posted on March 19, 2008 at 7:52 pm

listening to woven hand n ultima vez
(thanks markus)
always knew the banjo could be utilised usefully
outside its bluegrass thing…
yesterday
visited a friend in hospital
if youre not in hospital
thank your lucky starrs
my friend continuing to show incredible grace
in the face of adversity
and im not ashamed to say i love him
and my heart was at once battered to see him as he was
and filled with incredible pride to know this geezer at all
absolutely one in a million
and i want to scream out to god
YOU GOT THE WRONG GUY!
everything else seems trivial in the face of that
however i will persist
though all my usual petty ambitions seem pathetic just now
also another dear friend shows up at hospital yesterday
coming in from a long way to see our mate
sad to see him under these conditions
im all confused about everything fiendss
this has shaken me to the very core
and of course
an incessant voice inside me
saying
kilbey you could do something
if you could only muster up whatever it will take..
but my doubt and sorrow prevents me from ever
knowing what this could be
if it even exists at all…
my dad had a kind of calming effect on people
which i wish i could say i have too
but i dont…unless its scarlet
..and not even always then…
my way with words often deserts me
just when you think i’d be needing it the most
and i often say the wrong things despite everything
tomorrow im in the smh metro questionaire
its amazing how i/the church still get serious coverage
in the big papers
ive just done similar one for melbs the age
different questions of course
one question said who do you admire most in this world
i actually wanted to say my friend whos ill
but they probably cut the answers that dont have pizazz
plus you got the anonymity factor as well
but still its nice to get in the real papers now n then
our media “clout” (ha ha more like a limp slap)
has always been disproportianately bigger
than our actual status would seem to warrant
ie it seems people want me in their papers
on their radio
(y’all musta missed that one on abc 2 weeks back!)
and on their tv
cos i been asked onto a certain show
n this time i said yes ok i will
the rent got put up yesterday
so i figger i could use some more x-pose-yah
and its pop-you-lah show
so
there ya go
other than that
i always seem to be in some vague conflict with someone
and its no different now
something in me brings out the worst in most people
which only martin krall in stockholm
and ricki ticki
and usually timmy p
can resist
everybody else is a bit upset with me over something
even if its the guy sitting next to me on a bus
i seem to imply a lot of things i dont mean to
old without much wisdom
thats a curse isnt it?
today im having acupuncture for my bad back
and still waiting for my bi annual royalties to arrive
the mofos hang onto it for as long as they can
no wonder they are loathed n the business is imploding
i also note with some weary inevitability
that when i write something i think is really good
i get hardly any comments
but if i wrote about this record or that record
everyones suddenly interested
of course thats only natural
but still……
it hurts to think
most of ya
are sitting round patiently
hoping im gonna get onto
the good bits soon….

61 Responses to “handy tips and shortcuts”

  1. avatar
    esne snoner | 19 March 2008 at 8:53 pm #

    hey sk sadness prevails me too witnessing a dear friend dealing with a terrible illness and the same effect on me – kind of makes any of my grievances seem trivial – great news re smh and a gig on the same weekend – i like many other commenters on this blog are in awe of your perserverance not to mention your literary skills that you seem to think go unnoticed – not so – oh and a certain favourite tune popped up on the mp3 player the other day with a lyric you will relate to – ‘one day i notice the world at my feet’ – keep it going my man it’s coming

  2. avatar
    the dean | 19 March 2008 at 9:17 pm #

    life is a strange trip, the more you plan the more it fucks up, the oftener you try to do the right thing the more you get stung. You can’t do nothing but sometimes some small action starts an unexpected series of events that, like the roll of a dice, can be a six or a one

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 March 2008 at 9:18 pm #

    Just ’cause we comment more about the albums we love doesn’t mean that we don’t enjoy the poetry. What are we gonna say about that? Ohh, that was lovely, etc?

  4. avatar
    davem | 19 March 2008 at 9:29 pm #

    Hi.
    Sometimes, even with your grasp of language, the words just can’t be found. So sorry about your friend.

