posted on January 1, 2007 at 9:12 am

last night at 930 i took a little pill
it had a dragon on it
i wash it down with a glass of champers
and a joint chaser
you see new years eve is an excuse to overdo it
its the tradition
nothing happens for a while….
after about half n hour i feel a warm flash
slight nausea n dizziness
then im catapulted into some other dimension
thats always there
its indescribable
doesnt matter what i say here
i dont care if yer anti-drugs neither
the dragon opened up a lovely door n i stepped thru
ah sweet sweet romantic hours
i stagger out to watch fireworks from kitchen
wow im so confused….
i collapse into bed at 300
totally blasted out of my sweet mind
oh so nice to get out of that mind for a few hours
im someone else
i walk around on softly padding feet
my voice has become soft, almost inaudible
im knocking back champagne mixed with raspberry cordial
(a house specialty)
smoking dope like its going out of fashion
(it IS out of fashion)
i seem to have lost myself
a new me standing looking out of my eyes
this new me has no past or future
he remembers nothing
he cant really make sense of the world
the simplest things seem so difficult
i pour the champagne and my hands seem miles away
i catch sight of myself in the mirror
is that really me
my pupils so huge
like im taking everything in
my face is flushed and i look like a wildman
i wouldnt like to get in a lift with a guy like that
i stare at myself
my own face has always fascinated me
it always looks so different
now its the face of a stranger
my wife appears like a pale angel
when we kiss it seems centuries pass
there is no before n after
only a now
here in the sunroom with the christmas tree lights winking
the ipod hi fi plays
massive attack
spain
goldfrapp
marconi union
all around distant parties laughter
random local fireworks go off
of course baby bloody bumper wakes up now n then
i seem to get in a loop that last for years
the baby cries
i get her off to sleep
i sneak out to waiting wife
when…..
boo hoo boo hoo
baby has woken up again..
and it starts over
it seems like forever
i been doing this
i am in a pleasant detached place
where there is no memory conscience or pain
i move in slow mo thru the thick air
perfect weather
a warm night with delicious sea breezes
is this how life was in the garden?
why cant it be this always
a living dream
a fantasy
a watercolour mirage of soft pleasure
however
today when i wake up
im totally fucked
no energy
no nothing
i end up sleeping in till 5!
i still feel pretty bloody wasted
i walked down the beach with evie
and it washed it off a little
anyway
no more strength left to ……

34 Responses to “enter the dragon”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 9:59 am #

    You’re a naughty, naughty boy sk, but loved every word!
    Happy New Year, I wish I had that kiss!
    Love
    Amanda

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 10:04 am #

    exit the dragon!

  3. avatar
    mandn | 1 January 2007 at 10:20 am #

    China is building a Bruce Lee theme Park.
    You can ride the dragon whenever you feel like there. 😉

    Enter Year of The Pig

    Happy New Year Orpheus, and pleasant landings.

    xo
    Mary

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    fantasticandy | 1 January 2007 at 10:27 am #

    oh,steven—how could you! what a naughty olde rocka you are. hell,you got taste though, listening to spain, the sparceness of their stuff is wonderfull. almost like the gaps between the notes are more important than the notes themselves. you and the druids have got that together big style lately too. i bin a cheeky geezer and sent a ‘friends’ invite to your myspace site, hope yer don’t mind to much. anyhows,here’s the shameless/shamefull plug: http://www.myspace.com/dudesofneptune all recorded in my garage with cheapo gear,go on give yerselfs a laff. there’s a couple ‘o’ tracks you ai’nt heard steve,and probabally don’t want too either! anyhows, hope the ‘bodyshock’ wears of soon. all the best, andy L. p.s.yeah i know i’m an annoying twat at times/all the time, but i do mean well!

  5. avatar
    daniel 30, 3 | 1 January 2007 at 10:45 am #

    Welcome back!
    A very happy New Year to you and the ones you love.

  6. avatar
    verdelay | 1 January 2007 at 10:56 am #

    To Steven, Juggler-of-Drakes, top o the morning to you. This and all possible mornings.

