posted on April 17, 2007 at 4:19 am

dear people in croatia
im sorry
youre all right
the stuff i wrote was …..
upon reading it back
was pathetic bitter stupid
and just the kind of ignorance
that i rail against myself here on these pages
ive always been a classic example
of blaming the people who do come to the shows..
instead of being grateful that they came
i dont know anything about croatia at all
and where it might be funny to slag off, say
new zealand or london
or whatever…parts of america
this vile blog made me thoroughly ashamed of myself
if you can accept my apology then do so
i wouldnt blame ya if ya didnt
it was truly the pits
theres no excuse
i m just totally stupid sometimes
iam chastened n sobered by your responses
to the guy who brought us food
im fucking sorry too
i didnt know that was how it went down
put yer email address here
and i’ll fix you up
i didnt speak for no one except myself
and it was all wrong
i really am sorry
ive deleted it
ive never done that before
im so angry with myself
i hope ive learned a lesson
the anger was really directed against myself
cos it IS hard being a washed up old rocker
driving for miles
being late
being average
and playing to a big room
with hardly anyone in there
my ill considered views did NOT
represent any one else in the organization
i wish i could take it back…
i was trying to be funny n controversial
i ended up being bigoted n loathesome
im really very very very sorry
it was simply just rubbish

36 Responses to “im sorry….i fucked up”

  1. avatar
    mattdavison | 17 April 2007 at 4:47 am #

    Exercising our critcal faculties in the ethical realm entails taking responsibility both for our acts and for their underlying motives.

    If we do not take responsiblity for our motives, whether positive or negitive, the potential for harm is much greater.

    Well done sk.. you are a very fair person. But I still think the guy who wrote up a neg comment is still a right pain in the behind..regardless where he is from

    Note: Aussies only point the fun at kiwis caus they love us.. Oh yeah!

  2. avatar
    Paul Lightfoot | 17 April 2007 at 4:50 am #

    It didnt seem that offensive Nevets, but then, I’m not Croatian. If it was, then I think you’ve made a fair retraction. Still don’t think it was justifiable in a biz sense going there. But hey, if you’re on a Guarantee and not a door take then, and there was historic proof of reasonable cd sales, then, what the hell.

    Trust your 18-19 hour trip from Belgrade to Prague wasnt too arduous.

    Paul L
    Auckland NZ

  3. avatar
    myself | 17 April 2007 at 5:16 am #

    Shut up and stop arse-licking you two. Let the guy just apologise without slobbering all over him…

  4. avatar
    davem | 17 April 2007 at 5:22 am #

    Don’t be too hard on yourself.
    Love ya!

    Dave M

  5. avatar
    mihajlo | 17 April 2007 at 6:48 am #

    this was nice. and as for the original post, at least it gave the world that one comment about inxs, michael hutchence and kangaroo cocks, and if we all had to have so much bad blood just to make that comment happen, then so be it. it was worth it. 😀

  6. avatar
    dmj | 17 April 2007 at 8:15 am #

    It is shame that Croatian gig went that way but I suppose it has to happen sometimes. You were pissed off after border crossing problems (that were purely due to whoever organized the tour, as he/she should know that there are some papers needed when you’re visiting countries outside European Union), promotion of gig here wasn’t very good, there were other concerts in Zagreb same night, taking away a part of potential audience… As a result neither we were a good and appreciative audience neither you could produce any magic with your music. I wouldn’t blame anyone, it was simply a wrong time and wrong place.

    I do believe that some other gigs you play might be very good. And I know from experience that a lot of bands like to play in Zagreb and that we are usually quite a good audience. Shame it didn’t work last Saturday, both for you and us.

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 9:47 am #


    on ya for taking the comments on board. im not a croate and was surprised to see the reactions. mmm…then again i have played soccer against some croat teams so maybe i should not be so surprised. in any case, good on ya for adressing their concern.

  8. avatar
    Symon | 17 April 2007 at 10:09 am #

    sometimes we lash out cos there are other issues at hand…maybe the croatia gig was just the topic of the moment…not the issue. look inside SK…find out what’s goin on…missing the fambly must be hard. lottsa humility in that response…no one could mistake your genuine sorrow.

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 10:22 am #

    Thanks Steve <3 Hopefully, both the audience and the band will get another chance to hook up some other time :)

    a Croatian fan

  10. avatar
    veleska1970 | 17 April 2007 at 10:35 am #

    i guess all the stars and planets just happened to be lined up wrong on that day…..stress and fatigue sometimes clouds our better judgment. i’m not dismissing what happened by saying this, but i think there isn’t anyone on this planet who hasn’t done something so really, horribly and unbelievably stupid that they wished they had a rewind button to go back and undo what is done. we’re all human and we’re all guilty as charged. but there’s always a new day and that’s a guaranteed new chance to do better.

    still love ya, steve!!

