posted on December 31, 2009 at 5:41 am

2009 ends in a sultry steamy day in bondi
i go up to bondi jnctn n buy some recording gear
so i can complete my new double album of solo songs
now its gonna be better than ever
i want to wrestle new music out of the universe for ya
it has be pulled out alive n screaming
i gotta get completely handson to to what i must do
no other person may come between me n the music
it will be pure time being
no traces of anyothers will be found with in it
i need to make every decision when i make my record
you have to understand its coming how nature intended it
but lookout honey coz i’m using technology
i always have
i always have utilized technology
i am no luddite
just lazy
i fell behind for a while
now i must step back up into total control over my own music
not the churchs but my own
willy paradise keeps goading me to make that perfect double album
yes i will try tho i will never succeed
but my failure will be gloriously executed ….one hopes..
after all this time…
my dear readers
the music i make from this point in will be extraordinary
an olde master now
in full possession of his faculties tho slightly delusional
my trials my tribulations my triumphs my trying
all have shaped me
it was necessary
i am a flower who will bloom in winter
in the white cold winter i guarantee an explosion
in my own winter
however long may it be
i hereby promise you some lovely music
thats all i can do
and now try to deliver on it
blah blah blur
yeah 2010 and ever since
i will lay my hands on guitars
with new understanding i will coax rather than force
but force it will be if necessary
i will force my bass to do things
i will force it into low and heavy places
and it will pump n writhe all it likes
and my bass guitar my familiar
charged with a million notes
drenched in sweat and tears and saliva and blister-water
baptized in smoke and booze
caressed lewdly
yet embraced like a child
so fucking heavy a load around my neck like a ton
eh whats that….?
i never felt a thing….
is mine the best bass in the whole world?
i do believe it is
i really do
and i really believe the wood has taken up my charge
and is like an energy battery
which discharges when the music starts to lift off
its been a fucking amazing decade for my b(r)and
we have released a number of very good records
like back with 2 beasts for christ sake
how good is that record?
only the church
could casually let such a pearl slip out there
to no reviews
limited to mail order
and yet
man thats a good record
as good as anything
better than most
of course
there is nothing left to be said about 23
its a classic its a classic its a classic
it scored 87% aggregate mark from all of its different reviews
but yes
vain as i am about our band…..
we should get that result
(although i think giving records scores is a bit schoolish isnt it
but i likey when i get top marks!)
unfortunately time is against us now
we are not spring soy chicken bits any longer
this week 2 aust legends pass away
its right on the cards
for you too not just me
so we gotta concentrate
make the most of the moments we have remaining in the game
maybe la church already in time-on…..
maybe we could kick on another 5 or 10
who knows?
we intend to keep going i guess
what else could we do now?
music is all we have
all we know
all we know we can trust
music at the beginning
music at the end
i wrote the soundtrack to my own life
and lo all my songs are always coming true
i threw em away carelessly but they took root n grew
all those songs
all those clues
all those arrangements
i thought it all through
i put myself into those songs
i caught em out there in the darkness where they were waiting
i was standing at the crack in the worlds
when my nightfriends would arrive bearing tunes
its true i have stolen songs from other places
songs buried deep in my memory but probably never mine
is this all too mystical for you?
where do these songs come from
well i’d like to know
because i written so many now
so many bad
so many good too
i created my own schtick
i mine my own mind now
but i sense occultish music all around
i am filled with song every time i….
an olde master
ha ha
its true
whooda thunk it
from snotty enfant miserable to ye olde master
good luck
bad luck
stupid choices
read my book and weep gold coins
if youre rich shower me in money
if youre poor give me your blessings
if youre lonely
let my songs keep you company then
step into them
live them
love them as your own
there will be more to come
as i sit here
david neil weird frail ghostly wild shambolic pop
gb3 ; sleek ultraglide with a one micron edge
kk2 : this is turning out to be very good
(of course tho i would say that wouldnt i?)
down to the cardboard : ????????????????
new church album : someone tell me, i’m ready
and look for me on new one off internashional collaborations
and see me treading the boards in march with some showbiz stuff
what can i say
thanks for reading my thing
thanks for subscribing if you did
many hopes for a good year for all
some peace on earth
and more wine and gold…..

44 Responses to “ever since/time-on”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 December 2009 at 7:34 am #

    unless you say it properly and clearly,it means nothing,now.actions speak louder than words.jesus.

