe i was talking to an uh angel or sumpthin’

there was no pain there was only light and there was only love

man i aint saying that was necessarily heaven

i wasnt dead i was just knocked out loaded as bob says

but man oh that place and oh that angelic presence

wow is that really what a knock on the head can do?

remember back in 08 when i got dehydrated and collapsed

well that place was hellish a dark roaring abyss

this was the opposite my friends

i cant describe how shocked i was to wake up

and find out i was just some old geeza whos collapsed in a garden in bondi

it seemed like that was the dream a painful aching sweaty complicated dream of bother and dismay

the other place was serene it was sacred it was my hearts desire and i met some presence there

it was a stupid thing but the vision remains of palpable peace and harmony of some other plane

i went there and stayed for hours even as i said it was a only a minute

it changed something in me

something im not sure what yet

i know ive hurt myself a bit with my body and my head

yet i still did 20 laps at the pool today

im seeing the quack tomorrow so cool out ok?

concentrate on the vision i perceived there

verily i tell you my cats

it was the bees knees

15 Responses to “blurred speech slurred vision”

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    Nanci M. Walker | 20 March 2017 at 11:15 pm #

    I think I went to that magical place in a dream once. Was it just a dream? Or did I die a little while sleeping. I know that I went somewhere other than here, I know that, the peacefulness of it changed me. My mind still wanders back to that place now and then.

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    garrattjohn | 21 March 2017 at 1:06 am #

    I was going through my late mother’s stuff recently and I found a little essay or manuscript of something that she had written about her father. It appears that in his final days, my granddad had become annoyed by the seraphim that was standing beside his bed, keeping him awake at night. As devoted as he was to Christianity, it reminded me that not all holy hallucinations are pleasant. Sometime in her final two weeks, my mother was muttering about a soldier, saying that he was going to be okay. She didn’t seem to be enjoying it, whatever this vision was. Or perhaps she was, I don’t know anymore. I’ve been thinking about the afterlife a lot, wondering why we tell ourselves that we’ll have it all figured out once we make it to the other side. Or is this it? Is a president Trump the only reality that I’ll ever know? I await the follow-through on Mr. Kilbey’s promise to get me HIGH for the first time…maybe that will help.

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    andy | 21 March 2017 at 2:58 am #

    keep us posted sagely one, WE prefer you in this tatty olde world!

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    Axman | 21 March 2017 at 3:21 am #

    Be well, my friend. The world still needs you. It needs me too but for what, who knows? It’s not our lot to argue.

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    Cath | 21 March 2017 at 9:32 am #

    Have to send an extra bunch of angels to watch over you! Here is a tale. Bruce Lee kung fu Jeet kun do master super fit, he smoked MJ too. He died because Asian folk are prone to a certain swelling in the brain, (so this doco claimed). He was given painkillers for bad headache by a fellow actor and it was lights out, they reacted, and because his system was so efficient it was all over. Some brands of codeine have worse affect than others I have noticed (when needed to take). Some make me ghastly ill, some also give shakes sweats like you said. Altered state plus a bad reaction.
    Please read email there is a bunch of ideas that could raise you some funds maybe- add to that session work. Blessings Mr Steven <3

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    Ingrid | 21 March 2017 at 10:44 am #

    Glad your okay, and glad at least the experience was a positive one.

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    PistolPete | 21 March 2017 at 5:24 pm #

    Coincidence, maybe. Your photo caption above “abide with me” was also my Mother’s favorite hymn. My Mother went to be with her God 10 days ago, March 10, 2017. While planning her funeral I remembered vividly how she loved singing Abide With Me. I made sure it was the first hymn sung at her celebration of life. Thanks for sharing, Steve. We are all connected by the thread of life.

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    Beatle#9 | 21 March 2017 at 5:48 pm #

    This would be yr second experience, I remember you had a visitation, when you were coming of H. how did it compere ?

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    Wayno | 21 March 2017 at 11:51 pm #

    Reminds me of the Dreambeings you wrote about many years ago – the characters that linger in your waking conscious for some time after a dream.

    Hope all went well at the docs!

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    sirenbrian | 22 March 2017 at 1:22 am #

    That’s a tough way to have a good experience 🙂 I’m glad you didn’t get hurt too badly, take care.

  11. Shaman Ron
    Shaman Ron | 22 March 2017 at 2:22 pm #

    I was in a deep psychonautical journey 5 years ago. I asked Hermes to guide me through his quests to Hades and the Heavens.

    Via lying upon deaths physical bed could I only walk beyond this dimension. I experienced Hades and was stunned that it is nothing like the lamely advanced simeons outside say via their old books. The heavens were very similar. They were both silent, peaceful and lonely only varying in color, texture and movement.

    It was extremely enlightening to my primative physical entity. I walk this path differently now.

    I feel you when you speak of that metaphysical walk you had. It is a message and vision of beyond. It’s yours for your oath here forward…

    Till we meet again, Shaman Ron

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    Michel | 22 March 2017 at 11:46 pm #

    I hope you are fine (what did the doctor say ?).
    Maybe it’s better not to use codeine again (IMO)…

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