posted on March 19, 2015 at 10:10 am
baton rouge

baton rouged

well thats basically that

the tour is over except for SXSW

which isn’t really a gig at all

i am sitting here on the bus in baton rouge

on one side is a fancy hotel

and on the other is a forest or something

the weather is warm and overcast

the weather implies many things to me

warm southern romantic weather or violent weather

around me in this place i pick up on activity

somewhere something is definitely happening

but where i am is warm quiet and uneventful

i am the dim receiver

impressions of other lives wash over me

things that don’t concern me and never will

it is a typical place at the end of a tour

the empty parking lot

the garbage at the edges of the woods

i drink down some spare tincture left on the bus

i wander to a mall and i get a massage from a chinese girl

i enter some other blissful universe that i never want to end

i meet wonderful people in my dreams and wander the skies

when i snap out of it i realise ian has had a massage there  too

and he was also transported elsewhere by the experience

yeah the tour is almost over except for these austin dates

one minute its all before ya

next minute its all in the past

all that noise and heat and sweat and light

all those people

all those mornings with all those coffees

at the end i astonished myself with the energy i could muster

i guess thats thanks to yoga and swimming

i am able to channel some source of mojo

which kicks my ass along all night as i play n sing for 2 hours

its getting darker outside now in baton rouge

and i think off so many other tours

so many other people and many of them now are gone

the times are gone

many of the places are gone

i am still out there treading the boards

but every thing else is changed

rocknroll rocknroll rocknroll

the weird ghosts and the memories

all these times all these tours all these events

but nothing waits out there for me tonight

that is a comfort and a shame

i am out of the game

although very much still a player of song

going from town to town

down the blackened tourbus corridor like a submarine

as we shoot through the greenish snow in the wee wee small hours

as we pick up and lose friends

as we cover great spaces asleep in the jarring blankness of the bunk

the shows are predictably a blur

new york atlanta wherever you like

i bestrode the stage and i gave it my all

so there is nothing more to say about those shows

they speak for themselves no doubt

or not at all

its 707 in Baton Rouge

we leave this car park in 8 hours

i love you all

i guess some yoga must be next

38 Responses to “debriefing”

  1. avatar
    Loren | 19 March 2015 at 10:30 am #

    Thank you for coming! You are loved here on this side of the world! It was an awesome show I was lucky to see and it’s been a pleasure following your progression through your blogs and the hours of content and comments posted on social media from so many you touched with this trip here. We are all selfish and wish you were in our towns again tonight, but sadly we say farewell til hopefully we see you again next time. Keep the faith and give us more because our cups are never full. We await whatever great next thing you wish to share! Merry and safe travels!!!!

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    MarlaRobbinson | 19 March 2015 at 10:47 am #

    Bittersweet post. A lot of your words are reminiscent of a Joe Stummer tune:

    “On the road to rock ‘n’ roll the lonely sing a soulful song
    Leave a little light in the wilderness for somebody to come upon.”

    Even if those are shows stand to be nothing more than a fog in your mind that cold night you played here is a memory I will always cherish. As a relative new fan of your music I want to say thank you. In a way you are a light in the wilderness.

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    garrattjohn | 19 March 2015 at 10:50 am #

    “they speak for themselves no doubt

    or not at all”

    This gives me a flashback to the “A Quick Smoke at Spots” liner notes.

    Okay, I’ll be leaving now…

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    Shane | 19 March 2015 at 10:51 am #

    Well thank you Mr Steve Kibley 🙂 For all your energy – it made the Seattle show fantastic – in the past for sure now, but etched into memory for ever. Loved the back stage chat with all the band. It was said that night you were at your peak, but I feel there is so much more yet!!

    Yes you do rock n roll 🙂

    Shane D.

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    barvah | 19 March 2015 at 11:26 am #

    Just want to thank you again for the outstanding show in Philly. I wish you truly knew how much it meant to me to see you guys. I haven’t stopped listening to Further/Deeper since I purchased it. You haven’t missed a beat at all. You are amazing! I also enjoy reading your insightful annotations on here. Please, please, please come back to us very soon. This entry made me sad, knowing that you are leaving the States. I like having you near, but in the meantime I appreciate being able to communicate with you on here. Godspeed and kill em in Europe! Donna xo

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    allan_steen | 19 March 2015 at 11:34 am #

    Baton Rouge area really is a special place to be. Played there with my band some years ago. Remember seeing Alligators while driving into New Orleans. Very warm and humid for a danish band, coming from the colder climate of Scandinavia. The loneliness after a tour always is depressing me a little. I am happy for your good reviews, and for your new release. you are better than ever. Hope to see you someday in Scandinavia. Give Ian a hug. He is doing an excellent job on the cd.