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    Peter | 31 December 2009 at 7:47 am #

    Godt Nytรฅr / Happy New Year to You, Your family and all SK/Church fans…thanks for your wonderfull words and songs. Peter (in Denmark)

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    iseult | 31 December 2009 at 8:14 am #

    i like those numbers
    2 21 20 10
    evens and an odd
    lots of 2222s
    should be good
    what recorder did you get?

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    davem | 31 December 2009 at 9:19 am #

    Happy New Year.
    I'm really looking forward to all the music you'll be making. This has indeed been a great year for you and the band – long, long, long may it continue.
    As long as you keep creating I'm sure we'll keep buying!
    Love to all.

  5. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 31 December 2009 at 9:24 am #

    your new music will rock the fucking world in the coming year…..the cosmos will realign to your rhythms…….

    love always…….

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    Anonymous | 31 December 2009 at 10:26 am #

    U#23 is a B+ then? whatever

    For your new double album, why not release it as mp3? Wouldn't that reduce your overhead? All my cds sit on the shelf anyway.

    Happy New Year and may your mind wander blissfully as you create your new songs.

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    fantasticandy | 31 December 2009 at 10:45 am #

    great news steve!
    i too wonder what recorder you got….
    really looking forward to hearing all this new stuff both churchy and solo and all stages inbetween.
    i'm collaborating with some churchy types from all around the world on my 'the other' project….
    people i would never have 'met' without this blog and the church in general.
    most importantly in 2010 i'm hoping for good things for 'the failed'…wev'e had a couple of sessions and things look very promising(creatively at least…)the chemistry seems very right!
    i'll bore you with a couple of demo's soon……….
    we'll have a limited audience as usual, the whole enterprise will cost us a small fortune and we shall remain olde and ugly…yet we will continue to strive to be the very best we can.
    we find your work inspires us….
    the fact that an olde geezer like you can look better, sound better and just generally BE better than youv'e ever been at any time in your life…spurs us on.
    fuck the new year…here's to a stonking new decade for us ALL!
    much love to all TTB'ers, i know this has been a turbulent year for many of you, and i guess that's just the way life will allways be.

    and there's the rub……
    that's why the world needs people like you mr. steve kilbey.
    even when not creating wonderful music your'e busy steering folk towards the beauty of the natural world, educating and enlightening, casting light into the sometimes forgotten corners of all our lives.

    your'e particularly adept at pricking our collective conscience
    and reminding us what it means to be human in the truest sense.

    i would love to list all you smashing people out there but my dyslexia prohibits this….
    it takes me a long, long time to put an entry like this together and i'm better employed making music!(some will no doubt disagree…).
    it's been a great pleasure to read your thoughts on the very varied topics and issues steve has raised this last twelve months……
    best wishes to you all and all of those you love in this coming decade,
    and of course to steve's family, his bandmates and their familes also.

    youv'e got me through some bad times killer….i owe you.
    peace, love and contentment to all,now and in the future,
    andy L.

  8. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 31 December 2009 at 11:17 am #

    Even though I already own Back With Two Beasts, I'm gonna buy it again from Church Merch. Noticed the other day that it has just been re-released with an attractive gatefold cardboard sleeve. Steve, if you guys re-release all your other cd's with deluxe cardboard sleeves I'll buy 'em all again. Absolutely hate those cheap-looking jewel cases.

    Of course, I'm also ordering the Operetta EP. Can't wait to hear it!

    Happy new year, everyone!

  9. avatar
    linjo | 31 December 2009 at 11:29 am #

    10.24pm and I am home, watched the fireworks, listened to 'Rattle and Hum', U2 covers, lovely night with friends, beautiful display.
    Thanks again Steve for another year of entertainment. You bring so much to people's lives. Andy darling, no 'failure' in being creative. You are doing what makes you tick and what keeps you satisfied, what most of us only dream about. Happy New Year to you!!! and all the other lovely people who comment on TTB. Linda xxx

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    melissa | 31 December 2009 at 11:45 am #

    if youre lonely
    let my songs keep you company then

    ok ๐Ÿ™‚ have and will do xx

    Hippy new year!

  11. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 December 2009 at 12:18 pm #

    The problem with Back With Two Beasts is that you want more after listening to it, and there's nothing in this world which can imitate the experience of having this CD. Neither The Church have something which can transport you to similar places. Maybe that's the reason why I had to purchase the new edition + the Operetta single. Great new stuff, Steve… especially the wonderful "Silhouette In Meltdown" and "Moon Hangs In Black".

