posted on December 22, 2009 at 9:24 am

another day
another being
sweet childe in time
i am a long haired youth on a motor scooter in newcastle 1970
i am a lover waiting in a garden
i am a crippled prince in a tower
i am the goat girl from the caucasian mountains
i am a fisherman in siam
i am a witch
i am a cardinal
i am an artist
i am a grave digger
i been so old and so young
so ugly n so beautiful
i had the most lovely voice…like velvet people said it was..
and i had an ‘orrible voice when i was a bawling centurion
oh baby i had n been had
i died i wuz born i was nailed up i was carried in a litter
i delivered babies i delivered the deadmans hand
i know it
i can feel it
over n over n over n over
worlds without end
you dont know the half of it
the truth is wonderful n weird
and oh baby love is strange
i’m getting closer
i’m breaking through
i’m banging my head on this theoretical brick wall
i remember i forget
i’m repulsively magnetic
i’m kindly cruel
i’m cleanly dirty
i’m a stupid poet
i speak for every no one
i speak for the rioting plants
i speak for the tree i love
i speak for all the spokesmen
i speak for only my selves
i am wild i am inchoate
i’m as tame as a little kitten
i break your heart with happiness
i make you smile coz i’m so sad
kilbey kilbey kilbey
a meaningless mantra my man
ego id ego id
give me money
give me love
give me privacy
give me anonymity
give me advice i wanna hear
help me to understand all this nonsense
america shocks me……can i come n live there?
swedens winter worst….but summer best
my england doesnt understand me….nor does my australia
the fuckin’ french dont buy my records
nor do the berbers or turks
the japs dont grok my groovy trip
the jehovahs witnesses didnt see a thing
that leaves just you
leaves you with the one million mes
which one did i deal out to ya?
i like yoga n vegan food tick
i like to strum my olde fendah bass tick
i like to take all (ALL) the drugz tick
i like them pretty daughters tick
i like a lazy life tick
i like nay love to talk about myself tick
i dont know much about anything mister cept rock tick
i started painting too late…i coulda been a contender tick
i know a bit about the ancients n their olde carryon tick
i like that blue god mr vishnu krishna shiva rama lama ding dong tick
i like l’amour physique tick
my clock goes tick tock but never tock tick
i like mangos and banana and date n strawberry smoothie tick
with rice and soy milk tick
i dont like ww1 tick
i dont like heavy metal or country or trad jazz tick
i like to make long meaningless random lists tick
i like it now my band coming back into vogue tick
but i dont really give a toss tick
but still it’d be nice tick
imagine if england were to finally embrace me….tick
tick tick tick
yep
none of the above
yep thats right
i’m just being me
i dig jaime r n his devotion
i dig big smiles kate n her determination
i dig andy n the dudes n i dig em NOW!
i dig davem cos he understands me
i dig dr n jt for expertise
i dig hj for making it happen
i dig nk for good good lovin’…the best ever actually
i dig as who is a lovely sister in law
i dig love
i dig luxury
i dig a hot n cold shower n i dig crisp sheets
i dig warm balmy evenings
i dig having all this energy
i dig a singer called iota
he sang at tims party and he blew my socks off my ears
WOW! iota…..what a singer……
i dig mwp n pk cause they can fucking play guitar like all get out
i dig tee pee because he is the thinking mans drummer
and we work well together
i dig rm cause he is like a son to me n i am oms godfather
so what do you ask?
nothing i answer
i just spout off a loada stuff whenever i want
hey i had over a million reads off this stuff
a million n a quarter reads….wow
if only if only if only
maybe its just a few people reading it over n over again
maybe the stats are wrong
maybe i just cant add up straight
or lie in bed crooked
or why cant i go gently into that good night
because i got apart to play in yer lives
i wont let ya down no no no never again
its all gonna be sweet sweet sweet
yeah uh uh huh in spades
for sure

i like to h

englands too blah…….why dont they like me?

25 Responses to “dreaming of a wight christmas”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 December 2009 at 10:54 am #

    From the frozen wastes (not kidding, man) of Scotland cometh this missive

    It's gone through my head a few times over the years that you guys should be playing some kind of residency (5 nights?), albeit in the Londinium place

    Mix it up, electric, acoustic…two almost completely different sets. Surely there must be some way that some european trek can be made worthwhile…just needs a bit of lateral thinking maybes???

    I also feel it's difficult for anyone to guage how popular The Church are in the UK, because the whole buying music process has changed over the years. For example, what am I going to do…fork out £25 for GAF with the bonus disc, or wait for it to come up on Amazon at a reasonable price?

    I don't see The Church immediately available at mainstream stores (even Operetta and BWTB I just sourced rom Nick Leese at Heyday).

    You're a cult concern here, but those of us who've been along for the trip are well aware at the body of work you've amassed…not just quantity but quality too.