    As the timeless unmanifest said to the ego: Watch this space…

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 10:58 am #

    ditto big time on that bloggy esskay, me am feelin’ it just like you am today, peace out…
    mjnjr

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    (('{~_~}')) | 1 January 2007 at 12:11 pm #

    Ah those little pills!

    A friend woke me up at 10am to wish me a happy new year. I thought thanks a lot! I didn’t get to sleep until after 4am thanks to the neighbours.

  9. avatar
    lily | 1 January 2007 at 12:26 pm #

    Happy New Year, SK! Wishes for a happy, healthy, safe, prosperous New Year for you and your family.

  10. avatar
    Samosanx | 1 January 2007 at 1:17 pm #

    Last night I drank no alcohol and faught a cicada in my flat until I felt safe enough to go to sleep. Woke up early and spent the day exhausted and ratty…passive drinking perhaps?

    This evening I watched the news; the mobile phone footage of SH’s hangin’ AND the P Hilton in Bondi Beach million dollar show. She is a million-heir-ess and gets paid about a million for an appearance at Bondi Icebergs to announce the winner of a “blonde” competition.
    I thought cor I hope Mr K doesn’t go for a swim today and be exposed to this ridiculousness, and why aren’t they paying him instead of this, this…….

    so the w w w white one that you consumed at least prevented you from exposure to the hilton horror …. mercifully you slept through it ….

    it’s a bizarre world out there.
    I’m so glad for TTB…

    (love the ending!)

  11. avatar
    davem | 1 January 2007 at 1:24 pm #

    Glad you had a good ‘un SK.
    Pretty fine time had here too. Just been for a walk around the lake to clear the old head. It hasn’t worked so I’m going to try the wife’s sangria instead.
    Take it easy.

    x

  12. avatar
    gareth,notts | 1 January 2007 at 1:29 pm #

    ‘i’m totally fucked,no energy,no nothing’ – welcome to my world!!!

  13. avatar
    Krissythegroupie | 1 January 2007 at 1:47 pm #

    Haaaappy New Year to you and yer fam!

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 2:19 pm #

    goji

  15. avatar
    nickfiction | 1 January 2007 at 2:32 pm #

    next time take the pill with the bumblebee on it , instead of the dragon…. it has fewer side effects…..

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 2:41 pm #

    Happy New Year!!

    Gott Nytt År!!

  17. avatar
    Daberhasher | 1 January 2007 at 3:07 pm #

    yes, paying the piper seems a bit more of a bitch at this stage… but i do love slipping out of my skin too at times…
    i’ve tried salvia some lately, had a positively lovely Gatsbyesque garden party of my own… i was pretty scared swimming out to the old trippin’ buoy again… life is different now, who would look back??? shouldn’t doubt myself so much was the lesson, the clutter was wiped away and the path i’ve followed was again clear and shown/shone upon by the brilliance of the love that surrounds me… all in the space of…….. hmmmm, 20 minutes??? i don’t know, but aftershock is nil, and the power and depth of the experience resonate nicely over time…
    it’s like the mp3 file to the dragons .wav file, you know???
    ooh, i do go on… overall, the Corduroy Couch Bionaut Society endorses it for home use by intrepid travelers of all stripes…

    well, from beside me woodstove on this fist day of 007, where western Maine is being entombed in ice, i wish you well in picking up the pieces killer…
    light fuse, get away………….
    wait, what’s that Jerry?
    yeah yeah…

    “Saint Steven with a rose,
    in and out of the garden he goes…”

    aloha,
    the gee dee deadhead in your mist…
    always meaning well as well,
    in the wellest way
    that wellness may be………..
    AND AND AND…
    thanks so much
    for Erskine AND Linda Wong
    meeting us all at the oh six
    departure gate…..

    ok, me and the kids are gonna go skate down the driveway,

    CHEERS!!!!