  12. avatar
    cazziem | 31 December 2009 at 12:49 pm #

    At the time of writing it's just before mid-night in your part of the world and only just entering the afternoon in mine, but I just want to take this opportunity to say I wish you and all the followers out there peace, love health and happiness blah, blah, blah. Oh f**k that sh*t! I wish us all lots of sex, alcohol and orgasms. (I think these are the ingredients for keeping us all young!!!)

    I am sooooooo looking forward to this double, solo album. โ€˜the music i make from this point in will be extraordinary.โ€™ Surely you MUST know it always has been? That's what has kept people interested for so many years, it's why I not only got interested, but have purchased practically everything I could get my hands on in the last five months. In fact, my interest runs so deep I even managed a commendable 87% score on the Hotel Womb annual quiz! However, I feel I must say that it's not just your bass SK, it is the relationship you have with it that brings forth every emotion possible which we are always eager to share and thank you for letting us be part of.

    You told me a few months ago I'd enjoy BWTB, so I ordered it as soon as it became available again. It should be here any day now, and I know I'll love it as much as all my others. #23 was the first of my collection and first class, but along with my BWTB will also be the #23 limited edition & t-shirt, and of course I just had to have the Operetta EP & t-shirt too; so my 2010 is already promising to get off to a brilliant start!!

    I remember reading in No Certainty about the Frank Sinatra sings for the lonely album. Well, I think old blue eyes may have had a subconscious impact somewhere along the line, because from the line โ€˜i wrote the soundtrack to my own life,โ€™ to โ€˜i am filled with song every time i….โ€™ reads like the modern man's My Way.

    So as we all say farewell, or in some cases, good riddance to another year, nay another decade, I'm happy to say I've read the book; I've paid my dues and I definitely give you my blessing. Your songs, blogs and emails have most certainly been the best company I could have hoped for in 2009 and will know yourself what I mean when I say I truly wish you health, WEALTH and happiness in not only 2010, but for many, many years to come.

  13. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 31 December 2009 at 3:27 pm #

    Kilbey is boundlessly talented. He's improving with age evidenced by the concerted verdict that # 23 blows away the admirable Heyday.

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    don joe | 31 December 2009 at 3:51 pm #

    some clean kilbey coming out. Narcosis is a good one of that. The best of years to you and the gang. to the subscribers, supporters viewers listeners and those god awful detractors: flourish and prosper

    don joe

  15. avatar
    Freddie | 31 December 2009 at 4:15 pm #

    Sounds as if you're poised for an awesome year. I hope that it is and I look forward to those songs.

  16. avatar
    robertmadore | 31 December 2009 at 4:17 pm #

    Yes, what recording equip DID you get Steve?

    Happy New Year! Best to you and all involved in 2010!!!

    Double album…alright…

  17. avatar
    landru | 31 December 2009 at 4:52 pm #

    I just read the biography and have been listening to your catalogue a lot lately and I think you are right … you are an old master (not that old.) You have been making music in this last decade that is only getting better and better. You've suffered for your art, etc.

    I don't always agree with your opinions, but I will always agree with your music. I wish you and your family peace and happiness in the next Kilbey-oriented-decade.

    No codas, only sequeways into the next track …

  18. avatar
    Ellen | 31 December 2009 at 4:53 pm #

    Happy New Year to you Steve and to my fellow TTB-ers. Oh Lord, may 2010 be a year with more "wine and gold"!

    I've said it before and I'll say it again, The Church and TTB is my anecdote for 2009. 2010 is going to be a challenging year too, but thank GOD for your music. Can't wait for the new double album!

    "…in full possession of his faculties tho slightly delusional…"

    I feel this way sometimes. ๐Ÿ™‚

  19. avatar
    Ellen | 31 December 2009 at 4:56 pm #

    Beautifully said, fantasticandy.

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    landru | 31 December 2009 at 4:57 pm #

    I don't always agree with your opinions, but your music always agrees with me. If your resolution is to be better at making music as an older, wiser, experienced master … than I think you've hit just the right note (sic).

    I finished the bio the other day and have drenched myself in Kilbey music of late. Painkiller was almost better than a Church album, though not Uninvited (personal favorite of the 00's).

    I wish you another decade of peace and movement forward in all your endeavors. With family and friends and fans, happy new year Mr. Kilbey.

