posted on July 16, 2008 at 1:54 am

its fucken weird being me
i mean
presumably youre interested in me
or why read this bloody blogge at all
i dont really know what its like to be anybody else
i admit it
not in this lifetime at any rate
course ive been other people in other lifetimes
i expect….
i ‘m so bloody olde
yet i feel so young inside
bursting with ideas
that no ones really probably interested in
howcome i dont care about all that stuff
othermen need so bad?
fancy food….i could eat peanut butter on toast everynite
wine….who cares …its all the same after the first drop
sport …watching the game with the lads.. loathsome
fake bosoms…….scares the hell outta me
fake suntans…….’orrible
anorexic bints on paris catwalk…….meaningless tedium
watching telly….ive got better things to do
goss rags….c’mon…!
yet another people live for these things
the popey is having some do on here at bondi today
buses pull up disgorging backpack wearing flag waving “youth”s
we could hear the soundcheck at the pool this morning
quote from old digger “theyve got a fucken rapping cardinal….”
can you imagine being a “youth”
with the wherewithal to fly round the world
and you choose to show up in sydney
in the middle of fucken winter
to hear some silly olde german git
speaking italian
about some olde jewish malarkey
that may or may not have ever happened
and so badly mangled and mistranslated
and misinterpreted
and misunderstood
and the main character
mr jesus h christ
would certainly hate the popey and his helicopter
and his huge p.a. belting out disco-ish slop
and his costume and his hat…especially the hat
and all the murder n mayhem the popeys organization represents
yet the bloody “youth”s are flocking to this festival of inanity
the press gush and go on n on non
am i going mad or what?
is everyone asleep out there…?
we can invent supersonic aeroplanes that do 2000 miles an hour
but we accept mediocrity and bullshit like we’re all in some
incredible trance
if there is a god does he need the pope?
its like me speaking on behalf of the fucking moon….
steven the first, the mope
“the moon wants this, the moon wants that…”
the popey is blatant absurdity..yet no one says much
they just let it go on non
just like the stupid kings n queens still hanging around
people…it was the kings n queens
n popes that have always sucked us dry
wise up ferchristssake
i was at the hall o fame the other night
this guy came on
and sang this olde rolf harris song
2 little boys had 2 little toys
a cloying mawkish little nursery rhyme number at its best
but in this guys hands
i wanted to tear my ears off rather than hear another note
such was the coy cutesy schlurppy nausea of his version
changing chords to sevenths or whatever on his electric piano
he reinterpreted this stinker adding his own brand of whimsy
that should have had the crowd pelting him with food and drink
after all this was the kinda of twee slop that rock was suppose to annihilate
but here we all are clapping after the dribble mercifully ended
was i the only one so squirmingly embarrassed by this bilge?
you see films like that too
or tv shows
so abysmally woeful
so devoid of any subtlety or passion or intrigue or imagination
am i the only geezer in the world looking for that sorta thing…?
am i the only one tired of plastic surgeried scrubbers and dance routines?
or medieval epics where the warriors quip smart-arse one liners
to each other in american accents
look you just dont have american accents in narnia or middle earth
or in 1215 or what/whenever ….why cant they see that…?
wolves in narnia dont talk like a chigago gangster
no more would hucklefuckingberry finn talk like john cleese
yes and im including australian accents in there too
you couldnt have a bloody aussie merlin…could ya?
” c’mon there young artha…dont be a bloody mug
c’mon old son pull that fucken sword outta the stone !’
why does rank mediocrity prevail in this vale of tears?
conversely it means the really good guys never get their just vegan desserts
eg vincent van gogh
never sold a painting while he was alive
cos the people around him were blinded by the idiocy of the zeitgeist
sad but true
over n out


40 Responses to “decider”

  1. avatar
    kat | 16 July 2008 at 3:17 am #


    i’m not into the pope, politics, or tv. & i am old & young at the same time, guess its ok but it could create some conflicts.

    i am into….. heydey! it got here today. i didn’t get my p=a poster, but its ok, it wouldn’t sing to me anyway. (or would it?!)


