posted on August 7, 2007 at 4:01 am

the hierophant n mem are standing in a bar
you mean to tell me that its my intentions turning them cards up?
says the hierophant
mem smiles enigmatically
or perhaps its the opposite
he says
the hierophant
look lets call him the killer for short
the hierophant is all duded up in some crazy medieval get up
karl jung intervenes
he says in his accent
oh i dont know the exact english word…
magic !
booms a deep dry voice
crowley knocks back a cognac and waves
mem eats a lightly sea salted crisp
magic…intentionality….art……will … he says abstractedly
the killer points to the upturned cards
the fool, the hero, the hanged man
past present future
the triple world
the past swallowing the future
but the more it swallows
the more future remains
the present is the fragile border
between these 2 untouchable states
remembering or imagining
is how we touch the past/future state
to be a real life hero
and fight injustice without being self righteous
to help and help without need for constant gratitude
to merely think a thing and behold! it is
crowley was reading my thoughts
yoga or magic he said
there are only 2 paths to what you desire to attain…
jung nodded thoughtfully
the killer has been practicing yoga hard now for a while he said
i wonder if he has really changed…
crowley said
hes been doing the poses
most of the other practice he neglects…
mem smiled and took a sip of his jaeger n red bull
it had become his trademark drink since that painting of his
had been sold for millions n millions
now his jaeger n redbull painting
hung in the louvre next to van go
crowley was boldly chatting up the barmaid
jung stared at me patiently like i was a lab rat
i must say herr killbee
its lovely to guest star in your blogge like this
i think it reveals something of yourself
yeah ? said k
delusions of grandeur
a rampant ego
a sick id
a neurotic inner child
unrealistic expectations of power
an incredible capacity for self aggradizement
said jung dispassionately
other than that?….i said
other than that youre a bit of a prick said crowley
rudely looking up for an instant
i thought this was your blogge…. said mem
youre right i thought
i can do anything here
quickly tiring of jung n crowley
i whisk them offstage n outta the bar
i turn sadly to mem
its ok said mem
im not really here either….am i?
in a moment i had swept the decks clear
no one remained but the woman behind the bar
drink up sir she said
its closing time
i staggered out into the streets
snowy bostonion streets
or hot sydney pavements
i cant tell
its either very warm
or very cold
you see i was right
all opposites eventually reconcile in each other
manipulation of these reconciliations is magic
the pull between opposites
man and woman
+ and –
life and death as well
extreme cold can feel like hot
yes yes
and then everything was peeled back
and i penetrated with my vision
to the real core of everything
and saw everything as it really was
for a second
everything was connected
it was ridiculous to think that….
but the thought wilted
as the second passed
and i was left with a shadow of the truth
which i chased drunkenly thru the streets of my mind
i stood in the severe poses of yoga
and my bones n sinews n joints n muscles moved apart
and in the new tiny gaps was knowledge
untransmissable knowledge
calm quiet knowledge
as it should be
nothing to get hung about
my mood crashed
i saw that tarot card i had turned
the hanged man
my future
no no no no
i turned my collar to the cold n damp
it had begun to rain in bondi
i felt hungry n suddenly lonely
itd still be quite a walk home

57 Responses to “intentionality”

  1. avatar
    Thelonious | 7 August 2007 at 5:14 am #

    SK, felt the same way this morning on my way to work.

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    damien | 7 August 2007 at 5:28 am #

    I think today’s blog can be expressed as an equation: Priest = Aura.

  3. avatar
    the dean | 7 August 2007 at 5:35 am #

    the hanged man may be upside down but he is in harmony, but we may ask with what?

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    Babylonius | 7 August 2007 at 5:47 am #

    Oh!… left us hanging!…….you are so bloody clever,Mr.Emperor!……/j38.4

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    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 6:07 am #

    so where is this bar that keep referring to…love to visit it one day…
    -The Hellbound Heart

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    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 6:59 am #

    didn’t you have any shoes on?{i.e. howd you know the bondi pavement was hot?}………. ………………..{ha ha I enjoyed making all those dots}…….. The barmaid “schnappes” her fingers,and alongside the Killer revs an enchanted classic british racing green E type Jag,with sparkling headlights,and “Purple haze” singing out to the night.” lift?”….have a lovely night,Mr.Steven…love,as always,gen xxxxxx

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 7:04 am #

    p.s…..It’s a convertible….of course!……gen x

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    k@t | 7 August 2007 at 7:09 am #

    i’m not really here either… am i?

