posted on September 1, 2017 at 10:07 pm

same old same old again

yeah my big fat fucking doco

youve heard me

youve read me

you looked at my paintings

now watch my one n a half hour doco for the complete SK fix you know youre craving

me me me me me me sigh yawn me

me swimming

me playing my bass

me blah blah blahing on and on

boy after three fucking screenings i so sick of you kilbey

its a funny film

ha ha ha

look if you love your olde SK as you do

you probably gonna love it

after everything

now this…

it turns out

im just a regular guy after all who happens to be a bit of a “genius”

(chuggys words not mine)

just a regular guy who plays a mean fender jazz and sings like a broken lark

just another  regular angular looking idiot who wrote yer fave song (or whatever)

age still not wearying me

i hop about like st vitus dance

motor mouthing at a hundred miles an hour

narcissus yet humbly stupid and turning arrogance into your bemusement

the jumped up little sod getting his comeuppance and now the bastards come good

hes a regular old guy who chucked together some words and music and created empires in a few peoples heads

god the ones who love me they dont ‘alf fucking love me

and the ones who hate me do so with their fiercely passion

but most people dont care

and if i was them i probably wouldnt care either

a doco thats a populist thing right?

heres the populist me

look i got an arc

i go from one thing to another

does that really happen?

who am i and who are you anyway?

who are we and why are we watching this doco about this geezer for gawds sake..?

there he is up on stage

oh he hes kinda uh self deprecating in a smarmy way which actually implies self admiration

hes got his head in his hands oh its all too much for the god father of psychedic mark 2

weary jaded tired bored talkative gushing animated blah blah blah

oh i bet you cant wait to see it now

theres some great slowed down live stuff

theres some nice recontextualisations of martin kennedys lovely mountain video

theres both sets of my twins

the first set from a distance

the second set up close n personal but already grown up so much from this 2 year old footage

we visit my olde mum who has never remembered the name of one of my songs ever

let alone the words or anything

she just is immune to my charms she always was

i say to her  ‘you like your grand daughters more than me’

she says ‘oh dont be silly son’ and then bursts into laughter because she does

meet Karin the mother of Elektra and Miranda

and co writer of utmw

as usual she has some pithy things to say in her lovely swedish way

haugie shows us some guitar playin’

tim says some cheeky stuff

standing in my old backyard in coogee i opine on myself yet again

i roll joints and i smoke em

i complain and i rave on

im silent and withdrawn having a little bitch about something

heres a real me

the talking song

the throb of my bass between your ribcage and your heart

the incessantly flowing words as i write now talking about

watching myself talking about myself

how i was

how i am now

how i will be

if this sounds appealing then this doco is the one for you my friend

enough SK to have you hit the vomitorium on the way out if youre not careful

ah redemption

fuck i look so fucking tired in this movie

somebody please help

im trapped inside this doco

and i need a fuckin’ holiday





34 Responses to “my big fat doco”

  1. etta
    etta | 1 September 2017 at 10:24 pm #

    Elderflowers have pith!

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    Thomas Thomsen | 2 September 2017 at 12:04 am #

    I fuckin’ love ya, you crazy, frustrating genius!

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    Hawthorne | 2 September 2017 at 11:20 am #

    Well, if there’s going to be a docu about someone – and there is – it might as well be about you, right? Everybody’s life becomes a story, but some stories are more interesting than others. You’ve got to admit your story is turning out pretty fucking great. All those plot twists and changes of scenery. Adventure, misadventure, triumph, tragedy. Narrow escapes from the brink of disaster, into the lion’s den and back again. And everybody’s favorite narrative device – the redemptive third act. All played out to an incredibly fantastic soundtrack. You’ve got it all, you’ve done it all. It’s your story the docu is really about. And as stories go, it’s damn incredible.

    Plus, you actually ARE a genius.

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    kell | 2 September 2017 at 3:19 pm #

    No ~ not ‘trapped’ in some documentary. That documentary is just one ‘take’ on things, it’s not the definitive truth. It’s not like you steered the story ~ or if so, which You steered it? Maybe for the purpose of the next stage of ego annihilation….. which you know is needed. Yes, we all love our egos, but are they that good at steering the ship? Nuh ~ Spirit is the true captain. For every single ship. Your Spirit is more than the mind that spits out this stuff. Your Spirit totally IS. It knows, & it wants you to express IT even more, through every avenue, every outpouring. And it wants you to be free. Free of other peoples’ perceptions, free of your own manifestations, free enough to be filled up with what really matters ~ the Light/Love of your own true Spirit & Source Connection. Re the doco ~ It could’ve been done in a million different ways. You’ve lived a lot of experiences since then….maybe things have changed & you’ve changed in that time? If you feel into it….so choose your own timeline & don’t watch the bloody thing anymore (you don’t have to, you know?) Focus on the “what’s happened since then”, because that’s where things are at, right? Experiences need to be digested, integrated & considered for meaning. All experiences have meaning, if you but reflect, which,indeed, you do xxx. End of sermon, now someone pls hand me my priest’s collar, lol!

