posted on March 8, 2006 at 10:17 pm

this is harder than i thought
writing something everyday for your enjoyment
i m so worried youre gonna switch off
i know its not amazingly goode everyday
i appreciate you sticking with it
im so grateful to you
maybe i could slip you a few bucks
everyweek
for reading this blogge
im paranoid in case my numbers slip
i havent learnt to decipher
the figures and the pie charts yet though
anyway
ive been subtly experimenting with pentameter
well for one or 2 sentences
shakespeare wrote all his plays in that
it doesnt necessarily seem like it at first
or to our modern ears
but almost everything in shakes
is going
dah dah dah dah dah dah dah dah dah dah
hey isnt that by sting as well?
so imagine that, ye literary minded fiends
think of all those great lines
AND
all beating in time
occaisionally a servant or some one
will speak in ordinary talk
ah the many devices
wordsmiths have up their sleeveys
for your pleasure
the rhyming schemes
the meters
the on a mat appear
the allusions
the illusions
the surprises
the patterns
the format
the love
it has to get back to love
if we dont love what we’re doing
why would anyone else?
i keep telling you how i love you
how i love writing my bloggey for your erudition
only
because love is no cheap commodity
ive been in love with words
for thousands of years
just like you
just for you
justice for you
justice hidden
there i go
as it occurs to me
as it recurs to me
i cant be bothered with all the games anymore
wasting my life playin’ meaningless games
jumpin’ thru somebodies hoop
pokin’ around in some muddypuddle
all muddled up
huddled
but uncuddled
what do you expect
this is erf, aint it?
any way i have ceased to pretend
fiendss
draw whatever conclusions you like
im tired of politically correct
im tired of appearances
this is me
who else could it be
my blogge is my mirror
cant you see who i am
im different everyday
just like you
i didnt think i’d still be commenting
on unguarded moment 26 years later
you never know whats gonna happen
or whats gonna happen to ya
think about that
if ya get a minuet
or waltzever
i dunno
there are all these forks in the road
of your life
never know when theyre coming up
never know when you gonna say
how the fuck did all this happen???
careful
careful with everything
a olde black gentleman
in memphis tennis sea
once said to me
son
go lightly
and carry a big stick

i have pondered this loadsa times
since he said this many many years ago
go lightly
such good advice
dont stomp thru everything
a bull in a chinese shop
take it easy
easy baby
ta det lugnt
they say in sweden
when the swedes say easy tho
they pronounce the z sound
EEZEE
as an s sound
EESEE
same with stars
STARZ
the swedes say STARSS
i always thought that this somehow
sounded like more starss
than our starz
i was always similiarly impressed
when some swedish narkoman
would hissss
take it fukking eesee man…!
it sounded like i had to be more easy than just plain
old english easy
if you know what i mean
funny that i was thinking of linguistics
while i was on the gear
back in those naughty nasty nineties
so there you go
im always on the job with language
always trying to figger out
a new way to turn you on
to keep you reading my blogge
so i can keep the ratings up
at the bottom of this page
i could conceal em from ya
if i wanted
then i could tell ya
that im pulling ten thousand a day
but i choose to remain transparent
no closets in my skellington fiendss
anyway
im changing my gig from the 1st
to the 15
give me more time
to have some guitar lessons
and learn the chord to my song
i cant imagine why you foreigners
arent swarming down here
to see this
god
im gonna be amazing
it will be the definitive performance
of my life
climbing to the top
of a hundred foot tower
i will dive
into a wet sponge
this could bee an analogy
it could bee you
you should bee there

oh
and
i’ll be seeing you

me x

45 Responses to “i will lose all that i will find”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 8 March 2006 at 11:18 pm #

    15th it is then, see you there.

    WA

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 8 March 2006 at 11:24 pm #

    hey then,
    when will the memesis cd you mentioned,appear,or isodre <2>? for the eager fans.

