posted on September 19, 2010 at 11:02 pm

darkened doorstep

too undisciplined to write on a single subject

my mercurial mind roams its vaults

my encyclopaedic knowledge of rock

oh god i’d be a ph.d or something

a real professor of rock mythology and rocks credo

an understanding of rock at all levels

a deep appreciation for rocks innovations

an addiction to rocks many charms

this rock music takes us as a religion

could i have worshipped apollo more than i worshipped bolan?

these oracles spitting wondrous axioms of lyrical masterpieces

in its simple beauty

in its howling intensities

in our golden youth

the instruments called to many of us

and many fell by the wayside

and the lucky ones became masters

and travelled far and wide

we had strange adventures outside normal realms

we were laws unto ourselves

i wanted to make music you could see

i wanted to access your memories

this would be accomplished via certain combinations of

words n music natch

things would happen in such a way

i plotted a careful course into your heart

part trick part miracle

i am an honest fraud i am a sincere joker

i mean this meaningless stuff

i’m spelling it out for you

my own music is so damn elusive even i dont know what its intent is

its wrestling with an angel

its being the last man alive

its a lovely spring morning in arcadia

its rude afternoon in a plush hotel

its before and when its over

its in us all somewhere

yeah i’m in this recording studio

working on my fuckin’ album

as per usual

i’m anxious to get out for the night

but the engineer reckons i could sing such n such a line better

i’m in hollywood and i wanna get outta this place

n see what the boys are doing on this lovely night

donnette is in town i have a lot to do

still i’m stuck here

singing this song

i’m sick of singing it too

theres a guy here from a record company too

ive upset him somehow too

hes frowning at me through the glass

doesnt like the word peculiar in a song

too fucking bad me old fruit said i

i mean c’mon

why doesnt he write his own freakin’ lyrics then?

the engineer is an english guy with a big mop of red hair

hes very tanned n freckly too

hes always dressed in denim

he was once in an english band who had a hit

he was a very very cool guy

he called me kilbey

c’mon kilbey he said in his mock cockney accent

nah that’ll fucking do man i groaned

i felt guilty trying to skive off

my throats sore


i wanted to see donnette thayer

she was a very lively person

she made me laugh

she was a gorgeous woman too

she was the epitome of cool

hollywood was out there under hazy lights

man the stuff happening out there all around

i wanted to get out n ride down the long freeways

i wanted to get out n hit a veg cafe

my throat really is sore i was insisting

i cough up blood i said

this was true i had coughed up some blood

a tiny little bit after a plane ride

fuck i didnt wanna sing anymore

the assistant was a girl tonight

she came up n said she liked my song

she offered me a suggestion which i amazingly adopted

she wasnt pretty but she was very charming

she knew a lot about music too

she drove a t-bird as well

we went to a party in silverlake

i met a drummer from a heavy metal band

there were naked girls in  a swimming pool

i used the phone in a bedroom to call someone in australia

i saw people freebasing cocaine for the first time

someone commented on my sydney tatty appearance

i commented on his stupid get up

he wanted to fight me

no way!

ruin my pretty face not likely

the assistant hurried me out of this bullys presence

people on all kinds of stuff

a lot of booze too

yeah i dunno

fascinated n appalled

the song still isnt right neither

i gotta go back n sing it again tomorrow

but its the hollywood nights

isnt it?

how can ya resist it?

easy mate


20 Responses to “music you can see”

  1. avatar
    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 20 September 2010 at 12:15 am #

    What was the song that they wanted u to sing to their likeing? I know…i know…i should look it up in NCA, but my 19yr old son Alex has it now and friggin loves it. o crap – i know what song “peculiar” its from = UTMA. Sorry- do i get a D+ in rock history from the esteemed professor? Love the tales of L.A – the city of Angels and Devils. When i picture L.A, i can only see Lord Jim stumbling done Hollywood Bvd., drunk, noticing things that no one can see, will see, would ever see.

    Enjoy Today !!!
    Darrin K.

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    knot | 20 September 2010 at 2:43 am #

    i saw you in la once
    you were frowning

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    evilren | 20 September 2010 at 2:54 am #

    way to be Kilbey.

  4. avatar
    Bret Helm | 20 September 2010 at 3:40 am #

    Well said, Steve. Loved reading this one. – Bret

  5. avatar
    Once | 20 September 2010 at 3:59 am #

    Ok, now I’m actually laughing even leaving a comment…cuz this one is even better than yesterday’s and I thought that was the best thing I’d read so what’s this? The new best thing I’ve read?

