posted on July 19, 2009 at 7:06 pm

king lear with his daughters
snow white and rose red
sister lover
peas in a ipod
yeah sweden
im just not a mono zygotic kinda guy
yeah the pine trees
yeah the long evenings
yeah the vikings
yeah the neutrality
yeah the swedish language
yeah the nobel prize
yeah volvo n abba
yeah but no fjords (thats norway)
yeah the venice of the north
yeah snow and ice
yeah the blondes
yeah the blue eyes and skies
yeah sweden not switzerland
dont mix em up
sweden pop 9 million
currency : the swedish crown
700 hundred crowns (kronor) for a hundred yanqui dollars
capital stockholm (island of logs)
pop 1.5 million
hennes n mauritz
eriksson phones
saab stories
the archipelago baby
the summer houses
the moose
the weasels
the mosquitoes
the adders
the song birds
the dark long winters
the austerity at the heart of the olde days
ingmar bergman….the weird summer light
the seventh seal
carolinska institute
max von shadow
benny and bjorn
yeah august strindberg
life is a dream play
yeah odin n asgard
yeah thor n loki
yeah the polar circle
yeah lappland
yeah reindeer
yeah fishing thru a hole in the ice
yeah hammarby
yeah sodermalm
yeah malmo
yeah martin kraal (my name is neo not andersson)
yeah all them dead junkies
yeah all them olde hippies n commies
yeah the baltic sea
yeah arlanda airport
yeah tack sa mycket
yeah hej hej hej
its sweden baby
can you dig it?
can you handle it ?
can you handle 4 hours of pale daylight
can you handle the cold brown lakes
can you handle the still morning mists
can you handle the right wing aryans
can you handle the 20 dollar baguettes
can you handle yourself with grace n dignity
yeah the prime minister olaf palme got assassinated
linger on yer pale blue eyes
oh my lovely daughters
what a lucky man
oh those cheekbones
oh those piercing eyes
oh that youth n glamour
bi lingual
buy now pay later
buy one pay for two
ah twins
one egg one sperm
it splits, right
a fluke
an accident
no one knows why
identical dna
identical in all but finger prints
not identical in mind or nature
where does this variation come from
yeah they do a lotta experiments with twins
yeah thats a good control
fascinating isnt it ?
wouldnt you love to have been a twin
one in a hundred births identical twins
like winning some kinda lottery
like winning some kinda prize
never alone…even in the womb
jostling for a position
who was born first
who is the good one
who is the naughty one
who are you
which one are you
are you elli
no im minna
are you minna
no im elli
cant you tell us apart
did your mother dress you in the same clothes
can you feel the others pain
can you read their mind
can you dig this crazy twin trip
all you singletons
all you one offs
all you only childs
elektra and miranda
agamemnon n prospero
the overbearing father
the king and the magician
men leer at lears daughters
many men
double yer money back guarantee
double yer chances
double yer double six
double or nothing
yeah scanda fucking navia
will you ever come here
will you ever see all this
will you ever grok it all, childe
me….i’m just the carrier of the chromosomes
me…i’m just some olde rocker with 2 sets of twins
i dont do things by halves
except in scarlet kilbey
who is twice as large as life on her own
the world couldnt contain 2 scarlets anyway
thank the lord she arrived as a single kiddo
surrounded by the stars
i am lucky
i am blessed
more than i deserve
more than i asked for
more than i can say
thats it aint it?
what more can i say
fascinating, is it?
its my life
my day equals your night
my year equals your 52 weeks
my children
mina barn
mes enfants terribles
my smorgasbord
my ombudsman
my sweden
my twins
my other twins
my lovely yanqui wife
my velvety voice
my springy knees
my thirty year old rock band
my hit single
my my my
who am i?
steve to you
steven to my family
daddy to my kids
that guy who owes us fifty grande to the tax-mann
that guy walking round bondi with all those girls
that guy with the shorts …he looks like a beachlayer/brick-comber
gee hes prolific
gee hes lived an “interesting” life
yoga heroin show biz twins sydney stockholm delaware
music n painting n hanging about
takes from the rich n gives the poor himself
gives it all back in lyrics n musical notes
books of poetry
exhibitions and gigs and a night in a nyc jail
a dopey olde pothead
loved by his fiendss
reviled by his detractors
a rude kind brilliant dull man
now hes fat
now hes thin
now hes young
now hes old
now hes back
now hes gone
who am i?
i am who you say i am

49 Responses to “i thought you were my twin….but you were my double…”

  1. avatar
    andmoreagain | 19 July 2009 at 8:10 pm #

    There's some off the top of yer head stream of unconsciousness words for you. Just finished listening to the REFO:MATION album that I bought at the Seattle show. Dreamy, weird dark horse. The necessary stepping stone from your old work to the new phase. Love it.