  2. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 16 July 2008 at 3:49 am #

    as a rule i don’t watch very much television ‘cos i’m kinda busy in the evenings and i do have better things to do, but i do agree that most of the programs offered up are absolute shit…my friends around the corner from me have pay tv and still there’s nothing worth watching…although i freely admit to being an x files freak, will always be…
    give me a good book or good music any time…am curious about the new batman movie so i might go and see it…
    hi gen x, lovely to hear you’re still around, peace and love…
    love always…

  3. avatar
    gazbosue | 16 July 2008 at 3:51 am #

    religion would be better if you
    cut out the “middleman”

  4. avatar
    Melquiades | 16 July 2008 at 3:51 am #

    you’re not the only Steve. I see through the delicate thin veneer. the willingness of the people to accept what they think is “safe”. Applaud what is medicore and stupid. I get caught up in these aggravating conversations where someone will be talking about some bullshit neo-country star (for instance) and how their voice and their ass look and sound so good. Is this what music is? This is just a specific off the top of my head example. I usually don’t make ripples I will march off outro from the conversation making soft acceptance to what is really boiling on the inside with this lazy, insipid talk. I try to look at it like, “To Each Their Own”….”Harm No Others Do As Ye Will”.. but, it does harm me. So, do I act the critic? I don’t know.

    There’s beauty, there’s mediocrity, and there’s just plain stupid evil run in unequal measure all over this great, crazy existence (it’s not just a sphere anymore).

    I just tend to negate all my criticisms that enter my head with equal and opposite arguments.

    but yes, there is a great sleep that inhabits most of the people. I think it’s GW and his cronies amping up the wavelengths on HAARP.

    We’re tainted as a species by the water we drink, the air we breathe, the streets we drive.

  5. avatar
    craig1.618 | 16 July 2008 at 3:51 am #

    you’re not alone in your sentiment

    i feel that way too

    i think it’s a dumbing down the puppeteers are after

    that way it’ll be easy to march lockstep in their jackboots all over us

    i try not to think of myself as the paranoid type

    but some of them aren’t gonna be satisfied until they cattleprod that chip straight into our soul

    however…i don’t believe they will succeed

    a return to light, service to others, whatever you wanna call it is fast approaching for those who chose this path

    i’m not trying to sound all new-agey but there are more waking up every day

    it’s just that there are still alot of folks who are still sound asleep

    but i’m sure you know all this

    so i’ll stop there

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 3:57 am #

    Senstional post today

    Brilliant rant


  7. avatar
    the dean | 16 July 2008 at 4:08 am #

    You’re not alone in your distaste of the mundane and inane.

    The old lowest common denominator factor which the media feed us.

    I equate being a young Christian to designating oneself dull, boring and sexless.

  8. avatar
    Richard | 16 July 2008 at 4:30 am #

    why think when there are so many prepared to do our thinking for us?

  9. avatar
    matt davison | 16 July 2008 at 5:15 am #

    I am depressed and watching Animal planet 44 hours a day…They are the only things that make sense to me at the moment.

    As for ye Ol popey visit….I just see it all as a massive industry of deceipt, as vile and dangerous as the Gaming machine industry, spilt out all around this country and the world.

    It’s all for power and control

    Those jack ass wealthy Kath”lick” krooners are just targeting the young ones now…

    God luck to em….


  10. avatar
    princey | 16 July 2008 at 6:10 am #

    You must see so much fakeness out there on the sandy beaches of Bondi, the enhanced&distorted boobys, butts, calves, chins, manboobys, lips and noses all coated in a burnt-orange tan is so disgusting and sad, glad you think so too sk!.
    Love Amanda

  11. avatar
    Queen Hatshepsut | 16 July 2008 at 7:11 am #

    Quite a rant there Steven!! Well, you know what they say…’tis the opiate of the masses…and passives…??

    No offence to any Catholics or any believers but belief in the realm of organized religion has never, ever been possible for me. I cringe. I think it’d be a much easier life if I could just accept that which I cannot accept. Ha.

    I just left a school where the new and celebrated 5th grade teacher CANNOT SPELL a word to save her life and ADMITS she can’t even teach her class basic 5th grade (10-11 year olds) grammar. She happily admits she doesn’t ever read, doesn’t like to read. I was utterly gobsmacked. How do you encourage 30 kids to love reading when you hate it and don’t do it? Is that not the pinnacle of hypocrisy? Reading is so central to the entire theme of academia, education, and teaching. Reading IS education IMHO. I don’t expect everyone to eat books like I do, but really – a teacher who hates reading????? How is that possible? How are you not embarrassed in front of your colleagues when you hand out projects you’ve typed up for the kids and it says “BOOK REPOT” instead of “BOOK REPORT.” Sweet Mother of God, there IS a spell check on the computer! Anyway, now I’m ranting. But this woman was LAUDED and everyone acted like she was the best educator in the world and I just thought “the entire educational system is built on the celebration of mediocrity.” I love to teach but hate the system I have to teach in. It sucks.