    One of the wonders of this blog is to get closer to a bloody genius. That’s you, you know……..Anyway, I just knew the number of comments about GAF wouldn’t please you!!
    You ought to know that some of your work here on TTB is so good it’s almost intimidating, lot’s of us fiends are just caught in the slipstream. So many of us really admire and respect you SK, so when something more accessible is posted by you it’s easier to show our love.
    So, please don’t be pissed off. So many of us love you…it’s nice to see an expression of that pouring out.
    We love YOU. Ok?
    xx

  5. avatar
    verdelay | 19 March 2008 at 9:42 pm #

    I admire the neighbour’s cat
    But I don’t share its tastes

    [metaphor ends]

  6. avatar
    princey | 19 March 2008 at 9:53 pm #

    Sorry to hear about your friend too sk, just being there in the room with him is “doing something” really special for your friend.

    As for the comments, I agree with the others in that it’s not that we’re NOT interested with certain blogs to comment, it’s just SO HARD sometimes to write something here without sounding like a lovestruck fool or an idiot (as I always seem to do!!). You’re blogs are usually so beautifully written, there’s nothing left to say! I love everything you write etc (but I’ll stop here cos I’ll just keep going and then get bagged for it).
    Love always and I hope you’ll feel better sk. Good luck with the back too.
    Love to u always
    Amanda

  7. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 19 March 2008 at 10:07 pm #

    It’s just that it’s often harder to comment on your poetry, Steve. It’s not that we don’t appreciate it, it’s just that it’s easier to comment on the music, because we’ve spent so much time with it, and it’s had a personal impact on our lives.

  8. avatar
    Athanasius Pernath | 19 March 2008 at 10:14 pm #

    i cannot comment on the pieces that seriously touch me (and there are a lot). the bit about you and your daughter walking…the bit with the SK in different places and times…the vague childhood memories. it’s like reading a book. if i read one of my favourite books, and i try to tell someone why i love it so much, i usually fail miserably. it’s all happening so deep in my head. “yeah…ya know….Ada Or Ardour by Nabokov…you know…it rocks…” No no no. i can’t write about the greatness of words.

    Music. We have devoured thought-about, re-thought, and re-rethought every single note the church have released. i guess some of us have something to tell…beyond “that was a great blog”.

    i read every verse/line/chapter. most of it moves me deeply. i’m just shutting up, in admiration mode.

    Love

    Stef

  9. avatar
    PAGEY | 19 March 2008 at 10:17 pm #

    yeah, hell man, i’ve got this cyst like thing on my inner thigh. Been waiting to see if it was just an ingrown bacterial thingie or whatever. I think i’m gonna have to bite the bullet and get to the Dr. Godf i hate my Dr. I mean he is a Dr. there to help one out. But i always think of Dr’s as wardens of death. Hope this is nothing. I’m over 14 months without meth now, great scott. Never touch that stuff. Been living a good nutritiou life. Hope its nothing. Hope your friends make it out alive….

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 March 2008 at 10:24 pm #

    SK,

    May not comment every day but i enjoy the read.

    That’s why we are all here !

    DR

  11. avatar
    Issakimani | 19 March 2008 at 10:51 pm #

    I’m sorry about your friend. I know most of my close friends are more like family to me and I would be devistated if any one of them were so ill. I will pray for your friend. Just being there for your friend and visiting him is so helpful and important. Continue visiting your friend, if there is anything else you can do for him it will come to you. Take care.

    One Love,
    Kari

  12. avatar
    tim | 19 March 2008 at 10:53 pm #

    p.s. learned chords to buffalo (i think) thanks for the music!!!! if i ever play a gig outside my basement, i will send royalties…
    don’t plan on retirement any time soon there sk.

  13. avatar
    Wireless | 19 March 2008 at 11:00 pm #

    Hello. This post is likeable, and your blog is very interesting, congratulations :-). I will add in my blogroll =). If possible gives a last there on my blog, it is about the Wireless, I hope you enjoy. The address is http://wireless-brasil.blogspot.com. A hug.

  14. avatar
    SweatyWheels | 19 March 2008 at 11:27 pm #

    One memorable blog I really enjoyed recently was just a warm story about yr day walking the skids to skool and hanging out with Scarletty, a really innocous tale that went nowhere but was really quite warming and lovely.

    “And please don’t mention the Church…”

  15. avatar
    matt davison | 19 March 2008 at 11:39 pm #

    We all understand SK we do…..
    Never fear that.!!

    sorry in all the way’s a person can say sorry….

