posted on January 21, 2009 at 8:49 pm

fucking hot day blooms outside my door
its gonna be a million degrees
and its not yet even 8 oh clock
i am the time being
these are my journals
everything you read here is true
everything is permitted
we are making good time
we are covering vast distances
we are off the beaten track
we are in the interzone
here we are in the white hot day of gods summer
here we are on the hill of morning
here we are waiting in the true haze of memory
we are at the heart of the controls
we stand in nepal n chat with lord ganesha
we crash land on cythera …wheres aphrodite…?
anywhere you wanna go just be there
anything you wanna have just take it
yeah life speeds up …i told you that…
but oh
i’m loving being olde
now i have the POWER
ha ha ha
this brief flowering before i’m scrambled again
took me so long to put this all together
all things are becoming obvious again
all the things i shoulda remembered
along the way
i perceive the patterns behind art music poetry
i perceive the lie of the land
i perceive the handsome men n lovely ladies
i perceive the white stars burning in their blue holes
i perceive the children endlessly asking questions
i perceive the evil in all mens hearts
the carelessness
the futility
the ambition
yes i see
yes i note
my many faults n failings
my own trespass
my own cruelties
my own bitternesses
my own lacks
my own unnecessary
my own brutal
my my my
the weather outside turns overcast
i will take my girls to the beach
they will chatter to me all the way and back
they will plunge into the ocean
the way they will one day
plunge into the arms of men
and i…..
i will disappear into the undetermined future
i will reappear
well masked
no doubt
i will come back
and struggle all over again
but next time
i will reach a slightly higher point than this
this steve kilbey in his nice mansuit
if you cant feel the truth in this….
if you cant see it….
oh well
nevermind

39 Responses to “long hot summer”

  1. avatar
    the dean | 21 January 2009 at 9:28 pm #

    before you shake off this mansuit you should go to india and nepal – it either changes you or validates what you already know. Enjoy the waves

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 January 2009 at 9:37 pm #

    immerse yourself in that cool water.its good for the spirit.love .xo 🙂 xohave a great swim with your gorgeous girls steven.

  3. avatar
    seoigh | 21 January 2009 at 9:50 pm #

    All true except for one tiny part. “I”. “I” won’t reappear, for “I” is simply a temporary arrangement of earth stuff currently in the shape of your Kilbey mansuit. Whatever it is that animates your “I”, my “I” and everyone else’s “I”; sure that lives on. But that thing doesn’t speak individuated ego. But it does speak rock and roll…

  4. avatar
    princey | 21 January 2009 at 9:54 pm #

    I love “this steve kilbey” though, the Good, the Bad AND the Ugly! (not that there’s any ugly bits of course!:)

    It’s stinkin’hot, humid, cloudy and windy here in Melby too, but I don’t have an ocean down the road to plunge into! Maybe it’s not so bad living in Bondi sk 🙂

    Have a beautiful day,
    love Amanda

  5. avatar
    seoigh | 21 January 2009 at 9:55 pm #

    It occurs to me that a wise, old, white-bearded friend of mine recently wrote a song that questions “all this you and me-ing.”

    You’s and me’s return to the dust that they already are. But you know that, obviously.

    Peace.

  6. avatar
    veleska1970 | 21 January 2009 at 9:57 pm #

    it’s “this steve kilbey” that keeps me coming back to this blog.

    enjoy your afternoon with your girls.

    lotza love….

  7. avatar
    John Garratt | 21 January 2009 at 10:24 pm #

    Hard to imagine such a hot day. It’s sub-freezing over here.

    John Garratt

  8. avatar
    EDD | 21 January 2009 at 11:00 pm #

    “There is water at the bottom of the ocean…” To be on a beach…It’s cold and rainy in the Pacific NW. You can walk to the beach from your house, Steve? Bring your 12 string. Give a free show on the beach. Hope there are no anon commenters out there on the sand. HA!

  9. avatar
    seoigh | 21 January 2009 at 11:03 pm #

    Veleska1970 — for the record, I’m rather fond of the old git in his current form myself. I wouldn’t have all the geezer’s records if I didn’t, right? I hope I didn’t sound confrontational. I just feel I’m doing my job as the Killer’s humble charioteer as he rides off into battle, if ya follow me.

    Anyhow, I don’t suppose I’m telling him anything he doesn’t know better than most of us. One wouldn’t go about naming albums after quotes from Dogen Zenji unless he knew what it means to “forget yourself”, after all.

    Peace.