  18. avatar
    restaurant mark | 1 January 2007 at 3:39 pm #

    brilliant…you completely, perfectly described my new years eve experience! the summary goes like this…

    pill
    champagne
    joint
    catapulted
    blasted
    a living dream
    collapse
    totally fucked…

    and i bet i do it again next year…

    take care steve…happy new year man

  19. avatar
    The Guardian | 1 January 2007 at 4:51 pm #

    OK – I love your work SK, but I ain’t in the line of sycophants. It’s your life to make your own decisions – but I hope something stupid like a dragon doesn’t put you in a box before you hit 53. Your kids are lucky you escaped smack, A bit of pot’s not gonna kill you, but please don’t give yourself a heart attack mixing shit.
    I don’t wanna lecture you or anyone else – I just care and get a bit un-nerved when I read blogs like this one – reminds me of the old SK who didn’t give a fuck about himself let alone his family.
    I wish you a great new year and a lot more of them – now stand in the corner you silly boy 😉
    Love
    The Guardian

  20. avatar
    jen | 1 January 2007 at 4:58 pm #

    went to bed at 5am…3year old up at 8am…happy new year

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 5:15 pm #

    I spent the night in another realm myself . there was someone in my shower waiting to jump on me everytime I took a leak. I could see it’s shadow moving behind me. then, the fireworks started! a veritable battle of centuries outside my house. I thought the pigs had found me out and were sending in the hounds. you ever see a naked man running down the street with an american flag in his hand.? I did.

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 5:19 pm #

    to all the dissenters. let the man do as he so pleases. I understand your concern, but we don’t need Mother Teresa and Father Sighorn proselytizing to the poor choir boy. he’s a big boy and personally I like the drug journal.

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 5:20 pm #

    I like all his 64 sides

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 5:53 pm #

    hahaaa, you cheeky little devil.

    mWah!

  25. avatar
    Noel Christian | 1 January 2007 at 6:29 pm #

    Yes, many of us stagger into the new year.

    My indulgence was less jarring but pleasant nonetheless.

    All the best in 2007.

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2007 at 7:22 pm #

    just dont lecture us anymore about the health benefits of meat withdrawals and chi and fucking swimming in the morning you old tosser.

  27. avatar
    ambnt1 | 1 January 2007 at 7:53 pm #

    Steven,

    I haven’t been “out of my head” for some years, but I remember the warm fuzziness, watercolor ambiences, loss of ego, temporal suspension, etc. Just be careful with that axe you Time Being.

    –Chris

    n.p. Pink Floyd, “Animals” (they should remaster this again, can never get it loud enough)

  28. avatar
    leelinau | 1 January 2007 at 8:25 pm #

    sweeet

    ^_^

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 2 January 2007 at 1:43 am #

    Sk – so proud of you – even after all your problems with drugs you continue to cut a path forward – unafraid of the effects on your body or your family., Without you our world would be so dull. Take more risks – it’s your life.

  30. avatar
    JJ | 2 January 2007 at 4:28 am #

    Didn’t get the occasion this year, but last year – cannabutter on bread, local Appalachian botanical wonder. Ate two big slices. Time speeds up, language comes in as if slow motion. Friends and I giggle throughout the night out by the Chiminea under the stars and fireworks, Greggo feeds the beast with a firewood platter, flames leaping out the top!

    We had a wonderful time. Into the next day.

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 2 January 2007 at 10:06 am #

    Love is the drug i’m thinking of..

  32. avatar
    veleska1970 | 2 January 2007 at 4:42 pm #

    a belated happy new year, steve. my wish for you and your loved ones is that you have a very happy one.

    lotza love….

  33. avatar
    John Garratt | 2 January 2007 at 5:43 pm #

    “i end up sleeping in till 5!”

    Oh, yeah, 5:00. You sure are a sloth.

    Wait, 5:00 pm?

    John

  34. avatar
    stealthblue | 2 January 2007 at 7:06 pm #

    Yep…That’s the thing about these “little pills” we dabble in here in there, eh?…nothin’ like wasting the day away sleeping till 5, I ended up going to bed at 5 AM and crashin’ til almost 4 as well!! What a hoot. It almost makes that stuff not worth it for me to take anymore, just because of how I feel the next day!! Ah well, it was fun though, glad you had a good time too. Only because I know you know what you are doing, I would certainly be the last one to try and get preachy about “drugz”, but please be careful. Anyway, dunno if you’ll actually see this one, Happy New Year, buddy boy. Take it easy.
    Much love,
    Ben V.


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