posted on November 5, 2010 at 6:37 pm

strange days we live in

bad luck coming down the tube

weird coincidences abound

evil alignment

a hideous idiot causes more trouble for everyone

even hearing its voice makes my stomach churn

more drama more tension more angst

good things are happening too….!

i had a nice sold out gig in maitland nsw last night

yeah i did well

an evening with moi

i talk i sing i read i rave on n have a laff

i present an award on sunday at opera house

suddenly my marginal utility has increased

the church tour is selling well

my eldest twins turned up last week

tomorrow they leave with the doodles n scarlet

who are going to have 2 months in sweden incl/ white christmas

nk is going to the u.s. on sunday for some time

we need some time apart

i will be on my own n lord how i need a holiday

at least now i can get some work done

tho i will miss my kids bitterly

but i think they will enjoy sweden for a spell

i need a rest

im cracking up

one thing after another

blows for n against my empire

changing of the guard

no more hassles for a while i hope

im behind with my painting

im behind with my blogging

im behind with my music

im behind with my yoga n swimming

im behind with my emails

im behind with my friends who i have seemingly neglected

ive been tangled up in some stupid drama but soon i will be free

im just gonna do some reading n some writing

get my commissions done

enjoy summer

enjoy my tour

enjoy my own company

one day i will tell this story but its too raw now

i have some dear friends tho

i have a new personal manager whos gonna look after me

im gonna get stuck into what i do best : work!

looking forward to my church tour too

have you heard gb3 yet? its fucking great

kilbey kennedy coming soon

david neil is gonna get sorted

isidore is percolating in jeffrey cains brain

new church recordings

and loadsa wonderful showbiz opportunities

i need some space n time to recover from a mad sad bad six months

i need some peace n quiet n i need some friends

then i can churn out some more stuff i hope youll like

got some good people on my side

people liked my speech, eh?

yeah gimme my own fucking show then

wait till ya see me in my (borrowed ) expensive suit

premium sk coming soon on this site

there will be new stuff for the premium purchasers

its taking a bitta time but its coming

more music more vids more everything

sad to hear about james freud

i hate fucking alcohol

i’m sick of the chaos it causes

thats it i guess

im coming back better than ever

see you soon


goodbye woofle n doodles for a while

85 Responses to “doors open n close”

  1. avatar
    eekie | 5 November 2010 at 6:42 pm #

    Oh Steve, I’m so very sorry.
    No advice…just loads of love and support.


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    12str | 5 November 2010 at 7:14 pm #

    funny how life´s playing it´s tricks on us…there always something that evens up the score…as you say, your career´s in a flow and suddenly it´s turbulence in the personal sux! All the best for the future though SK. You deserve a break…take care

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    Melissa | 5 November 2010 at 7:55 pm #

    me too, lotsa love and hugs and good vibes xxxxxxxx

    please take care and if you ever need anything from us fiendss and friends, you just let us know, ‘k ????

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    GTRZ70 | 5 November 2010 at 7:59 pm #

    Take some time and take care Steve. L I F E is all swings n roundabouts, we get thrown off sometimes but we climb back on those damn things. Yes I’m all clumsily philosphical today!
    Tanya x

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      Cocoamo | 5 November 2010 at 9:48 pm #

      Dear Steve:

      I too am very sorry to hear this heartbreak is occurring.

      I got some good advice once about setting priorities. Priority one is your health. Priority two your family. And third is career.

      Without our health all else will eventually be lost. Your yoga and swimming are not frivolous or self indulgent, but crucial. I wish you could find a way to limit the volume of decibels you are exposed to, they will continually erode what viability your hearing still has.

      And of course you know any problems with your family will soon overwhelm both the career and your health, so those relationships are neglected at our peril. Of course, even in the most well nurtured relationship, you really can’t control another person. These things happen, sadly with frequency in human relationships.

      I have often wondered how NK dealt with the competition from your fans. There have been blatent offers to you made by females on your blog. And how could any spouse compete with the constant adulation we all give you? It must have been very hard for her. Add that to the financial uncertanties and long periods of absence from you. Many pressures on celebrity marriages.

      Most important, and of course you are ensuring this, is the care of the children–not the least emotionally.

      All that being addressed, then there will be a clear head to produce your art.

