posted on January 25, 2008 at 2:37 am

blah blah fucking blah
kids yellin’ at me
band yellin’ at me
friends yellin’ at me
cars beeping and indicating and givin’ me the finger
i get lost in a tunnel
i came out at wrong spot
i argue n argue in my hoarse n horrible voice
i hate this i hate that
i trip up n fall down
i get angrier n angrier
rude rude rude
people hangin’ off me everywhere
people ignoring me
people in my fucking face
people in my car park
people in my seat on the bus
people in my coffin n grave
phone ring ring ring
hello
bullshit bullshit
goodbye
yeah yeah yeah
sure
everybodys in pain
everybodys acting
everybodys got an idea bout what i should do
everybody all together now
phone rings
hello
rhubarb rhubarb
goodbye
no u-turn
no standing
no stopping
no mobile phones
no ulterior or anterior mo-tives
i am so tired of that person writing me 20 emails a day
please
dont ever write to me again
can it be any plainer?
do you need to decipher this?
dont ever write to me again
by me i mean me
by ever i mean as long as im alive
by dont i mean DONT!
by write
i would include all communication
any means whatsoever
(i have no wish to have anything whatsoever to do with you!)
by again i mean
i hope you never contact me
im tired im angry im emotional
please stop it or im gonna send it all on to my lawyer!
meanwhile its a hot cold day night
the church are arent this n that
blather blather much malarkey
buy my new products
arent i clever i did this n i wrote that
non plussed?
me too
is it me or am i crazy?
help me out then
i gotta nasty cold or new moania i cant tell
im irresponsible
im ranting
im hot and bothersome
im gonna getcha and you aint gonna like it
im already gone
im just going on n on
im wasted here
im no one but im everywhere
is this the catch?

65 Responses to “gosh”

  1. avatar
    the dean | 25 January 2008 at 3:12 am #

    but we’ll all shine on like the sun the stars and the sun

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 3:22 am #

    well well, who got up on the wrong side of the bass this morning then?

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 3:25 am #

    That about sums it up. Samsara in all its glory. At least you are feeling your emotions. Sit with them. The answers are already there.
    Breathe.

  4. avatar
    ...being here, doing this... | 25 January 2008 at 3:45 am #

    Harmony naturally results in a deep silence, joy, delight.
    Conflict results in anxiety, anguish, stress, tension.
    The EGO is nothing but all the tensions that you have created around
    yourself.

    Osho

  5. avatar
    Thor | 25 January 2008 at 3:58 am #

    from a distance?that’s not so great SK.:(a healing for SK.

  6. avatar
    lily was here | 25 January 2008 at 4:01 am #

    You’re not crazy, you need to release some of that steam and frustration somewhere.
    xoxoxo

    ps whoever’s writing all the emails – FUCK OFF!!

    Sorry Joycie, dont know about SK but I feel better now πŸ™‚

  7. avatar
    Anakki Mayhem | 25 January 2008 at 4:11 am #

    hello, hello – is this where yesterday went??? xcpt 4 the lunatic besieging ur mailbox – i think my shitbox yesterday headed south… 2day is much nicer so i hope it flows on & u get it 2moz…
    ***shesayswithawrygrin***

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 4:50 am #

    Yes, this is the catch

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 4:53 am #

    & maybe post-festival comedown?

  10. avatar
    melissa | 25 January 2008 at 4:58 am #

    ‘blah blah fucking blah’

    ain’t that the truth!

    Feelin’ a bit like that myself πŸ˜‰ Steve, I know this is a very obvious suggestion, but perhaps you need to get yerself a new email address?

    all the best .. tomorrow will be better .. hopefully πŸ™‚

    x

  11. avatar
    Scott | 25 January 2008 at 5:06 am #

    Chuck it all and GO swimming.

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 5:08 am #

    cant ya just block emails from certain people? im no computy dude but surely it can be done…

  13. avatar
    Linjo | 25 January 2008 at 5:52 am #

    Hope there’s no one cooking a rabbit stew out there for you!
    Thought I could smell one on here for a while but I probably wrong.

    Linda

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 6:01 am #

    Hej Killa,
    I admire your music and words, have done ever since I saw the Church starting up in Sydney all those years ago, but I can’t dig why you sometimes rave and rant and rail against the world. I mean, you’re one of the lucky few to get to do a job that you really enjoy, you get to live your music and creativity to the full. And you’re living beachside in a country that knows no poverty, war or disease (unless you happen to be an aborigine). You`ve got a wife and kids,ya brothers, ya friends, and legions of people on this blog who applaud just about everything you do – is life really that bad?
    Hansi from the Rhine

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 6:03 am #

    ha ha!it helps ,to be crazy ,doesnt it :-).some people just dont know what they’re missin’?!{except for the marbles in the top paddock,the short cows at the picnic.and think about all of those lost marbles…and “we” think we’ve had a bad day!a minutes reflection for the cows,please.

