posted on April 28, 2009 at 10:00 pm

yeah we played last nite at the vanguard in sydney
johnny howler aquitted himself real real well
in 10 000 miles he nailed it to the max
what a great guy
what great drummer
all with so very little rehearsal
the place was about half full
about a hundred n fifty
it was tuesday nite n short notice
every one made a few mistakes
marty cocked up buffalo on bass
and then afterwards had a long complicated reason why he did
sure sure… it for the judge…
he played every note in the book…and then some….
but never the right one….
he exonerated himself however
with some great guitar work
so….no hard feelings…
we sold absolutely no merch
not a postcard or anything
they say everyone there had everything already
my nasty cold prevented me from totally going gonzo
but i thoroughly enjoyed myself
and everyone said theyd like to do it again
great to see di n therese
great to see martin sync of moving parts fame
thank you for all yesterdays kind words n affirmations
reading my blog back afterwards it seemed a little “giddy”
voice in another room : tsk tsk…blowing yer own horn
on the drugs thing
i realize i put some people thru some bad times
i dont think stephen cummings is one of them
i dont think he was “damaged” by me using the gear
i think he was bemused n irritated
but not damaged or hurt
i think him gratuitously mentioning me in the article
(go back n read it!)
is merely a bit of exploitation
not a man airing his deep damage
i dont know
i would imagine
that by reading my many posts about the gear days
that my shame
my guilt
my desolation would be apparent in my words
it was a thoroughly miserable ten years…oh yes my word
you know i deeply regret it on every level..oh yes i do
and im grateful for YET another chance…oh yes i am
on a karmic level maybe a chance i didnt deserve
on a talent level a chance a DID deserve in splades
cos i bin hitting this thing with integrity for a long while now
when radiohead n muse were still in the playground
i was bestriding the stages of this world n giving the people good rock
rock with intelligence n subtlety n mystery n blah blah blah
(and much handsomer in our hayday than any of them too!)
voice in another room : by a long shot…there all little short guys…
if you like my stuff
congratulate yerself
youre in the top percentile of discerning listeners
you are the very core of who i am
you are the chosen ones
you are the devoted few
i dedicate this to the dedicated
thank you for kind words
thank you for subscriptions
idiot in another room : oooh hes begging for money…..!
thank you for liking what i do
watch this space
its gonna get even better
you not gonna believe it
we actually gonna get better n better
ha ha
at this stage of the game
art for arts sake!
music words action
bang bang bang
just like that!
see ya later i guess

37 Responses to “E A D G B E”

  1. avatar
    matt davison | 28 April 2009 at 10:37 pm #

    Glad you had a nice evening… just like the salad day’s…or is it???..

    any way if you hung out with the likes of IVA DAVIES…. not cummings types, you would have had no problems….Eh Killer!!


  2. avatar
    seoigh | 28 April 2009 at 11:00 pm #

    I was unclear.

    I have no doubt that Cummings was doing nothing more than tossing in as many celebrity names as he could so as to get the interview noticed. He’s racking up some pretty big karma points for himself, as a matter of fact. I didn’t mean you hurt him — and reading back, I could see why you thought I said that. I just meant that to call it unfair to be called out on something which was basically true, albeit for crap reasons, isn’t entirely “unfair.” Not karmically, at least. Put another way, Cummings was merely the vessel that the steaming karmic dung pile was served to you in. That steaming karmic dung pile? You put that there. Old Vishnu merely chose Cummings to play the heavy in that movie.

    Your blog today tells me you are much more in touch with all this than I gave you credit for.

    And I can empathize — I had an ex use my name to get interview noticed in time for her book release. Ah, former lovers.

    But let’s not get hung up on these things.

    Want to know how I know that you are now even in Ye Olde First National Karma Bank and Trust? That date I was with on that 1999 night in DC I mentioned — I noticed that she had a copy of Gold Afternoon Fix in her car today. So you see, rehabilitation is working. 10 years on you’ve won a new fan.

    Now get back to the philosopher king stuff. You’ve a job to do.


  3. avatar
    seoigh | 28 April 2009 at 11:04 pm #


    Deadman’s Hand is your single — Really brilliant work.