  3. avatar
    Fandorin | 8 March 2006 at 11:26 pm #

    ah, will we…will we… (and don’t-a you punch-a me-a, Giuseppe, as you did in Belgium, the land of the lanterns)
    always the first to read his daily portion of blogge on this side of the planet…

  4. avatar
    Krissythegroupie | 8 March 2006 at 11:51 pm #

    Yer so smaaaaaaaart..! Smarty pants. Your blogs always get the ol’ hamster wheel in ma head goin. I think ur audience will always be here waiting fer words of wisdom or some good ol’ fashioned pickin on Rob Thomas.. wish I could transport myself from Brooklyn to Orstralia, the weather sure would be nicer fer fuckssakes!

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 12:07 am #

    outstanding.

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 12:25 am #

    I was asked on a website what the world’s greatest invention was and I answered: words. Words are my true love.

    It’s funny that you mention iambic pentameter because for the past month I’ve been practicing it myself, all thanks to Stephen Fry’s “The Ode Less Traveled – Unlocking the Poet Within.” But for the first few nights every conversation I had in my dreams I would count out to see if it was in iambic pentameter. Worse than when I learned how to type or play geetar! I couldn’t get any rest. And EVERY line someone said to me I would count as if I was in the final stages of obsessive compulsive disorder. So yes, Sting came to mind immediately. Devil and the deep blue sea behind meeeeeeeeee. Vanish in the air you’ll never find me. Damn Sting!!!

    Speaking of words, it’s always amusing to watch the emulation and the number of
    pea-pull
    who forget
    their
    own
    ahdentity
    and talk
    and write
    like
    ya
    due
    which always makes
    mah
    head
    whurl
    cuz
    where’s the
    indie-vidge-ee-al-itee
    in
    that?

    k

  7. avatar
    the dean | 9 March 2006 at 12:42 am #

    Now sk I’ve had a listen to your acoustic live record form the bondi pavillion and I reakon ya did a pretty good job eventhough your explanation in lieu of guitar solo in hotel womb is a little unexpected.
    Some time later I purchased the video only to find that it contained lesson one in a wine making course. When I complained to the mob who sold it to me they said “that kilbey is a dodgy character” outraged I replied “dodgy! you’re the bastards who sold it to me”.
    My point – I’ve sqeezed the grapes what next?

    bpd

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 12:51 am #

    Fuck It!!!
    I’m gonna be in NZ on the 15th!

    I’m gonna miss out due to a lack of confidence from someone who can do it with his eyes closed.

    Oh well, the world doesnt revolve around Dutch Pierre & you wont have to put up with me.

    Still a bummer tho.

    Dutch Pierre

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 1:34 am #

    SK

    1st to the 15th, Nope, I’ll still be in Montana. Would it be too much to ask if you could record it for me. : ) I know it is not the same as being there, but until I can learn to travel by thought, I have certain physical limitations my friend.

    florian

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 2:03 am #

    so the 52 comments yesterday weren’t enough for you?

    I saw a man today abusing noone and anyone nearby.The demons were with him. Then I saw a bunch of old looking 30 something’s who had fallen on harden times, sitting on crates smokin and thinking of ways to scrape enough together to get whatever it is they need to FORGET it all.

    And I thought how lucky I was but how close I was to being just like all the other nutters out there. Just one bad throw of the dice or worse choosing mediocrity out of fear.

    So the point is…?

    Anyway I’ll be on Bondi Beach at midnight waiting for you, waiting to wrap you in my

    oh noooooo
    i’m waking out of my
    dream, my beautiful daydream
    where I’m ALLOWED to think like that

  11. avatar
    mike a | 9 March 2006 at 2:08 am #

    Loved your guitar work on “acoustic and intimate”, I was happily surprised!! Good luck with your guitar lessons and go lightly!!

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 2:39 am #

    Steve I would gladly come to your show if I had $2000 US to fly to Australia from halfway around the globe. How come you don’t play a show in Washington or Baltimore? I know you played at the 9:30 club way back when. I’m sure loads of people would pay beaucoup dollars to come see you play. I could be your backup if playing solo makes your nervous.

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 3:21 am #

    Jeez, you’re gonna do fine.

    You always do. maybe not always.

    But ‘cmon, yer Steve Kilbey fer

    krist-steaks!