      I feel for your angst and the terrible empty void you are facing. You are a gregarious soul, so I hope with the tours and your manager you will be surrounded by loving support.

      Looks like the storm is finally over.

      Your friend in Pennsylvania (Now in Cocoa Beach)

      • avatar
        Donna | 10 November 2010 at 11:01 pm #

        Cocoamo – what a kind, thoughtful reply.

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    princey | 5 November 2010 at 8:05 pm #

    Hope it all works out for ya sk. You’ll always have our support here 🙂
    love Amanda

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    Anakki Mayhem | 5 November 2010 at 8:18 pm #

    hope u get the holiday u need, don’t have to hope the tour will kick butt coz i know it will (can’t wait to see the shows)… u & Ricky were SO great in Melby… wish i could’ve gotten to a GB3 show, hopefully there’s more in the future i can get to… take care, be well & find a happy place & i’ll see ya first show in Brizvegas,

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    hellbound heart | 5 November 2010 at 8:19 pm #

    i’m here if you want a shoulder to lean on….i know it probably doesn’t mean a hell of a lot, don’t really know me, but i’ll offer it anyway…..

    love always……

  8. avatar
    veleska1970 | 5 November 2010 at 8:53 pm #

    i hope everything works out for you. take care of yourself and we’ll see you soon.

    lotza love and hugs……

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    Ryan | 5 November 2010 at 8:57 pm #

    Feel the good things again, Steve. Yesterday’s news was devastating. He was becoming a friend. I was meeting James in 2011 when he brought his son’s band to Los Angeles. I don’t know you personally, but thank you for everything you do. I don’t expect anything – you’ve already given so much. Keep healthy. Best, Ryan

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    darkgrace | 5 November 2010 at 9:03 pm #

    Enjoyed your playing, reading and raving last night in Maitland, Steve.

    Hope the dramas you’ve been having don’t make you feel “tired and emotional” again.

    Take good care. I’m looking forward to the Church tour very much.


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    Todd | 5 November 2010 at 9:15 pm #

    Have a great break Steve.

    Keep the creations coming!

    P.S. Does anybody know if there is any video of Steve’s speech and the Church performance at the ARIA’s online? I have only seen a snippet with Richard Wilkins.

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    nic | 5 November 2010 at 9:39 pm #

    all very sad to read SK …
    marriage/partnerships are such hard work .. especially so after time … and children … and life … I hope that this time in solitude will be healing, soul-soothing and bring clarity ….
    with my own chaos of family life here (4 children!)… I too long for some moments of solitude … to find myself and ‘be’ myself … “enjoy my own company” like you said ….
    the timing sounds right though …solitude … and being able to immerse yourself in your music (and art) at a time when it is all happening for you musically ….
    I can imagine your heart aching for your girls … make sure you utilise Skype – its a wonderful link to your loved ones when they are miles and oceans away …
    take care of yourself …
    you have us all here in support of you, sending our positive and healing vibes via cyberspace … and by being the lucky ones to see you play live in the next few months …
    I know I am counting the sleeps ….
    much love,
    Nic xxxxx

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    nic | 5 November 2010 at 9:42 pm #

    ps. was also so sad to hear about James Freud … xxx

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    Karen | 5 November 2010 at 9:55 pm #

    Who wouldnt miss that gorgeous cherub standing next to you ,although if you need time it’ll be a happier dad they come back to.

    You will be busy you will have time to yourelf ( not too much time to yourelf not good either)

    hoping to be @ the berra gig In Dec
    take care & have a fruitful summer

  15. avatar
    Shoffy | 5 November 2010 at 10:02 pm #

    Good to see you’re getting it sorted. Good things on the way, sounds great, and yes you are behind with your blogging but we forgive you. Onwards and upwards, you will get there eventually mate. Shoffy

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    Georgia | 5 November 2010 at 10:02 pm #

    The girls will LOVE a White Winter and Solstice in Sweden….and the whole magick of this time of year. And I know how hard it is to move to another country-how wonderful and how challenging-so NK going home will be good for her too. Just to feel grounded and remember her own essence…

    As for you…take care of yourself…and regroup….focus on doing what matters to make yourself happy and healthy…

    Lots of healing love to all of you….

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    evernow | 5 November 2010 at 10:04 pm #

    Thanks for coming to Maitland SK. It was a great night ‘n’ we all had some fun. Looking forward to Lizottes. Rest up now – and then make some holes in that backlog.