  16. avatar
    relic | 25 January 2008 at 6:06 am #

    You need a cat to kick

    Im kidding,im kidding

  17. avatar
    Matt | 25 January 2008 at 6:50 am #

    Take it easy, killa.
    Shitty days are as short as all the others.
    And maybe take melissa’s advice and change the email address.

  18. avatar
    matt davison | 25 January 2008 at 7:09 am #

    gimme that e-mail before you change it killer!!

    MD

    ps* my day was worse manne
    but at least we are breathing air eh!

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 7:38 am #

    im tired too

  20. avatar
    persephone2u | 25 January 2008 at 9:06 am #

    Just mark the person’s e-mail as spam and have it all bounced right back to the person. Or make sure it all goes into your spam folder where it can all be deleted without you ever having to see it.

    Another fun thing you can do to this person is to input their e-mail address onto every porn site you can think of and the person will get spammed with tons of e-mails. Put their address everywhere on the web that you can find and they’ll start receiving hundreds of junk e-mails each day.

  21. avatar
    Ethereal Butterfly | 25 January 2008 at 9:44 am #

    Killa your candour about your ‘everyman’ inner experience is what makes you so unique & keeps us all here, supporting you & sending you positive vibes. Yep – it was a bad day & someone is pushing your buttons – Please don’t let them have power over you, fix it & move on. Namaste
    Heather

  22. avatar
    you, aged 15 | 25 January 2008 at 10:06 am #

    All right, all right, don’t chuck a William…

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 10:12 am #

    …something tells me you’ve got the shits…it will pass, always does, old son…
    jesus, where does this individual sending you all these e mails get off…what part of ‘leave me alone’ do they NOT understand…
    talking about things not going properly, this damn thing’s not accepting my password
    love always…
    The Hellbound Heart

  24. avatar
    isolde | 25 January 2008 at 10:13 am #

    you’ve got a fever
    you’re feeling fainter
    you’re a dim receiver

    oh dear

    sounds like you got a bad case of block
    just hold still

  25. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 25 January 2008 at 10:15 am #

    is it working now…i’ll see…

  26. avatar
    princey | 25 January 2008 at 10:45 am #

    Hi sk, Ihope you’re feeling a bit better since you wrote, I thought that pain in the butt got the message last time to fuck off!! I hate that she’s making you so angry and pissed off.
    Take care of that cold too.
    Love Amanda

  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 11:13 am #

    Sorry about your day. I feel you. I am a single parent w/ two kids. Things can get stressful dealing with…

    Ignorant petty co-workers
    Kids arguing
    Trying to make ends meet
    COLD ASS winter
    HARRASSING BILL COLLECTORS
    Need a break, can’t get a break

    Sleep is a gift from the gods. Sit back roll a spliff, enjoy natures glorious light show.
    I Pray your tomorrow will bring much LAUGHTER and LOVE into your heart.

    The evolving soul is not made divine by what it does, but by what it strives to do.

    ONE LOVE,
    K

  28. avatar
    Melby Symon | 25 January 2008 at 11:50 am #

    Ain’t this blog the truth..the whole truth and nothing but the fucking truth.

    It all just gets a little too tiresome sometimes..I know the feeling (without knowing the circumstances). Keep well SK.

  29. avatar
    lily was here | 25 January 2008 at 12:09 pm #

    That was probably a bit harsh on my behalf, and not like me..bad day here too. Give Steve his space and respect his request.

  30. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 25 January 2008 at 1:14 pm #

    Well said … I’m still hurting about Heath too. It’s so eerie that he was fascinated with that guy that wrote songs and checked out early on script drugs and Heath filmed a filmclip for his song and in it he drowned in a bath and then he goes and does the accidental (?) OD too. If there ever was a crying shame – I was a huge fan. The guy was so real, he had a bucketful of talent. Just shows you that bloody cliche about lonely at the top is so bloody true. There you are, a huge A-lister, 28, in New York, blondes hanging off every arm (hmmmmm – … )but ultimately you’re just another miserable shmo doing his best to fight off fear and loneliness and confusion. Man the chasm yawns some days. Especially if you’re method acting psychopaths like The Joker for a living. Oh, bloody Heath!!! Oh hell!

    Steven so sorry you’re going through this hideous crap. Too much detritus! I’ve been away and have missed so much. Can you see the doc and get a day minimum to yourself somewhere peaceful?

    Much Love,

    Jen

  31. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 25 January 2008 at 1:44 pm #

    Just read back about Kev Carmody and Triffids shows – great, well done all. Missy nailed it on the 7.30 Report and to snobs who don’t like the ordinary, non-British Australian accents of Missy and Julia Gillard – glad you’re in the minority. These are passionate people who don’t pretend to by anything other than who they are.