  4. avatar
    jactin | 28 April 2009 at 11:12 pm #

    Give Marty a break!
    Perhaps he was preoccupied
    ‘plumbing the depths’.

  5. avatar
    princey | 28 April 2009 at 11:13 pm #

    “I dedicate this to the dedicated” reminds me of your Earthed book where you had written that as well, I always loved that line 🙂 It’s the first book I really fell in love with and still love it to this day and I’m so thankful you’re still writing beautiful words and putting these beautiful words to beautiful music and making my world a beautiful place, you’re one in a billion sk:))))
    luv Amanda

  6. avatar
    Richard | 28 April 2009 at 11:14 pm #

    forgot the k yesterday

    sk inevetyble

    that’s better

  7. avatar
    princey | 28 April 2009 at 11:16 pm #

    P.S. I dont know if I’ve missed something but what does EADGBE stand for??

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 28 April 2009 at 11:21 pm #

    If you please include a tour stop in Tampa/St. Petersburg…
    I will buy a boatload of merchandise!
    Maybe even need a U Haul!!!

    Come see me Steve,
    Tampa, Fl

  9. avatar
    heyday2day | 28 April 2009 at 11:29 pm #

    “we sold absolutely no merch…they say everyone there had everything already”

    we are a very dedicated lot and there’s not much i’m missing either. is there anything being sold exclusively at the gigs? not that i expect an answer from you here but maybe those commenters that have been to recent gigs can.

    “that by reading my many posts about the gear days
    that my shame
    my guilt
    my desolation would be apparent in my words”

    i don’t know how anybody can read those posts and not keenly feel the pain, guilt and shame of those days. brutally honest, raw and chilling those posts are. strong enough are your words that they provoke in me nervousness, sweaty palms, guilt, embarrassment, fear, etc regarding my own experiences. it takes alot of courage to be as open as you are about who you were and the experiences of those past days. it can not be easy or pleasurable. thanks for the honesty as hard as that is sometimes.

    “your’e in the top percentile of discerning listeners”

    there has never been a doubt about that. coming up from texas to the kansas city gig and am bringing my girlfriend (my 17 year old daughter digs the church and wanted to come but it is a 21+ gig) whose musical tastes are very questionable, at least to me. she had never heard of the church tho she had heard “utmw” before. in a brave and noble attempt to save her from the misery of being one of the vapid masses, i burned her a couple of cd’s with what i thought were your catchiest tunes. she has had them for a few days and first impressions are good. maybe it is the bands time to be recognized for the great, great music they have made for all these years.


  10. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 29 April 2009 at 12:55 am #

    Sk probably hurt people during his addiction years. But since 1972 His strict vegetarianism has reduced pollution, global warming, deforestaition, environmental toxicity, water crises and lethal cruelty to cows, pigs, lambs, chickens, turkeys, fish and all the other sentient creatures that bloodthirsty carnivores consume.

    I don’t think Rolling Stone has reviewed Untitled # 23 as of yet.

  11. avatar
    EDD | 29 April 2009 at 1:37 am #

    How much for an eight by ten glossy? I read an article where Peter is helping fledgling “rockers”. Are photos THAT expensive? Curiously and honestly BEB

  12. avatar
    Jasperina | 29 April 2009 at 2:04 am #

    Was there at the Vanguard last night. Love seeing you perform no matter what the venue and yeah it was a remarkbly different experience from the factory gig. Kinda like having you guys in my loungeroom I leant my head against the warm wall and drifted off into that churchly plane where all manner of magical worlds are manifested. I am a tertiary educated girl there with my structural engineer friend and we are relishing our tuesday night escapade into the warm womb and tingling resonance of sublime guitar playing. Almost with you plays into Tristess I looked at the girl sitting next to me who was getting all choked up.Yeah gets me all misty too because I am that teenage girl again. Your boyish banter with Marty had us chuckling away between songs. Sweet and just real nice. How amazing was howler like he’d been playing crunch tunes all his days. Even with a cold the beauty of what you do sets a flame to the dim and ordinary of this world. Thankyou for a real gem of a night. There is a timelessness about you and your music.. play on…

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 April 2009 at 2:26 am #

    love to you

  14. avatar
    the dean | 29 April 2009 at 2:54 am #

    In this land there has been some great music but only one lot keeps going and giving.
    Is Un#23 their best yet? I say, indeed it is.