  11. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 11:23 am #

    the person with bike that brought food here (feel so stupid to present myself like this…)
    kevin has my mail and mobile for a while but it’s not a issue really.
    no need to fix me up or anything, it wasn’t my intention to ask for anything or to gain something, i just thought you were wrong to write all that, so i was really happy to read your reply and that really sorted things out more than anything ever could. that concert won’t be something i’ll remember fondly but it turned out special in a way because of all that went on afterwards. i hope you realize now that you have a really small but loyal following in Croatia, or otherwise you wouldn’t provoke such strong reactions. I really hope that someday you stop around, if only for a holiday, to see that it’s quite nice country actually. Anyway, once again, thanks for your reply because it made it bearable for me to listen to your music again and feel something.

    since comments got deleted, here are once again pictures from croatian gig:
    as for you tube videos:
    here’s grind and hounds of love:

  12. avatar
    veleska1970 | 17 April 2007 at 11:38 am #

    thanks for the pix, anon 9:23. they were very nice. i’ll check out the vids later….

  13. avatar
    Vladimir | 17 April 2007 at 1:28 pm #

    All the slaggings of that Croatian bloke yesterday – but as soon as Steve apologises, the slaggings stop. “Oh, SK’s sorry, better fall into line.” Wankers. Steve spouts shit; you agree. Steve backtracks; you agree. Fucking dicks. If Kilbey thinks for his fucking self, why can’t you tossers?

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 2:27 pm #

    A damn good person is one who can admit when they make mistakes, and do the best they can to fix them using good care for people’s feelings. You just showed that. You are a class act.

    I don’t think anyone can understand the rigors and stress of touring as The Church do. Take a look at the schedule and see those dates piled close together and you may understand a bit better. Very little sleep, driving themselves(remember they ain’t got no private jet!), food on the go, family strewn all over the world, a different bed every night (maybe if you are lucky – instead of the van. Hell, I have a hard time getting rest when I travel for business or pleasure trying to get used to each place I am at. It’s not home. There’s border crossings, snoopy guards, technical problems, sometimes massively, screaming feedback and rotten noise through the ear monitors. It’s going to wear on you and take a bit of the positive out of you. I can totally understand that. The band is out there touring for all of us more than the money or fame. I thank them for doing it. Sometimes the shit just doesn’t come together or feel right.

    Take care Steve, rest when you can, play and sing as well as you do. Think good thoughts and keep it positive. Let me know if you need anything.



  15. avatar
    Emily Teechen | 17 April 2007 at 2:41 pm #

    Er… Hi all! Well, I get busy for a few days and look what I miss…

    mihajlo said…

    this was nice. and as for the original post, at least it gave the world that one comment about inxs, michael hutchence and kangaroo cocks, and if we all had to have so much bad blood just to make that comment happen, then so be it. it was worth it. 😀

    4:48 PM

    Will someone please explain what that INXS comment was during the deleted Croatian meltdown fiasco? The rest can be consigned to the void.


  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 2:53 pm #

    i also hate croatia

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 3:16 pm #

    croatians strike again!:)

  18. avatar
    malcolm arkey | 17 April 2007 at 3:36 pm #

    Blog in haste, repent at leisure.

    Ain’t the net a wunnerful thing ?

  19. avatar
    Lx | 17 April 2007 at 4:08 pm #

    next time
    just mention:
    Goran Ivanisevic
    and they’ll love ya
    to death
    they’ll kill ya
    to death too.

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 5:27 pm #

    it was really nice what steve did. it certainly turned the opinion that lot of people got about him after reading that first post. besides, he’s only human, we all say crap when we are irritated or angry and it’s the quality of the great to accept it’s own mistakes.

    as for link above, i believe people were just making fun of the whole situation and i don’t think it’s bad to have a bit of laugh…i’m sure no disrespect was meant concerning steves art…

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 5:27 pm #

    and lx, don’t be so ignorant, we are not that simple minded. for example, we do speak english, but tell me how well do you speak croatian?

  22. avatar
    davem | 17 April 2007 at 5:43 pm #

    Lovely to see the croatian fiends back on board. You guys have had such a tough time.
    Love and peace to you. BTW Fetching the vegan meal for the boys was a lovely thing to do.
    Bless ya!!

