posted on December 31, 2007 at 2:49 am

in the swirling caverns of slightly bent light
the words drifting down into the darkness
receiving nutrients from above
we are just men and women
we appear
we flourish
we wither
we disappear
some as useless as me
spin words out of the nothingness that surrounds us
impermanence is the swamp from which we crawled
oblivion shall be its name henceforth
this is where go
2007 big deal
same old jive, clive
same old 123
same old news years revolution
delerious imbeciles high on idiot glands
their magicless music
causing enervation from 5 miles away
shield me from the rape and murder
release me from my bonds
ive had enough
ive seen enough
guess i needed another swing in the ring
guess i gotta shoulder my responsibilities
guess i gotta save money and save people
guess i gotta burn you a painkiller
who is there left to decipher it
why am i always idle yet too busy to do anything about it?
i hate kilbey
make him go away
im sick of his tricks
im sick of his dips
im sick of his me me me
im sick of him complaining about himself in faux 3rd person like this
im sick of the mess and the half finished detritus of dreams
im sick of the cockroaches and ants and mosquitoes
im sick of the fucking flies and the crawly little worms
im sick of the blocked ringing ears and the heat
im sick of the drugs and im sick of being sick of the drugs
im sick of that voice
im sick of that touch
inside im shrinking from him
inside kilbey
where i have been reduced to a point
in his confused murky skull
sloshing around in a shallow sea
the graves where he buries his old flames
still smokin’ after all these years
is death good
is death bad
is death a white lady
or is death just the cessation of life
is there a hell
will it hurt when i die
how heavy is my soul
will it be this year or the next
if i can get back , will i
or would that frighten you
if you go first then leave me alone please
can you imagine?
2007 a lotta people found out the truth i guess
lotta ways to go
lotta ways to get there
life outsmarts ya
life plays you along
life seems to care and not care
chance is chancey
mayas flames burn and burn
you learn the truth but you still go on in lies
kilbey makes a loada noise
kilbey chucks around some paint
kilbey strings up some words
kilbey becomes meaningless
kilbey is a concept youve dreamt up
your kilbey bears no relation to the real kilbey
the real kilbey doesnt exist
the kilbey you invented is a convenient rationale
no one cares kilbey
why dont you go
see you next year kilbey
go into 08
go into legend
go into shadow and obscurity
we know your tired
we know youve pushed it
we know you cant keep going this way
take the holiday you cant ever have
go away for a few minutes
have a dry cracker and an olde bottle of water
have you gone mad
is this the pendulum as it swings
did you want to make everyone else feel glum
oh sorry kilbey says
oh he looking old in this light
he seems unable to focus his thoughts
he mumbles
he tugs at his ear
kilbey is whispering something to us
we listen
what is he trying to say
listen so carefully
we hear it
this is it
his message
have a happy new year
for the time being…..

35 Responses to “grab”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 December 2007 at 3:37 am #


  2. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 31 December 2007 at 3:47 am #

    My rediscovering of The Church and Steve Kilbey were highlights of your’s truly’s 2007. I can’t handle life that’s why I need a sympathetic shrink for pills. Need Sedation to slow down harsh reality. Steve Kilbey, Jeff Beck, Steve Vai, Chrissie Hynde and Morrissey rocked my world in 2007.

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 December 2007 at 4:10 am #


    You’ve got more talent in a grubby toenail than 99.999% of the population.

    You’ve recorded for all time some of the most beautiful songs ever to come out of this country, let alone anywhere else.

    You’ve got a superb, melifluous, fractitious brainbox firing at all sentient times.

    Your work keeps giving enormous pleasure to many, many people, and will do so for decades to come.

    Tuck away these little compliments and have a warm little smile now and again when things are gloomy. These times would be less interesting without you around.

    So whichever Kilbey reads this, have a Happy New Year young Steven.

