posted on May 23, 2006 at 9:48 am

30 microgrammes of codeine phosphate
or was that 30 millograms?
the black rain slides across the window
discreet music hovers
the wind buffets the house
long dark cloud comes down
hides the hubba bridge and the oprah house
winter night arrives in sydney
in the warm glow of home
in the living room
the room that lives
in the lamplight
soft furniture music
romantic time
we embrace our paradoxes
shudder through changes
i run my fingers over the options
night settles in
lights come on on the hillsides
8 oclock comes around
finds me in a dream
tinnitus rings on in my silence
my world becomes narrow
i get in touch with the deep thing
a frozen lake
a fiery core
so glad to be inside
safe and warm
a roof over my head
raindrops form black and silver circles on glass
i think of rain on chrome
tail lights red in the mirrors
i think of birds in nests
protective wings of my angel
my eyes blurr now
it doesnt matter
the inner light sometimes shines for me
nothing what it seemed
it seemed nothing
i underestimate the rain
i turn my collar
to the cold and damp
the phone rings
moment becomes inert
what else is falling out there ?
take this
said the doctor
this is for your fevered imagination
and this is for your broken promises
and take this when you miss home
in the middle of everything
an irish interviewer rings up from dubb-lynne
he loves ultc
well thats a goode start
no steve he says
i really love it man
we talk about grant
i cant believe he was so well loved everywhere
major obituaries and everything
grantley i hope ya seeing some of this
i know youre lapping it up
he says the irish especially loved ya
we finish talking
i smoke some
the rain drizzles n sizzles
sad night
night before depature
drift away

30 Responses to “its all mixed up”

  1. avatar
    fergal | 23 May 2006 at 11:03 am #

    u got some night friends sk
    bien viaje amigo

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    Pharaoh | 23 May 2006 at 11:10 am #

    Cold and rainy weather always makes me introspective as well, but then with what’s happened in the past few weeks it’s only natural for you SK. Im also both surprised and comforted to hear all the positive words about Grant since his passing… the lyrics to Nick Drakes ‘Fruit Tree’ echo in my head… I still get a little teary everytime i listen to Grant sing. Then I put ULTC back on and feel thankful the Church are still around and creating great records… ive no doubt your interviewer was being genuine when he said he loved it.

    Godspeed Steve, hope you have a safe and stress-free trip.

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    Anonymous | 23 May 2006 at 11:11 am #

    MMM Panadeine Forte one of my favourites!

  4. avatar
    RA | 23 May 2006 at 11:20 am # least the reason for the trip is a good one.. you’ll be warmly received as will your travellig companions..



  5. avatar
    Brad | 23 May 2006 at 11:40 am #

    Great stuff. Had me going. Thought is was pure dreamland and symbols, then like something Kafka it turned real when you introduced the interviewer, and it all was literal looking back…or was it?

    I like when you’re so specific it seems vague. Being ambiguous can fill in all the details too.


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    veleska1970 | 23 May 2006 at 12:22 pm #

    nice one about grant. have a great trip, and try to squeeze in rest and relaxation whenever, wherever, and as much as possible!!

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    Fireseed | 23 May 2006 at 1:09 pm #

    Hey Steve!
    Have a grate trip to Europe – wish I could be there at one of the gigs…haven’t had the pleasure since seeing your GAF set in 1990 at the Enmore.

    Are you still taking questions?
    Mine is: if I were to make it to Sydney over the Xmas hols, how’s about a tour of Karmic Hit?!
    Love Fireseed

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    bewitched | 23 May 2006 at 1:10 pm #

    sad and melancholy…
    warm and comfortable
    nostalgic but painfree
    maybe thats a good sign on the eve of your leave?
    break a leg as they say in theatre!
    hope the journeys a safe one
    Wishing you all the best things on the tour
    Im sure Grant will be there with you at times

  9. avatar
    sue cee | 23 May 2006 at 1:22 pm #

    You made me think of Songs For A Blue Guitar, a perfect album for a night like this. Safe journey sk, hope the codeine’s helping

  10. avatar
    persephone2u | 23 May 2006 at 1:28 pm #

    Here’s to hoping you have a safe and painless journey.

