posted on January 9, 2012 at 9:19 pm

column blind

just a short note

i am working hard on the soundtrack

this logic program is a lotta fun for a composer

getting the hang of it a bit

meanwhile the wars rage on

my war on everything else i suppose

gonna go down fighting never gently

all the people i fight depend on me but never vice versa

i am insane in a different way

i am realistically insane

i am insane yet quite reliable

i mean i turn up don’t i?

a lot of people kinda depending on me

in all kinda different ways

the pressure is subtle yet its continuity is crushing

tears threats mumbles harsh voices

i ask for so little back….from anyone….

just friendship i guess just be reasonable

i guess my idea of reasonable is unreasonable

i want a quiet life i want to create

it is a waste of my time doing anything else

i have so much yet to create and probably not so much time

everything else is a drain

the world spins harder faster more wildly

more great successes more devastating failures

strangers veneration and the familiars avoid

i am loving and hating being me

i am not steve kilbey

he is an actor he is a mask

he is a temporary aberration

a ripple on a stillness that is eternal

yet all this music all these words all these ideas

the universe has widened my bite and shortened my leash

other peoples madness is driving me crazy

at least i realise i am one tune  short of an album

I’ve turned my nuttiness into songs for fun and prophet

i have turned into something rare right before our eyes

believe me all the stuff now comes to me effortlessly

as if by magic

it kills me to know i will have to die

abdicating from my brain so packed full of good ideas

and start all over again

struggling just to get back to where i am now

a true master (baiter)

your humble fool

kilbey

bondi beach with ocean glimpses

yeah bikinis and sunburn

thats the place

34 Responses to “meanwhile for the time being”

  1. avatar
    Lee Spencer | 9 January 2012 at 9:59 pm #

    enjoy and take care …….hey, i’m working on a dance/rock/house remix of a church classic …. gimme 6 months, you’ll be the first to hear it. Its going to be a breakthrough in australian house. and NO, its not what anyone will expect.

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    Wilfred Paradise | 9 January 2012 at 10:51 pm #

    When you die, it will just get better, man. As long as your karma points are high, and I think yours might be, at least w/ respect to your art.

    Disappearance . . . oh, man, what a great song . . . can’t stop playing that. Seems also that you wouldn’t want to stop playing that, I mean really playing it on your instruments, as in live in the States. bring all this stuff, David Neil, Isadore, a little Church, bring it all.

    WP

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 9 January 2012 at 11:36 pm #

    That made me laugh this early morning at home, in bed that I cannot get out of. I did not sleep. The pain crawled out of its firery hole, up from the prison of eternal suffering. Im in bad shape. The neck is degenerating, they- the doctors- want to go in there with their huge needles filled with unholy chemicals and poisons. Pain block/ steroids…I eat my pain piles like their fucking skittles…no, no, no. …this is a bad flare up caused by sitting in my truck for a couple hour Sarlturday morning as I waited at a far away school as my son-Alex took one of many, teacher tests. I have tears in my eyes right now cuz im sad and mad and glad. I really hope im here, on this astral plane as my sweet young man walks into HIS classroom and teaches his very first day. I don’t know, its close yet off in the distance.
    For any of any who think that pain is all in the head, I feel for your ignorance. When the pain comes with its venomous touch and wicked grasp. It feels more real than taking a simple breath. Im sorry if this is sad to read. I just needed a outlet for a moment, the tears well up more.
    Who invented pain of this like, I would rid the world of it. I am so sorry for all those who suffer from this mute-billion dollar industry. I am though, selfish with my pain – uncommon of my personality, those who know me -I can only think of myself- here and now. It is so very very bad. If the day continues at this alarming rate- I may be blogging from the small 4 poorly painted walls , a hospital room. Why do they. Paint such awful colors. With such an extraordinary palate to choose from which actually would assist in patient recovery, OFF FUCKING WHITE..drab drab drab. They want you out so fast, as u haven’t even entered. A beautiful shade of a seaside filled with tranquil thoughts…what color shall that be… Do u know????
    Steve- my far away artist friend, Do you know ????

    DARRIN – DAZZA- WHATEVER
    but not Darwin

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 9 January 2012 at 11:44 pm #

      I know that I have had some philosophical differences with the audience lately and over the years. But can somebody, someone, anyone…everyone, put that aside for the moment and offer up a little prayer. It doesn’t matter ur belief- even if u have none. I could use this rock of dirt- water- and air, be overwhelmed with positivevenergy directed towards me, my home- just this once. Please …im begging in kind.

      Me

      • avatar
        Cocoamo | 10 January 2012 at 1:10 pm #

        Will try and send you strength and relief.

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    Steven Krut | 10 January 2012 at 12:20 am #

    I hope your wars eventually reach an armistice. Such a drag, conflict. I wonder, though, if your creative edge would still be so very sharp if your life was a placid dream? Who knows. Anyway, I wish you well with all of your struggles. Perhaps what you need is tons and tons of money. Money doesn’t solve people’s problems, but it does enable them to hire someone else to deal with them. Ha-ha!