  32. avatar
    athpernath | 25 January 2008 at 1:58 pm #

    hello

    blah blah rhubarb rhubarb

    = “someone on the triffids forum posted SK singing Stolen Property with the rump tryffits. what a golem of song going berserk! graham lee’s guitar evil and beautiful, like damascus steel…and what a vocal performance. nothing between SK’s heart and his voice, hoarse or not. very delighted, and almost shocked”

    a.p.

  33. avatar
    eek | 25 January 2008 at 2:21 pm #

    Sounds as if you’re having a really crappy day Steve. Days like that suck. You’ve had a busy and stressful couple weeks — maybe you need a day or two off (or as off as possible). Hope you feel better soon.

    The email stalker is creepy — hope that problem goes away soon too. You shouldn’t have to deal with that kind of harrassment.

    The SK Live dvd arrived yesterday — it’s wonderful! Thanks Matt D. (and everyone else who made it possible). I especially love the bits bewteen the songs — give more of a sense of an actual show instead of it just being a series of live songs. Well done. πŸ™‚

  34. avatar
    restaurant mark | 25 January 2008 at 3:45 pm #

    just breathe man…slowly

    take care

    mark

  35. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 25 January 2008 at 4:03 pm #

    SK needs my favorite Church song “Tranquility”. “The Aweful Ache” and “Tranquility” are to SK what “For No One” and “Eleanor Rigby” were for MACCA.

    Federer and Nadal were destroyed in the Australian Open. Romney or McCain will be United States REpublican Presidential Nominee. Hillary Clinton will be the DEmocratic nominee. Her and her husband Bill (I loke Hummers from trailer trash) have run a vicious and sleazy campaign against Obama (An erudite, Nelson Mandela-like African American). Class acts finish last.

  36. avatar
    Cee | 25 January 2008 at 4:21 pm #

    im gonna getcha and you aint gonna like it
    im already gone
    im just going on n on
    im wasted here

    Te agarro y no te va a gustar
    Ya me fui
    Sigo, y sigo, y sigo
    Soy un desperdicio

    MAS CHOCOLATE PARA ESTEBAN!!

    Besos,
    Cee
    xox

  37. avatar
    davem | 25 January 2008 at 6:43 pm #

    Nurse that cold in the bosom of your family sk.
    Have a good weekend and sod the lot of ’em.
    Love you lots gaffer.
    xx

  38. avatar
    MANIMAL | 25 January 2008 at 9:44 pm #

    not the catch the comedown…reading praise again this week…what a book!!

  39. avatar
    Hermione | 25 January 2008 at 11:52 pm #

    I’m reading Harry Potter!!

  40. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 January 2008 at 2:55 am #

    “like,attracts “like””.BOMBARDMENT?..solution?:change the dynamic .when things aren’t” as you wish”,a shift in your approach,and a change of dynamic,are called for.call on the person in the mirror.ask for help from the higher self.dialogue with the heart.silence the chatter of the mind.feel.breathe.be well.everything is okay SK.peaceful vibes to you.i hope you’re feeling better today.NOW.

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 January 2008 at 2:57 am #

    everything takes forever and you just got to cope it sweet

  42. avatar
    PAGEY | 26 January 2008 at 3:57 am #

    yeah, use gmail filter option to immediately move said messages from asshole to trash. do it. i hate spam too but when its not just some commercial entity but someone who hates me because i’m a fag i really hate that….

    pagey

  43. avatar
    princey | 26 January 2008 at 4:00 am #

    Where are you sk? I have a feeling you’re not there. Are you ok???

  44. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 January 2008 at 4:18 am #

    Turn it into a song
    There is fire in your lungs
    The air is too cold
    Let these trials deny your faith
    Let the warm prayer awaken you
    Tomorrow the church will be born again

    -JAW

  45. avatar
    Sunshine | 26 January 2008 at 6:11 am #

    Isn’t it always the times when you least want advice that everyone’s rife with it? Love to you, SK, and all other fiends.

    ~Sunshine

  46. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 January 2008 at 8:14 am #

    waiting so long,ive been waiting so waiting so long…where’s the blog?gotta read TTB before ya go out.:-)

  47. avatar
    fantasticandy | 26 January 2008 at 8:30 am #

    sunshine!
    your’e bang on the money today!
    that’s why i haven’t left a comment today.
    ….oops!

  48. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 January 2008 at 8:30 am #

    he may be stark,and he may be ravin’…he’s completely sane.

