posted on March 5, 2008 at 2:01 am

im carrying a big bowl of prawns from one little house
to another
im six years old
i cant believe they eat this stuff
i can hardly bear to look at the pink objects in the bowl
the smell disgusts me
how can people eat something that smells like that
the tiny things are monstrous
every instinct in me is revolted
suddenly
what do you know
i drop the lot in the dirt
oh dear what a shame
we are down the south coast
the locusts vibrate in the trees
the water is cold and green and foamy
i am sunburnt and freckly
all the adults tease me
and none of them love me very much
i am so angry to be a child again
again?
again? i thinks to myself
what were we before then…?
in the time before time
and the time before that
oh i perceive the pattern
you struggle to acquire…
money
skills
power
property
identity
and then
its all stripped away
and you start again
still with those old appetites
those old hankerings
big deal i was some big big shot
somewhere faraway n long ago
these english types dont sit well with me
fussing around and eating prawns
i, whoever i was, did not eat prawns
i did not like small talk
and i did not like to be made fun of
ha an impotent foreign little sod
no longer the big old grand wazoo
or whatever the fuck it was
what does it matter?
that world is gone
the people are all gone
come back as little steven kilbeys in england
of all places
england
ha!
a voice whispers in my head
i was a sikh
its constantly on the tip of my tongue
the answer i mean
i am so close to finding it
when i do
i will put it in a blog
and someone will argue with me
the way they always do
going thru my writings looking for punctuation mistakes
while im laying my life on the line here
if i decry warmongerers they say im spreading disunity
i say
some fights are good fights
krishna said if your duty is to fight
then you must fight
i rave on about the “straights”
quite frankly i dont care about em
EXCEPT
they’re trying to tell us all what to do
EXCEPT
they’re ruining this fucking planet
ok
heres my definition of a “straight” once and for all
materialistic
brutal
nonspiritual
religiously fundamental with no questioning at all
pro guns
anti some drugs (ie all the divine ones)
no imagination
demanding nothing from their art
meat eating
alcohol n bellowing in yer face
no disciplines
parochial
obstinate
out of touch
willfully ignorant
superficial
afraid
bellicose
scheming conniving conning
ennervating
gossip rags and infotainment
gated communities
4 wheel drives in the city
docile

now yes yes
all of us probably test positive to some of those
its just that
if most of that was you
then youre a “straight”
leave me alone
and i’ll never mention them again
just like i never mention telegraph poles or water restrictions
you know
theyre there but who cares
ah but the “straights”
are running this western show
as i said
epitomized by bush
the very worst ignorant aggressive yet cowardly himself
a draft dodger who calls himself a war president
he has run the u.s. into the ground
he does not love his people
who can argue with that?
am i being a divisionist here?
ok bush n men like him
are ruining a lot of things
are we “non-straights”
gonna just sit back n say nothing?
are we gonna blindly obey these idiots
even though we KNOW it our heart of hearts
that they are fucking pathetic
how do you think bush will be judged by history?
i could have been a better president
i said it before many times
a lot less people would have died
for a start
etc
what pisses me off the most
is that “straights”tell me what i can n cant do
what i can ingest
how i can change myself
the way they hound artists intellectuals prophets and freaks
the pharisees who did jesus in were “straights”
the idiots who threw robert mitchum in jail for smoking weed
they were “straights”
the guys presiding at the inquisitions
the guys who burnt down the alexandrian library
the guys who beat a blind lady in bondi
the guys who deforest the amazon
the japs harpooning them whales
the guys organizing world war one kitchener et al
football hooligans
butchers
fanatics and extremists
the cops n the robbers
the tali fuckin’ ban
the cia
the terrorists
the crusaders
captains of industry
howard, thatcher, pinochet
fast food corporations
oil companies
arms manufacturers
a guy called piers akerman
who writes in sydney rag the telegraph
he is the straightest of all “straights”
he is the most predictable knee jerking
right wing i told you so “straight” of them all
and you see his little picture of him
(and he must have chosen a good one
imagine the ones he rejected..)
and there he is
resembling a smug little toad
all puffed up in his self importance
as he trots out the 1950s blacknwhite bullshit
programmed into him by the western paradigm
and he parrots it ad infinitum
is that divisive?
yeah
i didnt say us under the loose banner of bohemian are perfect
who said we cant fuckin’ criticize the bastards
who stubbornly ignorantly are causing more problems n grief
bohemians dont kill or advocate war
but i can write whatever the fuck i like here on my blog
if im wrong i’ll apologise
who cares anyway?
its all just dust in the wind
let it all go
ah….
thats better

41 Responses to “lifestile turnstyle”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 March 2008 at 3:15 am #

    did white hippy moses talk to the burning gw?or set it alight!?love n peace .;D

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 March 2008 at 3:18 am #

    oh kilbey, i loathe piers ackerman so much. and andrew bolt. do you know andrew bolt? he is the melbourne version. all these C***S need to stay off my cloud.