    I’m more bummed about the choich show with the free (not so free)
    cd at the door. of which i will not be attending. for shame!

    i love this blogee, first thing i do in the morning along with me tea.

    actually, go practice. spend time with the fam.

    much better than a bunch a kissy butt neophytes.

    theglynnisjohns

  14. avatar
    captainmission | 9 March 2006 at 3:28 am #

    Switch Off. Me. Ya kidding?
    Not amazingly good? Mr. Kilbey, yr a freaking genie us.
    Grateful to us… me. Man I think ya jest! I’m grateful for the tunes, the poems, the blog and art.
    Paranoid!!!! Nah man quality not quantity.
    Slip me a few bucks!!!!! Errr I’ll bring my bank details on the 15th.
    Ahhh the mad panic at mission control when i found the dates had changed, i mean fingers have been greased, lines have been drawn, words have been exchanged, maps have been read, the butterfly’s wings have been flapped, the stars have been crossed etc, but a few magick incantations and the 15th it is.

    Freaking hell man, can we do a web hook up for all the people overseas, i mean i heard that’s what xtc do cos old andy party ridge gets severe stage fright. just imagine steve kilbey ‘live and internet.’

  15. avatar
    Tony Pucci | 9 March 2006 at 3:54 am #

    mister steven kilbey writing his blog
    cast his eye upon the word and turned it
    reply with attack or the awe of god
    but dear people you know he has earned it

    SK, I WOULD LOVE TO SEE YOU WRITING SOME SONNETS! YE OLDE ESSKAY WORLDPLAY IN SUCH A STRUCTURE? ‘TWOULD BE NICE…

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 4:31 am #

    Words

    Someone and Someone were down
    by the pond
    Looking for something to plant
    in the lawn…..

  17. avatar
    the senseless happy | 9 March 2006 at 5:08 am #

    sk
    truly it seems many of all of our songs are coming true…
    what you do hear takes ballzzzzzzzzzzzzz
    and wee all knoe it.
    keep chasing the demons and tell your muse to kick their arse!.
    c

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 5:36 am #

    just had a look at the rockinghorse record site and brisbane concert tickets for the 20th are available online now – http://www.rockinghorse.net/tickets.php

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 6:13 am #

    Firstly, to Senselesshappy,,,,Ballzzzz in Sweden would be Ballsssssssss, no? And thank you anonymous re: Rockinghorse Tix…they are safely secured and awaiting Monday March 20…and Mr K., would you think about an album of music to the Bard’s best work…I’d give anything to hear Kilbey putting Hamlet to music…I’m serious.

  20. avatar
    TINKU BHAT | 9 March 2006 at 7:27 am #

    Ah good, the 1st to the 15th, this gives me time to go down to the water’s edge and swim across the pond. Save me, you already did.

    Well, I just went out for a little trip there and back and what do ya know? You say your ratings are dropping, but I see other familiar faces in the crowd now like WA and C. HI! OK, everyone else start commenting again too, I’m back. Actually, I commented under anonymous, couldn’t you tell? And all you voyers, stop being so shy. Please. And Steve, thank you so much for your daily show, I really love it!

    I’m near dead from painting so much, OMG!

  21. avatar
    Sweed | 9 March 2006 at 8:37 am #

    Sorry man. Can´t make it til 15th! Too long a walk…

    I´ll always be here though…

    Take it fukking eesee man…!

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 8:46 am #

    Thanks for the Words today SK. Can Poppies really Sleep Undamaged?

    Got my tickets ordered for Bris Concert. Can’t wait to see you there!

    ~Ross

  23. avatar
    aaa | 9 March 2006 at 9:08 am #

    what about Sydney gigs ????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

    AAA

  24. avatar
    aaa | 9 March 2006 at 9:11 am #

    PS have I got this correct – doing shows – is the 15th in Brisbane ???

    or have I got it all back to front??

    Sydney shows ???

  25. avatar
    Dig! | 9 March 2006 at 9:55 am #

    Hey SK a little while ago I posted a comment about The Church on Grant Lee Forum, (in general discussion under the post titled New Album)I just had a look and its been viewed 1740 times, the highest viewed post on the forum. I was suprised to see how one little comment can spark a life of its own, so there you go,if you want to talk about numbers.