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    check my luggage | 7 August 2007 at 7:16 am #

    Let me kiss MEM’s painting! I should pay a hefty fine for that- perhaps be incarcerated! And to think I’d get street cred for that, false fame, stupid fame, idiot savante fame. All joshing aside…Say, is there an artists movement going on here that I’d like to know about?

    Very cool passage today Mr. K., thought provoking as usual is your linear thinking of life and death, love = hate, priest = aura. Thanksss

    In the mean time, I pull up a chair in the bar next to Karl, while I sip a Bellini:

    Tell me Dr. Jung- what if there is no destination, but only a series of choices?

    AA in CA

    ………… your dots genx, love you and jimi, the car, love to all, and to all a good flight

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 7:47 am #

    Miss CA… to you too….do you like my other CA…,cheers at the BA…xxgenx

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    craig1.618 | 7 August 2007 at 7:50 am #

    i believe in magic
    i will develop my gift of intentionality
    hyperdimensionally mind you
    by not trying
    by just being
    in time
    i will
    seeing all the parts of one
    seeing myself
    in our reflection

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 8:05 am #

    sorry….AA in CA…..forgot to address you correctly!how rude of me!geepers to wheezers!…genx xxx

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    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 8:12 am #

    Jung? Bah,I’m a Freud man – I blame Mother…

    (that’s a joke, oho-ho, etc)

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    lily was here | 7 August 2007 at 8:18 am #

    You may have made a sacrifice but its never too late to turn back Killer. And you cant just hang around, at the bar, anyway, you have to pick up the rune stones and tell us what you see.I actually enjoy the way you leave stories unfinished…until another time. Maybe the hanged mans only upside down, depending on how you look at him.

    sue x

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 9:22 am #

    I’m sold – having read this blog for well over a year now, you’ve convinced me of the benefits of yoga. So what’s your advice on how to get started? What’s the best poses/moves for a beginner? Which ones do you do? Which do you feel the most benefit from?

  16. avatar
    Daberhasher | 7 August 2007 at 10:47 am #

    we’re all hanged lads and lasses ain’t we… oh the present, the fleeting moments of clarity, yoga does prolong those moments, eh…
    and then the cold cruel world turns you into a downward dog again,

    still learnin’, still yearnin’
    that’s why i’m here…


  17. avatar
    veleska1970 | 7 August 2007 at 10:52 am #

    the hanged man’s only loosely bound to the tree. he can come down anytime he wants. 🙂

    very introspective one today.

    lotza love…

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 10:53 am #

    I think we’ve all been drunk before and had to walk home due to some inexplicable lack of taxis at 3.30am in the remotest parts of town…thanks for your take on this universal theme.

    Did you hear Lee Hazlewood died?

    Not your cup of tea, I know, but still…so many dying…who is next? I get these anxious moments as I approach my birth anniversary every year…

    There but for the grace of God…


  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 11:28 am #

    I’ve never been drunk.
    But I have had to walk over 7 miles home when gigs have finished late. Including when I saw the Church in Sheffield in November 1982 – and that was when we actually had winters up here. It was fucking FREEZING !!!

  20. avatar
    sleepless | 7 August 2007 at 12:31 pm #

    …..Cheers at the BA to you Miss Genx. Yes of course I like your other car…the sportiness becomes you and you wear the green well with your red hair………

    Art Amused in CA

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 12:34 pm #

    does anyone notice a pattern?

    kilbey writes a good blogge
    fans respond accordingly
    blogge becomes a little ho hum
    fans get bored and amuse themselves with idle chatter and the odd put down
    kilbey/cult leader becomes enraged
    how dare thy comment not be about thy lacklustrious leader, and spews forth with me,me,me, and pissoff if u dont like it
    comments die down,only the brave and the cult followers dare comment
    kilbey gets all dark and sad because its no fun getting the same old arse lickingggg from the same old arse lickersss
    fans feel bad for him and start to comment again and so on and so on
    i have only observed for 2 months but we r creatures of habit aren’t we mr k
    now before all the cult members get their panties in a bunch( that includes u matt d)yes i know where the door is and i know I’m a wedgeee.
    i just cant stand the blind leading the stoopid

    Cheerio then

    ps turn the fucking comments off I dare.
    but then what the fuck would you do
    for validation

  22. avatar
    Fireseed | 7 August 2007 at 12:40 pm #

    dear time being

    oh the words you offer so freely
    the images you paint
    the atmospheres you evoke
    the worlds you unlock
    etched in the free-flowing ink of your quick-scribbling pen

    you are the one who gave me the ambition to write of ‘stumbling through dark forests where thorns and brambles tore’

    keep the fire burning inside
    and the snow still falling in flakes

  23. avatar
    CSTCoach | 7 August 2007 at 1:54 pm #

    catching up after weekend away… Some good blogs these past few days…

    “hes been doing the poses
    most of the other practice he neglects.”