  2. avatar
    Turner | 19 July 2009 at 8:20 pm #

    Kilbey, all your ladies are quite beautifull…

  3. avatar
    Renee | 19 July 2009 at 8:26 pm #

    Beautiful girls.

    What types of careers are they interested in?

    I'm just curious

  4. avatar
    Dannis | 19 July 2009 at 9:00 pm #

    That is a truly beautiful family Steve. You are surrounded by beauty. Have a great day,

    DK in Toronto

  5. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 19 July 2009 at 9:22 pm #

    SK creates luminous music, prose, paintings, poetry, vocals and girls, girls, girls.

    Listened to Isidore today. Truly marvelous CD !

  6. avatar
    Altres | 19 July 2009 at 10:35 pm #

    Wow, what incredibly gorgeous young women.

    Getting transfixed by So Love May Find Us. Something wonderful is happening between the notes, something primal and breezy. Loved it so much I'm buying a vinyl copy and a new turntable. Must dig out my old copies of Remindlessness, Earthed, Unearthed and The Slow Crack.


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    Mr. Ricky | 19 July 2009 at 11:11 pm #

    So glad you finally get to catch up with with the Northern Kilbeys! see you in Oz Compadre!

  8. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 19 July 2009 at 11:29 pm #

    i love the wistful tone of yesterday's blog…..wouldn't it be lovely if all your girls were together….and today…..makes me wanna hop on a plane and go somewhere, anywhere…..
    i've been holidaying up the coast a bit from home with my family….makes me realise how much fucking work drags me and my other half away from the things that really matter…..

    love the photos, steve, you truly are blessed with a beautiful family….

    am gonna definitely buy your art package, matey…..

    love always…..

  9. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 19 July 2009 at 11:55 pm #

    …just had a look at your cd/art package… there any way i could pay for it using a postal money order or do i have to use paypal? if i'm able to use a money order, who would i make it out to and what address would i send it to?

    thanks….peace and love…

  10. avatar
    loolaabillions | 20 July 2009 at 12:21 am #

    how stunning….

    what gorgeous pictures….
    ahh to be 18
    again n' to live
    the spoils of youth
    lucky girls….xx

  11. avatar
    lily was here | 20 July 2009 at 12:42 am #

    They are both truly stunning girls. Lucky young Craig's not with you! My sister has boy/girl twins, both so different yet so alike.

    From your descriptions, Sweden sounds like an artist's paradise.


    ps two scarlets, that would be funny… from our point of view 🙂 Even funnier, imagine two steves!

  12. avatar
    Tim_G | 20 July 2009 at 12:55 am #

    oh lucky man!
    wish you were a rich man?
    well you are
    wonderful daughters
    wonderful wife
    wonderful fambly

    a lifetime of experiences
    good and bad
    rare and unusual
    mad and maddening
    dark and light
    aural and visual
    viscral and real
    an artiste
    of words
    of music
    of art

    and do you suffer for your art?
    oh yes
    as only true artistes do

    my grandad was an artiste
    of the painterly kind
    he had no monetary wealth
    but pursued his craft
    we are enriched with his works
    and enriched with his dna (maybe)

    and I am slowly travelling the same path
    with fambly in tow
    pursuing my craft
    in words
    in art
    and some music

    (my fambly in tow
    is four young 'uns
    a singleton
    and triplets
    plus a wonderful partner)

    multiples are fascinating
    a home grown case study
    of development
    of growth
    of nurturing

    oh you lucky man!
    two sets of twins
    and more daughters galore
    a lovely wife
    you are a rich man

  13. avatar
    CSTCoach | 20 July 2009 at 1:03 am #

    Real nice fambly you got there killa 🙂

    (doesn't mean you can gimme the kid lecture again, i'm still gonna argue with ya)

    yeah, sweden. such a beautiful place in summer. stockholm's a lovely city. the islands, the smell of the water, the beautiful girls everywhere you look. fi faan!

