posted on October 14, 2010 at 10:32 am

black o white

lady is a lioness

the jungle the city its all the same

the red flowers against a blue blue sky

leaves glow green

and the air is full of the sea

and the sea is full of monsters

monsters that dream in the depths

what then are their dreams ….?

one day men in the future will know

women sing !

women sing in mornings of the furtherest future

a ray penetrates the gloom

the beat intensifies

and as you move your body

youre insinuated through this colourful cartoon cell

like your swaying down seabreeze lane with an apple in your mouth

the child playing with dolls soon will decide policy

oh the palms oh the holidaymakers oh the boys with surfboards

everyone will live / love like this

zephyr spirit caress mine holy hands

i edit the deep love of the sea folk

i am omega to the next mans om

i am imagining the indian electricity girl but she was also real

india fascinates me tho i never been there

india with its mornings india with its evenings

india with its taj mahal

papers blow off my table where i sit with my goose quill

my white hair done up with a ribbon

no its 2065 and i’m so sad we never get to see it

i have reincarnated in some new mansuit and i live in laos

the future is so streamlined all the bumps have gone

there is no friction where you rub up against life

you wanted proof you needed proof

well here is all the proof you ever going to find

in mornings of the the fated future the faded future

time has bleached out all meaning from the men on the earth

sunshine has dried all your sweet sad tears

the music condenses and evaporates

all creatures great and small

oh we all sliding along so nicely

our appetites are a bottomless pit

pitted against the pointless pleasures of sold

33 Responses to “in mornings of the future”

  1. avatar
    evilren | 14 October 2010 at 12:04 pm #

    beautiful piece Steve. When the time is right maybe you will visit India.
    I know I will do my best to go there before I die.

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    princey | 14 October 2010 at 12:09 pm #

    Hello sk, that’s a lovely blog u got there, hope you’re having a nice day 🙂

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    Jonny Hollywood | 14 October 2010 at 3:37 pm #

    the only thing India had to offer was Ghandi and he is no longer here on earth I call terra…

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    dwellingwell | 14 October 2010 at 5:06 pm #

    I was digging it until the last line. If there is a Kilbey de-coder that can decode this last line “pitted against the pointless pleasures of sold” let me know.

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    lily was here | 14 October 2010 at 5:35 pm #

    Images and romance of the Taj mahal have beckoned me there since a young girl; & stories by Kipling and Tiger by W.Blake. One day Leopard …

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    hellbound heart | 14 October 2010 at 8:56 pm #

    my next life, my next life….hmmmm…..what/who would you like to come back as in your next incarnation, steve?

    love always……

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    Melissa | 14 October 2010 at 9:29 pm #

    oooh, I like this one too. It sounds very warm and hopeful 🙂

    I’ve been thinking about India alot. I think I might have to finally go next year. Rishikesh in particular, sounds like my kinda place 😀

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    Richard | 14 October 2010 at 10:32 pm #

    in 2065 I fully intend to be the centurion curmudgeon in the back row at the nursing home heckling the afternoon entertainer into belting out Anchorage

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 14 October 2010 at 11:02 pm #

    I am having a bad couple days processing the stress that has overcome me in dealing with my mothers health and the ignorance of my 2 bothers. My mother is still not feeling well and the surgery was not a success-she is out of the hospital and into my care. She has a very large kidney stone trapped between her bladder and right kidney. They couldnt take out the stone or break it apart. They put in a tube to relieve some pressure on the kidney and scheduled a session at a different clinic that would attempt to pulverize the stone with sound waves in a tub-she is still in immense pain. My brothers have been very difficult to deal with during this time and have caused great stress in my life. Stress that i am having a difficulty processing. I have increased insomnia, and i am riding on an emotional roller-coaster. I, myself, have to be in the hospital on 10/18 for another pain injection into my spine at L4-L5. Than that will knock me off my feet for a couple days. I am worried that my depression issues, also related to my acute/chronic pain, have resurfaced and i am not DEALING very well with everything around me. I am stuck in flux and feel like i am fading away sometimes. I just wish the sky and life would become brighter for me and my family so i can take a deep breathe without feeling like i am choking. my children and wife are what keeps me afloat- but sometimes that is not enough when the darkness sets in.