    Just a few thoughts

    'Don't think I've forgotten…'

    SJM

  2. avatar
    12str | 22 December 2009 at 11:36 am #

    A very merry X-mas to you Killah and to your family.. Thanks for a fantastic year of wonderful music and blogs..
    Take care
    //Pat

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 December 2009 at 2:44 pm #

    you are a part of my life. thank you and merry xmas

  4. avatar
    Freddie | 22 December 2009 at 2:59 pm #

    Kilbey, Kilbey, Kilbey
    Got me smiling.
    Got me smiling quite a lot; that’s why I read.
    I don’t know why England doesn’t like you.
    Isn’t Davem and fantastic andy in England?
    So, there you go.

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 December 2009 at 4:33 pm #

    Fuck England and machine gun the royale fambley !!!! Erin Go Bra-less!!!

  6. avatar
    glynnisjohns | 22 December 2009 at 5:05 pm #

    you remind me of a balmy summer night in southern california in 1988

    you remind of the desperate last stand at masada

    you remind me of hope in the face of our inner demons

    you remind me of muslim corsairs in 17th century morocco

    you remind me of the 90's when i was blissfully unawares how fucked up you were

    you remind me that it is indeed a possibility to buck old uncle neil's bs about burning out and fading away

    steven kilbey has been dead a couple of times and has reincarnated thus

    -glynnis

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 December 2009 at 5:24 pm #

    Here's a weird one for ya:

    Flaming Lips (feat. Peaches and Henry Rollins) doing 'Dark Side of the Moon'.

    Jeez, that's quite a soup!

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 December 2009 at 8:07 pm #

    Don't forget: you are a Zeta Reticulan from M420 star system with the scars to prove it.

  9. avatar
    Cee | 22 December 2009 at 8:18 pm #

    I've been away taking care of puppies and this cough…
    cyber hugs to all sans my cooties!

  10. avatar
    m.p.k | 22 December 2009 at 8:36 pm #

    your creative power continues to grow… it's a gift hear the outpouring that deepens with time and age. with resonance the experiences extend, enlighten, and bring forth vistas of increasing mystery and renewal

  11. avatar
    w street | 22 December 2009 at 9:37 pm #

    Why don't they like you in England?

    Lack of taste, for one. Lack of an appreciation for things that aren't "easy" to figure out.

    The British Top 40 is a wasteland of absolute dreck. If you sit and track the top 40 songs, and the top 40 albums, it's a wonder they even have a music business there anymore (going broke fast, and the music outlets are failing along with the distribution). There will always be quality acts that emerge from Britain, but they rarely succeed in their own country.

    You remember Shoegazing? Great art form, great way to get music across. You remember Swervedriver (Adam Franklin, of course)? Bombed in Britain. You remember Chapterhouse? Great stuff, couldn't make it. You remember Ride? Bombed. Absolutely bombed, and their last two albums were run to ground by the NME (hey, their music media is probably half the problem, but who has time to mess with that?)

    Mark Gardener of Ride was giving an interview several years ago and he said that he had heard that Johnny Marr was finishing up a project but wished that he could put it out and not release it in Britain because he didn't want to have to deal with the grief that went along with it. Gardener said that he couldn't believe that it had gotten so bad that Johnny Marr wouldn't want his own countrymen to hear his stuff.

    Hey, the Brits don't like anyone good, so consider it a compliment. You know who the Brits like a whole lot? They like absolute shit bands as if they were gods. I don't want to offend anyone, but I have tried, repeatedly, to listen to Muse and Kings of Leon and Editors and Bloc Party and I cannot–cannot–understand why anyone would ever like that stuff to the degree that they do in Britain. I don't knock that they're bands who have fans, but soccer stadiums full of them? Main stage at Glastonbury? Reading?

    All of Britain wants an acceptable version of the Happy Mondays to come out and play something easy to listen to. They don't want to think about anything. They don't even like Radiohead that much. If Radiohead had to subsist on its British fanbase, there wouldn't even be a Radiohead.

    (I won't quibble if others disagree–I would say they're right. I'm just giving my .02 cents worth).

  12. avatar
    davem | 22 December 2009 at 10:11 pm #

    England?
    We all know it REALLY is in part Steve Sutherlands bloody fault.
    At that period of time the music press here held huge power.
    Those of us in blighty who love you, really love you though.
    You feel that whenever you play here. You can pull a big and fanatical crowd. Over 1,000 in London on a Monday night with no advertising.
    Musically there hasn't ever been an artist with such an astonishing catalogue of work.
    We adore ya esskay!
    x

  13. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 22 December 2009 at 10:27 pm #

    The Church's esoteric and refined music should be loved in England. It's still the best nation in the world sans the Tories being in power. That reprobate Wiliam Hague wants to reintroduce fox hunting.

  14. avatar
    cazziem | 22 December 2009 at 10:38 pm #

    The many facets of SK! It's what make you so interesting, not to mention predictably unpredictable. One hell of a tick- list you got going there, and in the short space of time that I've been a regular reader, viewer, commentator and subscriber to ttb, (not to mention the countless direct emails I've sent and you've always responded to,) I think I've seen quite a few of them. It's also really nice for you to acknowledge the people you dig, puts me in mind of the Queen's new years knighthood list, which pales into insignificance next the Kilbey Honours list!