    This is just a suggestion but what if you add a question/mini interview section on your blog too. Like an ask SK a question type thing.
    You could select the questions or mini interviews you thought worthy of an answer at your leisure, could be interesting.
    Just an idea, anyway love the blog
    Thanks
    DGray aka Dig

  26. avatar
    Dig! | 9 March 2006 at 10:17 am #

    Its pretty impressive that you can write something on the fly everyday, I don’t think tha many people could that’s why I’m a reader and not a writer, the only reason I suggested the question thing was cos you mentioned its sometimes hard to come up with something everyday, but then again who said you have to write every day, I do enjoy tuning in though!
    Cheers
    Dig

  27. avatar
    lily | 9 March 2006 at 11:06 am #

    I would love to swarm down to your gig but, alas, I will probably not make it this time. For now, I must content myself with memories of a wonderful solo acoustic performance you gave at 7th Street Entry in Minneapolis many years ago. I still remember singing along to “Othertime”.

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 11:11 am #

    Actually, why just stop at ask SK a question, maybe some album, book, art,and restaurant reviews (after all you do travel the world, might get a few free meals, I know Lloyd Cole does).

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 11:22 am #

    dear aaa
    re the concert dates go to
    http://www.thechurchband.com/news/index.phtml
    for concert listings for the church
    you can join the mailing list there too then you will get all the info first
    the show on the 15th in sydney is solo sk go back thru the blogs to get the info and venue for that
    yours truly unruly

  30. avatar
    sue cee | 9 March 2006 at 11:40 am #

    Now what was it you said in ‘Locust’? “you can learn to play bass, it took me 5 minutes” 🙂 See, you’ll be right! Great song by the way, got my Block EP today. I love it when your vocals are so upfront and krystal clear. 15th April…Easter gig. Was just imagining today you singing ‘Australian Night’ next Wed nite after UTMW – how divine that would be.

    x

  31. avatar
    Daberhasher | 9 March 2006 at 11:53 am #

    see, i’d LOVE to bee there…
    but it’s not in the starsss,
    it seemsss…

    the words tumbling like a Pachinko ball on this one… dah dah…

    going lightly…

    aloha,
    ee

  32. avatar
    the grand allusionist’s society | 9 March 2006 at 12:44 pm #

    hey dig
    that’s what the comments section is already!
    each day sk starts by reading the comments section
    then after a painstaking process of reduction, deconstruction and liposuction
    steve will take our collective subjective perspective
    and occasional invective
    to be reformulated, reconstituted and resurrected
    into the next blog
    in fact the questions we all want answered
    are there in the blog every day
    you just have to know how to read them
    isn’t that right sk?

  33. avatar
    RA | 9 March 2006 at 2:31 pm #

    Just because I don’t make many comments, it doesn’t mean I don’t have a little look every day or two….. Numbers are just that..

    Linguistics. Great stuff. Saw Cope the other day. He was wearing a belt that had a cast metal buckle that said CUNT. He says he has bought his 14 yr old daughter a diamante version of the same thing. He is now VERY unpopular at the school…

    Peace,

    RA

  34. avatar
    Brad | 9 March 2006 at 3:58 pm #

    Again, more about ratings! I wouldn’t think you would care Mr. Kilbey. Open up for yourself alone before you can open up for others. Who cares who looks. Is that why you write? To get shallow knee-jerk love confidence boosts? I don’t think so. I hope not.

    Please don’t feel like you should write everyday. Don’t feel obligated. It will take the fun out of it for YOU. Write when your head says you have to! It’s obvious 2ME anyway when you’re writing something your heart said, “you need to write about this!” and when you aren’t. Fuck’em if they surf the web for a day or two. If you end up filling this thing with external duty instead of internal duty, you will lose numbers over time anyway.

    My honest neck-out opinion,

    Love b

  35. avatar
    CSTCoach | 9 March 2006 at 5:25 pm #

    SK,

    Always here, every day, but haven’t had time to comment each time (not that it’s missed, I’m sure!).

