posted on November 24, 2010 at 9:53 pm

ascent of man

lamb

i am so angry

i ve been a stupid ive been a clown

i ve been trapped in my story

while scarlet stares at the ice on hornsgatan

and the christmas stars

its 5 am there lamb

what is she dreaming in her warm little bed

wheres my pet foot ? i ask her

its gone to sleep ….she says dreamily

hello i’m saying down a phone on a little beach

the ionian sea wraps a double bay

my shipwrecked posse gone down jammin’

i washed up on this career strand asking for help

we sit in the bath soaking in missions lotion

is anything happening to you ?i ask kathy

i look at her breasts in the dim candle light

i watch the warm glow hug at them

her nipples remain raspberry like

i sink down deeper into a suitcase with a false bottom

i buy some new shoes these will look good my sister had said

she could wear the same size as me

she found a shirt for me to wear

i put in on lamb

i looked in the mirror at some old cat in shorts n a fancy shirt

oh that looks good kathy said but i couldnt be sure

we walked around a bit together thru the monaro mall

what year is this mister someone asked me in thetis court

i turned to kathy but she had wandered off

the bathwater grew cold i climbed out i left her in there

my head was clouded my eyes all misted

i had displaced my weight in water

the front door was open

i stood in the night quite nude and innocent

the warm water turned cold on my skin

my skin moved over my bones and my flesh was as stone

kathy i said on the phone on the beach

but as i woke up my hair was full of sand

an old morning had dawned all sold or pawned

a tired grey sky

the same drab planes were coming in from hypothetical city

the sea churned and sloshed at the razor sharp shells

a fishermans boat a lone gull

no mermaids no mermen no treasure no exotica

a yacht on the horizon

a couple of the opera house sails

premature evening hovers like an ardent suitor

i see you in the darkness then lamb

i see you before me wandrin’ the fertile night

i still hear kathy splashing in her bath

i still see dad fighting in his war

the cards were to tell my fortune

and they did in spades

more ardent suitors on the phone for lamb

who followed me to school one day it was against the fucking rules

gee my new shirt looks good tho i say to my ‘maginary audience

kathy says theres skulls on yer shoes

boy she got things done fast

i forget how everything works

i cant find the instructions for my particular model

the fragrant evening caresses my tingling hide

music smeared across silence

flowers started to fade

alright

lets talk tomorrow

30 Responses to “displacement”

  1. avatar
    lily was here | 24 November 2010 at 10:53 pm #

    Someone said to me today:
    “marriage is like a deck of cards
    In the beginning all u need is two hearts and a diamond
    but by the end you’ll wish you had a club and a spade!”
    I think i like your Tarot deck more
    Heading north soon sk, onward soldier! Knock’em dead
    xo

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 25 November 2010 at 8:21 am #

      Lily-

      That was the funniest thing i’ve heard in a very long time. Thanks for the laugh and if your livin in the states as i, have a great Big Bird Day.

      AsAlways,
      Darrin K.

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      princey | 25 November 2010 at 9:11 am #

      haha, I like that!!

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    Narelle Parsons | 24 November 2010 at 11:50 pm #

    Maybe it was the early seventies. The Monaro Mall…….so many memories……so much fun!! Where did you go from there?? Take care.

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 25 November 2010 at 1:35 am #

    SK-

    Have a great show 2marro to start the tour. I know you and the guys will knock them dead. I cant wait to see if you changed up the ‘setlist’ , different then the one you played to perfection here in the states. I wish you well and good luck on the tour. Be well and safe.

    Personally-i hope everything is progressing and improving on the home front. NK is a strong, sensitive and intelligent woman. She obviously is a incredible mother, that evidence is daily displayed in the 3 angels you two share. Conceived from love, please do your very best to heal your soul and personal life, because your true strength flourishes from the love that surrounds you. And sadly, at home, you are alone right now.

    AsAlways,
    Darrin K.

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    dwellingwell | 25 November 2010 at 4:51 am #

    i ve been trapped in my story
    i washed up on this career strand asking for help
    i look at her breasts in the dim candle light
    i watch the warm glow hug at them
    her nipples remain raspberry like
    my skin moved over my bones and my flesh was as stone
    a tired grey sky
    the same drab planes were coming in from hypothetical city
    the sea churned and sloshed at the razor sharp shells
    a fishermans boat a lone gull
    no mermaids no mermen no treasure no exotica
    a yacht on the horizon
    a couple of the opera house sails
    premature evening hovers like an ardent suitor
    i see you in the darkness then lamb
    i see you before me wandrin’ the fertile night
    the cards were to tell my fortune
    and they did in spades
    i cant find the instructions for my particular model
    the fragrant evening caresses my tingling hide
    music smeared across silence
    flowers started to fade