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    CSTCoach | 20 July 2009 at 1:10 am #

    speaking of bergman, watching him tonight actually. fanny and alexander.

    i always really liked wild strawberries (both the fruit and the film, come to think of it). Bout the old man looking back on his past. How the person he was in childhood didn't at all reflect the crusty old prick he'd become in his day to day life. How, somewhere along the way it all went wrong, and he forgot himself, forgot his childhood dreams, somehow forgot that childhood outlook and became the cardboard cutout "adult" we're supposed to be, that hollow shell of a stereotype. such a great film.

  15. avatar
    JJ | 20 July 2009 at 1:36 am #

    Love the green and blue photo; very Warholian and 60's. You do have a certain talent for twin girls – beautiful ones at that.

    Ah, warms my heart to see a Refo:Mation mention. Phamakoi is one of the best albums EVER,bar none. I love every track. It's f-ckin' brilliant.

    Sweden – would love to visit. I'll bet it's beautiful there in Autumn. Just got back from the beautiful Misty Mountains of Appalatchia – seeking redemption on the river, listening to Les Church on the drive home. Still flashing back to the magic generated at The Ridgefield Theatre.

    Best Always,

  16. avatar
    Freddie | 20 July 2009 at 1:43 am #

    The Twillies on Killer cam…wow…beautiful and gorgeous!
    M’ Lord, indeed you do have an interesting life 🙂

  17. avatar
    princey | 20 July 2009 at 3:25 am #

    Both those girls should be super(duper)models…why not??? imagine the fame, glamma, money$$$money$$$money$$$$$ their oz daddy becomes their superagent, makes 'em more money, pays off all his debts, buys himself a yacht, a mansion for all his offspring with a studio included for himself to dabble in, buy anything he wants….dreams can come true sk:))

    Don't think I like the sound of Sweden, it sounds too perfect, too beautiful. What happens to the "not so perfect" peoples?, are they banished from the streets?… I'd look and feel like a short, darkhaired, darkeyed freak there, haha…….not my sort of holiday destination!!!

    Have fun,
    love Amanda

  18. avatar
    ConjoinedTwins | 20 July 2009 at 3:37 am #

    i watch that smantha brow goes to europe show. Isnt sweden the place with a bunch of islands?

  19. avatar
    andmoreagain | 20 July 2009 at 3:53 am #

    to JJ: it's brand new to me. Like finding a lost Church record. Been saving it.

  20. avatar
    Noel Christian Riddell | 20 July 2009 at 3:54 am #


    High on my list of places to visit.

    Safe travels back to Australia.

  21. avatar
    Melquiades | 20 July 2009 at 4:38 am #

    cool technicolor photo of you and elli n minna. very cool. and the're very pretty.

  22. avatar
    Melquiades | 20 July 2009 at 4:53 am #

    you are
    you are
    the manwomanchildspiritbeaconreason
    for this place
    go forth and subdue
    you master

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 July 2009 at 4:58 am #


    just to add to the review collections

  24. avatar
    Melquiades | 20 July 2009 at 4:59 am #

    im feeling amorous. I love you kilbey. there i said it…..

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 July 2009 at 5:18 am #

    Thanks for sharing

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 July 2009 at 6:23 am #

    Those good genes had to come from somewhere sk. Well done.

    Lady Di

  27. avatar
    Mr. B's Ballroom | 20 July 2009 at 8:18 am #

    What about Karin? How's she doing? Does she still create music? Would you write with her again? Or would she write with you again? Photo?

  28. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 20 July 2009 at 8:46 am #

    Damn, if only I were younger.

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 July 2009 at 8:59 am #

    Jesus, Kilbey, you don't deserve those beautiful sparks you've caught/created. Or maybe you do. You're the most honest artist we know. Nobody lays it bare like you do. Nobody would confess the shit you have. And though we wish you were living in Kubla Khan (sic) because, in a perfect world you should be (philospher king etc) it makes you more special because you're just like us (poor etc). So I salute you, Kilbey, and I thank you. Because you're brilliant and you're real and because you tell it like it is.

  30. avatar
    A. Kite | 20 July 2009 at 10:33 am #

    You are the Time Being, Killer. Great blog.

    Ps. Hellbound Heart — just contact Holly through the art site. She is a thoroughly reasonable and friendly human being. She will help you make it happen.