    D& little Carla are on the big bird to NZ for good soon

    impending loss heading towards me a great speed also

    I feel ripped and split like a string bean in a cassarole(can’t really find a better metophore)

    -and the future spins away like a gyroscope

    my health has moved into risk zone one….BP and heart type concerns lurk into my once youthful 34 year old body

    Oh how to cope?? nevermind

    I hope for you’re best friends recovery!!!

    from a cooler and darker Melbourne

    md

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 March 2008 at 11:48 pm #

    Dear sk,

    I don’t always comment but I always read, even though sometimes I’m catching up. But I’ve just had to buy another storage box in which to keep your many gems for prosperity.

    All your hard work isn’t in vain. I wouldn’t part with any of it. There are so many “good bits”.

    Love
    Lady Di

  17. avatar
    steve kilbey | 19 March 2008 at 11:50 pm #

    people
    i understand more comments dont= more love
    thanks for your reassurances
    ive got some real lovely people reading this thing
    killa

  18. avatar
    melissa | 20 March 2008 at 12:05 am #

    everything that davem and princey said earlier on!

    Sometimes I find myself thinking about your blogs an entire day after reading them and still have trouble coming with something good enough or eloquent to respond!

    I found a quote that seemed to sum up how I felt about yesterdays entry (and probably today’s as well!) ‘Although actions may speak louder than words, it is our intentions that reveal our soul’

    It seems to me that you have a very good and kind one 😉 I too wish your dear friend the best

    Take care!
    xx

  19. avatar
    Paul Lightfoot | 20 March 2008 at 12:48 am #

    Disappear just aired on New Zealand National Radio during an interview with the Producer. He said it was the best Australian song in 21 years despite Australians voting UTMW as being the best Australian song in 21 years, Disappear is one of my all time faves . He also said in the interview, that a drum machine was used in Disappear I never knew that.

    Paul L

  20. avatar
    Ethereal Butterfly | 20 March 2008 at 1:18 am #

    I loved this blog today; so honest, so lacking in any pretension our ‘rockstar- everyman’. Like us, your friend is very privileged to have your beautiful energy shared with him. The selfless act of being there for someone, in their time of suffering, sharing compassion & your time is a most precious gift indeed.
    I contacted a poetry show on ABC radio some time ago suggesting that they consider looking at your writing via this blog etc, I wonder if it was that? I’m just hoping that you’re soon renumerated & more widely recognised for your artistic output our special Aussie –battler icon- SK….. Did somebody mention the ARIA’s Hall of Fame?….
    Take care of that back!
    Love Heather

  21. avatar
    steve kilbey | 20 March 2008 at 1:27 am #

    drum machine on disappointment but not disappear

  22. avatar
    Pale Rider | 20 March 2008 at 1:30 am #

    Aw, killer–

    They’re ALL good bits. Some elicit different responses.

    Ya don’t get the same response every time you paint something, do ya?

    You are an amazing blogger–you have mastered this craft, and no matter if people say the blogge thing don’t matter–the blogge is a new form of art. Many try, few succeed, but ya bring your genius along every day and you never stop shooting for a blogge that is brilliant.

    THAT is what keeps people coming back.

    B-sides, who wants to fight it out in the comments? Ugly shit don’t matter when ya read something good.

  23. avatar
    dROPfRAME | 20 March 2008 at 1:41 am #

    The Church ‘Dissappear’ – today was the BEST SONG EVER WRITTEN – an everyday feature slot on National Radio New Zealand as requested by an obviously clued up Music lover – well done that man. Break out yer back catalogue floks, Seance is the sh**t

  24. avatar
    dropframe | 20 March 2008 at 1:46 am #

    He was talking about the gated reverby snare drum sound on Dissappear. The announcer (jim mora) added afterwards that Under the Milky Way had been the song most regarded by aussies in a Melbourne Age questionaire.
    Fuck I’m loving THE GREAT MACHINE Stevie

  25. avatar
    ben | 20 March 2008 at 2:05 am #

    i appreciate your honesty. its good to have your feet put back on the ground, expecially when a close one is in need. friends come together in times of need, and i hope that through your friends courage you guys will be made stronger.

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 March 2008 at 2:18 am #

    Hi Steve,

    Very busy right now, but must agree with nearly all of the sentiments above…

    Cheers,

    Jon from Geelong.