    My opinion of Life Somewhere Else keeps going up and up. I’m REALLY enjoying it. It’s a worthy follow-up to Izzy1, which I thought was sensational. Everything you do has that masterful touch. I’m not saying that as a gushing fan, but as an objective observer who has heard many thousands of artists and albums. You’re incredibly good at what you do.

    I’ve made a groovy new video for The Coffee Song. I love that song. It’s my first effort with my new video editing software:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6zs0YFSTAqI&feature=plcp&context=C332fbbeUDOEgsToPDskJ11W2Ohzl4OmfPoxGdf0S-

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      Steven Krut | 10 January 2012 at 11:13 am #

      Gee, I do sound like a gushing fan, don’t I? Ha-ha!

  5. avatar
    . | 10 January 2012 at 12:39 am #

    Have a good day even when it seems difficult.

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    andy | 10 January 2012 at 2:10 am #

    your contemporaries ran outta steam long ago kilbs…..
    long may you reign over ’em!

    flawless work on izzy 2 by the way……..

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    Boriah | 10 January 2012 at 2:45 am #

    “i want a quiet life i want to create”

    Yeah, that´s the key: a quiet life.

    “yeah bikinis and sunburn

    thats the place”

    And fuck yeah! That´s the place!!!

    Bring your binoculars next time you go to the beach, oh, and a six pack!!!

  8. avatar
    M E M | 10 January 2012 at 3:34 am #

    …On a day like this,
    A hundred lifetimes ago…

    your friend,
    M E M

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    evilren | 10 January 2012 at 3:48 am #

    A very poignant and close to the skin matter here Steve. It seems to take an undetermined level of forgiveness and acceptance to even try to build bridges with some people, they take it to the extreme and create these wars we do battle in. Self-reflection is always good, because it allows a person the chance to see if they have been fair. I guess you really do have to keep your enemies close, it gives you a strategic advantage, ya know, when in Rome. In time, through a long series of compromises, most on your part, the attrition will grind you out to an unstable powder of unknown desruction, or maybe, a new reality or understanding of what this life is about will be revelaed. One thing for certain, the gods do not want man to ever come close to having it all. Gerd(sic) thy loins.

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    JW | 10 January 2012 at 5:22 am #

    LOGIC is amazing yes and there’s so much below the surface under the hood. I think you’d dig the new updated REASON too. They work in tandem and I’ve been churning out some great soundtracky like stuff with the two combined. Go deep brother!

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    Anonymous | 10 January 2012 at 6:52 am #

    Isidore 2 is truly a delight…what is mad is the amount of material you released last year…

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    eekie | 10 January 2012 at 7:10 am #

    You’ve certainly had more than your fair share of stress and strife over the past couple of years. I hope it all resolves to a manageable level soon for you. Until then here’s a big virtual hug from eekie.

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    colette | 10 January 2012 at 8:40 am #

    That’s quite touching, it makes a kind of sense to me. But can people who are sort of similar to eachother in that way ever be friends in a worldly way? Intense I suspect. Intense and willfull… I don’t mean selfishness or ego. I mean as I think Beethoven said ‘It must be’. So also it must not be. ‘Friends’ or not ‘friends’? With poetry and music, does it really matter here? Although, you seem to think music superior. Do love your music, I submit to you there. Except that music makes me dance and that is not passive 🙂

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    hellbound heart | 10 January 2012 at 9:42 am #

    let me tell ya something sweetie, wouldn’t matter who you are, there’d be times when you’d hate being in the skin you’ve chosen…….if you were me you’d find lots of moments when it’d be a royal pain in the ass…….I think everybody here has elements of their lives that they’d rather change or not have there at all…..
    The Human Condition, am I right?
    Love always…..

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    mattyc | 10 January 2012 at 12:17 pm #

    Please write fast.

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    dragon breath | 10 January 2012 at 12:58 pm #

    some cool stuff here, really moving, a guide to rational selfish, survival, purity

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    Cocoamo | 10 January 2012 at 1:22 pm #

    I wish it were possible, when confronted with people giving you a hard time, just to politely excuse yourself and get up and leave. Of course, that is not always possible. We all need to be surrounded by those who love, support, amuse, and inspire us (who make your heart feel glad indeed). It truly is the difference between a happy life and hell on earth. What you say is so right. Life is very short.

    I’ve been reading “Power v.s. Force”, which has made it a bit easier to shrug off those who are behaving badly. I am skeptical of the muscle testing, however, (applied kiniesiology). Planning a double blind test on this and will let you all know how that goes.