  3. avatar
    bezepae | 5 March 2008 at 3:35 am #

    Hmm…Bush. The U.S. is down and all I can hope is that Obama wins the democratic nom as well as the presidency. Sitting here, fingers crossed, hoping. Will it be enough? A black man who’s middle name is Hussein and first rhymes with Osama. It’s a start I suppose.

    The change and world I visualize from your words are refreshing, inspiring and tangible. It’s good to know there’s others out there expressing it.

    Anyway…I want to donate to yer blog but I really want the Narcosis and Remindlessness records. Gonna go that route. It all comes around right? Perhaps next month.

  4. avatar
    Sean | 5 March 2008 at 3:52 am #

    SK, I’m so pleased you agree that GW is the terrorist.

  5. avatar
    the dean | 5 March 2008 at 3:58 am #

    couldn’t agree more

  6. avatar
    princey | 5 March 2008 at 4:48 am #

    Sk, why did you think the adults didn’t love little Steven at the wee age of 6? How BAD were you????

  7. avatar
    linjo | 5 March 2008 at 5:13 am #

    How will you know when you are wrong. You think that everyone that doesnt think exactly like you is a straight. You leave your anonymous open, inviting all opposing views. I do enjoy this blog, its educational and thought provoking for a simpleton like me, particularly when an articulate, well mannered anonymous offers a different opinion. No offence Steve. Linda X

  8. avatar
    scott | 5 March 2008 at 5:24 am #

    Bush is a nazi…..good riddance you scumbag pigfucker.

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 March 2008 at 5:52 am #

    Scott, the nazi party ended with the death of Hitler in May 1945, therefore your description of bush is a bit confused, why not leave out the nazi bit and leave the rest?

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 March 2008 at 7:16 am #

    Hey kilbey, havn’t been on the comments page 4 over a year but still love reading your words every day, very challenging and thought provoking, great insights from an interesting mind…
    so next time you get hit with a wave of anonymous criticism remember the wise man who said,”fighting on the internet is like competing at the special olympics, whether you win or lose, you’re still a retard”
    keep up the good work

  11. avatar
    12str | 5 March 2008 at 8:15 am #

    right on!!

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 March 2008 at 9:28 am #

    So, would you run for local office then? Would you want to be bothered with it? Most bohemians would not, and I say that sadly, but the truth is bohemians (for whatever reason) do not aspire in the same way that straights do. That’s why the straights are running things: because they actually want to run things! It’s as simple as that. Bohemians don’t want to lead and don’t want to follow. That’s both a strength and a weakness. The best we can hope for is some sort of straight/bohemian hybrid who is amenable to Reason. Even then, the hybrid will never please the extremists on either pole and he will be sneered at as a closet straight or a closet hippy for his trouble. Wish I had a real solution for this conundrum but obviously I don’t…..

  13. avatar
    ...being here, doing this... | 5 March 2008 at 9:54 am #

    ah but the “straights”
    are running this western show
    as i said
    epitomized by bush
    the very worst ignorant aggressive yet cowardly himself
    a draft dodger who calls himself a war president
    he has run the u.s. into the ground
    he does not love his people
    who can argue with that?
    am i being a divisionist here?
    ok bush n men like him
    are ruining a lot of things
    are we “non-straights”
    gonna just sit back n say nothing?
    are we gonna blindly obey these idiots
    even though we KNOW it our heart of hearts
    that they are fucking pathetic

    ~

    Wednesday March 5, 06:30 PM

    U.S. towns vote to arrest Bush and Cheney

    WASHINGTON (Reuters) – Voters in two Vermont towns on Tuesday approved a measure that would instruct police to arrest President George W. Bush and Vice President Dick Cheney for “crimes against our Constitution”, local media reported.

    The nonbinding, symbolic measure, passed in Brattleboro and Marlboro in a state known for taking liberal positions on national issues, instructs town police to “extradite them to other authorities that may reasonably contend to prosecute them”.

    Vermont, home to maple syrup and picture-postcard views, is known for its liberal politics.

    State lawmakers have passed nonbinding resolutions to end the war in Iraq and impeach Bush and Cheney, and several towns have also passed resolutions of impeachment. None of them have caught on in Washington.

    Bush has never visited the state as president, though he has spent vacations at his family compound in nearby Maine.

    Roughly 12,000 people live in Brattleboro, located on the Connecticut River in the state’s southeastern corner. Nearby Marlboro has a population of roughly 1,000.

    .