  27. avatar
    JJ | 20 March 2008 at 2:53 am #

    SK, I feel badly for your friend, and I hope recovery is possible. I’m sorry to hear this. I remember Martin Krall from the “great bass hoo-ha” of years ago. Your off-the-cuff “pome” stayed with me, withered-claws and all. I quite admired it.

    I read and appreciate everything, I just – as you say when you experience a loss for words – sometimes feel that I have nothing to contribute that is meaningful, or perhaps am reluctant to signal the possibility that I missed your point entirely. The music I have opinions or feelings about, as I’ve played the songs so often, listened intently to the lyrics, or analyzed the songs trying to divine their mysterious pull on me. So, I feel passionate about that.

    The music “business model” is changing, isn’t it? Bands and artists going directly to the listener, bypassing the men in suits – that’s gotta scare them….getting disconnected from the money. Ha. Screw them; and hope your cheque arrives soon.

    Write about whatever moves you at the moment.

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 March 2008 at 3:04 am #

    Gee Pagey, I seem to recall you absolutely slamming a once regular patron of the comments forum for his self-indulgent and overly long posts and yet you think that anyone, least of all the guy who gives your life its meaning, wants to hear about your festering groin and oh-so-original aversion to medical practitioners.

    I’m sure your doctor hates you back. Or at least your back. Why don’t you try having the poison leeched from your system…oh hang on, that would mean the removal of your soul.

  29. avatar
    fawn | 20 March 2008 at 3:29 am #

    I often read your blog but rarely comment. One of the main reasons is that although I’ve been blessed with numerous creative talents, writing is not one of them. I read some of your blogs and there is nothing to say. My limited skills with words don’t allow me any response other than ‘wow’ and I’m hardly going to write that every time I read your blog am I? My guess is that the more profound your blog, perhaps the less comments you’ll receive, not because of lack of interest but because people are left speechless.

    It’s so hard watching someone you care for being so ill- I know I watched my x partner for years in pain, sickness, on the verge of death and finally he died at 40 alone in a squalid flat with no friends and no family as he’d pushed everyone away . At least your friend has people around him who love him and care for him and that’s all you can give and I think that means a lot.

  30. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 March 2008 at 4:45 am #

    Let’s hear more about the making of some of the newer albums eh? You write good prose but yes we grew up on the church so it RESONATES. We wanna be closer to those albums, those songs. Let’s hear about Buffalo…is there a lady named Christina? Did you spend a winter there? Oh the words and delivery. You are blessed with a great voice Steve and despite your bewitching lyrical prowess, your voice will always resonate more than anything. Marty and Coppers with your dramatic bass is so much larger than the sum of the parts. You became what the fans and world see you as by being a part. A blessing and a curse? Lucky you at least have a blessing right mate?

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 March 2008 at 4:57 am #

    just checked out Woven Hand….CO band???? I like what I hear…What about Ultima Vez????

    Mel

  32. avatar
    ...being here, doing this... | 20 March 2008 at 4:58 am #

    “im all confused about everything fiendss
    this has shaken me to the very core
    and of course
    an incessant voice inside me
    saying
    kilbey you could do something
    if you could only muster up whatever it will take..
    but my doubt and sorrow prevents me from ever
    knowing what this could be
    if it even exists at all…”

    ~

    Being there is everything in love, in life and in dying. Many years ago, I noticed an interesting phenomenon in a hospital. Many of the dying patients began to feel wonderful; not so much physically, but mentally. This wasn’t because of me, but because of the cleaning woman. Every time she walked into the room of one of my dying patients, something would happen. I would have given a million dollars to learn that woman’s secret.

    One day I saw her in the hallway and said to her rather curtly, “What are you doing with my dying patients?”

    “I’m only cleaning the rooms,” she replied defensively.

    Determined to know how she was making people feel good, I followed her around. But I couldn’t figure out what special thing she was doing. After a few weeks of snooping around like this, she grabbed me and dragged me into a room behind the nurses’ station. She told me how, some time ago, one of her six children had become very ill one winter. In the middle of the night she took her three-year-old to the emergency room, where she sat with him on her lap, desperately waiting hours for the physician to come. But no one came, and she watched her little boy die of pneumonia, in her arms. She shared all this pain and agony without hate, without resentment, without anger, without negativity.

    “Why are you telling me this?” I asked. “What has this to do with my dying patients?”