  21. avatar
    lloyd | 31 December 2009 at 5:06 pm #

    looking forward to 2010 with you & the church. i believe all the good will the band received in 2009 is just a groundswell for the new year.

    myself (and the army of yours) look forward to helping spread the word on the church's 30th year!

    all the best to you and yours.
    lloyd (or "pink" as T & Cee have dubbed me for all eternity)

  22. avatar
    sanfoin | 31 December 2009 at 5:47 pm #

    "Baptized by smoke and booze" — pretty clever. Was this in your own private sanctuary or in the Church?

    Love all the great music and the prolific streams of thought. Thank you for sharing your self and being REAL.

    Wishing you a peaceful and prosperous new year…

  23. avatar
    Belfrank | 31 December 2009 at 6:29 pm #

    Happy 2010 SK.

    Great open blog to end the year.

    Not sure about an Mp3 release – maybe FLAC so we can hear it as it should be. More video soon please and I look forward to the skinny on your showbiz opportunity.

    Love to all the fably

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 December 2009 at 6:30 pm #

    Mr Humphries favourite 2009 Kilbeyism:

    'Phosphorescent rim of the son…'

    Ooh the tendrils of titillation!

    Fnaar fnaar

  25. avatar
    scott | 31 December 2009 at 7:43 pm #

    keep kicking out the superb jams. i've been a fan since i was 15, almost 40 now. its only gotten better. peace n prosperity to you n yours, white hippie moses.


  26. avatar
    EDD | 31 December 2009 at 7:48 pm #

    Thank you! You are the Yoda on Yoga. YE olden Master you are!

  27. avatar
    veleska1970 | 31 December 2009 at 8:18 pm #

    happy new year!!

    new music for the new decade. i cannot wait. you and the church have enriched my life so much for the past 25 years and i thank you from the depths of my heart for it.

    lotza love…..

  28. avatar
    Mr. Argent | 31 December 2009 at 8:49 pm #

    A Peaceful wish to all TTBers this New Year:

    "Peace is not a relationship of nations. It is a condition of mind brought about by a serenity of soul. Peace is not merely the absence of war. It is also a state of mind. Lasting peace can come only to peaceful people."

    โ€“Jawaharlal Nehru

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    Anonymous | 31 December 2009 at 9:09 pm #

    Andy said a lot there that is dead on. Steve, that's one of the best posts I've read. Fucking awesome. You do inspire and your music has always slayed me. I've been a serious fan of your craft for almost 20 years now (at the ripe old age of 37 as I type this). I started playing the bass around that time…one of the first lines I learned was the bass line on Reptile and caught The Church for the first time on the tour with Peter Murphy and I was changed forever. Music is a friend on a level beyond human. Your work inspires and you are in the league of the greats. These days music is in such a strange grey area. Kids don't like to consume albums. Albums are released and the kids forget about them a week later until the next ace Pitchfork review comes out on some other sound alike shit band. If the Church would have started in the early 70's these albums would be regarded by the masses as the greats (like the Jayhawks as well). Painkiller and unseen/unheard is a beautiful album (I even put in the time on that remix project and it was killer to hear the raw tracks) Anyhow, all the best to you and yours in 2010.

    John in Seattle

  30. avatar
    the dean | 31 December 2009 at 9:35 pm #

    I must say Kilbey old being that you have transformed yourself and others along with you.
    happy new year

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    jaime r... | 31 December 2009 at 10:09 pm #

    Festive New Year to you n yours SK..
    this yr has been a tough one for me.. and I am indebted to yu n the Church family for providing amazing music time n time again.. it is the fix that many of us need.. It does come down to taking matters into our own hands to remain creative n follow our bliss respectively.. Its been grande walking in stride with such magnificent comrades in this karmic womb… Anxious as always to hear more in yrs to come and then some.. you guys got it in spades.. no joke.. Here's to New Horizons and Blissful passages.. take care and let us remain in the light.. blessings.. om tat sat om

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2010 at 12:48 am #

    Swimming at Bondi Beach the other morning I wondered if they knew the artist walked amongst them..

    happy new year Stephen and ttbers.


  33. avatar
    Dek | 1 January 2010 at 12:51 am #

    It's not too mystical. Can't wait to hear it all.

  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2010 at 1:45 am #

    2010 awaits here in the states.
    i bow to sk as i have for these lst 24 years. love ya man

    richard m.