  31. avatar
    Shawn El | 20 July 2009 at 1:08 pm #

    Thanks for sharing the pics of the twillies. Were they tangling in the womb like Jacob and Esau? Did you tie a string to the first one that came out to ensure you give the birthright to the firstborn?

  32. avatar
    Martin | 20 July 2009 at 1:09 pm #

    Good to see you after such a long time! Always a pleasure having you around.
    Hej beautiful Twillies
    and Hi beautiful NK & the Bondi girls

  33. avatar
    fantasticandy | 20 July 2009 at 1:31 pm #

    streuth killbs!
    i dare not comment!

  34. avatar
    matthew | 20 July 2009 at 1:43 pm #

    Loved the beautiful serious scenic descriptions… I'm wondering SK – do you know the children's books by Finnish author Tove Jansson? Wow, if anyone can conjur Scandinavia with a dark intense melancholy beauty, she's the one. Gorgeously detailed ink illustrations to match… an inseparable & inspiring ingredient from my childhood.

  35. avatar
    Mary | 20 July 2009 at 2:14 pm #

    wow you have pretty girls, they sure do take after you, they look like you! you are a lucky man to be surrounded with so much love, thats better than any money in the world, im so happy for you, be safe! NK finally good to see your pic and you are very pretty as well, Steve is very lucky to have you 🙂


  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 July 2009 at 2:17 pm #

    Got a credit card yet?

    Got a mobile phone?

  37. avatar
    Ellen | 20 July 2009 at 2:43 pm #

    I've always wanted to visit Sweden. someday…

    Your twins are beautiful, Steve.

    What a full life you have! Believe me, there are ALOT of people who would gladly trade in their mind-numbing 9-5 existence to do what you're doing.

    Thanks for another stellar post and enjoy the rest of your stay in Sweden.

  38. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 July 2009 at 6:37 pm #

    never went as far up north as stockholm – though i managed to reach bloody legoland. but seeing those lovely kilbey-girls… i may not be visiting la douce france this summer!


  39. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 July 2009 at 6:57 pm #

    How many goodly creatures are there here!
    How beauteous mankind is! O brave new world,
    That has such people in't!
    The Tempest

  40. avatar
    colin | 20 July 2009 at 7:10 pm #

    ain't life grand

  41. avatar
    stealthblue | 20 July 2009 at 7:17 pm #

    Yep, you certainly are a lucky man, brother. ALL your girls are beautiful! Seriously, how cool is that…having TWO sets of identical twins!!? That really is pretty wild.

    Hey, just something kind of funny: Let me say first of all that I hope you see the humour in this!! 🙂

    So, yesterday I rolled on over to my local CVS (drug store) to pick up a few things. It just so happened that I was wearing a Church T-shirt. It is the one with all the album covers (pre-U23). So, as I'm at the register getting ready to pay, the clerk (really sweet girl btw, names Bernice) says all ecstatically, "WOW!! You got on an "80s" T-shirt!! COOL!!" I just CRINGED as the words came out of her mouth and retaliated with, "80s T-shirt???! No, NO…these guys are most certainly NOT just an '80s band'. They are a band that just so happened to have their biggest hit in the 80s, but that in no WAY means that they are 'an 80s band'. They have been fully functioning for 30 FREAKING YEARS!" Anyway, she must have sensed my "defensiveness" and responded, "Well, NO, I, I, I ddidn't mmmean that they are JUST an 80s band! I REALLY LIKE THEM though!" Then said "What was that 'big hit song' of theirs…something about…BEING ON MARS or something!! (I just burst out laughing!) It really was a special moment! Then I corrected her of course, and pointed to the little square of "Starfish" on my shirt and told her that was the record, etc…" It was quite cute of her actually. Like I said, she is very sweet…simple, but very sweet. Hey, she did say she liked "that band." So I added a brief "catch-up" of the band and that you are still very much active and the music is more prolific than ever, etc. Anyway, it was pretty funny and yet another classic example of the "ignorance" of the general masses. She just didn't have a clue. As much as I hate when that happens, I also have to LOVE those moments in a way because it does give me a chance to talk about you guys and HOPEFULLY promote you, etc. I actually find that quite a few people know of (or at least "remember") The Church. I mean it's great to be a part of this whole "big secret" and all, but on the other hand, I wish (for your benefit) that more people were somehow "enabled" or turned on to the likes of you and the band. Universe willing…

    On another note, I talked to one of my dear friends Ally out in San Francisco yesterday and told her that I recently saw you guys etc, and she simply said, "Oh, I love those guys." 🙂 I guess she was dating some bloke that used to know you guys (personally), etc. But I turned her on to you guys way back when. Anyway, I believe she will see about buying the book soon and hopefully invest in some of your tunes, etc.

