posted on February 2, 2008 at 12:15 am

heres all my secrets
all my a’comings n a’goings
all my reasons alibis n excuses
where do we start
the pears are cooking
the baby on my lap
theres a sunshower
the gloom returns
a low grey sky
the barometer shudders
the baby is hot and damp
she sits and her chubby little fingers stroke my arm
my arm is fried golden by the sun
the small hairs on my arm are golden too
bleached by sun and sea
the baby seems hypnotized as she watches me type
we listen to joanna newsomes ys
or is the baby going to sleep
she murmurs slightly and climbs off my lap
minna is snoozing in the doodles room
eve is shopping with nk
aurora is off with suzanna b over at karins
i sit here in my messy room
weighed down by books n cds n paints n leads
n postcards and discarded wrappers n empty grape juice bottles
empty tins of berry v guarana drinks
i suck on a cola nut chunk
it is slightly numbing
it provides calm energy
it taste nothing like coca cola
or any other cola drink
just like berry v dont taste like berry
and artificial cherry and grape flavours disgust me
i listen to joanna newsomes winding rolling music
part showtune part medieval
a bit like me
what happened to me?
expansion or collapse
i get up to check on the pears
theyve gone nice n brown as the dates have dissolved
suzanne comes back
and the baby screams go away go away at her
nk and evie come home from shopping
minna still snoozing on the bed
surrounded by women at every turn
joanna still singing in here
strange stuff strange stuff indeed
strange days now
the weather is extraordinary
i move away from science and towards magic
i move away from this world n towards some other
i am happy to be me
i am happy to be 53
i am happy in my messy room
i am happy with the church record so far
i am happy to be happy
i have love
i have romance with my darling one
i have comrades and associates
i have friends in high places
i have friends in low places
i have everything i could need
thank you lord ganesha
thank you kindly jesus
thanks also lord vishnu
and his incarnations krishna n buddha
thank you allah n jehovah
apollo lord of music and healing
aphrodite the cytherean
lady of love
hosanna hosanna
iao iao ao ao
do what thou will shall be the whole of the law
adams apple
eves dropping
eden n merimbula
the west pole
identikle twins
elektra june arrives there is love
in the background constantly
all my girls
under one roof
i can do good daughters if nothing elsie

29 Responses to “ex-spurt”

  1. avatar
    tim | 2 February 2008 at 1:39 am #

    blessings indeed!

    have a great weekend kilbeys!

  2. avatar
    PAGEY | 2 February 2008 at 1:57 am #

    Thanks to Rush
    Thanks to INXS
    Thanks to Church

    My first three favorite bands


    same as my birthday Jan 7th

    Orthodox Ukrainian Xmas, The Russian Church
    Jesus true Birthday.

    God bless the new Church album
    God Bless Marty Willson-Piper
    God Bless Steve K.
    God Bless Tim and Peter

    God Bless your Easter Sunday service. Hope you make some new believers!

    Thanks for all the music.
    Thanks for the healing power of your work.

    May anyone who reads this receive true revelation!

  3. avatar
    PAGEY | 2 February 2008 at 2:05 am #

    oh did i mention elvishnu misses you steve? Yes she does…..

  4. avatar
    veleska1970 | 2 February 2008 at 2:55 am #

    your blessings have made you a very happy man. i swear i can almost see your heart swell through the words of today’s blog.

    love to you, too. 🙂

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    ...being here, doing this... | 2 February 2008 at 3:37 am #

    “do what thou will shall be the whole of the law”


    “Invoke me under my stars! Love is the law, love under will. Nor let the fools mistake love; for there are love and love. There is the dove, and there is the serpent. Choose ye well!”

    “Remember all ye that existence is pure joy; that all the sorrows are but as shadows; they pass & are done; but there is that which remains.”

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 2 February 2008 at 3:44 am #

    These bitter nuts are loaded with caffeine, and Africans like to chew on them throughout the day. One downside is that they turn your teeth orange

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    Melby Symon | 2 February 2008 at 5:09 am #


    You sound so very happy…remember this moment and hold onto it when the dark storm clouds start to gather.

    You have friends in high places…friends in low places and fiendss everywhere !

    Hope the pears were sweet and juicy.

  8. avatar
    Megan | 2 February 2008 at 5:58 am #

    Oh,my goodness.sounds like heaven to me!bless your family SK .:D

  9. avatar
    davem | 2 February 2008 at 7:26 am #

    Domestic bliss.
    Much love to you from a devoted blighty fiend.

  10. avatar
    eek | 2 February 2008 at 9:26 am #

    Days when life is good are indeed wonderful. A lovely, peaceful blog today. Even made me smile and feel serene.

  11. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 2 February 2008 at 9:37 am #

    Joanna Newsom? Steve, you’re surrounded by too many girls.

    Please go out and buy Devendra Banhart’s latest: Smokey Rolls Down Thunder Canyon. And please hurry.

  12. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 2 February 2008 at 9:40 am #

    What’s next, Steve?

    Marty and Peter taking harp lessons?

  13. avatar
    Ethereal Butterfly | 2 February 2008 at 11:04 am #

    Now that’s a blessed life. Amen!!
    Shalom, Namaste, Ommmmmmmmmm…….

