posted on March 6, 2011 at 10:56 pm

autumn sooner

midnite in australia

words fill up my head

my vain brain torments itself like picking a scab

gonna hurt my pain

think of you again

i thrash out my time through colour on paper

the photographs of our memories have faded into woodwork

the stars are behind the light violet clouds

someone arrives downstairs

a door closes and all is silent again

finally kick one goal and i’m jubilant

on almost everything i am divided

a civil war between the men and the women

casualties casually staggering up the evening, primrose

oh its still warm

the back door is open

the kids are asleep

the black cat nips around like a panther on angelfruit

wow some instinct hurls him about

attacking stuff and feinting and rolling around like a kung fu star

my eyes hurt in this computer electric light

my blurry eye opens out light like a sun

i wipe away at smears on my lenses

but my vision is been dimmed

sometimes i do long for rest

wake up somewhere else someone else sometime else

in australia its 12

the witching hour has commenced

they say my house is haunted now

will i still get my bond back?

i have seen her too

that ghost out the corner of my mind

i dont care one way or the other

luck can change

everyones a player

the dice fucking rolls

66 66 66

round the board you go

your credit card has demagnetised your room key sir

your message has been deleted

invite your friends to join you on some new sight


one of my minds just blew a rotor

we can still land on just one

oh dear its the left one still working

thats it for tonight then



30 Responses to “i am of two minds”

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    JW | 7 March 2011 at 12:02 am #

    Toward the One….
    I hate Being split too…I feel your pain
    Unity is excruciating too but at least One can trust their own inner guidance

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 7 March 2011 at 1:03 am #

    That unfolded like a secret for just a few to share, brilliant as always , Sir Steven – hell ya – lets get petitions and the naught at get you into knighthood…wouldn’t that just stir up this realm of civility. “a civil war between the men and the women” …oh…that can’t be good in any sense of the solace before primal battle. We are always out numbered. Women hold the greatest weapon of all, fuck that ‘weapons of mass destruction’ shit. Let them zero in on your being, focus as if they are looking at you, in you , thru you…we have no shield for that. No armor to hold. Just hope it doesn’t hurt to much…

    My wife can throw shit…with incredible accuracy, and damned if she didn’t pass that on to my daughter !!!

    Darrin K.

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    Georgia | 7 March 2011 at 1:22 am #

    I know EXACTLY how you were so vivid….

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    Belfrank | 7 March 2011 at 1:53 am #

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    davem | 7 March 2011 at 3:25 am #

    Hope you’re feeling better this morning.

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    esne snoner | 7 March 2011 at 3:41 am #

    ah but you are well – centred in your universe – on stage, beloved fender strapped on, comrades in arms close at hand and your growing audience not only clapping but also throwing money – all else is peripheral (though obviously personal) – relax and enjoy

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    andy | 7 March 2011 at 3:54 am #

    ah…a melancholy boy tonight, that’s for sure.
    it’s a bumpy olde ride this life thing isn’t it.
    sometimes the quieter moments are not the best…………

    p.s. hey, darrin….thanks for the love friend!
    ‘the failed’ really need it.
    on another note, i fear the quacktors see you as a bit of a cash cow….
    tread carefuly!

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 7 March 2011 at 9:08 am #

      Hey…no problem on the love my friend-that was worlds away than what I expected…honestly. But, please explain further. I asked some specifics couple blogs ago, and rechecked and maybe it slipped past ya. Are you guys still up and running? How can I hear more?

      Regarding the quacktors, (love my new term for them…is it ok that I use it??? LOL !!!, right? Cuz its brilliantly funny and disturbing at the same time) I will tread with ears perked and eyes/mind focused. I see another (new) one Monday morning who wants to lay out ‘his’ perspective of a ‘slice and dice’, ‘cut and run’ you may say. I carry my medical records with me (its fucking huge), it can get pretty intimidating when I arrive at a doctors appointment, more prepared (reports and the like) than they are…and they stumble around trying to catch up to speed on what I ALREADY know.