    EADGBE = standard guitar tuning

  15. avatar
    W Street | 29 April 2009 at 4:12 am #

    You know, there’s that tough, lean period in the history of the church–it runs, roughly, from the start of Sometime/Anywhere and it seems to resolve itself by the time Hologram of Baal finally came out. Here on the old blogge, killer hasn’t glossed over any of this–his nightmare in Sweden is readily familiar. This has all been disclosed and examined. I don’t know anyone who has been more clear or more bare about addiction. You still have moments in there–Snow Job, Refo:mation, and it’s all good. It’s all good.

    I can’t see what the fuss is about. Yes it happened. Who is so judgemental that they can’t let it go? Your own life is perfection and honesty so you choose to run down the killer for what happened in his life?

    Embrace the art, embrace the sounds, and be thankful it all didn’t end way back when. Can you imagine a world without Painkiller? Without Song in Space? Without…you name it.

    The critics understand the church again because this messed up world took a decade or better to realize that the music industry is littered with poseurs and empty shells. It’s gone bankrupt before the banks are out of money. Somewhere, there’s an Axl who doesn’t realize the joke isn’t even on him anymore, it’s moved on. Where are you going to find your soul? In the trash they throw at you? Or the gems you find on your own?

    Damn the critics anyway. If it took them this long to see genius, why should they get any credit at all?

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 April 2009 at 5:50 am #

    The falling leaves drift by my window
    the falling leaves of red and gold
    But my eyes are looking at the beauty that is “Spring Rain”. A beautiful gift from my beautiful sister. I see something new in it every day and am so proud to have it hanging on my wall.

    Last nite was just faaabulous. Loved every minute of every song and I laughed at all your jokes. I hope we don’t have to wait another 2 years for SK vs MWP no. 3. You look more youthful every time I see you sk but please don’t lose any more weight, I’ll start to worry about you. Next time nk makes her deliscious lasagne have a second helping ok?

    Hope you feel better soon and thanks again for another great nite.

    Lady Di

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 April 2009 at 6:41 am #

    I will not be satisfied in this life unless SK is still rocking at 80 and produces at least 10 more masterpieces!

  18. avatar
    davem | 29 April 2009 at 7:11 am #

    I so wish I could have been there. I’m off work today to go and indulge myself with some birthday cd’s, so lots of time to further unravel U #23. It’s a work of sumptuous beauty.
    I’m so sad to hear we might not get a date or two over here, but we have to be grateful at how often you’ve visited in the last few years and hope for a gig or two on your 30th anniversary?
    Much love to all.

  19. avatar
    melissa | 29 April 2009 at 7:47 am #

    hey SK, thankyou thankyou thankyou for a very wonderful evening at the Vanguard last night. I wish I could see you guys perform at least once a week, always feels so happy and elated afterwards. Pity didn’t get to say hello to you afterwards, but my sis wanted to go 🙁 A nice chat to Marty though! 😀

    So worth coming up from Melb’s .. heading back home now 🙁

    Many many thanks and also want to wish you guys lots of luck and success with the US tour. Hope to see some more shows soon


    ps will buy lotsa merch next payday 😀

  20. avatar
    fantasticandy | 29 April 2009 at 7:48 am #

    even with mass critical acclaim, it’s hard to pull a decent crowd these days……….

    why are people so lethargic?

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 April 2009 at 9:05 am #

    150 people? Jesus, such a small crowd. And to think you are worried about your name being mentioned in a book that nobody will read. Hate to say it Steve, nobody cares either way, except for a few folks here on your blog which you censor. Davem would take a bullet for you, however. cheers

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 April 2009 at 9:26 am #

    “art for art’s sake” but if you send me a bit of money I will write whatever blog you like or whatever photo you want painted. I am true artist! Do you believe any of this crap Steve? Seriously

  23. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 29 April 2009 at 10:36 am #

    I’m very happy for SK and The Church in terms of all the great reviews Untitled # 23 is garnering. Especially if they boost album sales. However, I have very little respect for the majority of all critics, not least in view of how little acclaim After Everything Now This, Forget Yourself, and Uninvited Like The Clouds have received. In all fairness Record Collector did write a 4 star review of the latter, and Rolling Stone did write a 4 star review of the former. Aside from those, the reviews have been scarce. Q Magazine never gave a Church album more than 3 stars. It will be interesting to see if they even write a review of Untitled # 23, and if do, how many stars they’re gonna give it.