  18. avatar
    Freddie | 5 November 2010 at 10:20 pm #

    Everyone needs some time alone from time to time. Sorry to hear that you’ve been going through a rough spot, perhaps some time will bring clarity. Sending good will to all of you. God bless!

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    . | 5 November 2010 at 11:22 pm #

    sounds like a really good plan
    keep it comin’ my good ol’ man
    boosters firing, gaining more altitude
    throttle up captain, do it with some attitude
    new planets to be discovered like the ones from before
    an open window, palm trees swaying, awake not sleeping, give us more…

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    paty | 5 November 2010 at 11:29 pm #

    i enjoy your words ,i enjoy your music ,i enjoy your paintings ,wish i could enjoy the church live once in my live .thank for every min.WAITING IN SPAIN

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 5 November 2010 at 11:59 pm #


    I feel for you. So many of us on this site are connected in ways that no one can explain or imagine. Many will second guess the travels of your girls, all many miles from you. The twins x 2 will have the times of their lives-they get to share experiences and secrets. Their time away will fly by in mere moments. A white xmas will be a memory that no1 can ever take from them. Scarlet will miss mommy and daddy, but the twins x 2 will keep her safe, fed, and surrounded with love. NK coming back to the states, needing a bit of time apart, I agree with this also. It is far better to search your soul than simply let go. Time does heal. Yes, it will be difficult on everyone-but the fact is ….it is needed in this lifetime. Time to work, paint, create, interact with those you miss, time to breathe. You have sounded like you have been spinning a little out of control. Now you can stand up-make a stand. You are very important to so many, and so many are important to you. Just please,please,please, dont stray into negative temptations. They will rear their ugly faces with friendly disguises-stay the course. You have too much to lose in a moment of gain.

    As for ‘gb3’ ….I am proud to inform you that it made it all the way to Chicago in perfect form. I have been anxiously waiting only to have it arrive yesterday. Wow…Philippa is a songbird, an angelic presence. GET THAT WOMAN TO THE STATES. We do not have a voice resonating in our borders like that. She is amazing. You are a incredible song writer. The opening track: Nectarine, is mesmerizing…she is incredible. Track 2: I din’t wanna know, is your strongest performance on this piece. The pulse and rhythm thru-out this album is fantastic. My son Alex said, while listening to it with me, that your voice is so unique that the first thing that comes to mind is that ‘is this a new church song’ only to answer his own question when Marty-Peter-Tim are not along side you in the melody of the song. Your signature ‘church’ sound cannot and will not ever be copied or duplicated. Overall, I give the ‘gb3’ disc 8.5 out of 10. Only because i would have liked to hear more of the angel in the wings. It is a great cd-PEOPLE…get your orders in !!!!!
    Well… have a great weekend. I will spend mine spinning the ‘gb3’ disc often so i can completely review it from all the way over here…in the windy city, and i will be painting for myself as a stress releif. Please take care of yourself, enjoy this time in your life. It will be a positive adventure. Do not let anyone attempt to turn it negative on you.

    With much love and admiration…
    Darrin K.

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 6 November 2010 at 9:18 am #

      I wrote this along time ago. It seems fitting now-

      A man climbs down from the pulpit, alter, mountain of life
      He smiles as he gazes around himself to finally be alone
      A wash of warmth embraces him, He knows this is his time
      He places pen to paper, words flow like rapids
      He places brush to canvas, beauty flows from within his hands
      He places an instrument of sound in grasp, sound washes away the silence
      The man smiles and gazes around himself, seeking acceptance in admiration
      But He is alone now-like never before
      No one to smile with
      No one to hold tightly
      No one to shed a tear for
      No one is near
      The man, sadly is alone
      By example
      By choice
      By himself

      Please enjoy this time to yourself, for yourself.
      It is not selfish, it by all means – is necessary.
      An artist exists to create, this you shall do as you have always done.
      We will all miss your family for you, along with you as you do.
      I believe this will be a great time of creation, and self discovery.
      Makes all of us proud, just as your adoring wife…daughters…brothers…and friends are always of you.

      Have a great Day !!!!

      Darrin K.