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    jerryj | 19 March 2015 at 12:05 pm #

    I can imagine how disconnecting the experience is. When I travel, I feel strangely untethered, emotionally. Thank you for coming to Atlanta, it was a an excellent show, great music as a soundtrack to the last 30 years of my life, encapsulated into one evening in a ghostly factory building.


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    DSpector1966 | 19 March 2015 at 12:05 pm #

    Monica and I have decided that whatever omnipotent item is out there, surely they listen to your music. You will be so missed here in Cleveland. We hope for your swift return.

  9. etta
    etta | 19 March 2015 at 12:08 pm #

    I think of last week when I began to open
    in this hothouse like a flower
    feeling I had found the room
    the room to blossom
    all feels dumb numb mum
    I am brave to sit near a window with shades open
    I think I have been braver but actually others were
    looking out for me
    and making announcements
    on exit and entry
    annoying as that seemed
    now I see it differently
    i look at my cat
    willing me
    come sit on the yoga mat
    and calm
    your inner chattery…

  10. avatar
    Album | 19 March 2015 at 12:10 pm #

    Closure upon another chapter of The Church. I enjoyed Atlanta’s show and keeping tabs on the reviews of others as well. Next for me is to continue to enjoy the albums (new and previous) and finish reading Something Quite Peculiar. Thanks for all the music, enthusiastic performance, and general artistic inspiration. Cheers!

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    cheryl | 19 March 2015 at 12:18 pm #

    arrived home to Louisiana and want to say how lovely it was to chat with you before the gig last night in Atlanta. Ando and I enjoyed it immensely. Hope you liked the choccy middos. until we meet again your Louisiana friends Cheryl and Ando

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    mattyc | 19 March 2015 at 12:47 pm #

    And so it goes… taken ill and unable to attend the Boston show. So I put on the new record and closed my eyes and and slowly slipped below the surface, breathing the liquid addiction and imagine the fragrant haze of Delirious or the pulsing heat of Lightning White. But I’m not quite there… and so it goes.

  13. Shaman Ron
    Shaman | 19 March 2015 at 12:55 pm #

    Thanks Steve for another excellent performance, awesome music and great concert in DC! Can’t wait until you guys come around again. Enjoy the SXSW fest and keep enlightening and turning on those young new minds to your music… real rock that keeps going forward unthwarted by the corporate machine. Cheers and safe journeys on.

  14. avatar
    ecscalf | 19 March 2015 at 1:14 pm #

    Thank you, Steve. I saw you in Cincinnati, right up front, and was immersed in your energy. Been a fan since the very early 80s, and I’m so happy I finally got to see you guys live. Again, thank you for bringing your beautifully engrossing music to us here in the states.

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    always | 19 March 2015 at 1:31 pm #

    Only as of these recent years have I been able to fore-end a looming monumental task in my mind. I can momentarily be on that far shore, and look back at myself on the other side and understand the release of having done the thing before I’ve ever begun. I’m gonna suffer for the doing, but I’ve already looked back on it and debriefed – I’m battle-worn but OK. Anxiety washes away.

    The far shore is waiting patiently for your arrival. May you wake up somewhere soon to a real bed, real food, and good friends, xoxo.

  16. avatar
    Chris | 19 March 2015 at 3:15 pm #

    Exquisite Paradoxical Equinox

    to be filled requires emptying
    to know requires unknowing
    to learn requires unlearning
    to travel requires sitting still
    to sing requires silence
    to care requires not caring
    to have faith requires doubting
    to be healed requires being ill
    to arrive requires leaving
    to have it all requires letting go
    to love requires hating
    all that

  17. avatar
    akriesman | 19 March 2015 at 3:30 pm #

    I also want to thank you guys for visiting the states again. We were hoping that you would make it to Dallas. But, in the end, it gave us an excuse to head to NYC to catch you guys at the Bowery. Great show. Met some great Church fans there (aren’t they all). So glad that “Postman Jerry” was able to catch up with you in the end. He is a good man. I would have liked to have shook your hand again and thanked you for what is now 34 years of great music. But, the clock was ticking for my wife.