  24. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 29 April 2009 at 11:37 am #

    if you guys are ‘actually gonna get better n better’ then we’re all in for some utterly amazing music, poetry and art….bless you, steve…..
    love always…..

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 April 2009 at 11:43 am #

    Sorry I couldn’t make it last night. Since my daughter’s diagnosis we’ve gone to ground a bit, not going out etc. I think I’ve missed all the Sydney gigs now…sigh. I did so enjoy the Marty vs. SK gig at the Basement too.

    Much cheered by the great responses you have been having to your various releases and hope you enjoy equal success with the US art show.

    Can I ask a question about you? Would you ever write an autobiography? Do you have that kind a book in you? We know so much of you from these black pages, so much which could be/have been content for a book. I’m not really talking about a muck raker, more the historical document, the archive etc. You would have no problem finding a publisher, I can guarantee that.

    Given that one’s life can almost be viewed as an artwork in itself, and your life has been extraordinary (I mean that quite literally) could you commit to such a project?

    I think I should also admit that I will buy the S.Cummings book and read it. Not because of the bits about you, though, I just enjoy the genre.

    Good night.


  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 April 2009 at 1:16 pm #

    5/5 stars from Rolling Stone (Aust) it says on the church website == cant get a better score than that for ya record!

  27. avatar
    melissa | 29 April 2009 at 1:17 pm #

    oops, I forgot .. wrote down a setlist last night, though I think I missed a couple of songs, being swept away in a daydream 😉 Was thinkin’ this for Amanda too 🙂

    Almost with You
    Happenstance (OMG, I could listen to this forever)
    She’ll come back ..
    Into my Hands
    Two places ..
    Milky Way
    Cortez the killer
    10,000 miles
    Magician Among the Spirits (sigh)

    All 5-star songs 😀


  28. avatar
    CSTCoach | 29 April 2009 at 2:41 pm #

    u#23 finally arrived (along with the new EP’s). gave it the traditional first listen on headphones, and have spun it several more times with my new speakers.

    christ on the cross this is good stuff!!!!!!!!!!

    i’d like to write out my impressions for those who haven’t heard it yet. leaving for sweden in a few hours. will scribble some stuff on the plane. (well, not on the plane – i tried that before and they kicked me off the runway. fuckers.)

    killer, you guys continue to amaze. i don’t know how the fuck you manage to outdo yourselves every single time, when each prior release was so great and so lasting.

  29. avatar
    El cabeza radio descuidado | 29 April 2009 at 2:44 pm #

    IMHO Radiohead are a complete fraud. I once did the mistake of buying “OK computer” and there it is, at the bottom of a shelf. And Thom Yorke dancing is one of the most annoying things I’ve ever seen in my life. I sometimes think there’s a collective hysteria about this group that I can’t understand.

  30. avatar
    davem | 29 April 2009 at 3:34 pm #

    I love pretty much everything you do SK, but fucking hell this is scarily good album.
    I confess I didn’t expect it to be this bloody good. Reading TTB every day you get a feel for how much time you guys DON’T have to pull stuff together. It isn’t as if you’re in the studio together for 2 years.
    It’s absolutely incredible.

    I agree with Seiogh about Deadman’s Hand but you’d need a lot of bleeps to get it airplay as a single!! Maybe you should have gone for cobblers instead…very BBC!!

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 April 2009 at 4:50 pm #

    SK, a little food for thought. Do you know of Michel Gondry, the visual artist/director/etc? Well, he's accepting e-mailed photos and, in turn, drawing portraits and sending them back to his fans for the meager sum of $19.95 + s&h. A meaningful, and above all else, affordale, creative, fun memento. You being the renaissance man, might find something to this, no?