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    Lara | 6 November 2010 at 12:16 am #

    Though the cause of your “time off” may suck, I hope you can enjoy the chance to concentrate on what you want to do. I had a sabbatical last year–a much needed time away from teaching and admin obligations so I could focus on research. It was fantastic: I finally got out from under the feeling of time deficit. Now its back to wishing there was more time in the day and scrambling to get everything done. But the recharge was great. All the best wishes for yours.

  23. avatar
    Across the Water | 6 November 2010 at 12:36 am #

    Take care of yourself, Steve. Wishing you nothing but the best.

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    Cecilia | 6 November 2010 at 12:49 am #

    What Tanya and Eekie say, Melissa and 12str too.

    Shake off that old skin and head onwards and upwards. I don’t think any one of us is going away.
    Amor y paz.

  25. avatar
    Belfrank | 6 November 2010 at 12:53 am #

    Thinking of and sending love to you all SK.
    This is very sad, but you will all be fine in the long run.
    If you ever need me, you know how to find me.

  26. avatar
    Tristesse | 6 November 2010 at 12:58 am #

    Cast away the chains that bind
    Free the essence of your mind
    Find the strength within your heart
    To hold the love while you’re apart

    Ask not why it must be so
    There’s so much time, so much to know
    Believe with your heart and not your mind
    There’s so much out there you will find

    Trust the thoughts you don’t believe
    The truth that’s there will not deceive
    Things aren’t what you thought they’d be
    We’re out of place, but wait and see

    The time is soon to dream again
    And reminisce about what’s been
    For in your mind you’ll find a land
    Where you’re together, hand in hand

  27. avatar
    lily was here | 6 November 2010 at 1:11 am #

    All i can do is offer a big virtual hug, an ear when you need one, and comfort for your damaged soul. Much love x

    ps here’s a joke for the girls, or maybe Sunday night lol
    What is orange and sounds like a parrot?
    A carrot

  28. avatar
    stealth blue | 6 November 2010 at 1:20 am #

    Yeah, man, sorry things on the home front aren’t swingin’ too well these days. (From what it sounds like) I just had a feeling there was some “stuff” going on…your tone has been different. Maybe it’s a Virgo thing, but I picked up on it way back…little hints you dropped here and there. It’s always hard to witness from the outside I reckon. Although, there is all this other great stuff going on in your life, it’s never easy to see some one we love go through “domestic issues”, especially when it involves separation of sorts. I’m definitely happy for you and the band, and just hope the new momentum keeps on rolling. You guys are awesome, end of story. I just hope that whatever happens with your family life/situation is truly all for the best…for everyone involved. No doubt you will miss it. No lectures, just suport for you, my man. You know we’ll always love you, as I’m sure your family will too, including your wife. Life is weird like that I know. You are who your are, and that’s it. Thank GOD you are SK, the man we so admire, love and respect. I say “we” because I’m fairly confident most of us here feel the same. I’m sure you’ll hear a lot of shit from idiots and what not, but no one really knows what’s going on but you and your family. Period. We’ve known you for many, many years in a certain light, so do what you gotta do, Steve. With lots of love, support and respect…ALWAYS!

    Sincerly your friend, listener and student,
    Ben V.

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    bionicanna | 6 November 2010 at 3:40 am #

    i’d like to believe that the pain transmitted via empathy eases it at the source. don’t know if you like cats, but hopefully one or two will come along to keep you quiet company.

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    Jonny Hollywood | 6 November 2010 at 3:49 am #

    and all this time I thought I was playing your personal manager…lol hurry hurry step right up to see the fuckin’ show starring Steve Kilbey and Jonny Hollywood…

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 November 2010 at 4:28 am #

    2 degrees Celsius, frosty, dark, no snow yet, AND lovely.
    Welcome to Sweden kids!
    Take care Steve
    Lots of love

  32. avatar
    pennybridge | 6 November 2010 at 4:31 am #

    2 degrees celsius, dark, frosty, no snow yet AND lovely.
    Welcome to Sweden kids!
    Take care Steve
    Lots of love

  33. avatar
    Steven Krut | 6 November 2010 at 5:11 am #

    I wish only good things were happening for you.