  35. avatar
    Mary | 1 January 2010 at 2:23 am #

    Happy New years to everyone on TTB and hope Steve and family have a great New Year and i cant wait for your new music!! love ya


  36. avatar
    Celticat | 1 January 2010 at 2:40 am #

    Long may you ride.

    Happy New Year to you and your fambley!

    Love Celticat

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    Anonymous | 1 January 2010 at 4:02 am #

    Steve, can't wait for your new double solo record. Please, Please, Please use a live drummer, though. Painkiller was great, in part, because of the great live drum feel. Outbound would have lacked power if you hadn't enlisted Mr. Powles.

    One other thing: Back with 2 Beasts is a masterpiece

  38. avatar
    Steven Krut | 1 January 2010 at 6:10 am #

    The prospect of 2010 is much more exciting with so much new music from you on the horizon, Steve. I look forward to it and I wish you and everyone reading TTB much success in the new year.

    I spent the day with my 98-year old grandma and so you are not seeming that old to me at the moment. ๐Ÿ™‚ Anyway, I saw on this TV report that there's going to be drugs sometime this decade that slow down our aging. This will keep us alive long enough until they have even better drugs that actually reverses aging. So maybe there will be an U#63 in the distant future. ๐Ÿ™‚

  39. avatar
    gavgams | 1 January 2010 at 6:16 pm #

    Happy New Year
    and let's all make it a good one.

    Loved this posting, Steve.
    Here's some feedback:

    I love the sentiments: justifiable pride; taking stock; looking to the future;… your getting to be venerably soothfasting. Ever read Francis Bacon's Essays?? he worked on them over his life. More timeless insights in two sentences than others volumes.

    The Church alone has done some massive records in the last ten years. Back with 2 is very good but for me .. at the moment… forget yourself.. just seems the nearest perfect gem and After everything is just beautiful. You know how there's a bit of a fashion ? at the moment where some bands are just playing live a single album I reckon Forget Yourself would be the goer. Some of those tracks really blast off. Nothing Seeker could so rightly be a Hawkwind style space epic… and what a gem this would be live. Half hour no worries. The song barely gets going.. ending leaves me wanting more please.
    I once saw Cosmic Psychos do a one song gig.. no singing too.

    You say "i am a flower who will bloom in winter". well Australia is the "land of winter flowers…

    and you say "all my songs are coming true… " is a gem of a lyric / poetry (espec. in context for fuller meaning). and then you write of nightfriends… Words are cheap on the net which is good and bad but its like aent reflects a deeper level and a grounding from which subsequent records are a working out from and a celebration of the essence of Churchyness..What do you reckon Mavens? #23 is sort of retro forwarda and back churchy to me in a new way.. builds on past strengths and true character in a good way. Wow there's some awesome sounds and great songs. What a gem. It's hard to judge.. i'm still in love… and I'm only a fan

    I offer my blessings and purchasings for a great year for the Kilbey and Churchy family.

  40. avatar
    ross b | 2 January 2010 at 11:41 am #

    looking forward to the new double album!!

    funny…first thing that comes to mind is 'white album' whenever someone mentions "double album". yours will surely be as good, and maybe better.

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    Anonymous | 3 January 2010 at 3:48 am #

    I so agree with the drums thing. I really thought it worked on some level on Unearthed but that had such a great intimate lo fi sound. Regardless, the song is what matters but Painkiller really was great and i loved it you had an actual drummer on there. Dabble had a real drummer but a whole different style album.

  42. avatar
    Melquiades | 4 January 2010 at 4:36 am #

    Bring on the wine and gold, man. you are the purveyor of time of myth of legend of lore. bring us your crime bring us your winnings bring us your losses bring us your riches. you are the poet the speaker the soothsayer

    I speak for the union and they agree on a majority vote that your position is written in stone.

    go forth and conquer

  43. avatar
    lily was here | 6 January 2010 at 12:55 pm #

    You're ready!! ๐Ÿ™‚


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    Julio | 25 November 2012 at 8:58 am #

    When it rains it pours! We’ve had a few furry critters in the house this fall, but liinvg out in the country complete with a barn, we weren’t as surprised. Good thing my husband has perfected the art of small animal trapping. Also a good thing that he removes the trapped carcasses. So glad to see you took the plunge and started a blog! You always have so much to say, I can’t wait to read more from you!

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