  10. avatar
    captain mission | 21 January 2009 at 11:19 pm #

    how re assuring, there’s a handful of people here that make me feel like i am not alone. beautiful sentiments today, as i read steve’s words i felt like i could hear neil young’s electric guitar ringing out some haunting etheric chords.

  11. avatar
    fantasticandy | 21 January 2009 at 11:28 pm #

    i can dig it guvnor….
    i see where your’e coming from.
    and it’s all cool…………

  12. avatar
    lily was here | 22 January 2009 at 12:35 am #

    At first i thought i was reading “i will take my GIFTS to the beach” but its really the same thing. Children are gifts we choose, are lucky to receive but kind of on layby till they leave the nest forever, only to return … with their dirty washing 🙂 Precious, priceless times with your kids – nothing on earth can replace that. chattering gifts.

    love xoxox

    ps cooler weather today; should reach you by tomorrow

  13. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 22 January 2009 at 12:54 am #

    Sorry but I have no empathy for the Aussies who are complaining about hot weather. Chicago and the United States midwest has been beset by deadly cold wather, snow records and power outages.

    Good start for Obama. He’s going to be a bona fide green President. That’s good news for ecologists, environmentalists, endangered species and wildlife habitats.

    Bulldozer Bush and Chainsaw Cheney are FINALLY gone. The most environmentally destructive allies of carnvirores and destroyers of our imperiled planet.

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 January 2009 at 1:34 am #

    A parting shot at Bush and Cheney. Quite an original perspective there Comerford. The country has turned the page, so should you.

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 January 2009 at 1:58 am #

    Hey Dutch Pierre

    Im in Pine St off Darley Rd in Queens Park. Where are you then boxer?

  16. avatar
    fipster | 22 January 2009 at 1:58 am #

    You might find this interesting, Steve. My brother Andy (bionaut) picked up a book titled “Cards of Destiny: A Birthday Book and Daily Divination Guide” by Sharon Jeffers. In this book each day of the year is associated with a specific playing card, and Jeffers tells the significant meaning associated with it, and the character and personality traits of a person born under that card. So after looking up my own (Three of Spades – card of Creative Inspiration) and those of some family and friends, I decided to look up Sept. 13.

    Sept. 13 = Jack of Clubs, the card of Mental Genius and Creativity.

    “If this card of mental creativity and genius is your birth card, you are an innovative, progressive thinker and a born entrepreneur. People with this birth card gravitate to positions of leadership, power, and authority, and many work in the entertainment industry. If this is your card, you are here to give to and teach others. You have the ability to dive deeply into whatever interests you, analyze it thoroughly, and present it with clarity. If not watched, your sharp, quick thinking can lead to arguing. You might love to debate, because this is like mental gymnastics for you. You have a tendency to have high expectations of those around you, which can lead to impatience. It’s important to understand that your mind is working a little faster than the minds of the rest of us; patience is needed, as we are trailing in the wake of your thoughts. Most people born under this influence have a constant influx of ideas. You are gracious and kind and enjoy social interaction. You are thoughtful and somewhat reserved. As is the case with any jack influence, when you’re not aligned with your highest values, you can be dishonest or tell little white lies, which will create instant negative results. Many with this card have a natural desire to serve others, and if this is the case for you, it’s important that you find a way to manifest it. Your path is to initiate wisdom. Part of your destiny is to improve the quality of life for others. When not using your immense mental power of intelligence, your mind and emotions can become imbalanced and create chaos and disorder.”

    Weird, huh?

  17. avatar
    Anakki Mayhem | 22 January 2009 at 2:09 am #

    Thnk u 4 teh muchley enjoyable blogge!
    Happy sunshiny days 2u & lovely fambly!
    (as I await my delivery of Shriek with much anticipation…)
    🙂
    A
    xoxo

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 January 2009 at 2:31 am #

    Fipster, a most interesting post. Any chance you could go into more detail?

  19. avatar
    steve kilbey | 22 January 2009 at 2:44 am #

    hey fip
    it does sound like moi….doesnt it
    wow
    the jack o fuckin’ clubs
    who da thunk it?

  20. avatar
    ross b | 22 January 2009 at 2:46 am #

    'think about people in their season and time returning again & again (and again, and again…)'

    – some lyrics from Nick Drake's Saturday Sun..

    luv u Steve, rb

  21. avatar
    Freddie | 22 January 2009 at 2:49 am #

    In spite of the heat your spirit seems up.
    Hope you enjoy(ed) the beach with your girls,
    Gettin’ older’s not so bad when you keep gettin’ better lookin’, is it? 😉
    xo

  22. avatar
    Also Ran | 22 January 2009 at 3:20 am #

    I've just ordered my ticket for the Church gig at the East Brunswick club on 7th March.