  14. avatar
    isolde | 5 March 2008 at 10:52 am #

    indeed
    you be the
    Panther of the Punjab

  15. avatar
    fantasticandy | 5 March 2008 at 10:58 am #

    nonny-mouse said:
    So, would you run for local office then? Would you want to be bothered with it? Most bohemians would not, and I say that sadly, but the truth is bohemians (for whatever reason) do not aspire in the same way that straights do. That’s why the straights are running things: because they actually want to run things! It’s as simple as that. Bohemians don’t want to lead and don’t want to follow. That’s both a strength and a weakness. The best we can hope for is some sort of straight/bohemian hybrid who is amenable to Reason.

    there will never be a ‘straight/bohemian hybrid’…..
    bo-ho’s don’t torture and imprison or even kill those who disagree with them.
    if this is how we define ‘power’…
    wer’e all stuffed.
    andy L.

  16. avatar
    restaurant mark | 5 March 2008 at 1:30 pm #

    4 wheel drives in the city…sounds like home!? i think that concept was created right here in georgia. may see six before i get to the first red light!

    tell it steve…

    take care
    mark

  17. avatar
    matthew | 5 March 2008 at 1:50 pm #

    SK, I work with some of the worst, most shrivelled, non-existing “Straights” imaginable in the Department Of Secrecy… no concept of art, love, lateral thinking or anything much beyond New Idea’s worldview… & your words encourage me no end!

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 March 2008 at 2:29 pm #

    The axis of evil is seen clearly here.. Abraham Maslow regarded hate as a basic need. We are killer apes who need division.

    They are us. We are them.

    Does real “evil” exist? Or ignorance, “unskillful action” ?

    ..I feel like Obi-Wan Kenobi saying: “Luke, don’t give in to hate !” : D

    – Lebrinho

    PS. Andy ! Thanks for the words. The red pacemaker in your pic rings loud and clear. It’s good to be alive.

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 March 2008 at 3:09 pm #

    VOTE DEMOCRAT IN NOVEMBER AND YOU WILL SEE THE WAR HERE IN AMERICA THAT IS A SURE THING.

  20. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 5 March 2008 at 3:35 pm #

    Sk would have loved former Democratic Presidential Candidate, Dennis Kucinish. He’s a humane vegan, diehard environmentalist, and he vehemently opposed the war in Iraq. He wanted a Department of Peace and a Conservation core to make the United States more green and pristine. He personally opposed abortion but would never impose his view on pro-choice woman. He also wanted to impeach Cheney. (The latter is the actual US President.) Kucinich was a great candidate who went nowhere fast in the evil, fallen world. My love for Empedocles and John Wesley makes be invoke the fall.

    I loved today’s blog. Eating dead prawns is irreverent and revolting. Robert Mugabe is very, very bad for the African Continent.

  21. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 5 March 2008 at 3:36 pm #

    Dennis Kucinich.

  22. avatar
    Swede | 5 March 2008 at 5:19 pm #

    VOTE DEMOCRAT IN NOVEMBER AND YOU WILL SEE THE WAR HERE IN AMERICA THAT IS A SURE THING.

    2:09 AM

    Where’d you get that idea Mr/Ms ALLCAPS?

    Truth is, it’s quite the opposite. The neocons are drooling for another attack in the States. They’re practically begging for it. That way, they can have all the marbles by enacting martial law. Plus, oh boy the money they & their military industrial complex pals will rake in.

    I hope the Americans live free to see the return of what America once was. A democratic republic. Not “lead” by the 21st century’s most notorious terrorizers.

  23. avatar
    Swede | 5 March 2008 at 5:20 pm #

    Oh, and by the way mr/ms ALLCAPS, go fuck yourself.

  24. avatar
    Swede | 5 March 2008 at 5:48 pm #

    Oh and Steve, sorry about the treadcrap there but, it had to be said.

    Regardless, I’ve really been digging what you’ve been writing lately. But, I always do. Sorry I’ve not been able to donate to the cause but, I can assure that I’m far more broke than you are. Someday my boat’ll come in. Hell, I’d be happy with a raft or a sturdy river log at this point.

    Keep searchin’ there man.

  25. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 5 March 2008 at 6:34 pm #

    it doesn’t matter who becomes the U.S. Puppet President, the Illuminati have been in control of our government for decades now…
    Jonny Moondog Smythe

  26. avatar
    davem | 5 March 2008 at 7:47 pm #

    What you write DOES matter.
    You move people. Keep telling it as it is. Many of us need to keep hearing it.
    Love you Steve.
    xx

  27. avatar
    mandn | 5 March 2008 at 8:10 pm #

    ah Orpheus, you are leaving out the one who brings my kind down.

    ann coulter. I have many names for that woman.
    None of which I will soil your blog with. In fact, I shouldn’t even have brought up her name here…

    forget I said anything.

    much love,
    xo
    M

  28. avatar
    polydora | 5 March 2008 at 8:21 pm #

    “i am so angry to be a child again
    again?
    again? i thinks to myself”

    I had this exact thought when I was three, lamenting my return, when a light shone upon my little crown (no joke).

    childhood was rough having known where I came from, having intimately experienced that light some have named God.

