posted on January 24, 2011 at 6:18 pm

the children in the present moment unending

the summer condenses into a solid day

overcast the threat of rain that never comes

i get some last minute things for the doodles n woofles imminent arrival

the house is immaculately tidy now tidier than ever

i swim my laps i do my yoga

the heat is omnipresent

i feel strange

but dont i always

have i ever felt just normal ever the answer is no

so here i am in another strange place in a strange time

an old man picking up his young kids

flown out to australia by karin mother of my eldest girls

4 days to get to know em again

4 days to make them feel at home again before i take off

4 days to catch up on the 60 odd days ive missed out on

i feel anxious i feel sad i feel a feeling i cannot name

home home home

there is no place like home thats for sure

i love my girls so much

yes i will try to be my best for them

reassuring solid cheerful dad

that everybody knows i am not

yet i must be for them

and you only get one childhood

and i want to spend some time making theirs special

they went thru a bit of turbulence last year

i pray to lord vishnu and jesus christ

that this year will only bring peace and calm and many childrens adventures

of course

what we all want for our kids

thanks folks

be back with photos n updates tomorrow

same time being channel

sk

54 Responses to “jan 24 7.07”

  1. avatar
    meg manestar... | 24 January 2011 at 7:38 pm #

    and you only get one childhood

    and i want to spend some time making theirs special —–love that line..true gold.

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    bionicanna | 24 January 2011 at 7:46 pm #

    agreeing with that prayer, and hoping the next few days will be full of good memories.

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    Melissa | 24 January 2011 at 8:33 pm #

    hey sk, just wanted to wish you and your girls a very happy homecoming .. what a big adventure for them!! (despite everything that’s happened) Pretty sure the next few days will be wonderful, so happy for ya!

    all the best to you :-)) xx

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    Karen | 24 January 2011 at 9:07 pm #

    That made me feel sad & happy for you

    “I want to spend some time making theirs special”

    & your right thats how a childhood should be
    kids are more resilient than we realise though

    my dad died when I was 5 ( heart attack) he was 45 so I dont have many memories of him…
    obviously I had to ask my mum and older brothers & sisters about him…my younger sister he called his little koala bear .. I asked what he thought of me and my mother said he did say I dont know about karen shes different she said he loved you … just the fact that he said that well I alway remember it

    whats my point? Im strange too ..lol probs

    kids are resilient but it doent mean they dont take every little thing in little sponges
    have fun with your girls
    take care of yourelf on the tour and come back and
    look after those precious bundles

    • avatar
      thetimebeing | 24 January 2011 at 11:32 pm #

      im sorry that you lost your dad so young karen
      this fear plagues me for my girls
      much love
      sk

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    Shoffy | 24 January 2011 at 9:14 pm #

    I wish my kids were little again. I miss those little kids. Nice blog tonight Steve, nice.

  6. avatar
    veleska1970 | 24 January 2011 at 10:01 pm #

    ah, the much anticipated, long-awaited reunion with your lovely girls. soak up all those hugs and kisses!!

  7. avatar
    . | 24 January 2011 at 10:09 pm #

    back to those memories
    when the days laughed out loud
    driving across the countryside
    full of life in the now
    don’t miss a moment
    the summer air’s alive
    hope as my armor
    i’m bold and i’m proud
    youth be my witness
    as the wind fills me like a kite
    one day once upon a moment
    we breath in ambition and life
    so transitory as our conscious flows
    don’t deny it, don’t fight
    here a second, gone the next
    sleep well, at least just this night

  8. avatar
    Paige | 24 January 2011 at 10:41 pm #

    Love…

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    Donna | 24 January 2011 at 10:52 pm #

    We’re waiting!!!! (no pressure, really ;))

    I have no doubt you’re a great dad. Your heart is in the right place, and that’s the most important thing. Leave the results with God!

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    Wilfred Paradise | 24 January 2011 at 10:57 pm #

    SK – take’em on the road w/ you. just like Keef, took his 7 year old Marlon on the road w/ him during the Stones’ mid-70s tour. didn’t think the kid was safe at home w/ strung-out mama. think litlte marlon was fine until they finally pulled him off tour and threw him in school. that’s what messed him up. enjoy, enjoy. looking forward to your run in the states. you’re young man, all the generations of folks buried in their graves are the ones who’re old. enjoy your youth. carry on. wilfred p

    (PS – you should change the greenville show to electric. the traveling fans (who can’t get all the way to atlanta) would rather hear the 3 electric records. whatever the promise to folks in greenville, am guessing the same is true for those folks. the switch-up to acoustic may possibly be a pain in the ass anyway? think on it, man. would love the 3 records, but you know best.