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    Wayno | 2 September 2017 at 8:11 pm #

    “and i need a fuckin’ holiday” How’s abouts a one month package tour of USA?

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    r.richiec | 4 September 2017 at 7:38 pm #

    When,where and how can I see this said doco?

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    Alyona | 5 September 2017 at 12:59 pm #

    oh it’s a must
    of course and thank you sir
    we want your joy, your pain, your blunders
    your magical self as is
    for reasons we can’t quite figure out other than
    we’re your hostages

  8. etta
    etta | 8 September 2017 at 7:37 am #

    Dolce doco

  9. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 9 September 2017 at 1:15 pm #

    The seagull laughed. The words flew right out and away. I was for a moment ghost. I had been here in some sort of lunar hologram. It’s a laughing sort of felicitational hologram. The moon I mean. Poems have been written of it. But I’ve only grown wearier with every last wuthering letter of their pens. As you will they continue to write. I looked up plates academy. Their website said they’ve been closed down I mean out of business for 2500 years. You see my luck right there. Just when I found what I wanted to be when I grew up. Turns out nobody else teaches the Socratic method either. So I took another path. I found men with hats oblong and according to a blasphemous aesthetic. They said this is the 1800s my friend. I wasn’t even amiable when the alpine cap and drone of 21st century automobiles wished pass. Yes the freedom of geometry has most certainly been lost. I go on reading gutenburgs bible arranged by Arthur Rimbaud inside of a yellowed scroll. And I kept it for awhile. Til tomorrow when the ghost has left me I will love forever. I don’t doubt for the words have only become music. Yea. Unintelligible! They exclaim. I pour my last drink to them. The ingredients are simple. 1. Jubilance 2. 2 teaspoons of felicity and a pinch of random disappearance. That’s my only trick into the hollow. My last pack of lies before the sun dies. And before the sad thing cries. I painted music on their half smiles and placed worlds between their miles. It’s been enough for me anyhow. The Roman alphabet now only has 7 letters and they’re no longer Roman.

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    ninigretboston2017 | 13 September 2017 at 3:46 am #

    I thought the trailer for the film looked pretty cool!

    Looking forward to seeing The Church at the Natick, Massachusetts show. Caught you in Pawling, NY earlier in the summer and you guys sounded great! Looking forward to the new album as well……

    “Software sings and hardware hears
    We’re destined babe to live these years”

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    Therese | 13 September 2017 at 12:14 pm #

    Happy Birthday to the very special sk.

    U must have wished for summer to come early, the sun god granted your wish and is smiling down on you.

    Great news about the doco, where and when will it be shown, should be in a cinema if its good enough for Spandau Ballet it’s good enough for SK.

    I hope one of my wishes comes true, to c The Church or your good self do a Sydney gig, way too long since I’ve seen either.

    Enjoy your special day, take it easy and let everyone spoil you.
    Sending lots of happy relaxing vibes to you.

    Peace & love

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    Lady Di | 13 September 2017 at 2:17 pm #

    Happy Birthday SK!

    Hope you are having a lovely day today. Nice day for a swim, but be careful in those rough seas.
    Looking forward to all the new projects, you’ve been very busy.

    Love and very best wishes

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    kell | 13 September 2017 at 2:33 pm #

    Hey Sk ~ You don’t have to publish my comment, ok? (Have been meaning to say this ~ in fact, I’d prefer you didn’t, it’s not really suitable for your bloggy bloggy). As long as u read it, is all that matters. Cheers! K

  14. avatar
    davem | 13 September 2017 at 3:59 pm #

    Happy Birthday SK.
    We miss you over here

  15. avatar
    andy | 13 September 2017 at 9:33 pm #

    have a brillo birthday bash steve.
    I suppose i’m on the cutting room floor doco-wise!
    much love to ya super guru.

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    M E M | 14 September 2017 at 8:30 am #


    every day a miricle

    a world within a world

    the Integrity of Magical Universe

    there are only choices

    and resulting expereince

    first and formost, without hesitation

    I have known you and ur loyality are pledged to that universe

    and that universe, alone

    it’s truth

    your firery mouth opens

    and oceans boil as do I in my own expectations

    yet i sit without waiting

    as the audience you play is the future

    take now every ounce

    the strength denied you is ur yours…

    such beutiful strenght…


    I know your mind

    Pitty god please hide me

    the fire rises up

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    The Puzzled Traveler | 14 September 2017 at 1:11 pm #

    Happy birthday Steven. I’ll have to have a look at the documentary. Again, thanks for the soundtrack of my life.