    Your Friend in Pennsylvania
    (Now in Cocoa Beach)

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 10 January 2012 at 10:03 pm #

      Hey Coco…
      Very impressed, I am a huge Hawking’s fan…he just celebrated a birthday. He certainly has beaten the odds and awful hands of time. About P vs F, I took a simplier approach to much of the nonsense in that one. Comparabably from Genesis thru to the Mayans/Inca’s and down the evolutionary ladder…the observation of an altered state of awareness and consciousness …I (know only in my humble opinion) hypothesize the results of said observations to, mind altering drug use. In mother nature and man-made labotories , man/woman have been in search of the ‘ultimate high’ and the bliss achieved from it. As a witness to a willingful participant who injected and chased the dragon. My friend spiraled thru a series of conscious and unconscious behaviors. Another friend documented by microphone what we witnessed for the first 45-76(5 odd minutes and Jason (not his real name) was able to communicate with us when he knew we were there. He spoke in tongues and in an almost ‘furbish’ vocabulary. Sadly, we we’re unable to see his synapses. After thankfully he did not become ‘entranced’ by the drug and its possible future implications. He spoke of ‘out of body’ experiences and sequences in his current ,and possible future life, moving at warp speed. We, those who documented and witnesses his dable, were of sound mind and clean spirit. Whereas I can see part civilizations and individuals chalking up the experience than more than a ‘drug. reaction’. As humans, we so like to tell and spin a story- the media must be high all the frigging time. . I believe the ‘altered state’ is that what it is. An induced and recorded event of human-drug interaction. But, Hawking’s rocks, I read Brief History… the day it hit the bookshelves and have reread it many a time since. Such a brilliant man, I wrote him a letter years ago and he actually answered it…that wad very cool.

      AsAlways,
      Darrin K.

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        Cocoamo | 17 January 2012 at 1:23 pm #

        The test was crazy. I placed 10 substances in unmarked envelopes to be held over the solar plexis while doing the muscle test: Five life supporting (vitamin C, goggi berries, organic collards, a picture of Abraham Lincoln, and organic almonds) and five life destroying (weed killer, insect killer, artificial sweetner, picture of Hitler, and chlorine). There was no consistency in the testing. Mine in particular was so strange – I tested strong on the life destroying and weak on the supporting substances. I am quite disappointed, but question my methodology and have not given up yet. We tested about 10 people. This was very pure double blind.

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    Anonymous | 10 January 2012 at 2:58 pm #

    We it’s not all doom and gloom. Sounds like many positive things are coming out of the creative you , thats a winner to start with. Surely. (flicker of a grin there I can tell)
    Pertaining to the other issues they won’t just go way; Wishfull thinking. (return of the frown).
    Now for the equally good news.
    Quote: You must take personal responsibility you cannot change the circumstances, the season or the wind,but you can change yourself. That is something you have charge of.
    Jim Rohn

    In the midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you.
    Deepak Chopra.

    Take care Mr K and Family.

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    Anonymous | 10 January 2012 at 3:46 pm #

    to be creative
    not just in my work, my art
    but in all my life, relationships
    peripheral and close
    where it is easy to react
    shut down, dehumanise
    absorb the pressure
    be swallowed up by the psychic hooks of others
    but not easy to let go
    and to be creative

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      thetimebeing | 10 January 2012 at 5:28 pm #

      yes exactly…so may it be

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        Anonymous | 10 January 2012 at 7:53 pm #

        if it’s just a short note, the key must be there inside – that song always takes me. 1981 again…

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    Linjo | 10 January 2012 at 8:52 pm #

    Everyone is weird except me, myself and I! You are so not an aberration Steve! Imagine thinking to yourself that you have so much to create and death will get in the way! Lucky you mate, a life with purpose and legacy! way to go! xxx

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    Linjo | 10 January 2012 at 9:14 pm #

    ps Andy rocks! such a good guy xxxxxxxx

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    That Girl | 11 January 2012 at 8:13 am #

    Recognition of realities , might be on the right track here so to speak. Let the juices flow say I.

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    Stewart | 11 January 2012 at 11:07 am #

    It would be interesting if you could arrange a short cut for a later incarnation: a song or other work to be released globally at a later date, which would provide the ‘previously on…’ introduction to a next life. As you’ve explained, your writing suggests connections to the listener. It would be fascinating to see how many future persons thought you were writing for them and embraced a life as a later SK.

  24. Kraig
    Kraig | 11 January 2012 at 6:57 pm #

    Get er done you master baiter! Nothing better then someone who has a goal! At least you have a legacy in your family, kids, and music!

    Cheers from Saint Louie!
    Kraig

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    Once | 14 January 2012 at 12:23 pm #

    “i have so much yet to create and probably not so much time” – yeah, I’m feelin’ ya there.

    “everything else is a drain” – disagree! “Everything else” is a lark, an utter pleasure, when we are confident in our talents. “Everything else” is an opportunity to be greater than we thought we could be. “Everything else” is a way to give, and to be generous with the outside world.

    I love creating…but I love everything else, too!

    🙂


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