    I had to grow into myself all over again.

    Good definition list of “straight”.

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 March 2008 at 8:29 pm #

    SK please come see my new band “Akerman’s Head On A Schtick”
    next week live on Bondi Beach

    The following is from Wikipedia so it all must be true:

    Akerman has had charges of sexual harassment levelled against him by employees. Five former employees, three of whom agreed to be named, said they witnessed Mr Akerman sexually harass female members of his staff.[2][3] A group of female staff at The Sunday Herald met and agreed to protect each other in the office from Akerman’s advances.[2][3]

    One of the most controversial episodes in Akerman’s life was his alleged threat to assault the literary editor of The Advertiser, Shirley Stott Despoja.[2][3] The dispute ended before a full bench of the Supreme Court where the newspaper appealed against Stott Despoja’s successful worker’s compensation claim for stress-related sickleave pay. Stott Despoja alleged: “I was physically threatened by the editor while alone with him in an office in a dispute over my work.” The appeal by The Advertiser was dismissed and Stott Despoja won her $4000 claim.[2][3]

    Responding to rumours about his alleged abuse of alcohol and cocaine, cited in both the New South Wales Parliament as well as the Australian Federal Parliament,[5][6] and in a Sunday Age article about him in 1991,[2][3] Akerman, who is clearly overweight, replied: “My appearance belies that story, don’t you think?”

    Akerman was raised in Perth, where he attended Guildford Grammar School, before boarding at Christ Church Grammar School, where he remained until the end of his schooling. Akerman was “asked to leave” Guildford following a dispute with the headmaster there and did not complete his final exams while at Christ Church.[2][3]

  30. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 5 March 2008 at 10:15 pm #

    This afternoon President George W. Bush endorsed the Republican nominee, John McCain, for President. Ms. Clinton voted for the war in Iraq. Kucinich vehemently voted against the murderous atrocity but he (the nonviolent vegan) is the one whose branded as a pariah.

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 March 2008 at 10:47 pm #

    prawns are swimming bugs

    knot

  32. avatar
    William | 5 March 2008 at 10:55 pm #

    docile unless watching one of their teams win/loose.

    can get kinda dicey.

    –william

  33. avatar
    matt davison | 6 March 2008 at 12:45 am #

    YEP!!!

    iTS
    OBAMA
    TIME

    MD

  34. avatar
    SHARKA, Ukraine | 6 March 2008 at 1:54 am #

    The political arena is a distraction- they only thrive by our attention!

  35. avatar
    steve kilbey | 6 March 2008 at 2:56 am #

    sharka
    i agree!

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 March 2008 at 1:13 pm #

    SWEDE YOU GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU BROKE ASS MOTHER FUCKER BECAUSE YOUR A LAZY LIBERAL HIPPIE. YOU CANT HANDLE THE TRUTH. YOU ARE WEAK AND BROKE. ZUES

  37. avatar
    swede | 7 March 2008 at 10:44 pm #

    Heh heh. You go there zues.

  38. avatar
    Swede | 7 March 2008 at 10:58 pm #

    Ok, zues, I realize my ‘go fuck yourself’ was out of line. My apologies. But, what you said was also. And assuming a lot. I’m broke because my cancer has swallowed every penny I have and more. But, I guess, in a month or so, I’ll be dead and won’t have to see the country go into the toilet any further. Farewell, American.

  39. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 March 2008 at 7:17 pm #

    SWEDE MY APOLOGIES BACK I WAS ASSUMING A LOT. MY MOTHER DIED LAST YEAR AFTER A 2 YEAR BATTLE WITH CANCER. IT WAS VERY HARD ON EVERYONE. I WISH YOU THE BEST. ZUES

  40. avatar
    Swede | 10 March 2008 at 3:08 pm #

    Thanks. My condolences.

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2008 at 10:45 pm #

    SWEDE, THANK YOU FOR ENTERING BACK. I FELT REALLY BAD THATS NOT WHAT IM LIKE. I EVEN TOLD MY BROTHER ABOUT WHAT I WROTE. HE WAS LIKE OH MAN. I JUST LOVE THE CHURCH/KILBEY AND ENJOY HIS WRITINGS. I CAN NOT AGREE WITH EVERTHING SO I GUESS OUT OF BOREDOM I ADDED IN THEN I ADDED SOMETHING REALLY STUPID IN. I TRULY HOPE THERE IS SOMETHING THAT CAN BE DONE FOR YOU. GOD BLESS YOU. ZUES


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