    The Yoga and diet are doing wonders and it clearly showed during the performance. As a lover of 12-strings, I knew that I was in for something special when there must have been 8 of them lined up before the show 😉

    Cheers and thanks again. You guys are one of the very few that gets better with age.

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    caitbrid | 19 March 2015 at 4:09 pm #

    I like what Donna said. I like having you near, too. Thank you for coming to the USA and for playing in Philly. And for 35 years of sharing your gifts with us. You are so loved! Safe travels and a great time in Europe. Go n-éirigh an bóthar libh! May the road rise with you.

    Caitbrid in Philly xo

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    crimson | 19 March 2015 at 4:23 pm #

    I hope you enjoy Austin. You guys shone so brightly! And we love you so very much. The music you shared with us is such a great gift. I’ll always treasure these memories and selfishly hope for your next return.

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    Athanasius | 19 March 2015 at 6:04 pm #

    Thank you for the files n reports. Impatiently waiting for you all in Europe. F/D still mesmerizing me w all those sonic swirls, changes, the microcosmic details…hard not to get lost within. To hear those fiery drums and feathery choirs of Vanishing Man played on stage..yeah…Enjoy the festivals

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    Bec | 19 March 2015 at 6:11 pm #

    Rock ‘n’ roll lifestyle, ay?
    Making a whole heap of people happy over there, mate….
    and then you’ll come home to your loved ones ❤️❤️

  22. avatar
    Steven Krut | 19 March 2015 at 6:29 pm #

    I really enjoyed the Atlanta show. The band sounds great with Ian. And I thought you guys played a good cross section of songs – something for everyone. Block works really well live. So does Sealine and Miami. You Took sounded fantastic as did Disillusionist. Everyone loved the bit of acting you did for Disilluionist. You seemed more relaxed and comfortable than I recall from previous performances I’ve seen. Before the show I was thinking that I really wouldn’t mind if you guys didn’t play Milky Way. I’ve heard it a million times. I thought that Church fandom might feel the same way by now, but I was very, very wrong. I was at the back of the arena when you played Milky Way and I saw the audience instantly compress a bit towards the stage as if drawn in by some magnetic field that had just been switched on. The power of a hit single. So I guess you’d better keep playing Milky Way. 🙂

    I also enjoyed meeting you after the show and was flattered by your reaction to meeting me. You said some kind things. Thanks.

    I know what you mean by the times are gone. Getting older is a process of realizing that everything you thought was nailed down and a permanent part of the landscape was really just ephemeral. I never thought there would be a day when rock’n’roll itself was a legacy. Even great Rome fell eventually, I suppose. Damn that entropy! But because the realization that it’s all a passing ghost brings you closer to the truth, it’s an improvement. Yeah, getting older makes you better and if your body doesn’t betray you, it’s an opportunity for great achievement. There’s a lot of great songs that don’t exist yet that you and your collaborators are going to bring into the world. I can’t wait to hear them. That’s a music game that you’re still very much a part of – the one that counts.

  23. avatar
    Lada | 19 March 2015 at 11:40 pm #

    I’m glad to see you finally got your massage! 🙂
    It has been a real pleasure following the tour and making new friends who are doing the same. God bless any new horizons and endeavors for yourself and the band.

    Bless up

  24. avatar
    John | 20 March 2015 at 4:02 am #

    We are very grateful that you included Cincinnati on your tour. That day and night is etched in my memory forever –thank you for being so approachable. Best wishes at SXSW and in Europe. Last night over some wine I muttered to my wife that I bought tix to the Amsterdam show. Little does she know I was only half-kidding. Safe travels and rock on.

  25. avatar
    davem | 20 March 2015 at 4:50 am #

    Have a great rest and lovely time with your loved ones and……I can’t believe this……see you soon!