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    dwellingwell | 6 November 2010 at 5:19 am #

    The big guns are spent with no more rooms for rent. I don’t believe you. But that’s ok. It’s amusing. Go vs Chess. How will the Empires crumble in their violet tumble ? The River stream ripples through your fabric just the same. And you will yeild to gravity and the Tao. You may get it somehow if you stay off the booze and narcissistic drugs. . High school is over. Get with the turning the queassy bees knees don’t see. But they will feel the rugs pull from under their feet. It is like a boomerang made of ether. Knocks you upside the head if it gets too big. Gotta tighten up your wig.. oh sure footed Ceasure.

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    Laurie Garrison | 6 November 2010 at 5:34 am #

    good, good, looking forward to the best work you do!

    hm, press #1 for drama eh? yeah, I know what cha mean, I think? It’s the Garrison Gossip line here. I make light and see the humor… some people don’t laugh until later. 🙂 It’s good blog material so I’ll stay tuned- makes life ‘interesting’ haha

  36. avatar
    cazziem | 6 November 2010 at 6:24 am #

    Everything happens for a reason sk! It may have been a sad, mad, bad 6 months of so, but when you hit the bottom the only way is up! much love. xx

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    JW | 6 November 2010 at 6:26 am #


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    DC | 6 November 2010 at 7:37 am #

    Be happy – always.

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    neptune | 6 November 2010 at 7:42 am #

    sending positive and happy vibes your way — sometimes time is good, altho often not that easy — But I think you clinched it when you said to enjoy time with yourself …. THAT, is a good attitude — the appreciating of yourself, and utilizing it to it’s full capacity. Hopefully things will eventually all work out for everyone’s best and happiness. One thing about time tho — you can’t get it back. Time I heard — is on your side. Glad that you got to see your elder twins, tho. I could tell between the lines that you were missing them.

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    esne snoner | 6 November 2010 at 7:50 am #

    thems straight words sk – had a feeling there were changes a-foot in the kilbey camp – sounds like you are in for a blissfully self-indulgent few months or more – may i quote back (again) one of the lines from one of your best tunes – one day i notice the world at my feet – prophetic stuff from a long time ago

    …and a personal manager – good move (michael the-band-that-got-away chugg?)

  41. avatar
    Jason (jmb066) | 6 November 2010 at 8:43 am #


    Coming back better than ever? WOW! we are all in for some great days ahead of us then. Please remember we love you and will support you always. Get some rest, I hope you got to spend some quality time with your oldest daughters. I think it is amazing that they are going to spend some time with your younger three. Good bonding for all of them and even though you will miss each other terribly it sounds like it will be great opportunity for them to spend time in Sweden with their older sisters. It will give you and your wife some time to realize whats missing when your all apart. No matter how it turns out take care of your family first, as excited as we all are for your future releases and the development of this site, your true friends/fans will be here no matter how long it takes to celebrate your success as it comes, your family is the priority. The Church is so long overdue and its exciting to hear how well things are going for you and the band at the moment. Yes your speech was amazing, and I am jealous we dont get the intimate shows like you do at home. Use this time well and take a moment to examine your personal and professional lives. We are here for you if you need us and support you always.


  42. avatar
    andy | 6 November 2010 at 8:58 am #

    i’m sure youv’e given your best in all matters steve…
    ‘shit happens’ as they say.

  43. avatar
    . | 6 November 2010 at 9:32 am #

    life has its’ hassles, that’s bad enough, right?
    hideous monsters at your front door looking for a fight
    never mind the pointy teeth that scrape in the night
    do as you’re doing…music, pen, painting, art…it’ll be alright
    peace be upon you, blissfully regenerate, have strength and might
    anxious fans await new material, inspiration, further groove and light…
    we’re all “endless as the sky” blue and wide, feel it…it’s not a lie…

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    Richard | 6 November 2010 at 10:40 am #

    like most precious things
    this time you now have
    is coming at a cost
    try to wring every bit of value out of it
    but make sure you do it for YOU
    don’t worry about catching up with your blogs, paintings, music etc
    that’ll flow once you’ve got yourself right
    don’t worry about your friends
    they’ll be happiest if they can stop worrying about you
    look after number one
    for the time being

  45. avatar
    captain mission | 6 November 2010 at 11:19 am #

    sometimes loves not enough i guess, maybe that’s what i have to painfully accept myself although i’m in deep denial, but for what it’s worth i love you man, i only want ya to find peace and harmony on this strange journey, and if there’s anything i can do let me know.
    your captain.