  5. avatar
    Freddie | 25 November 2010 at 5:23 am #

    What a coincidence; I can’t find the instructions for my model either!
    I think I misplaced it back in highschool, back when I knew everything.
    ;^)
    xoxox

  6. avatar
    Jonny Hollywood | 25 November 2010 at 6:26 am #

    love you esskay, I promise everything will be okay…

  7. avatar
    princey | 25 November 2010 at 8:38 am #

    It’ll get better sk. Sending you a hug and hope tonight’s gig with your band mates and adoring punters, cheers you up a smidgen 🙂
    Love on ya,
    Amanda

  8. avatar
    edd | 25 November 2010 at 9:02 am #

    “music smeared across silence”……..yes

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    veleska1970 | 25 November 2010 at 9:04 am #

    love the photo.
    .
    good luck with the tour kickoff tomorrow. (well, i guess for you it’s now this evening.) wish i could be there.
    .
    safe travels, my friend.
    .
    lotza love….

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    Donna | 25 November 2010 at 11:04 am #

    Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Steve, I dunno…this one’s hard for me to follow. Not sure what’s fact, what’s fiction, what these references are about…and who’s Kathy? Anyway, hope you’re making the best of your time while your daughters are away. Enjoy your day…

  11. avatar
    bionicanna | 25 November 2010 at 1:14 pm #

    love the white heat energy in that pic, like a cleansing fire. y’all have a blissful show!

  12. avatar
    . | 25 November 2010 at 1:51 pm #

    there’s more out there, more than we’ll ever know
    maybe we’ll fly off the edge, maybe we’ll plunge to a new low
    outside, beneath the shadow of the moon, winter glow
    I have no fear, I’ll teeter the edge just to see below
    tradition no longer an impediment, no longer a stronghold
    it’s what you get when patience is devoured, just let it go…
    into the glass calm sea i cast off again, wind blows cold
    it’s not what you’re told to do, it’s just what you know…
    the instructions were there, but i was never, ever told
    how to reinvent this chapter as i perceive and grow old

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    neptune | 25 November 2010 at 2:49 pm #

    “music smeared across silence”

    love that

    so when the music stops, then silence must be smearing the music, then?

    take care, and happy day to you, Mr. Kilbey.

    Love will find a way.

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    david | 25 November 2010 at 4:28 pm #

    your getting scorched right now dude . like a saint..i know you jack..i seen mistakes so ugly they crawl off the walls ..ive found this… FTD faster than darkness ..its faster than light ..cause its already there ..its my human condition time machine and its quite conditional..jus ask my dad, or your dad for that matter or our mother ..any how you cant seem to shake that feelig ive had ..im sure well both try harder in the darkness ..

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    captain mission | 25 November 2010 at 5:02 pm #

    oh man, i hope i didn’t create a big expectation, with that birthday gift.
    i had a massive smoke and jumped in the bath and the next thing i knew i was being abducted by elves and the faery folk, it was as though i had slipped into some strange portal.

    during winter i became addicted to having these late night baths, i’d finish work late and drive home, have a cheeky spliff while i ran the bath. one particular night i was busted for speeding and the police man, a spotty 17 year old with a gun, uniform, and a speeding radar apparatus and attitude started asking me why i was speeding.

    ‘so i can go home to have my special bath, jump through the portal and be abducted by pixies.’

    now i have to go to court next week and request they don’t take my license from me.
    we live in strange times. a man can’t indulge in some inter dimensional travel in his own bath anymore, whatever next?

    anyways i am sorry if the potion failed to work for you, smoke a big spiff and try again. those portals are temperamental elemental technology and maybe it’s just the good weed i smoke these days. still you got to share a bath with a friend, that’s gotta be a good thing. happy birthday.

    • avatar
      DavidP | 26 November 2010 at 12:42 am #

      In my experience, it’s not worth it and its not what you think it is. I know some who have said this sort of thing in the end only left them hurting, sad and dull, myself included. Is it worth it? There’s a harmful esoteric side to it all as well.

      Sincerely,
      dp

  16. avatar
    Karen | 25 November 2010 at 5:20 pm #

    m jon nevin jr said on farce book “I love you esskay..
    cute saying esskay

    we all do in our funny ways in here w out knowing you:O

    funny little weirdd.. ppls we are..ok I’ll speak for myself I am 🙂

    anyways tall slim poetic handome man of many talents
    It will be all ok..
    just play that funky music white boy.. I know yr missing yr kids and wife

    keep swimming too
    kj

  17. avatar
    Karen | 25 November 2010 at 5:25 pm #

    dropped my s handome? :

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    TAZ | 25 November 2010 at 5:40 pm #