  11. avatar
    Once | 24 January 2011 at 11:17 pm #

    Beautiful.

    Be happy.

    All said and done, your children are your most valuable work.

    And don’t worry, mate – none of us are normal.

    Love and peace –

    D.

  12. avatar
    Heather daydream | 24 January 2011 at 11:26 pm #

    You’re a great Dad.

  13. avatar
    Freddie | 24 January 2011 at 11:54 pm #

    May the reunion be a joyful one!

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    Ingrid | 24 January 2011 at 11:55 pm #

    I’m happy for you that your girls are back with you. You all must be delighted to see each other.

    Enjoyed today’s and yesterday’s blogs, nice photo too.

    Regards
    Ingrid

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 25 January 2011 at 1:20 am #

    I lost my father, my best friend, when I was 18 years old. Each and every day since then I think of him. I wonder if he is proud of me. I wonder if he is watching over my children, keeping them safe from this ugly world. Ever since my accident in 2006 and the daily pain and degeneration I live with, I only hold onto hope, hope that they do not see me suffer as much as I watched my dad suffer since I was 9. But, unfortunately, I believe they are living my life all over again. A big Fuckin DejaVu. My oldest, Alex, soon will be 20 and I can see his facial expressions change as he watches me struggle with all this pain and lack of movement. He is so strong. My angel, my sweet Kristina, keeps trying to make me ‘better’ when things get really rough. I am scared for her because she does not understand much now, but when she does figure it out. I think it will only make her sad. I do not want her to be sad. After I had a severe reaction to my last round of injections in my spine last November, she was there with my wife, and things went wrong. The DR nicked my nerve root in my spine and they had to keep me in observation for quite a while. When they allowed Laura and my Kristina in to see me. She looked right thru the Dr’s soul and said: “what did you do to my daddy?”. He was shook up by this and since-referred me to other doctors in his “pain management” practice. I was so shook up by that, she seeing me in such pain and unable to walk. Now, when things get really bad, like the last 10 days, my wife tries to keep her away from me-she visits other family members. She does this because of the horror stories that she knows have happened in my past as a child. Bless her for that.

    Love your children in any way possible. I too, also, feel like I’m running on borrowed time when my pain disrupts my life that I can not even get out of a bed for days. I miss my kids during those times and do everything I can to keep from crying, I just hold on for hope. Thats all we have some time. When the depression sets in-its a inner personal struggle that is a war that I wish NO ONE to encounter. It can be a living, breathing, hell on earth.

    I’m so sorry to everyone if this is dark today. I am so happy that Steve has his children within his grasp, even if its only for a couple days. I wish everyone great health and happiness- because I believe If I do this as often as possible, maybe…by sheer luck, some good fortune will return towards me…that is one of my many levels of hope I dwell within.

    AsAlways,
    Darrin K.

    • avatar
      Lyndall | 25 January 2011 at 11:42 am #

      Darrin
      Love to you and your family… Lx

    • avatar
      Donna | 25 January 2011 at 1:59 pm #

      Oh Darrin, this makes me sad. Hang in there!! Patience!! Thank God for your wife, kids and friends. Love to you and yours…Donna

      • avatar
        BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 26 January 2011 at 12:25 am #

        Thank you ladies, I am very thankful for your positive energy and I appreciate it dearly.

    • avatar
      . | 25 January 2011 at 10:56 pm #

      Stay strong…

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      Cocoamo | 28 January 2011 at 4:33 am #

      Darrin: If you have not, you might want to try a certified myofascial trigger point therapist. To find one near you, go to this site and type your location into the find a therapist search link. I see Rachael Keefer in Chicago gives free 30-minute consultations. I’ve been reading about your pain here and hated to come on like an infomercial, but this therapy truly is extremely effective.

      http://myofascialtherapy.org/

      If you are near Cocoa Beach, I will be glad to give you a free treatment. I have helped people who were close to suicide from the pain find complete relief. On the same site above, search under Cocoa Beach and you will see my contact info.

      For more links and info, go to painschool.com – the site of the school I attended–there are some interesting links on the history of this therapy.