    “Death is not a stranger to me anymore,” she replied. He is like an old acquaintance. Sometimes when I walk into the rooms of your dying patients, they look so scared. I can’t help but walk over to them and touch them. I tell them I’ve seen death, and when it happens, they will be okay. And I just stay there with them. I may want to run, but I don’t. I try to be there for the other person. That is love.”

    Unschooled in the ways of psychology and medicine, this woman knew one of the greatest secrets in life: love is being there, and caring.

    Sometimes, due to circumstances beyond our control, we can’t be there physically. But that doesn’t mean we’re not connected in love.

    Taken from the book “Life Lessons – How our mortality can teach us about life and living” – by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross and David Kessler.

  33. avatar
    Sharka | 20 March 2008 at 5:20 am #

    Fawn is right. Sometimes there seems little to add to your words. Othertimes there is something specific to comment on. Keep it coming out natural like- it’s all very good!

  34. avatar
    bezepae | 20 March 2008 at 5:30 am #

    What Dave M. and Thomas Thomsen (Denmark) said.

    When I met you(Vegas), you were very kind. It was one of the BEST days ever! So thanks for not bringing out the worst that day. You touch people!

    I like to play ‘essence’ to the jocks.

    I’m a simple geez…

  35. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 March 2008 at 6:36 am #

    The Buffalo-intro 3rd chord is sweet: on frets it would be something like
    200230..

    Testing acoustic guitars I always slam it out. Good and simple.

    – Lebrinho

  36. avatar
    blackeyes | 20 March 2008 at 7:27 am #

    being here doing this,
    I’m very much touched by the story. and this is a real wonderful place to visit everdyday.

    best wishes.

  37. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 20 March 2008 at 7:41 am #

    Dear, DEAR Killa – I’m always with you, comments or no. Your blog is an ongoing addiction of the most beautiful, writerly kind. It is also an absolute privilege to be able to read your marvellous mind, your razor wire wit, your rage against the night, your beliefs, many insights and advice and the deep, deep love you hold for special family and friends. Your honesty is honey my dear. The day you stop the world will be less butterly, more moth. Always with you.

    Much love,

  38. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 20 March 2008 at 7:48 am #

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=
    4B1Q0kUnyFE&feature=related

  39. avatar
    linjo | 20 March 2008 at 8:01 am #

    Such a personal journey facing death. Loved that story Dr Being Here. Steve, dont despair, you are doing the best possible by showing your love and respect. Your friend is obviously being cut down in the prime of life, when he has found true happiness. Very sad. Hope you have a cuppla botties of Riccadonna to soothe tonight.
    Linda X

  40. avatar
    12str | 20 March 2008 at 9:03 am #

    how can one possible leave a comment after reading something that usually blows ones mind into a string of reflections and thoughts about the time being or the time gone or the time to come…
    thanks man!
    Pat

  41. avatar
    eek | 20 March 2008 at 9:42 am #

    kilbey you could do something

    You are doing something — something very important. You can’t cure him, or take away his pain or worry or sadness, and I’m sure he doesn’t expect you to. What you are doing by visiting now is showing him he is valued as a person and friend no matter what. I always want to slap people who won’t go visit friends/relatives who are critically ill or dying because “I don’t want to see him/her like that.” Boo fucking hoo. No one wants to see anyone they love “like that” and no one wants to be “like that” either, but does anyone really think the sick person wants to be shunned and ignored because his/her friends/relatives are all selfish chickenshits? (Can you tell I’m still seething over years of making excuses for my brother when he wouldn’t come to see our mother in the hospital because he didn’t like it? Asshole broke her heart)

    You don’t have to say the perfect thing — I don’t think there is a perfect thing to say in situations such as this anyway — just being there and letting the person know you care does a whole lot. People need to know they are loved and cherished not only when everything is great, but also when the bottom drops out and they are sick and scared and don’t look great. You are doing well, Steve. You are willing to not take the easy way out because you love your friend. That comes across loud and clear to him. Trust me, it really does.

    the rent got put up yesterday
    &
    and still waiting for my bi annual royalties to arrive

    Isn’t it typical that when you need more money it always comes to you even more slowly? Hope the royalties arrive soon. Hope the acupuncture helps your back too. Chronic pain sucks big time.

    most of ya
    are sitting round patiently
    hoping im gonna get onto
    the good bits soon….