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    Alt | 23 May 2006 at 1:46 pm #

    Hey Steve, love to you and yours. Safe travels. Dublin (they love their crack in Ireland and have an E in their whisky) is unlikely, but see ya in Londinium and all that jazz. Oh, and thanks for the knighthood…heh!

    Alt the Pict

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 May 2006 at 2:33 pm #

    Keep doing that yoga, wherever you are. That’ll fix you up. That and the meditation. I admire the fact that you can face touring at all. I’m already burned out on it at 32.


  13. avatar
    CSTCoach | 23 May 2006 at 2:41 pm #

    Safe travels, SK.


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    Anonymous | 23 May 2006 at 2:56 pm #

    take good care steve
    grind it out my man
    even the dreary pour offers baptism
    just dont get the socks wet and miserable..
    I am anticipating a good string of jam outs for y’alls.

    j rodz

  15. avatar
    Krissythegroupie | 23 May 2006 at 3:05 pm #

    Coooodeinnnne..happy trails and all that!

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    Tony Pucci | 23 May 2006 at 3:11 pm #

    all the best to you sk
    safe travels
    good gigs
    unexpected but welcome smoke
    friends and even family
    and ephemeral release
    amongst your worries
    we are waiting

  17. avatar
    12str | 23 May 2006 at 3:30 pm #

    melancholy,a never ending source of great poetry….

    be safe man!


  18. avatar
    Elduvik | 23 May 2006 at 6:44 pm #

    Safe journey Steve… cheer up, lotsa friends eagerly waiting for you up here.


  19. avatar
    davem | 23 May 2006 at 6:48 pm #

    Safest of trips Steve.
    We’re all really looking forward to you coming.
    I’m afraid the rain in Blighty has been relentless & is here for another week or more. Everywhere’s very green & pretty though.
    Love you more,


  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 May 2006 at 10:22 pm #

    i get it but i don’t get it.

    there’s a huge whole world out there, and so much to see and feel.
    can’t you be relaxed because you’ve got your loved ones waiting for you at home when you’re done, but still embrace the new, the beautiful new unknown?

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 May 2006 at 10:45 pm #

    Hey Killjoy, I read the other day that Bec Cartwright was the most searched aussie celebrity on the internet and you were the most searched aussie celebrity at the airport! Happy travels.

  22. avatar
    eek | 23 May 2006 at 11:25 pm #

    Hope your trip is as smooth, uneventful, and fellow traveller from hell free as possible, SK. I’m keeping you in my thoughts.

  23. avatar
    rubikon | 23 May 2006 at 11:49 pm #

    I guess you’re up in the air by now. Hope the engines keep humming and the comedown is smooth.



  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 May 2006 at 11:55 pm #

    Hey Baybbee,
    All the best with the trip, have a good time a world away & have a good holiday with the kids.


    Dutch Pierre

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 May 2006 at 12:07 am #

    beautiful sk. have a safe trip.


  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 May 2006 at 12:11 am #

    beautiful blogg today sk
    will be thinking of you


    ps thanks once againg
    for sharing your writing

  27. avatar
    captainmission | 24 May 2006 at 12:54 am #

    Mr. Kilbey
    May the Force be with You..and your band.

  28. avatar
    Andromeda7 | 24 May 2006 at 2:45 am #

    beautiful blogge, may the road rise with you

  29. avatar
    Azza | 24 May 2006 at 3:11 am #

    Have a great trip.. Would love to see you in some cool Eureopean club but unfortunately life gets in the way. I guess I’ll just have to wait till you guys are down melbourne way again.

    ps. Thanks for the Jack Frost tip. Got my copy from Amazon and have bee enjoying it in the car.

  30. avatar
    Rehan | 24 May 2006 at 5:53 am #

    Have a safe trip and great tour!
    Love Rehan

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