    AsAlways,
    BrokenToysAndHeros
    Darrin K.

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      Jonny Hollywood | 15 October 2010 at 11:50 am #

      I know how you feel, I wish upon the stars to make all the pain go away…

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      DavidP | 15 October 2010 at 10:01 pm #

      sounds pretty tough Darrin, I wish you all the best
      you will get through it

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      Cocoamo | 27 October 2010 at 11:23 am #

      I have no idea where you live, but if you were anywhere near Cocoa Beach, FL, I would be glad to try to help you. I am a pain therapist – the musculoskeletal kind of pain. People usually get some stress relief from the myofascial triggerpoint treatment also (probably endorphins?)

      Hope your injection gave you some relief.

      Your friend in Pennsylvania (now in Cocoa Beach)

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    Brien Comerford | 15 October 2010 at 12:59 am #

    India is home to 300 million spiritual vegetarians. Many adhere to the creed of ahimsa that mandates people not to inflict pain or suffering on any sentient being ranging from apes to insects. It’s an idyllic place to live for cows too ! Cows are very cool !

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    cazziem | 15 October 2010 at 1:32 am #

    So sad this tragic place we call home to the human race that we cannot stand together as one, be at peace, or love and respect one another as God intended. We seek happiness yet we cannot see it before our eyes. We look for harmony yet we cannot hear the bird-song.

    I long for this world that you so describe, but alas whenever anyone gives their heart whether it be to man, woman or a cause that person always runs the risk of having it broken.

    I hope I too can be reincarnated to enjoy 2065, but perhaps without the bitter-sweet memories that my current life path has bestowed!

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    Donna | 15 October 2010 at 1:51 am #

    🙁 Darrin, this trying time will not last forever. Believe me, I know. My husband was diagnosed with m.s. in 2003 and soon after had to leave work (he is a physician). Six months later, my 2 year old was diagnosed with autism (which, thankfully, he “outgrew”). My daughter had cancer. Three of my (very young)sisters had cancer in ONE year (2007). Two of them are now gone….

    My faith in Jesus got us all through that rough time. Today, we’re fine. My husband – although sick – is happy, we are financially stable, my daughter is healthy, my son is perfectly normal. I owe it to the grace of a very merciful God who heard all our prayers.

    I normally don’t like to “share” this much info, but I can see that you are suffering. Hold on to your faith. Someone here recently posted that we have to “get good at suffering”. Life is challenging and we have to take the good with the bad. Be patient and keep praying. Things have a way of changing. Of course, I keep you, Steve and all dear readers in my prayers.

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 15 October 2010 at 7:57 am #

      Thank you Donna that was very sweet. But what i have shared is really only the tip of an unforgiving iceberg. I am weary to share so much more. i will gladly accept ur advice and prayers. I wish the best for you and your family. You have a kind heart and shall be rewarded for that, and hopefully the reward will be sunshine, warmth, and joy.

      Thank you again,
      Darrin K.

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    andy | 15 October 2010 at 6:16 am #

    yeah…..
    i can see ya with that goose quill in hand right now.
    hunched at a desk with a flickering oil lamp.
    producing dark, arcane writings.

    maybe you were john dee baybee!

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    Freddie | 15 October 2010 at 6:51 am #

    The thing about the future is that it never comes but I would like to wake up a few mornings in India before I leave here.