    No kidding! I’ve been reading your blog every fucking day for years and you still haven’t gotten to ’em!!

    😉

  42. avatar
    verdelay | 20 March 2008 at 11:05 am #

    You mean it’s been years?

    Gloriana!

    v

  43. avatar
    isolde | 20 March 2008 at 11:38 am #

    Reuele to me the sacred noursery
    Of vertue, which with you doth there remaine,
    Where it in siluer bowre does hidden ly
    From view of men, and wicked worlds disdaine.
    Since it at first was by the Gods with paine
    Planted in earth, being deriu’d at furst
    From heauenly seedes of bounty soueraine,
    And by them long with carefull labour nurst,
    Till it to ripenesse grew, and forth to honour burst.

    Amongst them all growes not a fayrer flowre,
    Then is the bloosme of comely courtesie,
    Which though it on a lowly stalke doe bowre,
    Yet brancheth forth in braue nobilitie,
    And spreds it selfe through all ciuilitie:
    Of which though present age doe plenteous seeme,
    Yet being matcht with plaine Antiquitie,
    Ye will them all but fayned showes esteeme,
    Which carry colours faire, that feeble eies misdeeme.

    But in the triall of true curtesie,
    Its now so farre from that, which then it was,
    That it indeed is nought but forgerie,
    Fashion’d to please the eies of them, that pas,
    Which see not perfet things but in a glas:
    Yet is that glasse so gay, that it can blynd
    The wisest sight, to thinke gold that is bras.
    But vertues seat is deepe within the mynd,
    And not in outward shows, but inward thoughts defynd.

  44. avatar
    Melby Symon | 20 March 2008 at 12:19 pm #

    You’re hurting sk…it’s human nature to be afraid and feel so unable to change or influence the life shattering events that go on around us.

    so…I understand you thinking that we only care about your less profound blogs…but I think you’ll find if you look really objectively, that many of us take so much from your “really good” stuff. The audience may be smaller but the appreciation is greater.

  45. avatar
    restaurant mark | 20 March 2008 at 12:49 pm #

    hey man so sorry about your friend and what he’s going through…you want so badly to help but feel helpless. your love, support and a kind word is really all you can give.
    as far as commenting goes…i agree with a lot of the other ones. i can rant on the political or social things…but i try not to go on too much and get long winded. a lot of the stories, poetry, and childhood memories i love reading about, but it’s harder to write something back. either because i’m still taking it all in and kind of blown away or because it so connects to something, the only way to comment on it would be to write a blog of my own…a short comment wouldn’t do. but music’s my passion and i’ve spent so much time listening to yours and others it’s just easier to put an opinion down real quick. by the way…listened to nothing but joy division all afternoon after commenting…new dawn fades, twenty four hours, etc, etc…amazing!

    take care
    mark

  46. avatar
    fantasticandy | 20 March 2008 at 1:01 pm #

    steve,
    i’m not a very articulate person.
    i often comment to let you know i’m
    reading,
    but sometimes words fail me….
    on the days you don’t see my twaddle here..it’s mostly that i feel unqualified to respond!
    much love to you at this difficult time.
    hugs,
    andy L.

  47. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 20 March 2008 at 2:18 pm #

    I’m literally addicted to the Time Being and The Church. I will fight (in writing) for God, animal rights, Tommy (my cat), The Church, Sk, Macca, Chrissie Hynde, Jeff Beck, Isaiah, John Wesley, Gandhi, Martin De Porres and Empedocles. These are all good causes to help atone for my inner demons, vices and probable descent into perdition.

  48. avatar
    CSTCoach | 20 March 2008 at 2:40 pm #

    very sorry to hear about your friend. its such an awful helpless feeling to sit by and watch. a couple years ago i spent that final week in the hospital with my dad. still dream about it most nights. but i agree with eek, just being there when that person wakes up in that unfamiliar room connected to all those tubes, even if you don’t know what to say, can mean so much…

    “i also note with some weary inevitability
    that when i write something i think is really good
    i get hardly any comments”

    would it be any consolation to know that the good parts sometimes leave ya speechless, unable to summon a comment that does it justice?

    for myself, when you turn out a particularly good bit of poetry, i read it once for the experience, and then i go back and dissect it, looking at your word choices, your flow, your imagery. i always learn some new way to deepen my writing. its an apprenticeship of sorts. your work has always been that way, from my first glimpse of the liner notes of starfish.

    there are even a couple snippets that i printed out and folded into the notebook i take on the road, to ponder in lonely desert places, on expeditions. one poem in particular always goes on those trips.

    so there.