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    ticktockclarice | 6 November 2010 at 11:21 am #

    RIP, James Freud. You claimed another one, ypu fucking evil demon. How many you need to be satisfied???? I’m sickened by the waste. I’m happy to report that i’m back in AA and 3 weeks sober today. Didn’t take the first time, but easier this time. Anyone battling this almighty foe, i highly recommend AA. Don’t know why it works, but it does. Is the best thing i’ve found to combat the problem anyhow. If it doesn’t work out the 1st or 2nd or 3rd time, just KEEP GOING BACK! It’ll click eventually. Relapse is part of battling addiction, don’t beat yourself up, just get yourself back there among friends. And speaking of not beating yourself up, that goes for you too Mr Kilbey. You spread yourself so thin, is it any wonder you’re close to burnout. Don’t get me wrong, i appreciate the time and attention you lavish on your fans, some of your blogs and the responses have been so helpful and instructive in my life, but you need to put YOURSELF first for a change. Recharge those batteries and we’ll be waiting when and if you decide to come back. You don’t get rid of us THAT easy. Sending you and your family lots of love and light.

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      redgrevillea | 6 November 2010 at 2:12 pm #

      the person closest to me is battling the bottle but she refuses AA. She says it’s “f***ing boring”. What can I do?? (rhetorical!) Other than have my heart broken and feel useless. Despite all my seemingly worthwhile attempts to help, she continues to binge’n’bout on booze.

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        ticktockclarice | 6 November 2010 at 8:22 pm #

        I’m really sorry to hear that redgrevillea, I have no answer for you, i only know that AA is working for me this time but it took a couple of times. Yeah, it can be boring and repetitive but i imagine so is being hooked up to dialysis machines trying to salvage your failing kidneys or lying in a hospital bed waiting for a liver transplant. We alcoholics need to accept that life sometimes IS dull and boring and make our peace with that but i geez, NOTHING is more boring than someone who is off their face dribbling utter bullshit for hours and thinking they are fascinating and scaring everyone shitless with their unpredictability and mood swings. I have been that person more times than i care to admit and my heart bleeds for your helplessness because i have caused that feeling in my nearest and dearest for years. Just whatever you do, never blame yourself, just quietly but firmly stand your ground on the issue, letting her know that you hate what alcohol does to her but love her. It’s unfortunate but she may need to hit a rock bottom before she gets serious about seeking help. I send you both all good wishes and pray that she might one day come to see the hurt and destruction she is causing you both and come to see a couple of “boring” hours a week a small price to pay for the healthier, more clear-headed life she can have on the other side. Good luck.

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          DavidP | 8 November 2010 at 2:39 pm #

          I find your honesty about your situation and your courage and determination to overcome the problem very inspirational.
          Not that I have ever had that same problem but I reckon everyone has their inner demons of one sort or another to overcome.
          Good on you for picking up the sword and fighting the good fight. Keep on going. To the battle!

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          lisa | 9 November 2010 at 12:09 am #

          Hey there ticktockclarice- i am really glad to hear that you are doing well. I think about you from time to time hoping so much that you’re ok. it sounds funny, but i literally close my eyes and send you strength. Please know that although we only ‘know’ eachother through this blog, i am pulling for you. Stay beautiful and strong!

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    Lady Di | 6 November 2010 at 12:11 pm #

    Our love is all around you sk. Sometimes you just need to be breathe and be able to focus, have some time out.
    You certainly have been flavour of the month lately and in high demand-rightly so. Time alone for a while should do you good, creatively anyway, though I know you’ll miss the family terribly. I can’t imagine living with four other people. I get stressed just thinking about it. I treasure my own space. Maybe that comes from growing up in a family of 6. {No more queuing for the bathroom}.
    So glad the Maitland show went well. The word seems to be spreading everywhere about your amazing talent.
    Looking forward to seeing your new paintings, there’s some great new ones up here I haven’t seen before.
    See ya soon and take care.

    Love Di

    Love Di

  48. avatar
    Mr. Argent | 6 November 2010 at 12:18 pm #

    “Let us forgive each other-only then will we live in peace”–Tolstoy
    (Listening to the”The Porpoise Song”)

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    Christina | 6 November 2010 at 1:25 pm #

    Yes Steve,
    So sad to hear that James took his own life – what a bloody waste!
    Such a charismatic frontman for the Models. I remember seeing him with the Teenage Radio Stars supporting Gary Numan, way back in 1980.
    But he appears to have been a sad and tortured soul on and off for a long time now …hope he’s finally found some peace.
    Bloody alcohol has a lot to answer for!