    As for England not liking you, it does, but the majority are a bit like lost sheep who either wait for something national then say, ‘oh yeah, I've always liked them, but hadn't heard anything for so long, I didn't realise they were still going. Or else are stuck in a musical time warp and are too stupid to realise that the church, your various collaborations and indeed your solo works have managed to move along with the times, yet remained unique in terms of style and delivery. I don't want to go off on a political tangent here, but I do sometime feel that if countries were people then England would have eyes only for America!

    Rest assured that there's quite a few of us willing to stand up and be counted when it comes to supporting you anyway we can, but you need to come visit, cos a lot of the fools here can't see beyond the end of their noses let alone as far as Australia. I love the stares I get as I drive along with my window down blasting out the awesome songs that sound as fresh today as they did 20 plus years ago, but maybe it's about time the merch sold some car stickers too, cos I may not be able to stop and enlighten them as to who it is they are listening to??

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 December 2009 at 11:01 pm #

    to quote from the title of a waterboys song – dumbing down the world – well thats what engurland has been trying to do for years. simon feckin cowell and his stupid x factor, but it's only got zzzzzzzzz factor for me – but too many people on these sad islands think thats what music is all about.

    fortunately, when i was cutting my musical eye teeth sir john peel was still alive and well, and in 1981 introduced me to a new guitar band from australia called….

    …and here we are in 2009 and my ipod is still dominated by nearly 30 years worth of output from sk mwp pk and tp

    things have changed here over the years, and in 2009 the day england likes u is the day you've become bland and boring, so be glad glad glad

    on the other hand my partner (the one whose son has the stretch marks on his back) says ur just shite at marketing

    love from scotland – another entity that england deffo doesnt like! oh aye and its minus 8 outside – global warming my arse

  16. avatar
    Strangest at home | 23 December 2009 at 12:16 am #

    hhhhhhullo!

    Going off line for the summer.
    Thanks for the season pass into Kilbeyworld, It's the grooviest cerebral themepark.

    I admire how you don't let the dicks get to you.

    As for bigger and richer…
    Go grass roots and win over the kids. Big Day Out maybe?
    Amoungst the flotsam you will find a lot of them are rejecting the shit they've been media fed.
    They have their own powerful viral network.
    Win them over anew and they will follow.

  17. avatar
    the dean | 23 December 2009 at 1:06 am #

    Endland and the kilbey don't mix like oil and water don't mix. they are opposites, when he's hot she's cold. like a fat red man in reindeer fur on Bondi beach, bound to cause friction.

  18. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 23 December 2009 at 1:09 am #

    i dig you and your band and your music and your blog and your art…..

    love always…..

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 December 2009 at 1:31 am #

    The Church might be back in some peoples thoughts, but I was there all along. I followed the journey and still love where it is now and don't know where it goes next, but I will love it.

    Steve Draper

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 December 2009 at 1:46 am #

    Wishing you and the fambley a very happy and safe Christmas. Please be careful opening any bottles of bubbly.

    Peace & love,
    Therese

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 December 2009 at 4:36 am #

    Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and your family

    Come back to the US and play the East Coast again next year.

    It's freezin' here now though about -20 centigrade or 8 degree Fahrenheit. Fuckin' cold to cold for man or beast.

    I got the message on your song Paradox. Brilliant and quite accurate about that particular high. Think I'll keep my distance. Interesting place for a short visis but I wouldn't wnat to stay there.

    Peace.
    FSF

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 December 2009 at 7:26 am #

    Do you really care what the teabags think ? Embrace the U.S. Plenty of people there have the right idea.
    There was an article in The Age recently where 10 music critics gave their top 10 albums of the year.Only one mentioned U23 and I loved the comment, it said its like the music plays them.Never thought of it like that.A great way of describing an amazing musical chemistry.
    Where do you start with Christmas? All I see is people running around spending too much money they dont have on shit they or others dont need and putting up with annoying family bollocks.
    Be charitable and avoid empty consumerism, folks!And keep on ticking those boxes!

  23. avatar
    Ellen | 23 December 2009 at 4:31 pm #

    Merry Christmas, Steve!

    Looks like overall the year has been a blessed one for you. NEVER go "gently into that good night"!! Keep storming the stage, strutting your guitar, singing your heart out, painting, writing …

    Sorry England doesn't like you, but it seems they can be a very fickle lot! I still love the Brits even though the British press is absolutely merciless. Yikes! Makes the U.S. press look like a kitten.

    But we love you here on TTB. :-))

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 December 2009 at 7:48 pm #

    Jap? Really…what a racist you sound like…and I've followed (and loved) the Church for years. Oh well…too bad. I still like the music…but I may have bought my last Church CD.

  25. avatar
    Mr. Argent | 24 December 2009 at 6:18 pm #

    Fuckin' French? Really… I agree. And I am French, too.


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