  32. avatar
    John Garratt | 29 April 2009 at 7:40 pm #

    “it was a thoroughly miserable ten years…oh yes my word”

    The strange thing about being a teenage American fan of the Church is that none of that was apparent to me.

    No one wrote articles about the Church. Those who did said very little. The radio would play one or two of your songs and mention the band’s name. The internet probably wasn’t even to the geocities stages yet. And no one I knew had any real access.

    None of my friends knew who you were, and few of them seemed interested in the Church after I played some snippets. Then their attention turned elsewhere.

    I had nothing to go off of. No lyric sheet, no guitar tab/chord books, no interviews, no concerts to catch, nothing. You guys were like a bunch of clouds to me. Hazy, not defined, existing only through sound and a handful of photographs.

    These “gear” days…all I can say is that you totally pulled the wool over my eyes. Ears? “Priest=Aura” and “Sometime Anywhere” were like long-playing mantras that never left my CD player. I played along with them, they were in my head every step I took and every mile I drove.

    I guess the point to my blather is that out of the wreckage of your past life stands some extremely tall, rich work. And I didn’t know about “Snow Job” until much, much later (c’mon, how is the teenage Yank supposed to know about Jack-fucking-Frost? MEMO TO PROMOTIONS DEPARTMENT: DO YOUR DAMN JOB PLEASE).

    Those days are gone. The needles are gone. The dealer’s car is gone. But I still have my 2-CD edition of “Sometime Anywhere.” Your music remains, and it will echo long after we are all expired.

    Long live the Church, my favorite band.

    John Garratt

  33. avatar
    catchow | 29 April 2009 at 9:09 pm #

    sure! i do like your stuff!
    unhappily, i’m not quite sure to
    see you one day on stage,but i’m glad to see you’re enjoying every
    gigs with the same passion…

  34. avatar
    steve kilbey | 29 April 2009 at 9:17 pm #

    dear carping jealous moron at 705 n 7 26
    did it take you 21 minutes to think of your next insult?
    youve got a slow n tedious mind…but thats apparent from the things you write
    1. its a 150 people more than you would pull
    2. arent artists supposed to get paid?
    you think commissioning a blog or a painting is wrong?
    ah well
    im sure no one would commission anything from you
    cos youre a carping jealous moron…arent you?
    and youre no good at anything are you?
    3. if the censorships so bad
    how come i allow your drivel to get printed?
    au revoir, turkey!

  35. avatar
    K.P.BUK | 29 April 2009 at 9:47 pm #


    (further listenings) u ii iiideep rich complexity
    worked into
    we’ve known


  36. avatar
    kyle farley | 29 April 2009 at 11:11 pm #

    Anonymous seems such a sad and sorry site! Steven Kilbey on the other hand…..has enriched many a life for many a year! How do I know this…. Because he has painted many a broad brushstroke in this Texan's Life! 25 years running and I am deeply impressed by the man for which "they" write! Kharma Police…..Please Take This 7:05 Guy Out, and all his that spew hate ! I say FUCK What You Think is Owed You! My wife & I are looking forward to seeing y'all in Portland….As It Was…. in Dallas 20+ years ago and just a couple years ago……So Shall It Be Again!

  37. avatar
    eek | 30 April 2009 at 5:47 am #

    Glad the show went well. Absolutely no merch sales? Damn. That sucks.

    On the drugs thing — I always feel honoured you feel comfortable enough with us to write so openly about this time, but I always find it tough to make a comment that doesn’t sound trite or condescending. So often I don’t comment on those blogs. But I got thinking about seoigh’s comment that he was so disappointed in you after a gig in the late 90s that he didn’t buy another Church album for years. I’ve heard similar comments by others both about you and other artists, and I can’t help but think these disappointments happen because many fans tend to idealize their idols instead of realising they are human and have very human failings.

    When I begin to feel disappointed in someone I admire I try to step back and really look at why I feel that way. Is it because that person really did something so bad, or is it because I created some perfect fictional character no one can live up to? I think all too often for many fans it’s the latter. Better for everyone (including ourselves) if we learn to cut each other a little slack.

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