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    DavidP | 6 November 2010 at 1:36 pm #

    i would like to echo Richard’s comment
    just make sure your soul is alright
    everything else will flow from there
    make a friend of solitude and silence
    take time to reflect on things
    have a laugh have a cry
    it purifies the blood
    watch and pray
    do your reading do your exercise
    make good use of this time
    as it will soon pass
    all the very best wishes to all the Kilbeys

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    B.Bon | 6 November 2010 at 1:56 pm #

    Tough times for Virgos for sure. We can only take responsibility for ourselves, of course, so we must try to be our best selves. It is all anyone can do.

    Will keep you in my thoughts.


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    Anonymous | 6 November 2010 at 2:04 pm #

    Life is just not cut out for everyone.
    No substance is to blame or is evil.

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      ticktockclarice | 6 November 2010 at 7:59 pm #

      I can almost guarantee you anon that James Freud never contemplated suicide when he wasn’t either a) in the middle of a binge and hence severely judgement impaired or b) racked with guilt and remorse the day after a binge, feeling like he’d been through the wringer physically and mentally and contemplating all the idiotic things he’d done and the chaos and hurt he’d caused. Ok, perhaps alcohol itself isn’t “evil” per se, maybe what i’m really angry at is how some people seem to be born with messed up brain chemistry, the dreaded “addictive” personality and despite all they do to combat it and despite how they can see their lives falling to shit around them, they are powerless against it through no fault of their own. No amount of looks, talent, wealth or intelligence can protect you against shortage of certain dopamine receptors apparently. Anyway, i hope James Freud is in a better place and at peace that’s all. I’m guessing you’ve never had a problem with alcohol anon but if you had you could understand how those who have fear it as i living entity and a demon. I only feel “not cut out for life” when drinking or hungover, most of the time i am a normal, productive member of society. I find your Darwinian attitude very harsh.

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    redgrevillea | 6 November 2010 at 2:07 pm #

    “i hate fucking alcohol
    i’m sick of the chaos it causes”

    lord, i know that one Steve, still do…

    Enjoy your time & space and I hope much good comes out of it, kinds, rb.

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    davem | 6 November 2010 at 4:32 pm #

    Sending my love to you Steve.

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    ASSMIDGET | 6 November 2010 at 5:36 pm #

    I’m behind on my behind. Had a few drinks/smokes the past couple of weeks to take the edge off. I enjoy alcohol sometimes and I know what you mean. I can’t stand “friends” making a complete ass out of themselves then curing regret with the shit that makes them regret.

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    linjo | 6 November 2010 at 5:44 pm #

    Hi Steve, haven’t checked in for a while. Sad to hear your bubs are going away for a while. All I can say is I think you have done remarkably well to keep such a young wife content for so long. Women, we are fickle creatures and want to know whether the ‘grass is greener’. Unfortunately, most times it is not but we need to find out! No one needs to know your private business of course. Glad you have got all your old ‘fiends’ sending their love. Linda x

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      Violette | 9 November 2010 at 1:29 am #

      Linjo, fickleness has nothing to do with one’s gender.

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    edd | 6 November 2010 at 6:44 pm #

    Haven’t heard much about the play…what happened to that? Has it had it’s run. What’s up?

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    Michael | 6 November 2010 at 9:11 pm #

    Sounds like the way forward Steve. Going through some similar stuff myself, at least on the relationships side. Hang in there. Looking forward to seeing the band in Bris and Sunshine Coast.

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    George | 6 November 2010 at 10:53 pm #

    Best wishes Steve!

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    SL | 7 November 2010 at 12:02 am #

    just ordered GB3 – can’t wait to hear it

    when is izzydore coming out?

    stay strong dude, we’ll follow you to the bitter end

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    BigSmilesKate | 7 November 2010 at 1:10 am #

    Hey SK

    So Sad. I know you will miss the Miss K’s intensely, but what a great time the 5 of them will have all together in Sweden. We know things haven’t been quite right for a while. Please stay positive and look after yourself. I know you have it in you to get through this in your own way.