  26. avatar
    plumlady | 20 March 2015 at 7:07 am #

    Sounds like you’ll still be in the States for the Spring Equinox here; and I hope as you depart that this may help you shift back to your balance of home. It sounds like everyone who has seen the shows have felt a deep connection to you, the band and your music. I know that was the case for me in Minneapolis on that cold night. You’ve created a musical legacy to be proud of and you’ll always be loved and welcomed in the States; perhaps even more so than at “home”. It’s comforting to be able to read your blogs and try to stay connected somehow to someone so very far away. Listening to the records brings it all back full circle…..everything in life that I’ve ever felt!
    Safe travels back over the pond Steve.

    Mary Trego

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    tabatha333 | 20 March 2015 at 9:06 am #

    I’m so glad I got to finally see you guys in Minneapolis. I found your record in the early 80’s and have loved the Church since then. A big influence indeed. Thanks for the funny pictures too.

  28. avatar
    Elvis | 20 March 2015 at 4:58 pm #

    Steve and band…it’s always nice to have ya in the good ole Midwest! Good to see ya here and can’t wait to spin yur next album! Was nice meeting you guys…Super FUN! Cheers

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    j.suttra.l | 21 March 2015 at 3:25 am #

    Thanks for coming to Atlanta. It had been 27 years since I saw the Church live. Both shows were fantastic that I saw the summer of 1988 at the Center Stage in Atlanta, and this time around it was even better! You guys have certainly become better with age. I wish I could say the same for me. 🙂

  30. avatar
    dunn117 | 21 March 2015 at 7:52 am #

    Hey Steve Atlanta loves you.Your show here was just one of your best.Come back soon you left a 1000 bucks on the table for Volkano.

  31. avatar
    Ron Bonham | 21 March 2015 at 12:54 pm #

    Hey, I am coming to see you guys for the last show at SXSW. Miss you SK.


  32. avatar
    adamafridi | 23 March 2015 at 12:58 pm #

    Reflections at the Bowery Ballroom

    On a day like today overcast and gray
    The van parked on 6 Delancey St.. Try to peek inside.
    Yoga, Big Star, or sweet merciful sleep?
    The droning mantra blue light before the show. A reverie.
    Inside, those humid evenings, it’s just like Pompeii.
    PK has been unleashed. Walk in the shop and peels off the notes.
    IH has a blissfully calm presence, but he shreds too. I know, because he threw a grey pick to the audience and I picked it up. It was scratched and mangled.
    This is the best church album, and I had felt that about U#23. I love MWP, but I do love IH now too, as he was part of this great masterful painting.
    Every song on F/D is perfection, especially live.
    Dark metallic leviathans patrolling the murky seas.
    Everyone in top form, transcending, at one with vibrant sound and I guess I’m only temporary like a love song, flowing by.
    Eternal gratitude and love.

  33. avatar
    Fireseed | 24 March 2015 at 7:09 am #

    The Church back in England at last – happy days!

    Can’t wait for June 4th…

  34. avatar
    iceebass | 26 March 2015 at 1:39 pm #

    I have never gone out of my way to correspond or meet anyone in the band since following your music in the mid-80’s. I guess I always figured why ruin my love for your music by meeting any of you at a bad time. But sitting here still being touched by your Chicago show 3 weeks later I had to catch up on your blog and thank you for doing this album and tour. I see the comments on here about how you can tell that the fans understand if this turned out to be the last US tour (and believe me I do understand)and that you feel like you’re “out of the game”. I experienced many highlights that chilly night at The Double Door. Sealine, Vanishing Man and Laurel Canyon blended in perfectly with the classic choices and neglected nuggets. More than that I met new friends there that were Church-freaks and we talked about Pete and your solo work. So, by the time me and my girlfriend left a half hour after the show and deciding to pick up your Tarot book “later online”(another thing I’m kicking myself for)I find out that Kraig and a couple other friends that I met that night got to meet you and the rest of the band. I’m happy that they were happy. You made them happy Steve. Live and love your family and enjoy your life…but don’t ever kick yo’ self! Thanks for this last go round. Jeff

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    Beatle#9 | 27 March 2015 at 11:26 pm #

    Just watched the Amoeba Records full set.Enjoyed it muchly.Esp. yr comedy !

  36. etta
    etta | 29 March 2015 at 8:31 am #

    The new nothing new!

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