posted on February 22, 2010 at 4:48 am

postcard from heatwave
palms clouds turbulence
red roofs green trees white flowers
dogbark birdsing catcreep
i am hurting hurting hurting
dont read on if you dont want to hold my breath
oh i feel 1000 years old
the dying summer has flared up into a burning ball
ive fled sleep
i left it aching on the bed
i pull on my mansuit
and its all torn n damaged
my lip wont heal up
my heel giving me lip
my bones feel like they been x-rayed by fire
i’d eat lethargy on toast but i ran outta bread
dont read on if you dont want to read on
dont complain of my pain
dont threaten me now i’m in beyond
doctor my I’s
sea accept me
sky why wont you cry
i accomplish nothing
i wish for nothing
i long for nothingness
remove me from the constant this or that
i thought that life was a bowl of cherries…once….
flyscreen rips off in the wind
one more bill
one more call
one more message
one more waiting
one more life
one more universe
one more infinity of infinities
i been myself so many times
i want out
i want in
i want it all n i cant wait much longer
what do you want me to want
i’ll tell you what i want
i want energy all youve got
give it to me ha you cant
all your energy couldnt touch my sides
every word i think of is 1 million calories
think of me as angelic beast
my appetites are the purest dew
from the dirtiest puddle
but i’m a wingless beast (now)
i cant fly except in somebody elses stupid dreams
a bedraggled hide cages an eternal strength
when i say look out you better look out
but i wont say it today
so go away
yes go away and leave here in this silvery heat
i am ulysses 4 granted
i sailed away baby
i am on my voyage now
my voyage round the traps and dips
my journey to the east
the eastern suburbs i mean
whatever happened to whatsisname anyway
and all the other whatsisnames
oh i grow tired just reckoning them
as countless as the molluscs in a stale pool
as hopeless as all the fucking muggles with their beer n tv
as oafish as a cartoon buffoon or paltry paltroon
the hoi fucking polloi
the nouveau stupid
the modern zeitgeist heist
some call me faustus
some call me steve
some call me nothing
which do you believe?

25 Responses to “far q”

  1. avatar
    persephone2u | 22 February 2010 at 8:01 am #

    How lovely to have a heatwave. I can only dream of such things while I listen to the pitter patter of tiny raindrops outside.

  2. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 22 February 2010 at 9:44 am #

    i call you genius
    good enough?

    love always…..

  3. avatar
    matt davison | 22 February 2010 at 10:16 am #

    start on page one. Dont stop till you have finished reading. then see how you feel.

    you could do it in a few day's.

    and yes I am talking about the Bible… Hmmm Does that bother you?? ?has Matty D lost the plot and gone all Christian'ee…Or is he caring enough to want better for his Friend Steve.

    "I want better for my friend Steve. and thats the truth!!

    Lov MD

  4. avatar
    gavgams | 22 February 2010 at 10:43 am #

    We're all beasts of many colours.
    Beasts of burden?
    Do we all learn to fly? Some of us have the wings.. the inclination .. the need to be… different?
    Complicated game this human thing.

    For energy:
    It's said a 20 minute nap's the go.
    Go 30 or over and you kick into a real sleep pattern. At first I feel a bit drained after the 20, but a coffee and later on heaps better energy. The gunpowder grren tea's a goer.

    For heat:
    Sleep, fans, cold showers and flannels, shady trees, cool earth,
    cellars, gone to earth, panadol?

  5. avatar
    Richard | 22 February 2010 at 11:07 am #

    (advance off topic apology!)

    on and off over the past year I have been trying to stir up support for the making of a collaborative documentary about the church experience

    progress has been modest, but has produced some nice results:



    One difficulty along the way (my fault) has been nailing down the concept

    The videos above aren't really what I'm on about – but I have finally got around to producing a short video that is:


    Short and rough, but from the heart

    It's the sort of thing that I imagine so many of the people whose comments grace these pages could pull off so well (and with their own flair)

    A dozen of these ("who", "what", "when", "how", "why"…) and we'd have something really special

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 February 2010 at 11:33 am #

    Hey Davison, very sorry you lost your job and your girlfriend gave you the boot, but it is no excuse for the bible bit. I would bet that Steve has read more of it than you mate.

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 February 2010 at 11:36 am #

    Mr. Kilbey, pick up a copy of the Koran and start from page one. Do not finish reading until you come to the end. If you do not want to strap a bomb on your body and blow up some infidels, start over from page one.

    Warm regards,

    Sir Bartholomew of Kent

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 February 2010 at 11:46 am #

    Headline from today: "33 civilians killed in US afghanistan air strike" Would this qualify as a war crime under your definition Steve? Your silence speaks volumes. Finally a good guy huh? No comment? Killing done by harvard grad ok, redneck texan many many blogs even comparing him to hitler? Harvard grad gets a painting and gushy talk? bush=hitler? I do not understand the contradiction. At least Bush was acting from beliefs, although misguided. Obama's regime is killing innocents only in the name of political expediency. Much worse.