      Be well and I hope you did work on some material over the past couple days, I worked tiredly for hours Saturday evening and still have not ‘mastered’ my title track : “Flowers No More”. But I’ll get it soon, my son is helping out as a second set of ears to what has already been composed.

      Andy- awhile back there was an uneven exchange between myself and a blogge. Than stuff got way out of hand for days on end. Some of the jesting turned to down right nasty banter. But, in the thick of it…you politely asked my detractors to ‘back off a bit’, and I do not believe I ever said ‘thanks’ for that…so…THANKS AGAIN. And I am very serious about hearing ‘The Failed’ in its recorded entirety.

      Darrin K.

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    julian | 7 March 2011 at 5:39 am #

    Beautiful, Steve. I relate to that a lot.

    Really enjoyed the show at Highline Ballroom… Keep up the good work.

    Give my regards to Ricky (I expect you will see him sooner than I!) šŸ™‚

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    Karen | 7 March 2011 at 7:34 am #

    kittens are very entertaining my old cat just sits quietly now days staring through me with her beautiful yellow green gold eyes .

    your words us ually blow my mind gasket

    gave up smoking a week ago and Ive woken up with a headache and a sore throat..hows that for luck or karma

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    mattyc | 7 March 2011 at 7:48 am #

    …the witching hour… the darkness… shadows go about their business, echoes drown the voice, the steady drip of doubt drives us mad… a damp, lonely place for sure, but then the sun leaks through your window, a few dust motes dance like fireflies as you stir, your child calls your name, and the veil slowly fades. I hope that light comes to you soon, Steve.

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    Anonymous | 7 March 2011 at 7:49 am #

    truth in the midnite hour: all hands on deck

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    mattyc | 7 March 2011 at 8:00 am #

    the witching hour… the darkness…
    shadows go about their business,
    echoes drown the voice,
    the steady drip of doubt drives us mad.
    a damp, lonely place for sure.
    then sunlight leaks through your window
    a few dust motes dance like fireflies as you stir
    a sleepy child calls your name and
    the veil slowly fades.
    I hope that soon Steve, you are bathed in light.

  13. avatar
    Ron Bonham | 7 March 2011 at 8:13 am #

    Over-heard in a downtown bar in Houston; “this one is for Steve.” Right before the Bluest One You Know by IL.

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    . | 7 March 2011 at 8:44 am #

    recognizing your dual existence
    is priceless, a gift, and a present
    your ghosts see them, nothing intermittent

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    princey | 7 March 2011 at 9:32 am #

    Hello there sk, hoping you’re feeling better today, sending ya a smile and lots of love šŸ™‚ your new family member sounds like a real cutie (the cat I mean!)
    Take care and see you in five weeks,
    love Mandy

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    Cee | 7 March 2011 at 9:46 am #

    someone arrives downstairs
    a door closes and all is silent again
    finally kick one goal and iā€™m jubilant
    on almost everything i am divided

    Abajo, alguien llega
    una puerta se cierra y todo vuelve a silencio
    por fin alcanzo una meta y estoy jubiloso
    en casi todo estoy dividido

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    DavidP | 7 March 2011 at 12:00 pm #

    be strong Steve
    you’ll get through

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    Jonny Hollywood | 7 March 2011 at 2:30 pm #

    I am of one love and 3 godheads, I am so glad I made it to the other side of life, and when I talk about destruction you know that you can count me out…lol

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    bc | 7 March 2011 at 4:21 pm #

    all 7’s …

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    ASSMIDGET | 7 March 2011 at 7:30 pm #

  21. avatar
    Tanya | 9 March 2011 at 8:40 am #

    Reality of humanity – It really is just a roll of the dice, isn’t it? Thanks for the reminder.

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    Ellen | 9 March 2011 at 10:13 am #

    When all else fails, hug your kitty cat. Cats are very healing creatures.

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    hellbound heart | 10 March 2011 at 7:56 pm #

    the later it is, the less places there are to hide…
    love always

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