    Hooray to me & The Church!!!

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 January 2009 at 3:40 am #

    Anon,
    Send me an email on nebbelingp@hotmail.com & we'll do it.
    Some of us work.

    Dutch Pierre

  24. avatar
    princey | 22 January 2009 at 4:34 am #

    Hi sk, I just heard a rumour that you’ll be recording in the Preston area on Tuesday, is it true????!!!!!

    P.S.Dutch’n’Dickhead…get over it, the macho-man dayz are over, we dont want to know around here, no-one cares ok 🙂 have a nice day

  25. avatar
    m.p.k | 22 January 2009 at 4:38 am #

    nice entry, i can picture it. i wish i was in the hot near the beach.

  26. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 22 January 2009 at 6:36 am #

    here we are wasting away here on earth when we can be in space having a jam session…
    Space Savior

  27. avatar
    MEM | 22 January 2009 at 7:22 am #

    i will
    be
    the last
    thing
    to
    everyone
    if
    i
    can
    when
    i'm
    not
    when
    it's
    fraught
    taught
    sought
    brought
    not
    a
    thing
    at
    all
    if &
    when ur
    done
    i'm
    there

  28. avatar
    K.P.BUK | 22 January 2009 at 7:30 am #

    fipstr what is mar 21
    please reply!?
    k.p.buk

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 January 2009 at 8:54 am #

    haha,ET TU!?the glowing digitz of life.;) xoxoxoxoxo

  30. avatar
    Jasperina | 22 January 2009 at 9:12 am #

    Just trying to picture you in your mansuit… all I can see is a pale blue safari suit and some sandals the height of cool on a stinking hot Sydney day!

  31. avatar
    EDD | 22 January 2009 at 9:30 am #

    To the insulting anon: Do you even listen to The Church or Steve’s music? Or do you just attak things other people like. If so, how insecure of you….

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 January 2009 at 10:19 am #

    ‘I will disappear into the undetermined future’…I like that!

  33. avatar
    catchow | 22 January 2009 at 12:02 pm #

    fine to read your truth and what your perceive…now and in the future,but enjoy the present time,steve,yeah:life speeds up…

  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 January 2009 at 1:19 pm #

    After work I enjoy putting on womens under garments and prancing about singing under the milky way while holding a photo of kilbey in his tight jeans. But I can still kick some ass when needed.

    Dutch Pierre

  35. avatar
    sanfoin | 22 January 2009 at 4:24 pm #

    Fine sentiments SK. If you haven’t already read it, “Autobiography of a Yogi” is quite instructive . . .

    To the anono-man with his snide infelicities: you’ve a good sense of humor, friend, but a bad sense of self.

  36. avatar
    verdelay | 22 January 2009 at 5:19 pm #

    Mr. Fipster

    What’s November 22 then?

    v

  37. avatar
    davem | 22 January 2009 at 6:25 pm #

    You certainly did SK, don’t you know.
    x

  38. avatar
    eek | 22 January 2009 at 6:45 pm #

    i will take my girls to the beach
    they will chatter to me all the way and back

    I’m probably growing sappy in my old age, but that’s just so sweet. 🙂

  39. avatar
    fipster | 23 January 2009 at 10:14 pm #

    For those who asked, partial transcriptions from the book “Cards of Destiny” by Sharon Jeffers. Too much to type it all.

    —–

    Mar 21 = Two of Diamonds – Logic Meets Intuition

    “If this is your birth card, you are blessed with excellent intuition and sound logic. Following your intuition will always lead you to the greatest success. You prefer partnership in your personal and professional life, and in business you’re spurred into action by feeling you have a mission to accomplish. With your driven nature, you are passionate when it comes to your work. In fact, you’re happiest when you’re working, and when you’re not working you can easily become dissatisfied and restless. You have great organizational skills and innately know how to make things happen, and you find great fulfillment in your accomplishments.”

    —–

    Nov. 22 = Jack of Hearts – Sacrificial Love

    “If this is your birth card, you are a natural-born teacher of love and truth, and this is not always an easy role to play. This is the card of sacrificial love, and for many born under its influence, the early years of life involve sacrifices or disappointments of one sort or another. Depending on their early environment and the individual, people with this birth card will either learn from and become empowered by these experiences or simply become martyrs. You are here to live the laws of higher love, and when doing this, you know more than most that giving of yourself is the greatest gift and brings the greatest rewards.”


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