  49. avatar
    matthew | 20 March 2008 at 2:48 pm #

    No Steve, from this cozy bedroom-cum-studio, all the bits are always good bits.

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    Anonymous | 20 March 2008 at 3:13 pm #

    Well, sitting with my old grandma, the mighty matriarch of my family while she died was an eye opener. There was so much calming grace going on there and all I could do to pass those last minutes into the thin hours was sing to her. Jimmy Rodgers, Hank Williams and Dylan (it takes a lot to laugh, it takes a train to cry). We’re all gonna go there, Killer. Nobody’s fooked it up yet, they don’t give return tickets (in the western sense), and we give what we can to those waiting on the platform. BTW, your non musical stuff here is the real top shelf material.

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    Issakimani | 20 March 2008 at 3:42 pm #

    I fell asleep last night thinking about your friend in the hospital. Usually the rooms can be so drab and depressing. I have seen the colorful vibrant paintings you paint. Have you painted any of just nature no people, maybe the ocean. Just a thought. Something colorful to meditate on would be nicer than blank walls. Just a thought, hopefully helpful, sorry if it wasn’t. All my love and best wishes to you and your loved ones!!!

    One Love,
    Kari

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    Anonymous | 20 March 2008 at 4:53 pm #

    Steve I love all of your writings.
    I know how much effort that you put into them.
    Sometimes I am very content to just sit back and take your words in.
    If I feel that I can contribute to the conversation then I will.
    But please don’t think that silence is any indication of a lesser appreciation of your work.
    Many prayers and blessings for your buddy who is going through this horrible ordeal.

    Peace,
    Mark
    Tampa, Fl

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    John | 20 March 2008 at 5:43 pm #

    There is nothing wrong with a little selling out. As long as you don’t appear stupid/trivial/trite, we’ll still always like what you do and what the band does.

    Can “Under the Milky Way” help sell candy bars, perhaps?

    John Garratt

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    nickfiction | 20 March 2008 at 7:24 pm #

    i’m glad that SK found “woven hand” ….. now have you heard ” 16 horsepower ” or Lilium yet? go get it killer, these guys are the real thing….

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    Beeves Johnny Kilt | 20 March 2008 at 7:42 pm #

    worry not
    oh bright
    one

    you
    are more
    than heavens

    delight
    can bear,
    such a

    heavy, heavy task

    for
    a mortal
    one…

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    Anonymous | 20 March 2008 at 8:25 pm #

    (y’all musta missed that one on abc 2 weeks back!)

    oh you sweetie, you do read your ‘reviews’

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    Ross B | 21 March 2008 at 12:40 am #

    When I first discovered this blog, around hazy Christmas ’07 the first keywords of excitation that sprung out of my cranium were ‘Kilbey’ ‘Seance’ ‘Church’ and all the rest of it…I was very quick to discover that I loved the being behind the words and what was written rather than that other stuff…I mean the albums speak for themselves, they exist and we take from them what we do – although it can be easier to comment and pontificate on the Church albums than, like so many people here suggest, beautiful words and poetry. I love this blog, I find all your blogs enriching and inspiring.

    Be with your friend, and Love your friend – demonstrate your love by being with them and holding their energy – their love – within because that is what unites us all beyond life & death.

    So happy ‘Good’ Friday.
    Regards, RB.

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    Rebis | 21 March 2008 at 3:38 am #

    hey there killer, i was just gonna tell ya to check out 16 horsepower to if you dig woven hand, same guy, very good stuff

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    lily was here | 21 March 2008 at 6:27 am #

    Being There summed it up perfectly. The greatest gift to a friend is to give of yourself to be there for them.

    Love and strength to you sk xxx

    ps no offence to anyone, i always thought of New Order as disco for the 80’s trenchcoat new-romantic crowd (of which some were my friends 🙂 Some gems… some duds.

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    Jen Jewel Brown | 22 March 2008 at 4:38 pm #

    Happiest Easter everyone

  61. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 March 2008 at 9:06 am #

    dice rol,double six, , .:Dx


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