  4. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 December 2007 at 4:16 am #

    Happy New Year to you. One of the highlights for me in 07 was you accepting our invitation to perform at the Cruelty Free Festival and that I (and my dance students) were on stage at the same event -(support act for SK?- can I put that on my dance website?) Thanks and hope you come back for future festivals.

    I only drop in here occasionally but always love your insights and philosophical ramblings whether your in your ‘up’ or ‘down’ mood. Looking forward to more of it and some beautiful music in 08.

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    queeny | 31 December 2007 at 4:17 am #

    He hates the periphery-
    what a glorious start to the year!
    warm giggles ricochet off glances that do not edit themselves – bravo!
    says one periphery to another
    bravo and all hail the man who watches the man …
    chance is chancey – yummy!
    my conclusionless answer to that?
    1+1 = 1+1
    and yet don’t we just loooooove
    to say it – all the same!
    to revel in our fleeting madness
    and observation of madness
    and the knowing that our judgment of madness is madness of the most hilarious kind!
    to laugh at death while our muscles spasm involuntarily
    …so you wanted another round in the ring! alright then!
    even better – no one to win or lose or even be there
    he’s painting and word-smithing in the shadows while watching kilbey throw punches, take em and burn a lolly just for the hell of it –
    this is the bravest non-entity ever
    and what a great new year’s resolution…none that is,
    love love love to the tiny point in kilbey’s skull that disguised itself as itself. what a little trickster! anubis is the greatest prankster of them all. AHH so you wanna know what death is? (noo you silly girl that’s not what I meant!) sorry words are useless…what I meant to say was..didn’t I see you guarding the gate to hell? what style! xxxxxxxxx

  6. avatar
    Fawn | 31 December 2007 at 4:20 am #

    3:16 was from me, Fawn (Faye) not anon.

  7. avatar
    veleska1970 | 31 December 2007 at 5:03 am #

    happy new year to you, too, steve.

    heh heh heh…”happy” new year. yeah, i think we all need a “happy” one. question is~~will we have one??

    lotza love….

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 December 2007 at 5:40 am #


    what type of instrument are you holding in the photo?

    And a Peaceful New Year


  9. avatar
    Anakki Mayhem | 31 December 2007 at 6:56 am #

    Can’t help myself – I’m an eternal optimist, always believing this next year will be better than the last… Thank you for the delight of your prolific words. May your coming year be bright & beautiful!

  10. avatar
    syrinx | 31 December 2007 at 7:20 am #

    All Of The Best and the least of the worst to you, sire. 2008 – the numbers add up pretty good on paper. Or even with a stick in the sand. 🙂

    Be well.

  11. avatar
    fantasticandy | 31 December 2007 at 7:24 am #

    you can burn me a painkiller anyday steve,
    you miserable olde git!
    sally forth and conker…that’s the ticket.
    enjoy the fireworks!
    andy L.

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 December 2007 at 7:43 am #

    Off to find some peace in mother nature,always a good tonic for me when I need to escape from all the human *%$^@$*#
    Sometimes I feel so alone when I think of all the wrongs in the world,and have found a lot of your words this year to be like thinking aloud.I guess life goes on and I constantly remind myself to keep positive,otherwise I would lose my mind.
    Life is amazing and mind boggling,so I’m off to discover some more of natures beauty.Hope to see you in the New Year.
    Love and sonshine

  13. avatar
    Altres | 31 December 2007 at 7:50 am #

    Steve, have a great Hogmanay, I know I will. I just scored some fabulous grass and am going to an all night party nearby.

    Life is gorgeous,


  14. avatar
    davem | 31 December 2007 at 7:59 am #

    Happy New Year TTB.
    I love you whatever your mood SK.

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 December 2007 at 8:05 am #

    SK – the most beautiful trainwreck, I can’t stop looking, we don’t know yo but we love ya,.. funny olde world isn’t it..

    I just gotta remember that the best stuff is whats happening right now.
    2008 will be the same as all the rest but it will also be the best yet.