    Yes sir, this is the great plateau… but continue forward a hundred paces or so and the stairway to the next level will be on your left… if you can’t see too well in the dim light just listen for the silence amidst the clamor… the warm air wafting down should smell like the morning air after a night’s rain… leave your belongings at the doorway to the stairs… they are thrown out as they won’t work up there anyway… oh, and from what I hear they don’t speak our tongue and our money is no good… there are rumors that they make you wait until you have forgotten something before they let you understand what it is they mean when they do nothing in response to your queries… something to do with wanting nothing in exchange for everything that you will need to make the long journey through the barren desert that lies ahead- riddled with mines, patches of quicksand and strange creatures with faces like humans and bodies like fish… some have said they are the one’s who had never made it across… they lie in groups floundering in the day’s heat, motioning you with their eyes to turn back… I am just the doorman, but if you ask me, what is there to turn back to anyway? After all, whatever it was that made you come here would still be waiting for you when you got back to wherever it was that you were. And in due time surely you’d be back here again… Pardon me good sir, I am just the doorman, pay no mind to my rantings. I know nothing of these things… straight ahead good sir.

  19. avatar
    Lyndall | 25 November 2010 at 6:46 pm #

    Don’t be too hard on yourself – unless you’re Mother Theresa, we all get trapped in our own story from time to time. Unfortunately, it is the hectic, demanding, treadmill-like world we need to survive in. I take my hat off to you – I really do… Looking in from where I sit YOU HAVE STAYED TRUE TO YOURSELF AND YOUR ART… YOU LOVE YOUR FAMILY… Very admirable traits indeed! You have brought great joy to many and your music has gotten many of us through our own personal rocky times… Be kind to yourself…DO YOUR THING… I hope your upcoming 30th Anniversary gigs give to you as much as you give to others. I hope you can absorb all the love, good-will and good energy from the crowd. I hope every gig is sold out! Take care L x

  20. avatar
    Melissa | 25 November 2010 at 7:39 pm #

    Hi sk, just swingin’ by to say hi 🙂 and to wish you all the very best for tonight’s opening show!

    Can’t wait to hear all about it and very much looking forward to seeing my favouritist band very soon.

    xx

  21. avatar
    andy | 25 November 2010 at 8:20 pm #

    wow!
    all these sold-out shows.
    someone in delaware is very proud of you…..
    and so am i.

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    hellbound heart | 25 November 2010 at 8:24 pm #

    damn i was so sad when i was reading this……you really need a time of healing……you need your family, and i have no doubt they need you too…..

    love always……

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    dwellingwell | 25 November 2010 at 9:16 pm #

    I was just thinking about the Ancient Greek notion of “The Godz” . It functioned like some weird Metaphysical ride for them. The Godz were elemental/archetypal Meta portals that guided man’s relation with a personal aspect of nature. Like Poseidon, God of the Sea. Personalizing with such awe inspiring mystery was a kind of bridge to a disposition of open-ness and wonder towards the Sea as a living being. In an age of technology, the sea is just a filling station. A well of resources for extraction. . The Sea is no longer alive like it was to Ancient peoples. . The I-Ching is an ancient Chinese Metaphysical ride (cosmology) that springs one into a more natural way of seeing.Besides the actual Wilhelm translation in book form, this site works. They say it is an “Animated book” .. So here is how I do it: Go to : http://www.ichingonline.net/index.html
    In the question box, often I write: “Where am I at?” Click the tab below till the 6 lines of the Hexegram are built. If there are no changing lines, you will only get one Hexegram. If there are changing lines, you will get a changing line tab and a Transformed Hexegram tab. I open a text edit page. Highlight the Cast Hexegram. Paste it in the text edit page. Click “Changing line” Highlight that ..Type “Changing line” in the page and paste the changing line info in after that . Highlight the text of “Transformed hexegram” . Put that in the text edit page. Save File as current date or whatever. You can ask any Question you like .This is just how I normally do it so I can contemplate it on one page I save.

  24. avatar
    plumlady | 26 November 2010 at 3:27 am #

    Happy Turkey Day….this will be my last big pigout for awhile as I’m soon due to have surgery. I’m hoping that some of the drugs they send home with me will send me to the places Captain Mission has been…I’m looking forward to my bath also! The comments about time for healing and family sound like they are of special need to you Steve…I’m just catching up on old blogs and newspaper clippings and am sending you positive healing energies from across the globe.

  25. avatar
    onticsofton | 26 November 2010 at 6:01 am #

    Taz the doorman speaks of “Eternal return” . Such a slippery Nietzchean concept. A Metaphysical power tool.

  26. avatar
    Axman | 26 November 2010 at 11:27 am #

    You can be what ya wanna be, buddy… We’re all getting there, some more slowly than others. I’m still cleaning up messes from 1980…


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