posted on June 4, 2008 at 2:27 am

walk along arguing with myself
in the rain in the soft new winter rain
and i swim in that cold pool
which is cold and clear
and i force myself to do it
i ease down into that briny pool
at the edge of the land
swim swim swim
the body a marvelous machine
waves come over the side
the ocean is soft and creamy
it does its usual sandpatterns on the bottom of the pool
like zebra stripes
like camouflage
like a message to me
even underwater my ears ring
especially underwater
i like the idea of winter
i just dont like winter itself
i dont like the way it makes me huddle
oh my hands are cold right now
i heat them up sometimes on the doodles backs
the doodles always have lovely warm backs
the doodles with their constant jabbering n jawing
eve has a lovely singing voice
what a strange girl she is…..
im listening to winter dreams by all india radio
perfect for today
outside a grey white rainy foggy day
i sit in my messy room
what the hell am i?
i get paid to write about myself?
today i feel kinda hollow
but not in a bad way
i dont feel so opinionated…what a relief
who cares anyway?
about what?
about anything
today its softly raining
and i’m typing a blog
its 2008 and the twills are on the edge of seventeen
just like the white winged dove
and i got a little machine that does everything
and somebody in korea will read these words very soon
and somebody else prob’ly never will
i ramble on like a road
threatenin’ to lead you somewhere
you wander along looking at the sights
the bondi flowers all glowing in the rain
hey i’m living in a tourist resort in winter
bondi empties out around this time o year
but the trees dont lose their leaves
and all the flowers keep on blooming
and the surfies keep on riding
and the olde salty dogs like moi keep jumping in the sea
fuck being cold…who cares
i dont mind being cold in the sea
i just hate being cold at home
nor do i wanna be blasted with blasted heaters
i want it just…..so
anyway
today its over to tee pees place for more church
today some cello work on our burgeoning masterpiece
then some “fix-up” singing
last night johnny n i working on esoteric music club
coming soon on karmic hit
gee theres some goode stuffe coming your waye
also sent the hejstudio my latest paintings
which may or may not squeeze into my exhibition
which i am rather excited about albeit i wont be there
my paintings are getting better n better
so is my singing n writing
i’m fighting against the clock now
which i notice ticking faster n louder
as i enter my mid fifties
seriously olde….cmon
can any of you out there say
no no…youre still young
no im olde as olde and its a relief
forgetting style fashion image competition
i am free finally to concentrate on the real stuff :
creating something that you’ll think is nice…
and trying to eke a living for my fambley
and spiritual emancipation
and the search for a perfect banana smoothie
and the day to day confrontation of life
my life
life on earth
what does it all fucking mean?
somedays i say nothing
somedays i say everything
somedays atheist
somedays a theist
i intrigue myself like a random pattern on a wall
steve kilbey schmilbey
what did that achieve?
whats going on in there up there out there
i am the metaphysical singing detective
im looking n looking n looking
i think i find something
i can never put into words
theres bits of it all over the place
everywhere really
yeah
thats all for today

26 Responses to “i’ll be your mirrorball”

  1. avatar
    Ross B | 4 June 2008 at 3:42 am #

    That’s very admirable to go out for a swim on a day like this, and to keep a routine going… not exactly beach weather, more like staying in bed.

    Feelin’ that way too.

    Have a great day with the music!

    Kindness, r.

  2. avatar
    MEM | 4 June 2008 at 4:00 am #

    …there it is.

  3. avatar
    craig1.618 | 4 June 2008 at 4:34 am #

    here today

    the pool was 80

    the air was 100

    splendid day for a swim

    me with andy, luke, and grady

    my beloved canine friends

    the humming birds were flying

    between the mimosas

    the doves were conversing

    in the mulberrys

    and

    the orange dragon-flys

    were zipping

    across the water

    and just like everything

    it was everywhere…….

  4. avatar
    syrinx | 4 June 2008 at 5:28 am #

    “i ramble on like a road
    threatenin’ to lead you somewhere..”

  5. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 4 June 2008 at 5:41 am #

    I cringed at this blog. Now Sk ponders and feels like an atheist. He has incessantly and inspirationally written about Jesus, Gandhi, Vishnu, Buddha, Brahma and his love for all God’s creatures and people. Atheism is the end of everything and can be found in wars, slaughterhouses, and irreverence for life and no hope for an after-life !!!! Very sad !

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    the 501's elephant seal of approval{or was it the walrus'?} | 4 June 2008 at 5:42 am #

    all hail the smashing stomping grounds of the hallowed waterloo rd.magicians?…saddle up!;-)

  7. avatar
    kat | 4 June 2008 at 5:45 am #

    everywhere….

  8. avatar
    linjo | 4 June 2008 at 6:15 am #

    Cmon Brian, how do you “feel” like an atheist. Sure Steve will remain the same nature luvin, vegan, peacelover that he is, if one day he decides to label himself an atheist! bloody ell! you seem like a nice, intelligent male most of the time xxx Linda

  9. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 4 June 2008 at 7:23 am #

    I think today’s blog reflects what it’s like to be a human being, Brien. Some days you have faith, and some days you simply don’t.

  10. avatar
    fantasticandy | 4 June 2008 at 9:35 am #

    ah…. artistic freedom…..
    nice, eh?

    ‘hollow’ vessels make the most sound!
    have fun with t.p.
    andy L.

  11. avatar
    golden thorn in my paw | 4 June 2008 at 10:00 am #

    zen

  12. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 4 June 2008 at 12:09 pm #

    Brien, do you really believe you can’t be an atheist and an animal lover at the same time?