    Love always

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    jim jimmy | 7 November 2010 at 5:12 am #

    yeah AA. Do they have those in Australia ? I realized that famous people are weaker than normal people. Like Baby Jane was.Listen Kilroy, here is what to do. Go to A.A, watch “What ever happened to baby Jane” 10 times till you get it. Do that as much as you can. No Drugs. No alcohol. Quit all shiiite boring projects and just focus on the real musicians in the Church. Bail on all the other garbage. Sweet talk does not make up for tone deaf garbage. I heard it. Study Narcissism. . Remove the caracature and become more real. You will feel much better. If not, you will go down. Simple as that.

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    eekie | 7 November 2010 at 7:32 am #

    I also need to comment on all the wonderful, positive things happening for you. You truly are the real thing, Steve, and you deserve every accolade you receive. I’m both enormously proud of and pleased for you.

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    Lyndall | 7 November 2010 at 9:50 am #

    Take stock,re-charge,re-align and re-balance
    Time-out put to positive use is healthy for all and artistically essential
    So cool – all the sisters are together!
    Take care Steve and above all…look after yourself.
    Sending love and healing energy to all the Kilbeys.
    P.S. Count me in – I enjoyed your speech – not what I expected which is what made it even better x

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    Therese | 7 November 2010 at 2:49 pm #

    SK, thanks for sharing the news with us, u didn’t have to do that. Who cares if the blogges aren’t up to date, that’s the last thing u should worry about. All the time you’ve put the blogge first, we have been spoilt by your generousity. Know u will have a very strong support network around u, you’re a very special person.
    The girls must be so excited about a white christmas, hope u can make it over there to join them.
    Know u and nk will sort things out, spending time with her family is important too.
    Please look after yourself, have the holiday you desperately need, get re-charged and look forward to the future, it will be better than ever.
    Work wise this year has been very rewarding for u and this is just the start.
    Gonna check the Aria’s out tonite and catch u in tv land.
    Was so sad about James Freud.

    Will say a prayer for u and the fambley.

    Peace & love

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    jeanz | 7 November 2010 at 4:44 pm #

    best of luck steve…hope things work out well for you

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    JJ | 8 November 2010 at 12:09 pm #

    Take some time to recharge, SK. LOVED the acceptance speech – was a gooser. Also liked the namecheck on one of my fave albums I bought way back in 1970, Blows Against The Empire. Met Paul Kantner and told him so, which drew a smile.

    Hope it all works out, with the best of outcomes. Relax and recharge.


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    Violette | 9 November 2010 at 1:36 am #

    As an adult child of an alcoholic, I can tell you from experience that… things do get better, with time. It can sometimes take years, that’s the hard part. But you did the right thing by the kids. Remove them from the instability, from the craziness. Kids don’t know what’s normal and what’s not. They just grow up, and whatever environment they’re in, is normal. This is a lasting legacy that can take years to unravel. Better that they’re in a happy place, albeit far away, than an unhappy one. Teach them that happiness is the norm; they’ll grow up knowing what it is, and how to get there, even through the difficulties.

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    PINK CHURCH FLOYD | 9 November 2010 at 1:13 pm #

    A wine with Dinner is fine.
    A few wines at a Restaurant,cool!
    But anything bigger than that i loathe.
    It’s loud and it’s scary and it isn’t gentle and kind at all.
    I don’t drink myself, or take drugs ( well i lied there, i use prescription drugs…) pain killers and an anti anxiety drug.
    I don’t smoke dope but i’m not against it either.
    It’s a plant that grows on our planet for a reason.
    otherwise it wouldn’t be here… *scratches head*
    Marijuana is nature’s pain and stress relief (well that’s what i believe anyway)
    Each to their own,
    But there is a time and a place for everything and yes, we can have to much of something sometimes.
    I don’t smoke ok,I did as a teen as most of us did, and i did snort speed for a few years too, but if it was a quiet night , kids asleep, etc, etc, and was offered a toke of a joint, i’d probably say yes.
    Actually i would say yes!
    And totally i have said yes !
    About a year or so ago i think
    Actually i think it was last new years or something, and i fell asleep on the couch.
    Am i forgiven?
    Who the hell did i hurt? (besides maybe my lungs)lol
    Dope doesn’t make people violent.
    Anyways, i’m rambling…lol
    That was just my opinion on Alcohol, and drugs
    Bark Clay

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