    Yeah, Donnette Thayer’s voice – I have 2 old Hex CD’s, love ’em.

    Lived in L.A. for a couple years in the mid 90’s. Got married there, in a glass church on a cliff overlooking the ocean. Perfect? Not enough, I guess, only lasted 6 years. We’re still friends. Where’s this coming from? I’m off track.

    Anyway, thanks once again for these words I can feel, another journey shared.


  6. avatar
    Steven Krut | 20 September 2010 at 4:33 am #

    I’m loving these glimpses into your past. Very cool and interesting.

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    c escher | 20 September 2010 at 4:43 am #

    Ms. Thayer a very fine singer, and a good guitarist in her own way too I guess.
    Those Hex records are still desert island fare. God they are so rich–the ear easily
    hears past the limited (16 track?) production. There’s such a wealth of music and
    singing, I suppose all us Hex fans wish there were more than the two.
    You’ve always been a master collaborator.

  8. avatar
    Jonny Hollywood | 20 September 2010 at 5:06 am #

    oh how we will never forget those hollwood nights, resistance is futile…

    • avatar
      Jonny Hollywood | 20 September 2010 at 5:15 am #

      oh those hollywood nights, calgon take me away…

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    Stephen | 20 September 2010 at 7:01 am #

    Been interesting to see you mentioning songs/lyrics from early years in recent blogs; songs that I’m not aware of having much (if any) live outings (Youth Worshipper, Disappear, It doesn’t change, Autumn soon)

    Autumn Soon always reminds me of Strawberry Switchblade’s ‘Since Yesterday'(??). There’s a ‘sound’ both songs use

    Also, and I’m just gonna say this cos I’m having a glass and if I don’t say it now I never will, the piano motif from ‘Electric’ on Seance always reminds me of a bloody Elton John song!

  10. avatar
    hippy | 20 September 2010 at 9:30 am #

    Besides the obvious, what were the best bands of the 1980’s? Besides the Church, who should’ve been huge?

    • avatar
      Steven Krut | 20 September 2010 at 12:36 pm #

      Oh, that’s a fun game. I always thought the dBs deserved a much larger audience.

    • avatar
      Stephen | 20 September 2010 at 3:45 pm #

      The Chameleons

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 20 September 2010 at 11:10 pm #

      Jesus Jones !!!! Yes they had one radio hit but their catalog is excellent and their live performances were very powerful. Many new bands today have copied that sound that was their tru creation.

      Darrin K.

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    Donna | 20 September 2010 at 1:24 pm #

    Hollywood or LA…like you wrote, sounds fascinating and appalling. I don’t know why, but when I read today’s blog I thought of Thomas Dolby’s song Screen Kiss – because of the Hollywood Hills. I haven’t thought of or heard that song in ages – which I’m glad of because that song totally depresses me. It seems tragic that artists, musicians and actors who set out to make it big so often find themselves navigating through this mess of drinking, drugs, sex…

    • avatar
      Jonny Hollywood | 20 September 2010 at 4:32 pm #

      lost in the hollywood hills, that’s life in laralay, hey hey…

  12. avatar
    cazziem | 20 September 2010 at 2:56 pm #

    “i wanted to make music you could see
    i wanted to access your memories”

    You’ve certainly accomplished that as far as I am concerned. In fact I’m almost positive it could work the other way around too if you were given a memory and vision of interest to work on??

  13. Kraig
    Kraig | 20 September 2010 at 4:15 pm #

    Hey Steve, I finally got that “Lonely City” painting back and framed and everything! It’s more than AWESOME! It’s “Music You Can See”, Definately!!!!! I tried taking pictures, but pictures do not justify the piece in person! Especially with the frame, colors, uv protection, purplish/pink/blue hazy uv protected reflection, room placement, etc. It sure is a GEM and I will enjoy it forever bro! Thanks Man! I’ll still send picts but again, no justification!

    P.S. For some reason I cannot log-in to your latest post but can for every other post?

  14. avatar
    hellbound heart | 20 September 2010 at 7:49 pm #

    fame ain’t all it’s cracked up to be, ay?

    love always…..

  15. avatar
    andy | 22 September 2010 at 8:19 am #

    old loves are featuring heavily of late killer……
    just an observation………

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