  23. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 17 April 2007 at 6:09 pm #

    If I was one of the music indusry’s most talented vocalists and lyricists, who is also the frontman for The Church, a peerlessly brilliant but wrongfully overlooked Band, I would get very miffed at small crowds. Just imagine how stupid the world is evidenced by the facts that George Bush defeated Al Gore for US President and that rap music “artists” with no talent have made millions of dollars. We live in a fallen world.

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 6:18 pm #

    Dear Mr Killer Bee,

    I did not read the offending blog but it must have been quite something.
    What I was impressed by was the no excuses apology. Sometimes we mortals behave like proper arseholes (I did it recently), but we rarely come right out and say it.I certainly didn’t.
    It is so refreshing to hear someone say,”I was an arsehole and I am sorry.End of story.”
    Well done,old sock.

    George Taxi

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 April 2007 at 10:07 pm #

    there he goes cracking on the USA again. next time you come back here we’re gonna boot you in the ass…… meatshiskabobmotherfucker

  26. avatar
    Tim | 17 April 2007 at 10:46 pm #

    Killa, I was in the middle of writing a wha – tha – hell – are – ya thinkin’ – that – doesnt – sound – like – you comment last night when my computer crashed. Now, I guess I don’t need to. What respect you may have lost on that posting, I think you more than made up with the apology….maybe it was all that peach juice but man that just didn’t sound like you. You’re a good fella for makin it right!

    I wonder how someone goes about soliciting you to do a track on an album. I know 2 thirds of a Canadian band that was pretty big in Australia, that were handed a pretty crappy deal by their singer when he walked away after 15 years. They have moved on and are putting together a CD with some pretty cool guest singers some of which you may know personally. I suggested to one member your name because I thought you would just rock with these guys. Despite their success they are incredibly humble and down to earth gents, but kick it on stage and in the studio. Can you send me an email address of a contact they could follow up with. I really don’t feel comfortable saying here who they are, but would rather they approach you either directly or through your management. My email address is

    thanks and rock ero!!!!

  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 April 2007 at 12:23 am #

    I think I need a drink…

    I’m as dry as a pommies towel

    Dutch Pierre

  28. avatar
    Celticat | 18 April 2007 at 1:15 am #

    Whoa Killer looks like I missed the start of WWIII?

    To Vladimir – I like thinking for myself. Here’s a thought – you’re a very unattractive person go away!!

    To anon 8.07 – is that a typical american reaction??


    love your work and your humility

  29. avatar
    jaytee | 18 April 2007 at 1:16 am #

    Anonymous said…

    hey man. inxs without hutchence sucks less kangaroo cock than you and your fag one hit wonders.

  30. avatar
    Loncar Matic | 18 April 2007 at 2:08 am #

    Mr. Kilbey,

    I think you were just so honestly here now. I am apology for you of course that is my way.

    You are also so hard on your person and it you pefectionaste.

    It for me was a great show. Sure we are a hard tough lot not stunt.

    And please do come again we will spoils your guys

    Loncar Matic

  31. avatar
    captainmission | 18 April 2007 at 2:15 am #

    been listening to patti smiths new cd a collection of covers, its quite good despite no church tunes on there. anyway hope you and the band are feeling positive and focused on the moment, the best is yet to come, we all know this….

  32. avatar
    damien | 18 April 2007 at 2:23 am #

    I read the blog in question but not the comments that must have ensued.

    So why am I sticking my bib in. . . . . . ?

    Keep smilin’, Steve. Thanks for the cool pics you posted.

  33. avatar
    eek | 18 April 2007 at 3:27 am #

    It’s tricky to be out of your element (and I believe you were during the first few days of this tour) and maintain your poise. This was a graceful apology and I admire your willingness to make it.

  34. avatar
    metal_petal | 18 April 2007 at 7:12 am #

    Dammit I picked the wrong night to go out to the theatre. It was all happening here in my living room!

    But hey, Hamlet was good. I’ve finally had to come out of the closet about Shakespeare and say that I love him.

    Good on you for saying what you think and then being big enough to know that sometimes what you think ain’t so cool. Blogs are tricky like that sometimes. Mine’s locked down temporarily because I shot my mouth off about something I shouldn’t have. We all live on….

  35. avatar
    Paul Lightfoot | 18 April 2007 at 9:24 am #

    Hey Myself at 3.16pm… Go and get fucked

  36. avatar
    myself | 19 April 2007 at 7:29 am #

    The retort of a true wit and scholar! You forgot to say something creeepy and crawley about SK, better get back on it PL!

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