  9. avatar
    ross b | 22 February 2010 at 12:59 pm #

    i just love your way with words – this really moved me.

    i long for nothingness – yeah, i feel the same way. probably in the ether(net)

  10. avatar
    Freddie | 22 February 2010 at 1:31 pm #

    You need some energy? I got a set of jumper cables out in the car. I could give ya a lil’ jolt.

    If it is any consolation, I went for a hike yesterday and woke up sore and miserable too. I watched my five year old running up and down the hills and thought about how good it must feel to not have anything hurt.

  11. avatar
    Ash | 22 February 2010 at 2:03 pm #

    I am speechless… and breathless.
    Sending much love your way, SK.


  12. avatar
    ronbonham | 22 February 2010 at 4:20 pm #

    In IL news yesterday 6 songs tracked and we are back again today for more. The Greening, Nite of the Comet, the Horse, Soundless Sound & Flower and Song.

    And on Chrunch front no Texas dates this tour, so on the road again it is..

  13. avatar
    Ryan | 22 February 2010 at 4:28 pm #

    Nicely done Richard!

  14. avatar
    John Garratt | 22 February 2010 at 4:42 pm #

    "my lip wont heal up
    my heel giving me lip"

    That's awesome!
    The word play, not the pain.

    I have a sore on my lip too.

    John Garratt

  15. avatar
    knot | 22 February 2010 at 6:10 pm #

    i read that you will be in san francisco april 6. how lovely to see you.

    "age does not make men childish as folks tell us
    it only finds them children to the end."

  16. avatar
    davem | 22 February 2010 at 8:33 pm #

    I can't imagine hot sk.

    I'm glad your faith is bringing you happiness Matt! Richard – I admit I thought your project had sort of collapsed during the last US tour. I'll make sure that I have a mooch at your links tomorrow.
    Love to all.


  17. avatar
    princey | 22 February 2010 at 10:32 pm #

    Hi sk, hope you're feeling better today, that title said it all, but I hope it wasn't aimed at us!

    The artwork's coooool killsy:))

    Take care,
    love Amanda

  18. avatar
    cazziem | 22 February 2010 at 10:53 pm #

    I know only too well the longing for nothingness! Not easy when the brain refuses to rest or to believe that the machinery it operates doesn’t always agree with the commanding voice. You tend to end up worn out and feel as though every bit of you has been pulled in a different direction?

    You were right to think that life’s a bowl of cherries though. Cliché phrase I know, but look at it this way; it’s attractive, it’s tasty, and in comparison to the amount of actual fruit there is to savour, it contains one hell of a big stone to choke on!

  19. avatar
    Cowflash | 23 February 2010 at 12:34 am #

    When Anonymous' attack
    The brood of Vipers with no names
    Those cowards seeking only flames
    Until the day of reckoning comes
    Gladly fool themselves with chants and hums
    It's sad to see and Jesus weeps
    For their neglect brings blood to fill the streets
    If silence rains and pours and bangs to the bash
    The only riches they have left is cash
    The heart only knows what it's been told
    So ask your maker, go on be bold
    To see without blindness and open your eyes
    Pray for faith and bind those lies
    May your blessings be blessings and not a curse
    Your mind plays tricks and thinks reverse
    Thank God for your blessings, he will be pleased
    To hear your voice when on your knees
    Humility reins in the end
    With those who spent theirs in depend
    With rulers in chains praying they were never born
    If only their flesh were not being torn

    I will be praying for you and yours Steve.

    Remember it's always darkest before the dawn.

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 February 2010 at 12:39 am #


    Okay, Falls Church on 4/ 27, then Atlanta on 5/ 1.

    How about the North Carolina date in there? Would suggest Orange Peel in Asheville, up in the mountains. Place holds 800. you'll sell it out. Your man Bob has played there. good food all around.

    NC aint as scary as SC or Florida, I promise.

    Do yourself /and us/ the favor.

    Wilfred Paradise

  21. avatar
    ronbonham | 23 February 2010 at 1:25 am #

    IL update 5 songs tracked today, all first takes. 11 total in 2 days. Blessed.


  22. avatar
    Steven Krut | 23 February 2010 at 3:06 am #

    I'll call you a work still in progress, which is rare for a man of 55. Most are done and decided – the paint has dried and hardened. No mollusc in a stale pool you. At least you've avoided that trap.

    Richard, I like your videos and your goal of creating a Church documentary. I've been kicking around ideas for such a project myself. I plan to write a script. A script really is necessary before a serious effort can be made, IMO. I'll show it to you when I'm finished.

    Here is a video that I made for Deadman's Hand:

  23. avatar
    BigSmilesKate | 23 February 2010 at 5:55 am #

    Hey Sk,

    Sometimes it's good to embrace the grind. It's part of our life and part of what builds us into who we are. Bring it on – grind it out. I wish a cool breeze on you tonight.

    Big smiles

  24. avatar
    pennybridge | 23 February 2010 at 8:33 am #

    Yes please

    Själv är jag
    bokstavligen och bildligt talat
    helt jävla insnöad!

    Tack och lov finns TTB …

  25. avatar
    bc | 24 February 2010 at 4:55 pm #


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