    ‘appy new ears y’all.


  16. avatar
    Ethereal Butterfly | 31 December 2007 at 8:16 am #

    I don’t subscribe to N.Y resolutions, but I’ve made a decision to subscribe to this community.
    Yesterday’s and today’s blogs were powerfully poignant, witty & clever as usual, thanks Killa. May the year ahead be a rewarding and satisfying one for you and your family.
    Gidday mates & Happy New Year!!!!

  17. avatar
    verdelay | 31 December 2007 at 8:28 am #

    Unimpressed by the change of the year, I’m always shocked that it’s now January…

    Thankyou once again for your cumudgeonly diatribe, you olde greybeard/peacelover/ego-maw/fly-in-your-facenik/maestro/versifier/daddykinder.

    I look forward to looking into your mirror again next year.


  18. avatar
    Imber | 31 December 2007 at 8:49 am #

    Happy New Year, SK!

  19. avatar
    The Kipper | 31 December 2007 at 9:36 am #

    Hoooweee Steve, we are all getting older every day. Give it a mirthful embrace–some people never get to see the gray. Cherish the past, live for today, and look forward to tomorrow. Surely,we have both aged better than my yellowed and frayed Starfish shirt.

    Happy New Year!

  20. avatar
    Fireseed | 31 December 2007 at 10:16 am #

    “you learn the truth but you still go on in lies”

    keep on peeling away the layers of the onion in 2008!

  21. avatar
    princey | 31 December 2007 at 11:09 am #

    Hi sk, Happy New Year and thanks for everythiing you do, it really brings so much happiness into my life. I’ll only have a “happy new year” if YOU’RE in it too…that’s the honest truth, from the bottom of me little heart! So stay happy and healthy and lots of love to you always,
    HNY to all the fiends too!

  22. avatar
    Gareth,Notts | 31 December 2007 at 12:26 pm #

    after spending xmas on a fab(much needed)holiday in Sharm el sheikh,my xmas eve,and indeed my year was made when upon the big screens in the Hard Rock cafe appeared The Church in the Under The Milky Way video,fantastic! and i couldn’t help noticing quite a few other people watching intently too! Hope you n the family have a happy,healthy and wealthy new year Steve,and the same to all fellow TimeBeing-ites!….

  23. avatar
    fantasticandy | 31 December 2007 at 12:48 pm #

    how churlish of me earlier!

    thank you all my fellow TTB feinds!
    youv’e thrown a lot of love(and a bit of mud) my way this dying year!
    much love to you all, and my very best wishes for a happy, healthy new year.
    andy L.

  24. avatar
    davem | 31 December 2007 at 2:15 pm #

    Good point Mr L.
    Happy New Year all!!!! Nice to see you here again Gareth, I was only wondering this morning where you had got to and here you are.
    I’m a happy fiend now.

  25. avatar
    John | 31 December 2007 at 4:31 pm #

    Oh yeah. New year. Where the hell did 2007 go?

    Watch for many baby-related comments coming in 2008. I predict I won’t be able to shut up about it.

    John Garratt

  26. avatar
    veleska1970 | 31 December 2007 at 4:41 pm #

    sorry for the second post, but i just woke from a really bizarre dream, of which you were the star….well, in half of it, anyway.

    funny you mentioned a guy in a gold shirt the other day, because you had one, too. only you called it your “chameleon shirt”.

    you were on some big solo tour of the states, and when you came to dallas you decided to forgo the hotel and sleep at my house. and you insisted on sleeping on my billard table which was in the middle of my kitchen (i don’t own one and my kitchen certainly isn’t big enough to accommodate one…)

    just before the show, it began to rain outside and you went out into the middle of the parking lot and just stood there, in the rain, in your gold “chameleon shirt”. then the show started. you were on a platform that floated around the stage and it was at this time i saw why you called your shirt the “chameleon shirt”~~it kept changing colors from gold to blue to red and then back to gold again. and it was really shimmery all of a sudden. you were the only musician on the stage, playing a white fender bass that did the same thing your shirt did~~it changed colors, too. and shimmered.