      Your friend in Pennsylvania
      (Now in Cocoa Beach)

  16. avatar
    MICHAEL J FRIM | 25 January 2011 at 1:24 am #

    See you have a lot of really good things going for you. Get positive, stay positive, from the outside your life seems pretty sweet. Mj Frim

  17. avatar
    princey | 25 January 2011 at 8:25 am #

    Hello sk, bet you were up bright and early this morning with your girls back!! Do they look all grown up, have they changed??? Enjoy every minute with them and I’m looking forward to pics and funny stories from you Kilbey’s!!
    love Amanda
    P.S. re: photo. NO! you’re not too skinny like some people suggested, you look mighty fine to me 🙂

  18. avatar
    Andreas | 25 January 2011 at 8:48 am #

    I am happy for you Steve. I am a father of a 5-year old girl and I miss her every much whenever I am travelling. I am in a hotel room right now and I can’t wait to be back home. It feels how much you love them, you always have very warm words for your daughters. These feelings keep us fathers going…
    Ciao
    Andreas
    Genoa/Italy

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    ticktockclarice | 25 January 2011 at 9:47 am #

    I just finished reading Alain de Botton”s “Consolations of Philosophy” (kinda like Philosophy for Dummies, lol). I loved it and it had some fantastic and helpful stuff in there but i was most struck by the quote “a friend is, among other things, someone who is kind enough to consider more of us normal than most would” So see, you’re totally surrounded by friends Steve, we get ya, ya big weirdo! And as for your fathering, let’s see – you’re artistic, love music, smart as hell, off the charts funny in that dry, sarcastic way of yours and adore your girls and make no secret of it to them. Everything i ever wished my father was but sadly wasn’t. What he WAS was calm and reassuring most of the time. Very overrated traits when not accompanied by any proof of affection. You love them. They know.That’s enough. Enjoy the reunion and i also hope the year ahead is a bumper one for you and them. And thank you for your comment yesterday. It pretty much made my year, ha ha. And to all the kind comments from everyone. It all helps me a lot and i love you all xx (ok, i’m going before i get any more Oprah)

    • avatar
      Donna | 25 January 2011 at 2:02 pm #

      That was a really good book!

  20. avatar
    hellbound heart | 25 January 2011 at 11:04 am #

    I know you’ll try and do right by your kids..,.it’s the most anybody can do…
    love always………

  21. avatar
    Lyndall | 25 January 2011 at 11:38 am #

    Love and best wishes to you all Lx

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    Karen | 25 January 2011 at 11:58 am #

    kind of you to reply to my post, much love to you & your fam as well

    & as I said in a previous post your looking after your health so Im sure you will be around for many moons yet..

    I didnt know my dad but I have my family who told me about him ..he loved to sing he could hear a song once or twice and remember all the words apparently one of his favs was wooden heart… bit ironic… (I cant sing for shit ) he loved poetry ..and so do I… and would recite it line for line he was a great animal lover but he also smoked and drank too much….so we had things in common

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    Brien Comerford | 25 January 2011 at 12:02 pm #

    You seem to have very nice, intelligent and loyal brothers. I have a feeling that your daughters will enjoy being with them. They will miss you dearly but it’s always good and fun for kids to have cool uncles !

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    lisa | 25 January 2011 at 1:21 pm #

    I’m glad that your sweet girls are home with you, Steve. It’s amazing how healing just being with your kids can be. And I just have to say how unbelievably great I think Karin must be. It’s not very common that a former love would take on such an important role. She is obviously pretty special– I know I’m not telling you anything that you don’t know!

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    plumlady | 25 January 2011 at 2:24 pm #

    So excited for you to be with your girls again. And it’s good to hear that you and your ex are still close and help each other out in family matters. It must have been like deja vu for her to have another set of Kilbey Twins around…..you truly have been surrounded by women who adore you!
    Oh how I wish I could see you in the states….not coming to my town, and Chicago just a bit too far to attend in this cold weather. Bring long johns!

  26. avatar
    david | 25 January 2011 at 11:14 pm #

    …nice day..

  27. avatar
    mark griffith | 26 January 2011 at 12:48 am #

    enjoy the time with your girls. i love the days with my daughter. it blows me away how fast she’s changing and growing. a year ago she could make little sounds, cry, wiggle, and crawl a little. now her personality is in full bloom…new words every day, along with new demands…moving from one thing to the next too fast to keep up with. she’s a character, my sophia. take care and hope to see you soon, sir…if my finances allow it…
    griffo

  28. avatar
    Steven Krut | 26 January 2011 at 2:06 am #

    I hope you have a great time with your girls, Steve. Kids are like little spiritual energizers!