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    dwellingwell | 15 October 2010 at 7:42 am #

    Darrin, try the sam-e with folic acid. Do not deal with your brothers . The only one I have contact with in my family is my Father. The rest are mean spirited kooks.I avoid them. Since not being in contact with them for over 2 years, my life has improved. Just because people are your “family” does not mean they are good for your life and well being. Once these dynamics are set up with family members, they usually stay that way. Sad but true. The I-Ching warns about “executing” people though . That would be more like writing of a good person that does not deserve to be written off. That is not right and can bring about bad luck and turn you into a mean little creep. . In this case though, it seems like you need to stay clear of your brothers. When you must interact with them, keep distance and do not re-act. Do not let them push your buttons.There is nothing to prove. Nothing to win. Be like the bullfighter moving around the charging bull. Just step aside and let it pass by . Monitor your thoughts. Try not to even have negative reactive bitter thoughts in your head. Watch your mind and step away from the stream of thoughts that are a result of dealings with nasty people. The ultimate “Fuck you” is to no longer rent them anymore space in you mind. It is tough to do. Eventually if you work at it, your stress will drop and you will feel more free. Good Luck with it.

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    dwellingwell | 15 October 2010 at 12:26 pm #

    This is some stuff on R.D Laing. He was a famous Psychiatrist/psychologist/Philosopher from the 60’s. He was from Glasgow. Great thinker and writer. One of my faves. After reading Laing, or studying the I-Ching, one finds that “Mental illness” is most times not an isolated self generated condition. In the case of the family, other family members usually generate the neurosis and fractured self esteem with double binds and other games. . Once the person leaves the family orbit(if they do) the play has not been dismantled. New actors will arrive to fill their role in the play set up in the family. One has to “Tear it all away” and clear people that are playing a part in ones own Crucifixion.This is a BBC thing on Laing.
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8-UT3-0_Ms

    Here is Knotts by R.D Laing http://www.oikos.org/knotsen1.htm
    The Politics of Experience and Self And Others are really good as well

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 15 October 2010 at 11:25 pm #

      Thanks-thats great advice.

      Darrin K.

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    neptune | 15 October 2010 at 2:05 pm #

    Dwelling – I so understand and agree with most of what you said, and highly recommend to Darrin that he re-read your post – especially the part about Do Not Let Them Push Your Buttons!! One thing to consider is that some people are not as strong as others – they react to serious things in often odd ways — they are not capable, period. Some people just don’t (and never will) get it, which makes things hard and sad for everyone involved. —-

    —- Darrin, just continue to do right by your Mom. Unfortunately, I no longer have a relationship with most of my family because when my sick Mom lived with me, and eventually went to hospital and passed away, I had a similar situation with my brothers. They had become accustomed to pushing my buttons, and were shocked when I wised up to them. Very painful, but you will heal. Having someone to talk to is VERY important – it really helps – someone who is completely and totally not involved in the situation at all. This will help you avoid more depression. Sounds like you have a lot on your plate. Just take it one thing at a time. The stress is harder when you are ‘going thru it’, but it will get easier and better. Just continue to be strong, and lean only on those you can trust. It’s often sad to find out that those you thought you could trust … well, you can’t. On a side note,I am thankful for this blog, as it really helps me to think about my own situation sometimes. Other times, it’s just a nice relief from reality. – Here’s to better times and better moods for all & prayers for good health.

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 15 October 2010 at 11:30 pm #

      Thanks Neptune-this is a great blog and site moderated by SK. Yes, sometimes things are easier said than done. I do have someone outside of the circle to talk to-she helps a lot. But when u are in the moment with the confrontations and stress- it is difficult to focus on HOW to process, than WHAT to process.
      Thanks again….

      Darrin K.

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    neptune | 15 October 2010 at 2:09 pm #

    P.S. I also would love a decoder, and loved this blog, except for the creepy monsters in the sea. 😉

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    dwellingwell | 15 October 2010 at 2:35 pm #

    This is a very nice line : ” leaves glow green

    and the air is full of the sea”

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      neptune | 28 October 2010 at 2:21 am #

      That is also my fave line — the air is full of the sea, because it reminds me of my childhood growing up and hanging out on the beach. Ahhhhh I so miss the smell of the beach, the relaxing sound of waves lapping on the sand, even the irritating seagulls singing, the openness of the horizon. I do not miss walking on sand hot as hell, and it blowing in my eyes. I also don’t miss feeling all gritty. But I guess you have to take the good w/the bad.