    Well, just thought I would share that experience with yas. Anyway, I hope you're havin' a great time in Sweden with your twillies.:) Cheers to you and the fam, Steve.

    P&L to all,


  42. avatar
    davem | 20 July 2009 at 7:36 pm #

    They are really striking.

    Sod Sweden if it has adders. I hate bloody snakes.

  43. avatar
    Ellen | 20 July 2009 at 7:37 pm #

    Thanks, stealthblue, for that post. I, too, burst out laughing {"… …something about…BEING ON MARS or something!!…)

    Funny story!

  44. avatar
    eek | 20 July 2009 at 7:45 pm #

    Hellbound Heart — A.Kite is correct (about the contacting me…I'm not always so sure about the thoroughly reasonable bat…. 😉 ). Email me at hejstudio (at) gmail (dot) com and I'll give you the info for sending payment.

    Same deal applies to others — although PayPal is easier, I can sometimes accept alternate forms of payment. If you can't use PayPal, but want to order something from the SK Art site, just drop me an email and we can most likely work something out.

  45. avatar
    veleska1970 | 20 July 2009 at 8:16 pm #

    such beautiful young women. and they definitely take after you. you are so lucky to have such a wonderful family.

    lotza love….

  46. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 July 2009 at 10:40 pm #

    Steve, I posted this on hotelwomb yesterday:
    Saw & hung out with Alan Parsons at Rams Head and mentioned The Church to him.

    I'll keep pushin The Church on everyone.

    The Alan Parsons Project played at The Rams Head in Annapolis, MD, tonight, 3 weeks after The Church played there (and there were 6 members on that tiny stage image.

    I met Alan at the bar afterward and asked him if there's anyone who excites him today. After mentioning "his wife", he said Coldplay……………….let that sink in for a bit…………………this is the producer of Pink Floyd's "Dark Side Of The Moon", The Beatles "Abbey Road", Al Stewart's "Year Of The Cat", amongst others……………….COLDPLAY………………… Not to rag on him too much for that, as he was a pretty cool dude and they put on a good show, but coldplay ?

    I asked him if he had heard of The Church and he said no, but when I described their sound and mentioned their longevity, he was intrigued. He gave me his email address and I sent him info on the band, the good reviews of Untitled #23, a place to listen to the new album, etc.

    There were others who knew who I was talking about, but only from Starfish, and were blown away when I said they had just played at this exact place 19 days ago. I told them the band never stopped recording and to go out and give Untitled #23 a listen, and then get the rest of the back catalog since 1992 (I figured Alan Parsons Project is somewhat atmospheric, and conceptual, etc, and isn't too great a leap from The Church's general sound — hell, I was there

    PS, I also mentioned The Church to Andy Williams and Jimi Goodwin of The Doves outside the 9:30 Club in Washington DC in early June. Their eyes lit up when I mentioned The Church.

  47. avatar
    richie24u2 | 20 July 2009 at 10:58 pm #

    Coldplay? Christ, talk about drinkers of shit!

    I'll take SK and our beloved Choich any day over that overrated douchebag Chris Martin!

    Parsons needs to remove his head from his ass promotly and spin U#23 for some REAL artistry!

    Just read the RANT…can you tell?

  48. avatar
    lily was here | 21 July 2009 at 1:15 am #

    Ben i loved your story. And I thought 'I' was the expert on introducing the church into any conversation with strangers.

  49. avatar
    knot | 14 December 2018 at 5:58 am #

    Moving towards the longest night
    Of Odin’s poetry I have but little
    Winged seeds from the ash tree
    Yet I pile them up to praise thee

    Precious your laugh, the loving glance
    As raven’s court the highest branch
    I fly aloft your heart to catch

    Clever he is and fine of form
    The strength of limbs and mind like swords
    Heavy the weregild, yet still worth more

    Whisper apologies to your secret ear
    Curled up like a speckled fawn
    In the gorse bushes does it hear?
    The words of love and loss?

    Ice on the weeded grass
    Wicked giant, winter’s foe
    A hung sacrifice for lack of words
    Sunlight on the gallows.


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