    don’t forget that the poses (asana – structure) is only one third of the trinity. There’s also movement and breathing. To unify movement/structure/breathing is to achieve flow without thought, to transcend.


    the coach

  24. avatar
    John Garratt | 7 August 2007 at 2:06 pm #

    The coffee is NOT having a calming effect…

    John Garratt

  25. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 7 August 2007 at 2:28 pm #

    I got my college degree in psychology and having to endure Jung was a nightmare. Freud with his ID, Ego and Superego was easier for my brittle psyche to manage. I have been constantly playing the two Jack Frost CDs and they sound like a late 1960’s undiscovered supergroup. There’s a bit of Byrds, Spirit, Ray Davies and Syd Barrett immersed amidst the dynamic vocals, lyrics and eclectic instrumentation. Some of SK’s early solo CDs have a Syd Barrett=!1980’s Julian Cope sounds and atmospherics.

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 2:37 pm #

    Anon 10.34

    got to say there’s a lot I recognise in that,yessir!

  27. avatar
    Cee | 7 August 2007 at 3:02 pm #

    The Hanged Man, by Jo Harrington:
    It means waiting around, putting yourself out, because you know it will be worth it in the end. It’s getting the duty over with, even if you resent that to the point where it’s unbearably painful, because the end result will be amazing. It’s walking around with your shoes rubbing holes in your feet, because you know that once they are worn in, they will be your best shoes ever

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 3:54 pm #

    Oh no…there’s “Mr. Observant” again! Or is it Ms.??? Who cares really, Anon 10:34. Mate, if ya need chaos so badly, go hang out on the Guns-n-Roses blog, or the bloody Madonna fan site for that matter. Just Get lost already!!! Seriously, nobody needs you.

    CHEERIO, old chap!!

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 4:12 pm #

    Can’t face the truth, huh?

  30. avatar
    eek | 7 August 2007 at 4:13 pm #

    Steve, you have a mesmerizing way of describing what you think, feel and observe. Wonderful.

  31. avatar
    break my bread and bake my bones... | 7 August 2007 at 4:20 pm #

    everything you said
    then some,

    intension, or
    at least
    what we know

    of it,

    The card of the Hanged
    man was according
    to Crowley, the card of mem

    to realize the ‘XII’
    according to Crowley
    one must “accept divine

    will through ecstasy,
    without interference
    or guilt or shame”. But

    I say “fuck Crowley”
    there is no other voice
    other than your own.

  32. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 7 August 2007 at 5:18 pm #

    hey man whats up ? like to let you know ive been singing nonapology for a few days now as soon as i wake there it is a rare gem one of the little things, i do so love it

  33. avatar
    fantasticandy | 7 August 2007 at 6:35 pm #

    thanks for the spirit mention brien c!
    i do notice these things y’know.

    ah…the miles i’ve walked to and from gigs and bars….
    quite often on ‘auto-pilot’
    not actually remembering a single step of the journey,
    isn’t life strange?
    all the best fiendss,
    andy L

  34. avatar
    Sunshine | 7 August 2007 at 8:16 pm #

    SK said:
    untransmissable knowledge
    calm quiet knowledge
    as it should be
    nothing to get hung about

    Ah yes, Strawberry Fields forever! Thank you, Killer. Now I’ll have that song stuck in my head all evening.


  35. avatar
    knot | 7 August 2007 at 8:51 pm #

    you are not playing with a full deck
    where is yer old friend the priestess

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2007 at 9:00 pm #

    true magic strength and will.and the high notes scream like an electric harp through the mellotron.I have never stopped believing in REAL magic.

  37. avatar
    Faye | 7 August 2007 at 9:05 pm #

    oh.that was from me but …i am el schtoopido 2day……now I’m thinking of how a harp would sound,through the mellotron…xoxo

  38. avatar
    JUNIOR PAINKILLER | 7 August 2007 at 9:35 pm #

    so not intentional, this bloggy went way over me heads today…

  39. avatar
    anon @ are a broken record | 7 August 2007 at 9:38 pm #

    Don’t you feel a bit silly…..taking your 15th bow…when the audience left your auditorium,after your 4th word?….get a grip!not everything in this worldwill revolve around you,and your needs and specifications……I.E. piss off!