    BTW, the art historian in me (can’t let that degree go to total waste!) must correct one tiny thing – van Gogh did sell one painting in his life. Just one. But I shan’t quibble – his genius wasn’t recognised and I think it’s fair to say his life was rather torturous. Quiet desperation, indeed.

    love you SK – keep on making us feel like we’re not so crazy!

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 8:04 am #

    it don’t mean a sing,if it aint got that theme.:)x

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 8:08 am #

    I saw a play today, The Persecution and Assassination of Jean-Paul Marat as Performed by the Inmates of the Asylum of Charenton Under the Direction of the Marquis de Sade by Peter Weiss. My favorite part was this dialogue (God bless internet for allowing me to quote this perfectly without any damage to Weiss’s creation):

    * Every death even the cruellest death
    drowns in the total indifference of Nature
    Nature herself would watch unmoved
    if we destroyed the entire human race
    I hate Nature
    this passionless spectator this unbreakable iceberg-face
    that can bear everything
    this goads us to greater and greater acts
    o Sade, act 1, scene 12 (p. 24)

    Against Nature’s silence I use action
    In the vast indifference I invent a meaning
    I don’t watch unmoved I intervene
    and say that this and this are wrong
    and I work to alter them and improve them
    The important thing
    is to pull yourself up by your own hair
    to turn yourself inside out
    and see the whole world with fresh eyes
    Marat, act 1, scene 12 (pp. 24-25)

    I thought I was going to write something tasteful for you but I lost my forces before this tracked-down recollection. Anti-miracleland of Copy & Paste.
    After all, it’s July 16th and nothing matters more than hazy forests encapsuled in saturnine concerts. The part that shocked me the most when I saw “Reptile” video for the first wild mountain thyme, the part that remained with me for long hours after I watched it was you solidly and fake-slowly walking backwards to where it was darker, right there next to Ploog. You didn’t disappear but you left the center, that was for sure. As the missing piece you were more present than ever while Koppes and Piper faded out in their guitars’ running blood.
    Beauty and Mystery, the most dangerous and rewarding companions we can have. And it’s tougher and tougher to walk into your own past and exist in your own present (Yoga’s best lesson) in this mega-i-byte-you world in eternal service of “a better future”. How many calories will I burn tomorrow, how many hours will I spend at the traffic tomorrow, how much money will I make tomorrow etc etc etc. We can’t contemplate anymore. All human discoveries depend on contemplating nature and all we con-template today is a screen in its multi-no-incarnations. Still, I’m here in this ether of interaction.

  14. avatar
    Leelinau | 16 July 2008 at 8:13 am #

    P to the Q


  15. avatar
    todd goninon | 16 July 2008 at 8:24 am #

    I was surprised at the youth interest in the pope and the catholic church shown here recently. I guess that is all some people know. Still, the world is a smorgasbord and it is up to each of us to choose for ourselves what we will consume. That’s the beauty of it, so many choices!

  16. avatar
    rubikon | 16 July 2008 at 8:40 am #

    Very, very true Steve.

    Most people just seem to be asleep, unaware, not really alive.

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 9:16 am #

    What gets me is that the last pope had been compelled to do forced labour by the nazis – and they replace him with some fucker who was in the Hitler Youth…for fuck’s sake!

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 11:58 am #

    you need a good sense of humour to tolerate the idiots which polulate this planet…

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 12:00 pm #

    yeah polulate for sure…a cross between populating and polluting…

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 12:59 pm #

    Steve, about these Ronnie Dio rumours…

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 1:37 pm #

    Goodness, see how right I was last night, I love it when I’m right, Anon 1:21am, in answer, no, I won’t go away, ha ha ha. Make me, ner ner ner. Can you swim? Obviously you’re not a local, good, but what else can I do to wind you up. The bloke with the former Aussie girlfriend might not have been the scumbag after all, he did afterall have an Australian girlfriend, but gee, did something pop out from behind him.
    Matriarchy is as sexist/discriminating as patriarchy, anon 1:21 thank you for demo.
    And what blind girl? Have you got a brain? Heard lots of gossip but never anything about SK and a blind girl. What blind girl, I wanna hear that story. Tell us SK, what about you and the blind girl. I heard about the news chick In Melbourne, and I even heard some gossip about me supposed to be dead or dying, and other horrible stuff, supposedly said by SK and his entourage in my home country…just gotta get that Affidavit, because, obviously it is all very very serious stuff.
    Can anon 1:21 swim? I wanna see that, I want to. We Aussies love being entertained. That’s why the Pope’s here.