    I mean, that’s what it sounds like: “Atheism can be found in slaughterhouses…”

  13. avatar
    triantelope | 4 June 2008 at 1:24 pm #

    rejoice in atheism…
    nothing gives life meaning like yourself.

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 4 June 2008 at 1:56 pm #

    In an unguarded moment,
    one winter morning, to see the woods, we all walk through the trees but they cut them down for factories, to make pretty cabinets, with lots of keys: rarely used.
    I wish I knew what you were looking for, I might have known what you would find, and saved the journey; heroics. But we’re still beautiful, baby, even though we fall down that way.
    In unguarded moments, eyes meet. What love can those eyes see very very clearly when they are closed? Even when they fall that way?
    In unguarded moments so deep, deep but no meaning. We all leave, why stay? For ‘friends’ with cameras for eyes, and snapshot jokes? What else but laugh! Weep? Or screaming, but for guarded moments.
    Must be thirsty, and hungry, and cold, drink drink sing, forget. Empty, shadow cabinets.

  15. avatar
    CSTCoach | 4 June 2008 at 2:06 pm #

    now there’s an intriguing new hint… Could you tell us a little more about this cryptic reference >> esoteric music club??

    re: all india radio, have’t heard winter dreams, but been listening to echo other and inevitable the past week or so. really sublime stuff. 🙂

  16. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 4 June 2008 at 2:22 pm #

    I’m nice but I’m not intelligent. I have to have a benevolent God, Creator, Higher Power and/or omnipotent Designer. I feel a spirit world around me. I wan’t eternal life for people and animals per John Wesley’s “General Resurrection essay.” SK has written some of the most divinely inspired blogs that I have ever read. He’s helped me really dig Hinduism and Vishnu and Shiva. He seems to have an incredible grasp of the mellow and peaceful Jesus. Yes it would be a downer for me if Sk was atheist. IT IS CLEARLY HIS CHOICE. BUT I WOULD REALLY MISS HIS ENLIGHTENING SPIRITUAL BLOGS.

  17. avatar
    restaurant mark | 4 June 2008 at 2:44 pm #

    i quite enjoyed the melancholy vibe of todays blog and agree with t.t. denmark…that’s what it’s like to be human…some days you have faith and some you don’t. it’s so weird that as you’re drifting into winter we’re on a quick slide into summer. already in the 90’s here. my little boy, who seems to be a magnet for the sun’s rays came home burnt from summer day camp yesterday after just a couple of hours in the water…with 70 sunblock on. have fun working on music today steve.
    take care
    mark

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 4 June 2008 at 3:45 pm #

    Man, your amazing! What a way to relish in all the good things you have done. Just think of age as a way to love more of your accomplishments.
    Cannot wait for the new album, and to see you guys play live again, here in texas!
    Love all that you do!
    -Allen
    Galveston TX

  19. avatar
    fantasticandy | 4 June 2008 at 3:50 pm #

    oi!….
    you lot……
    brien’s one of the good guys!
    i agree he’s way of the mark sometimes(i know some lovely atheists)but his comments are fueled by a genuine passion for all things right and proper.
    i think sk,s referal to a ‘loss of faith’ in this instance at least, meant loss of faith in his own abilities…or something of that nature.
    often i think steve is a little obtuse in order to spark debate…or even just to get us thinking outside the box.

    it was self-referential……
    i’m sure he sees the creators hand at work in all he perceives.

    but remember bri……
    gettin’ all religious don’t automatically make you ‘good’ or ‘right’
    a lot of assholes have had god on their side no?
    blessings,
    andy L.

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 4 June 2008 at 5:22 pm #

    steve’s soul is lost – lost for 50 years so far-

  21. avatar
    davem | 4 June 2008 at 5:37 pm #

    Hope it’s gone well with Tim – we’re all really excited about the prog classic to come.
    Somedays you say nothing? I don’t think so. Always interesting.
    Nicely said Andy. Brien’s a fab guy.
    Much love to all. Thanks anon at 11.56 – made me smile.

    xx

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 4 June 2008 at 7:10 pm #

    sorry

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 4 June 2008 at 8:10 pm #

    Aw Steve…
    You’re not old.
    Look at McCartney.
    Mid sixties and not only does
    he still look good for his age,
    but he shows no sign of slowing down.
    I believe that you’re as old as you feel and that it is mostly in the mind.
    I know people in their thirties
    that act like they’re ready for the retirement home.
    Please.
    You’ve got a long ways to go and you still have a lot to say.
    I’m looking immensely forward to
    the new music.
    Thanks for letting me contribute today.

    Peace,
    Mark
    Tampa, Fl

  24. avatar
    eek | 4 June 2008 at 8:47 pm #

    i like the idea of winter
    i just dont like winter itself

    I do that (not necessarily about winter). So many things seem so much better in theory than in practice.

    And I still can’t quite get over that you have flowers blooming during the winter!! (just proves I need to get out more I suppose)

    i am free finally to concentrate on the real stuff :

    and the search for a perfect banana smoothie

    I’ve decided that’s true — sometimes it is all about the perfect banana smoothie.

  25. avatar
    linjo | 4 June 2008 at 10:04 pm #

    ees a diamond innee x true

  26. avatar
    lily was here | 5 June 2008 at 9:40 am #

    Sometimes i feel like a piece of paper, other times like my name.

    I lost two friends this past week, the reason for my absence. One you knew, he loved you too, an atheist, he gave up his own life to escape the pain, the other suddenly in a plane crash (a devout catholic) and i cant help wondering where they are because i believe there’s a reason and a place to be free.

    love to you and timebandit
    xxx


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