    I heard the new KK album yesterday. I really enjoyed it. I’ll write an objective review after a few more listens. Peace!

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    cazziem | 26 January 2011 at 5:02 am #

    Enjoy these precious moments with your girls SK and remember as you HAVE to head off that what you do in terms of earning a living is as much for them as it is for you. Thankfully Karin is a good friend to look after the younger ones for a while, but we all go through difficulty times and not all of us have anyone to turn to. The secret is to enjoy you kids as much as you can. As parents we spend our lives wishing their lives away 9I can’t wait til she can walk, I can’t wait til she can talk, I can’t wait til she’s in school) and then far too quickly they’ve grown up and flown the nest. What happens then? Well we start reminiscing about when they were babies, toddlers and younger children!!! I get we never realise and/or appreciate our children REALLY until they are children no more. Have a much fun as you can whilst you can. xxx

  30. avatar
    Ellen | 26 January 2011 at 9:32 am #

    Awwww, have a wonderful time with your daughters, Steve.

    I cannot begin to imagine what pain and joy is involved with having children, as I never had any…

    You sound like a very devoted and loving father. Can’t wait to see you at the El Rey next week. Safe travels.

  31. avatar
    hellbound heart | 26 January 2011 at 7:08 pm #

    you love them and they love you <3

  32. avatar
    Ingrid | 26 January 2011 at 10:11 pm #

    Hope you and the girls are having fun and enjoying yourselves. I had a good day with my daughter today. The school holidays are nearly over, so trying to make the most of it.

    Enjoying listening to Damage/Controlled tonight. Stunning album, beautiful,really beautiful – love it.

    Love IngridXXX

  33. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 January 2011 at 2:28 am #

    http://www.examiner.com/music-in-boston/the-church-bring-ambitious-show-to-mass-massachusetts-that-is

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    Churchfan | 27 January 2011 at 2:35 am #

    Thought you might like this. Good luck on the tour!

    http://www.examiner.com/music-in-boston/the-church-bring-ambitious-show-to-mass-massachusetts-that-is

  35. avatar
    Craig Miller | 27 January 2011 at 4:49 am #

    Hello everyone. Haven’t posted in a while, as I’m a bit embarrassed to admit to Steve that I’ve been slacking on the yoga. Sorry Steve, although why am I apologizing to you? I’m the one who is suffering from not doing it.
    Anyway, I’ve managed to schedule a work trip to LA for next week and will be at the El Rey show, so perhaps I will be once again inspired. Can’t wait to see the show.

  36. avatar
    bc | 27 January 2011 at 4:56 am #

    you are on clearly on the path…
    your positive prayers and affirmations will work wonders

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    Jonny Hollywood | 27 January 2011 at 3:30 pm #

    kind of wish I had some children to adore me 🙂

    • avatar
      Elvis | 28 January 2011 at 6:00 am #

      Could go the other way too there Mr. Hollywood! Bumba Hum!

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    Therese | 27 January 2011 at 6:01 pm #

    Hope the girls are well and settling back into the Bondi summer and you all are enjoying the catch up time. During your busy holiday hopefully there was a little time for some painting and to cross off some items on the “To Do” list.

    Wishing you a very safe and the most successful tour of the US. May this be the year all your dreams come true.

    Take care.

    Peace & love
    Therese

  39. avatar
    Violette | 28 January 2011 at 1:24 am #

    Well, the g!ster and I will be tearing ourselves away from our own little girl wonder and making the drive down from Montreal to NYC to see you guys at the Highline on Wednesday, February 16th. (Especially good will be to meet the fabulous Sue C. for the first time!)

    I can only imagine what it will be like to have to leave after only 4 days with your kids. We’ll send them and you good love vibes in the meantime so you both can keep without too much hardship. Would some sweets help? LOL.

  40. avatar
    Violette | 28 January 2011 at 2:07 am #

    Back to full-time parenting, yes, that can be a challenge. LOL!
    And I only have the one… what would it be like with three?

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    Georgia | 28 January 2011 at 5:08 am #

    xoxox to you and your beautiful daughters.
    The relationship I had with my father was the most important in the world Steven….and I know that this is the same for most girls…including your own. There will never be anyone who can guide them like you can…or reassure them or even inspire them. To realize how important their childhood is may be the most inspired statement you have ever made…

    xoxo


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