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 1:48 pm #

    Go easy on Rolf, Kilbster…he loves animals, y’know. Big advocate.

  23. avatar
    ross b | 16 July 2008 at 1:58 pm #

    howcome i dont care about all that stuff
    othermen need so bad?

    i often ask meself the same thing

    sport …watching the game with the lads.. loathsome


    watching telly….ive got better things to do

    you’re my kinda fella!

  24. avatar
    SweatyWheels | 16 July 2008 at 2:13 pm #

    Steve, du är inte ensam.

  25. avatar
    CSTCoach | 16 July 2008 at 2:43 pm #

    ahh sk, you’ve summed it up as usual.

    i fucking loathe tv – i can’t imagine why anyone cares about this tripe, and “reality” tv?? whoever sold that one must be laughing their asses off. get a bunch of people who can’t act and aren’t in the union, who are just happy to be there in the first place (so you don’t have to pay them much), create a scenario any kid could have come up with, and just turn on the cameras and go have a drink someplace. Please!

    it always reassures me when someone feels that their intelligence has been insulted by tv. why is that so rare?

    same for movies. i can’t sit through them anymore, at least the hollywood tripe. its so bad i feel embarassed for them. and then just angry and insulted that someone felt this was “good enough”.

    watching sports, or even playing sports? can’t stand it. why live vicariously through someone else’s life when you can live your own? “We won! Our team won!” No, you didn’t do anything, they did.

    Fake breasts and other enhancements – ditto. There’s nothing more attractive than someone who is confident in their own shell.

    wine – gotta disagree with you there. i think its alchemy. then again, i was never a conneseuir of the drug realms – to each his own draught.

    Jeez, sorry bout the rant, but you hit a good one there Killa.

    (by the way, what have you got against the pope’s hat? and what do you consider the coolest headgear? fez? pith helmet? fedora worn at a rakish angle?)

  26. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 16 July 2008 at 2:43 pm #

    The Pope is a cat lover. Forgive me St. Martin De Porres for reading today’s anti-Catholic blog but Kilbey had some irrefutable perspectives regarding the pomp, vainglory and deification of the Pope. It’s almost as offensive as the glorification of movie stars and Bono and Prince and so on.

  27. avatar
    g'day y'pack a ozzie bahstads | 16 July 2008 at 2:46 pm #

    What’s that, Skip? Y’ve done yer dash n spat the dummy? There’s a tinny in a dunny at Wup-Wup? Strewth! Stone the fucken crows!

  28. avatar
    Bionaut | 16 July 2008 at 4:09 pm #

    Brian: I’m not the Messiah! Will you please listen? I am not the Messiah, do you understand? Honestly!
    Girl: Only the true Messiah denies His divinity.
    Brian: What? Well, what sort of chance does that give me? All right! I am the Messiah!
    Followers: He is! He is the Messiah!
    Brian: Now, fuck off!
    Arthur: How shall we fuck off, O Lord?


    Brian: Please, please, please listen! I’ve got one or two things to say.
    The Crowd: Tell us! Tell us both of them!
    Brian: Look, you’ve got it all wrong! You don’t NEED to follow ME, You don’t NEED to follow ANYBODY! You’ve got to think for your selves! You’re ALL individuals!
    The Crowd: Yes! We’re all individuals!
    Brian: You’re all different!
    The Crowd: Yes, we ARE all different!

    -Life of Brian

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 4:09 pm #

    Steve, you were right about not engaging with the whacko at 11.37. Shoulda listened to the Being.

  30. avatar
    davem | 16 July 2008 at 8:08 pm #

    Read TTB.
    Listen to The Church.

  31. avatar
    ^jax | 16 July 2008 at 8:15 pm #

    when do we get another sk video?

  32. avatar
    fantasticandy | 16 July 2008 at 8:29 pm #

    i see the axe-grinder is at play again…….

  33. avatar
    eek | 16 July 2008 at 9:03 pm #

    why does rank mediocrity prevail in this vale of tears?