  40. avatar
    verdelay | 7 August 2007 at 9:55 pm #

    Well every schoolboy knows by now
    That the 21+1 cards of the Major Arcana
    Correspond to the songs of the 21 birds of paradise
    And the howl of a wolf
    And that all music is a distilation of these essential tones

    I slave my life away over
    A hot crystal ball
    Scrying my eyes out
    For a glimpse

    So tonight we turn to the cards
    (As a teenager I had a crush on Pamela Coleman’s High Priestess. Unrequited, I might add)

    The Magician

    The Stars

    The Hermit

    I’ve shared my house with all of ’em

    And here they are again tonight
    Turning up out of the blue (pack)
    Like old friends
    In photographs

    Why oh why
    At half past ten
    Or thereabouts
    Must we always turn up
    The Dickhead?

    Really kills that genteel Edwardiana vibe I’ve been cultivating like an orchid all these years, y’know?

    I’d rather read his tripe here
    Than spend my waking life with the dull little fucker


  41. avatar
    boggy | 7 August 2007 at 11:06 pm #

    So, Brien C……

    Tell me about your mother….

  42. avatar
    Anonymous | 8 August 2007 at 12:15 am #

    yes, the yoga do you good. i have to say i love it when you drop a song title like “tripleworld” into a blogge.
    i enlighten and brighten to our world.


  43. avatar
    Jung | 8 August 2007 at 12:28 am #

    My 10:34 patient believes Steve Kilbey is a cult leader, and believes in asslickers, wedgies and so on. I conclude patient socially repressed.

  44. avatar
    Anonymous | 8 August 2007 at 1:06 am #

    10.34pm commenter

    You have demonstrated a shrewd and astute sesibility that none of the rest of us dullards have; thinking about your observation it hits me like a bolt of lightening…! You are SO right!! You are probably better looking and more hightly paid than the rest of us too, in fact, EVERYTHING about you is probably superior to us.

    So why don’t you toddle along to a Mensa blog and leave us here to forever repeat the our drone like cycle.


  45. avatar
    Jung's secretary | 8 August 2007 at 1:08 am #

    “Mr.Jung,your 10:34 appointment has arrived……I have instructed him/her to wash their dirty,muddy face BEFORE kissing the ass of the killer.And I’ve charged double the standard fee to his discredit card…more coffee?”…../ xxA

  46. avatar
    eek | 8 August 2007 at 2:04 am #

    B.Bon — LOL. I think I love you. 😀

  47. avatar
    Dick Ploog | 8 August 2007 at 2:39 am #

    who stole my gated reverb?

  48. avatar
    jung | 8 August 2007 at 3:00 am #

    I’m falling for you more b.bon, miss x, and eek.

    Love! in CA

  49. avatar
    J38.4 | 8 August 2007 at 3:04 am #

    not I tricky dicky….but I, managed to switch the reverb send off in the can……but it just gets turned back on again…mmmmm spooky*$%&!

  50. avatar
    timf | 8 August 2007 at 3:24 am #

    holy fuck that was good!

  51. avatar
    Anonymous | 8 August 2007 at 3:37 am #

    those of you who speak of 10:34 and others of the ilk give him/her/it what it wants…

    honestly…want to see a little magic??????

    ignore it and it does go away…

    point to it or point out this type of behaviour and like a child in need of attention it sticks around feeding on your comments about him…

    that’s my last comment on these such fuckers.


  52. avatar
    Anonymous | 8 August 2007 at 3:38 am #

    and from here on in,it just keeps getting more brilliant!……That’s life!……..That’s livin’!/xyz

  53. avatar
    netochka | 8 August 2007 at 3:57 am #

    I miss MEM, thought of that fellow last week as I skirted the lower border of VT, USA. Happy to see him again, if only in text.

  54. avatar
    CSTCoach | 8 August 2007 at 4:10 am #

    B Bon – LOL. “our drone-like cycle” was a nice touch.


  55. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 8 August 2007 at 4:26 am #

    Isn’t life strange Andy. I notice the Moody Blues reference. Justin Haywood and Mike Pinder are and were my favorite members. I am totally nonviolent but I want to stick an ice-pick through a commentors head. It will go right through because the subhuman organism has no gray matter nor braincells. I’m off to get rid of my waning braincells. Al Gore’s on TV. Save us Al but stop eating meat because that industry exacerbates global warming AL GORE!

  56. avatar
    bleeding eyes | 8 August 2007 at 5:22 am #


    Sometimes I don’t say anything, and it doesn’t magically go away. I had to say something clever this time- so did the others. *=) !!! That kind of comment makes my eyes bleed! There have been MANY suggestions to delete…agreed, that makes sense to me.

    ArtAmused in CA

  57. avatar
    lily was here | 8 August 2007 at 9:07 am #

    B.Bon, i was sad about Lee H, my favourite song of his is playing on my myspace in his honour. if anyone wants to listen – of course

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