    I start my writing day here each time, reading these thoughts before I begin. A little inspiration to get the words flowing. A dip into the source from a fellow lover of words. All that, and more. No danger of getting bored, or signing off. As long as you’re writing, I will be reading. All my favourite writers, apart from you and one other, are long gone. This is precious to me.

    Received my Block EP last week. Been listening every day, letting it sink in, like a stone that sinks of its own volition into a pond, going deeper and deeper, cause that’s its nature.

    It’s really fucking great. The ebb and swell of the music is fantastic, and the words, as usual, are magic. I’m excited for Uninvited!

    The cover art is really nice, too, btw. Your painting is getting better and better. One day soon, should success bless me a bit, I’d like to buy or comission a painting of me own. Until then, I’ll keep frittering away my meagre funds on books and booze – and crunch cd’s.

    Have fun at the solo show! I’m sorry I’ll still be icebound in canada at that time.

    Is it true about the commonwealth games? we can see it here on CBC, I think…

    Thanks for staying true, sk.

    ryan

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 5:40 pm #

    sk –

    what’s it like to be adored by people all over the world? hundreds of people, every day, eagerly await your next post. you’ve accomplished something very special in your life, and it’s magical to see how you appreciate and respect it. you make the world a better place for all of us. thanks for sharing.

    all the best,
    marc
    philly, pa, usa

  37. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 9 March 2006 at 7:08 pm #

    hey esskay, can you write about what you are feeling inside regarding your somewhat secret rendevous with Mr. Feathers or are those feelings a secret too. Just thought you could if you didn’t have anything else on your mind to write about. It would be fun to talk to you in that way. Mr. Feathers sent you the last of “lbtd” music cd’s for “LBTD” (LIVE) baybee. Mr. Feathers is very excited for all of you to show up and take him on a ride that never stops.

    Love Always and Forever,
    M.J.N.JR.

  38. avatar
    Handyman | 9 March 2006 at 9:34 pm #

    Well, Steve – me and a few others are taking up a collection to get you over here for a mini tour. Practice up all you like, we’ll fill the seats! Holly, Pucci, I and some others are tired of the Aussies being so lucky to catch a sk buzz! 😉

    All the best on your concert, as you know, Alex and I wish we could be there.

    D

  39. avatar
    tim | 9 March 2006 at 10:31 pm #

    Dear Mr. Kilbey,

    The numbers have come in and, unfortunately, we’re only going to be able to give you another two weeks to pick them up or we’ll have to start looking for a mid-season replacement.

    The Man(agement)

    Had my first Block party last night. Makes me really curious to see where ULTC will go.

  40. avatar
    BC | 9 March 2006 at 10:32 pm #

    We should be slipping you somes bucks, how about an address for donations?

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2006 at 10:59 pm #

    Just increasing the number of posts for statistical reasons!

    Nice work again
    DR

  42. avatar
    Rubikon | 9 March 2006 at 11:07 pm #

    You are not a number, you are a free man.

    Wish I could be there on the 15th but the plane fare from Dear Old Blighty is a little bit too much.

    Any chance of a solo gig in the UK when the Church come over later in the year?.

    Make sure it’s a big wet sponge.

    Go lightly my friend.

    The future speaks with forked roads.

  43. avatar
    eek | 10 March 2006 at 12:03 am #

    “i m so worried youre gonna switch off”

    Funny…that’s pretty much what I keep thinking “Ack! I hope he doesn’t stop writing this blog.”

    You have me thoroughly hooked, I won’t be leaving anytime soon.

    I’d absolutely love to see the basement show, but can’t swing it. So on the day I’ll bitch and moan a bit; put on Acoustic & Intimate; and do a bit of Church/SK shopping therapy.

    … then work on Duane’s plan. 🙂

  44. avatar
    Mr. Ricky | 10 March 2006 at 12:09 am #

    I’d be there if I could Steve
    Can’t wait to see you!

  45. avatar
    Satchell | 9 July 2011 at 7:36 am #

    Always the best contnet from these prodigious writers.


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