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    dwellingwell | 15 October 2010 at 4:56 pm #

    I sent a friend the RD Laing links and he wrote back with the following:
    Yeah. I have _Knots_ in paperback in my library in New Mexico (along with
    some of his other stuff) – and have read it – very good work which is a
    mental exercise to read that reveals much. I would read it, then take notes
    on the memories it triggered, then read it again, etc. Keeping notes helps
    to reveal the patterns and connections to the past events that created them.
    Once one brings these connections into up to the conscious level, one can
    choose not to react to them according to the old program – one can “see it
    coming” and say “STOP” and then think it through – at least that is my
    method. While things are in the subconscious, one reacts, and the conscious
    mind “justifies” the reaction with BS – BS that seems *totally reasonable*
    at the time, but isn’t really – the smarter the person, the more elaborate
    and convincing the BS the mind can generate on the fly.

    I also agree with the “mental illness” origin analysis, having traced my own
    struggle in undoing the damage done by my family, school/peer abuse-trauma,
    a twisted anti-human economic system, etc. I figure I was 36 when I finally
    reached breakaway speed – 18 years after I completely disassociated with the
    original actors. Life got progressively better during most of that 18
    years, but the patterns did try to reassert themselves in many ways – and
    still crop up today, though I can recognize them and step away or, at least,
    not respond when they push the old buttons that *they* were programmed, by
    their families/realities, to push. Automatons triggering automatons.

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      DavidP | 15 October 2010 at 10:10 pm #

      i reckon you would be interested in gnosticism
      they have some very effective techniques for
      self-knowledge and elimination of the egos

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 15 October 2010 at 11:33 pm #

      In my on-going therapy, i have begun the process of EMDR. It is very unique and i am at the beginning stages of treatment. But u have to be VERY careful that the muck u stir up to the top and attempt to re-process…doesn’t continue to haunt u when u leave their offices. This is the set-back of the procedure and can be quite damaging.

      Darrin K.

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    dwellingwell | 15 October 2010 at 10:26 pm #

    This S.K posting got me thinking about India again. . When I was in Guatamala, the hip hippies I met kept telling me how India blew their minds and changed their lives. It is cheap to live there as well. Is Rishikesh a good place ? Why was this place mentioned ??? Any info would be appreciated.

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      Melissa | 16 October 2010 at 9:49 am #

      I would love to go to Rishikesh.. I believe it is the Yoga and meditation capital of India, so it sounds like my kinda place. It is in northern India, at the foothills of the Himalaya. Here’s some info

      http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rishikesh

      I’m going to buy myself a Lonely Planet guide to India and start studying 😀

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    . | 16 October 2010 at 10:42 am #

    two of my neighbors from india have said
    the cities are crowded, painted with red
    it’s dreadfully hot there with very little rain
    disease and pestilence, i can’t imagine the pain
    yet another from mumbai said he loves the life
    that seldom sleeps and is restless through the night
    shaman fortune tellers ten spans into the future predict
    the lives of mothers and fathers, what’s the verdict
    only what indian life is and rears itself to be
    a compromise between the poverty and prosperity
    oh, but that’s just a dream, I remember now, see
    i’m looking for the third planet away from this misery
    where bombs and chemicals threaten our earth and skies
    the neighbors are suspicious, shall we live or die
    will the stellar cruiser break free from this atmosphere
    or are we to stay and soak the ground with our tears
    watch out for one another, never mind this ghostly shell
    paradise is waiting for you out there, forget hell
    a million lifetimes before you have lived it, time’s up
    your eternal splendor is waiting, fill up your cup…


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