  49. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 January 2008 at 8:31 am #

    I hope you got some warm, soothing sunshine today ‘n some much needed downtime to spend a carefree Australia Day with your luvly loved ones. And good riddance to both those nasty bugs plaguing you! Love to you xxx

  50. avatar
    isolde | 26 January 2008 at 9:20 am #

    hope that ear infection didn’t go down to your throat and give you all the problems sk look after yourself now

    lovely dvd matt d thanks and nice to see paul lightfoot’s face too very impressed with the videoing of the interview as well

  51. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 January 2008 at 10:54 am #

    “you are getting SLEEEEEPY.watch the clock,tick-tock.pendulous swagger.SLEEEEEEEEEEEEPY, πŸ˜€

  52. avatar
    cranky lady | 26 January 2008 at 12:01 pm #

    steve – get some gentiana long dan cao into you. Takes the excess heat out = calms down the cranks and anxiety. (I accidentally ran out of the stuff and the bottom fell out of everything -hadn’t fully realised the good it was doing until stopped having it).It’s cheap as anything -$8.00 a bottle – there’s a place on George St called Pine Mountain that sells it.It’s brilliant stuff.

  53. avatar
    Aristolte's Challenge | 26 January 2008 at 1:03 pm #

    When I ever get pissed off I then always feel guilty. I was feeling really guilty all day, then I read your blog and it gave me a sense of relief. I was in that kinda mood where it was like fuck everyone and fuck myself and fuck this mood. I feel better just knowing someone had the same kinda of day (does that make sense) I don’t know anymore.

    I also came across this quote from Aristolte.
    Aristolte’s Challenge

    “Anyone can become angry – that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way – this is not easy.”

    Kinda seems like a hard thing to do , might be easier to pop a valium and just say, whatever.

  54. avatar
    Aristolte's Challenge | 26 January 2008 at 1:27 pm #

    Not that I advocate taking valium (I take it to taper off a 14 year xanax habit). In regard to xanax I read a paper that said xanax can increase panic attacks by 350 per cent, (http://www.sntp.net/drugs/xanax_breggin.htm)- Could be bullshit but I still wish the doc told me about that before I got addicted. Gee do you reckon it affected Heath and all the other poor desparate souls.

  55. avatar
    tim | 26 January 2008 at 3:18 pm #

    want some cheese with that whine..

  56. avatar
    syrinx | 26 January 2008 at 5:50 pm #

    Re: computer-driven obsessives. I learned a couple of things about them this last year. One is they thrive on the fact that you acknowledge their disruption of your space – their power. And the communications that go back and forth as you try to fix whatever the hell is going on. Two – they get their satisfaction by having the last word in any exchange, and so they try to keep it going to get their fix of Last Word.

    With my particular ghoul, I found out that having the last word (usually involving some dig at me to prove his extreme superiority as he saw it – degreed out the wazoo as he was) is not actually, *literally* having the last word.

    Silence is the real last word.

    Once they catch on they’ve given their final brilliant performance , to prove whatever it is they’re trying to prove and realize you’ve already left the building, the silence is so loud it makes their ears bleed. Makes them even more insane, actually. They become desperate after that.

    Silence is the win. I’ve paid for it with a few hackings, several slanders (and on and on), but desperate actions only prove to me silence trumps anything an obsessive stalking wretch might have in their hand. It’s bothersome cleaning up the messes, but like the t-shirt says: I used to be disgusted. Now I’m just amused.

    Silence is the last word that you simply leave unspoken. They hate that.

    I hope you find an equally satisfying solution, Mr. K.

  57. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 January 2008 at 7:47 pm #

    silence is golden.duck tape is silver.are you over it yet SK?hope youre feeling better.

  58. avatar
    Annie | 26 January 2008 at 10:57 pm #

    SHHH…his antennae are flailing.FEEL.BREATHE.may this warm prayer reach out and give you peace.:D

  59. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 January 2008 at 12:39 am #

    GEE!where did everybody go?

  60. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 January 2008 at 1:07 am #

    something aint right, i cant see the space for my password. so i cant sign in.

  61. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 January 2008 at 2:02 am #

    green,for healing….over the ages{literally}xo

  62. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 January 2008 at 4:09 am #

    one should always keep the initial reply,as it could be good fodder!no fear,no worries!peace.good luck with that!hope they leave you the hell alone SK!you deserve a break.

  63. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 January 2008 at 7:23 am #

    just ‘block’ the sender.then you wont even have to read the emails.p.s. “restaurant mark”?did you ever work at the pavillion?it used to be quite a great place in your town,is it still there?oh,haha!didnt realise the pun of my quezzie then!but tis a serious question..

  64. avatar
    davem | 27 January 2008 at 10:55 am #

    Anon at 11.39…..Leicester….unforunately.

  65. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 January 2008 at 6:13 pm #

    Steve, post the bastards email address here and we can all sent the fucker 20 emails a day each. Then of course we can register the arsehole with every single scam mail companies available. The email address will collapse and become unusable.


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