  14. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 2 February 2008 at 1:40 pm #

    Marvellous, marvellous femmes

  15. avatar
    davem | 2 February 2008 at 7:44 pm #

    It’s very quiet today!

  16. avatar
    heather | 2 February 2008 at 11:18 pm #

    The cardboard roll arrived from Kansas and I gently unfurled the paper therein and lay it softly on the top shelf to let gravity do it’s magic thing….

    couplaweeks later I found an old wooden frame and in a quiet moment stolen from the housefullofnoise I cleaned the glass in the morning sun, watched the light kick off motes before I softclothed them away, then lay the print down and slowly slid it into the frame…

    quickly found a hammer, knocked some tacks in, spun small wire around them, tapped a plastic three-pinned hook into the wall…..and….

    ….ahhhhhhh! Vishnu in Bondi!!!!

    I lay down and gazed at the picture and smiled and fell in to a Vishnu reverie for what could have been hours…

    I love the mystery of this blue skinned androgene, and the zone of bondi memories.

    the way you blend the spiritual and the daytoday…it’s very calming

    like todays b

    Thankyou Steven; thankyou Eek

    Love Kittykatxxx

    PS:Marty and Peter on stage wih huge golden angel wings…yeah!!!

    and a halo for Killer?

  17. avatar
    princey | 2 February 2008 at 11:19 pm #

    You have so much love going on there sk, you’re alucky man. Just make sure you spread some of that love to us faithful fiends too, ok?
    I’m, glad to hear you’re happy with how the new Churchy albums sounding, but where’s Painkiller????? (sorry to be a pain)
    Well, have a love-filled Sunday
    Love Amanda

  18. avatar
    princey | 2 February 2008 at 11:21 pm #

    P.S. did I overdo the word “love” in that comment?

  19. avatar
    melissa | 2 February 2008 at 11:32 pm #

    Ah, you do loads of good SK .. including this lovely, uplifting read 🙂

    Also exciting to read about the Super Living Expo in previous comments (thanks e-butterfly!) Now I just have to figure out a way to get outa work that day! Be nice to say hi to Melby fiends there too!

    Wonderful day to all 🙂

  20. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 3 February 2008 at 12:29 am #

    Thank you were invoking Jesus, Vishnu, Buddha, Krishna, Jehovah and God in general. My very influential, compassionate and loyal father died this week. He was a major support system for me. I can only cope through having faith in a benevolent Creator and in a spirit world wherein are relatives, friends and pets (yes animals) envelope us with vibes, karma and guardianship.

  21. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 3 February 2008 at 12:35 am #

    the last couple of days have been very peaceful for you, haven’t they steve…i thought that yesterday’s blog was gorgeous and so is today’s…what do you do with your pears after you’ve cooked them like that (i know some smartarse will tell me that you eat them), but do you put them in something like a crumble, yum, sounds delicious…
    i love how you’re so proud of your family…i think that my own daughter is the best thing that i’ve ever brought into my life…

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 3 February 2008 at 1:40 am #

    When you were younger, you were often very blokey in your attitude to women : banging on in interviews about coming on them, snorting coke off various bodyparts, etc. Do you believe the theory that men who were always very disrespectful and dismissive of women are sent daughters so that they can learn to love, respect and admire women?

  23. avatar
    linjo | 3 February 2008 at 2:31 am #

    Serenity is catching.
    Meek apologies to two Toms! X

  24. avatar
    linjo | 3 February 2008 at 2:48 am #

    And condolences to you Brien C X
    Glad you have your faith to help you through. My mother is still holding on to life in the final stages of leukemia. Its all consuming. I am glad we have all had the opportunity to spend quality time with her and let her know how much she is loved. Sounds like your dad was a dear friend to you.

  25. avatar
    steve kilbey | 3 February 2008 at 3:26 am #

    show me the interviews about coming on women n snorting coke off their bodies you fucking liar
    you know
    i know
    everyone here knows
    i NEVER said those things

  26. avatar
    linjo | 3 February 2008 at 3:37 am #

    A dog would prefer a smack than to be ignored Steve.
    Peace to your kind heart.

  27. avatar
    veleska1970 | 3 February 2008 at 4:15 am #

    “i NEVER said those things”
    now, i don’t read anon comments, but when i read this response by steve i knew that the offending bullshit came from an anon….

    anon: why are you so fucking hateful? and you just don’t get it, do you? recently steve turned off the anon comments because of assholes like you, but then he obviously decided to give you another chance, but you are still up to your tired old crap.

    whatever steve may or (most likely) may not have ever said/done to you, it’s over with, so GET…OVER…IT.

    i cannot even begin to fathom what it is like to have my heart so full of this kind of hatred which has absolutely consumed you.

    **shaking my head**

    (and oh, don’t bother slamming me, because if you recall what i said a few months ago, i don’t read you. sorry, but you are not interesting enough to read, and also i have zero respect for a coward who hides.)

  28. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 3 February 2008 at 1:04 pm #

    Steve Kilbey has never spoken like that about women in print – and never heard that kind of talk in private either. He just ain’t like that folks – never was.

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 4 February 2008 at 5:05 pm #

    He was slagging off Oasis for thinking they were the first ones to come in a woman’s mouth or snort coke off models. He said he’d done that years before they were even in a band. Oops.

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