posted on April 6, 2015 at 1:28 pm
misery guts

misery guts

you wanna sleep a little longer man

yeah i only been asleep 12 hours

the more i sleep the tireder i get

i see my family they are beautiful souls

in gardens of blinding flowers

in canteens at the end of the road

i hurled the book aside i cannot read it any longer

a thirsty elemental for destruction is trying to jump on my ship

a bad spell is upon me is it

removed slowly by our greatest oceans healing minerals

my plot has been lost among seaside graves

from my great distance

i see it all rush together

i see it all fall apart

oh too late to have sussed

decisions stack up outside my half-assed mind

some huge fucking fine falls out of the post

or i cant drive my stupid fucking car

my left hand goggle leaks in the pool no matter what i do

i break into tears at the drop of almost any hat

a genteel sad madness in the wee flat hours

a loneliness that one million crowds cannot appease

i cannot remember one song i ever even wrote not a note

still i walk along energetically trying to burn off my demons

at the pool i hurt my foot and i strangely enjoy the stinging pain

i peer through the veil for you and i see sleep

in your lovely story with all its happy endings

the autumn holiday is nearly over

i get ready for another type of hesitation

but i cant decide…

14 Responses to “dysphoric fragments from a black lake”

  1. etta
    etta | 6 April 2015 at 1:55 pm #

    Missin yawl ready

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    Eskaedor | 6 April 2015 at 9:53 pm #

    The damp end. Rolling leaves. You’re back. Welcome back Steve. Some tour you must have had sir. Duty calls. I think Globe Spinning is my favourite F/D song. Hard to choose.

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    always | 7 April 2015 at 10:51 am #

    “i break into tears at the drop of almost any hat” – But you’re too busy for that 🙂

    …Don’t ..surround ..yourself ..with YOUR self

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    caitbrid | 7 April 2015 at 2:41 pm #

    This sounds more like me than I would wish on anyone! I wish I could write it out as eloquently as you do. That genteel sad madness in the wee hours sucks. I pray for you every day. Keep burning off the demons.

    Kathleen in Philly

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    kookysurfer.bb | 8 April 2015 at 5:59 am #

    I’m a big fan of happy endings. Enjoyed this SK

  6. Kraig
    Kraig | 9 April 2015 at 4:24 am #

    Bro Steve you need to do something about your site! Your getting tons of repllies blocked like mine! Don’t know what you did but you need to turn off them filters, etc..haven’t been able to post anything for awhile now! If this gets through just letting yo know! Cheers, Kraig

    • Kraig
      Kraig | 9 April 2015 at 4:25 am #

      well lookie there, somehow this one got through! Been trying fur days! Anyway…was good to actually meet you during the tour! Was fun getting kicked out of the club in Chicago, guess we stayed too late! Ha! Big Cheers

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    kell | 9 April 2015 at 5:42 pm #

    I read & I care

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    r.richiec | 9 April 2015 at 7:22 pm #

    Hi Steve. Just noticed on fb that you guys have new shows coming up
    in july. Sorry Canberra isnt on the list. Im going to try and make it
    to the factory show. If I cant get bass lessons from you in person I
    will watch from the thronging masses. Cheers mate!

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    Beatle#9 | 9 April 2015 at 11:50 pm #

    Yeah , Steve ,same as Kraig..I sent a post saying how much I enjoyed yr Amoeba set & yr comedic dialogue.This was blocked….can’t see that it’s offensive to praise yr performance ?Anyhow, reading THIS post, glad to see I’m not the only one feeling meloncholie at present.Lennon said (to Pete Shotten,who was having a bad trip)”We all experience the same things, Pete,It’s the same for all of us.We’re all the same.”

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    Chris | 11 April 2015 at 11:02 am #

    Draw on the bliss and lucid dreaming of St. Lou Lou….all is blessing and gift. Pax

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    cetaceus1 | 21 May 2015 at 3:43 am #

    I lie in bed 17 hours a day. I see no reason to get up. I don’t have drug contacts like you. Maybe that’d make me feel more motivated. I tried salvia divinorum once but was too scared of cops raiding me to order more from overseas (I have no local contacts). Still my Salvia experience was exceptional, although I had to impress upon a lady in my head that there was no ‘John’ here. She was very insistent. I did make her go away in the end.


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