    a lot of smoke wafted up from the sides of the stage and that’s when the dancers appeared…..about 30 of them….they cavorted about the stage with long silk streamers and big silver rings, somersaulting and flipping, and meanwhile you were floating around this stage on that levitating platform playing your guitar and singing. and your shirt and guitar changed colors in time with the music. if the tempo was faster, so was the color show; if slower, then the same. it was really neat.

    i was in the audience totally not liking this because it was oh so not like you. it was more of a circus act than a concert. and it lasted 4 HOURS!!! after the show, backstage, you asked me what i thought and i said “i hated it, steve. it sucked!!! but the shirt was cool, though.” you looked disappointed. it started to rain again, so you ran out and stood in it. and your shirt kept changing colors. and shimmered.

    at this point is where you exited my dream and it went on without you, so i won’t bore you with the rest of it. and i don’t know how it ended because one of my cats jumped into the bed and woke me up. (which is something i’ve always wondered~~if we could sleep forever without interruption, would the dream go on forever without interruption?)

    weird. **shrug** when i woke up i was like WTF, yet i’m chuckling as i’m typing this, remembering your chameleon shirt and the dancers. i’ve been under a lot of stress lately, so thanks for the comic relief. the only explanation i can think of for the shirt is all the blinking christmas lights i’ve seen lately, changing colors.

    but, if you ever do come to dallas and want to stay over, our home is your home, so you’re more than welcome. and we do have an extra bed that is more comfortable than a pool table. just promise you will do a show by yourself and don’t bring those dancers with you. PLEASE.

    sorry this ended up being a mini blog within your comment box, but i was hoping you would get a giggle out of this.

    happy new year everybody.

  27. avatar
    CSTCoach | 31 December 2007 at 4:45 pm #

    happy gnu year, killa.

    i often find the end of the olde year a bit melancholy, but such hopelessness and the feeling of grinding weight is often the prelude to a major change. perhaps 2008 will ring in big things for you. i hope it brings wealth, happiness, and all the things you’re looking for.


    – happy new year to fellow fiendss as well 🙂

  28. avatar
    chris | 31 December 2007 at 5:11 pm #

    when u gonna stop mucking about and get back to welwyn garden city?
    love you

  29. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 31 December 2007 at 6:00 pm #

    Oh Happy Day!!! yeah write, another one bites the dust…

  30. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 31 December 2007 at 6:10 pm #

    We all know The Church are still in their musical prime. No Radiodead or U2 CD compares to Uninvited Like The Clouds. Then you have the obscure masterpiece Isidore. SK vocals were vintage. All The Church and SK need is publicity and public relations. Their paramount talent remains intact.

  31. avatar
    mandn | 31 December 2007 at 7:13 pm #

    it’s a pity Orpheus, ’cause all I see is us another year/day closer to WW III

    let’s hope I’m wrong.


  32. avatar
    the dean | 31 December 2007 at 11:39 pm #

    you need a holiday. get out of that city. the south coast is still here with cicadas singing to the endless white noise of the sea.

  33. avatar
    JJ | 31 December 2007 at 11:52 pm #

    A very Happy New Year to you, White HippyMoses. I’m about to dress to go to obligatory “New Year’s” party…….swingin’ party down the line, you know, and all that auld lang syne jazz, plus the jazz I brought back from Appalatchia last night, was a week of bliss, wood-stove firelight reflection and whispering firs in the high mountains.


  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 January 2008 at 12:47 am #

    36 people lean in to their screens to hear you whisper…

    and smile; you lovely thing

    ‘appy new ‘ear back at ya!…all


  35. avatar
    gregra&gar | 1 January 2008 at 12:22 pm #

    ?did you want to make everyone else feel glum”

    Do you think you can make everyone anything else?

    Any one?

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