    Because most people are average. I looked up mediocre in a thesaurus and these were the synonyms listed:

    acceptable, adequate, average, common, commonplace, fair, indifferent, inferior, mean, medium, middling, moderate,
    normal, ordinary, passable, pedestrian, presentable, prosaic, second-rate, serviceable, so-so, tolerable

    You are a fringe dweller Steve, but most people aren’t — most people are smack dab in the middle, and those are the people most targeted by people interested in making money or gaining power. And even the most extraordinary among us often have their “average” parts which can be satisfied by things which may be considered mediocre (for example the intellectual who also loves mindless action flicks). Mediocrity prevails because it sells. The methods may have changed over the years and the marketing to the middle is more in-your-face than ever, but society (and the people seeking power or profit) has always catered to the middle (even if it’s just to keep them content so they can be more easily controlled). That’s just the way it is, and I suspect it’s the way it always has been and always will be.

  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 16 July 2008 at 9:20 pm #

    Good morning.x:)

  35. avatar
    steve kilbey | 16 July 2008 at 9:40 pm #

    anymore malarkey on my comments will be deleted

  36. avatar
    knot | 16 July 2008 at 10:28 pm #

    I don’t think the Catholic Church needs to be mediocre. If you consider that the faith has contributed tremendously as far as art, architecture, literature, education, music and social charity…religion utterly aside.

    Yes at times it has been terribly repressive. But, isn’t it better to work for reform? I come from a long line of Catholics, I would say we have been Catholic since 900 a.d. when no doubt we were forcibly converted from paganism in Ireland. Can’t turn back the clock, so let’s deal with the faith as it stands.

    Like many liberal Catholics, I work towards positive change. You can not assume that we all believe in utter lack of birth control, a hatred for homosexuals, misogynist bigotry, or a deep distrust of scientific method.

    I really don’t think you are going to get the same sense of majesty and ritual going to a Unitarian church (sorry Unitarians) as you would going to Mass and having the Agnes Dei roll over you.

    Personally, I find it very disappointing that Rome is so terribly conservative as to elect the very worst of the hidebound to “lead” us. We are a long way away from Vatican II. I certainly don’t care for the teachings of St. Paul. Could you find a more notable woman hater?

    And Buddhists are very nice, I have known some, sure. But are they in Africa, serving the HIV positive? Or in India, bathing the lepers…hmm.

    Regardless, religion is always a choice, and I believe we all have the chance to improve ourselves through faith, however we may express it. (unless you are Anton LeVay, of course.)

    St.Thomas More said it well. § “You must not abandon the ship in a storm because you cannot control the winds….What you cannot turn to good, you must at least make as little bad as you can.”
    –Utopia, CWM, v. 4, pp. 99, 101

  37. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 July 2008 at 6:35 am #

    why you so enamoured of v.v.gogh stevie. could paint a little, coupla pretty things. but the guy was a rabid stinking shit… think of you at your worst then magnify by 10.

  38. avatar
    ross b | 17 July 2008 at 2:15 pm #

    re tv here’s a good rant i’ve stumbled upon during tonight’s blog tripping, by a Jason Miller of ‘Cyrano’s Journal’…

    And we “comfort ourselves” by wallowing in the fetid sewage that flows freely from our idiot boxes, enslaving our minds to the Bernays-inspired propaganda that ensures our fealty to a system that is murdering the planet and rotting our souls. Reality television provides us with the twisted wreckage and bloody corpses of a horrific car wreck, piquing our morbid curiosity and distracting us from the prick of conscience or any thought of doing something really stupid, like perhaps ending our rape of the Earth. Kens and Barbies, “sage” analysts, establishmentized minorities, and “populists” pulling down six figures or better (all of whom enunciate, dress, and smile to sickeningly unnatural perfection, mind you), deliver the “news” and affirm the “rightness of our Whiteness.” Television is truly a balm to our diseased souls.

    nice words eh?

  39. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2008 at 2:48 am #

    malarkey, jibberish & nonsense..

  40. avatar
    lily was here | 19 July 2008 at 10:47 am #

    Im with you all the way on TV and film, except I, must admit, cant help watching Top Gear on SBS -non-apology!

    Archie Roach could’ve sung Two Little Boys really movingly y’know (imagining the part where he gets to ‘did you think i would leave you dying’. Murderous TF — off with his ‘ead!


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