  18. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 14 September 2017 at 1:26 pm #

    I was doing an uber drive playing the Church! Reptile…. Always a beaut! The passenger said so. Learning the Spanish bagpipes- gaite gallega. Getting good on the chanter. Can’t wait til I get the low drone goin….. A duo so far along w/ the rickenbacker fireglo 660/12 string thru korg Pandora px-4. Compressor. Jacked up. Chorus too. Dreams…. Dry deserts. Trees in a studio fills my head with light. Is that it? Never good w/ lyrics. Nor percussion. Just pitches. I studied solfege as a religion in college. I loved the Kilbey vocal lines. “Do-do-do-do-do-la-do”. There’s no formula for beauty It just is I suppose. But the memory’s like cloud try so hard but they never can be caught. Is there no truth in beauty? Ehh

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    Cocoamo | 18 September 2017 at 2:13 am #

    If Socrates is right (“The unexamined life is not worth living”), your life is quite worth living, eh?

    What does any of it mean? I’m no closer to figuring it out, but can tell you one thing, the descent from a person who could relieve people of their pain and help them stay pain free in to a person who is the human equivalent of used toilet paper is rather depressing. Yes, I will shortly be 70; sigh. Yee gads. I see videos of the elderly being carried out of their nursing home in Florida, and think, what? 10 years, 15 years? So don’t complain about turning 63. (I know, you didn’t; I’m being proactive).

    So, if your introspection reveals any answers, please do enlighten us. Maybe there will be some gems in the doco?

    I know we survivors should be relishing our good luck. Hey, two years ago, my 63-year-old brother, who was supposed to be in perfect health, just died, just like that. (Don’t get any ideas). If I were a bit more spiritually connected…but you can’t fake that. Sorry, I get a bit cranky around birthday time. Yeech.

    Now feeling undignified and ungrateful. I should say once again, and I can’t say it enough, how truly grateful I am for the richness you and your cronies have added to my life with your magical music. Your ethics, kindness, generosity of spirit, talent, humor, and wisdom are just icing on the cake. So again, I thank you (and thank The Church for me, please).

    Hope the doco will be available soon – certainly worth risking the vomitorium for a few words of wisdom. And let’s face it, your life has certainly been interesting, not to mention the incredibly legacy you have created. Can’t wait.

    Your Fried in Pennsylvania

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    Ingrid | 18 September 2017 at 12:14 pm #

    Your Mum sounds a bit like mine

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    Bec | 6 October 2017 at 11:00 am #

    I hear you about your mum liking your kids better than you….I think I have the same conundrum with my mum….I’m pretty sure that mum thinks my daughter is the best thing that’s ever happened to her. Bah, humbug!!

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    Michel | 9 October 2017 at 7:40 am #

    Thanks a lot (once again) for the new album.
    Very very nice suprise.
    I am happy to be a fan for nearly three decades now.
    You and The Church have really changed my life (in a way you cannot imagine) and I will always be thankful for that.
    P.S. : in french, “From King Knife” makes even more sense : knife is masculine (un couteau) while spoon is female (une cuillere). My favourite from The Church 2017, sweetest nectar to be enjoyed without moderation !

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    Lady Di | 1 November 2017 at 2:13 pm #

    SK you did a great job on Classic Countdown. Beautifully narrated in your best actor voice and the little touches of SK humour made me laugh. Then there was this new young band called the church who obviously had a very bright future. Look how far you’ve come since then. I can’t wait for December, it’s been too long. I’ve missed you.

    Love Di

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    theresejehow | 4 November 2017 at 1:36 pm #

    Hi sk,
    Congrats on a stellar hosting job on Countdown.
    What a musical trip down memory lane.
    Unguarded Moment was, is and always will be one of my fave Church songs,
    got me up dancing.
    You’re like a fine wine just keep getting better.

    Peace & love

  25. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 7 November 2017 at 2:06 pm #

    Man Kilbey happy bday. Spending the night drinking a brew. Listening to the slow crack. That’s my fav. Yea sold the ric 12-string. Bought a guitar to do flamenco. Honestly age 30. I just don’t give a darn besides the muses and music. Who honestly cares about cars and buildings. Fuck them. I had a distant relative who just got real drunk by the river on a winter night and by morning he literally was s ghost. I wouldn’t mind that. No not at all. Tired of this planet. Being alive what’s the darn point. Oh work hard for a pointless future in a pointless world. Bloodless way to go for. Pain free too. Drink a bunch take some substance and pass out by a river in 5 below. Hopefully never to wake up. That’s all I really see for me. Kevyn

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    Cocoamo | 13 November 2017 at 1:16 pm #

    Missing your wit and wisdom and hoping you are okay and just taking the much-needed holiday…

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    Lady Di | 10 December 2017 at 12:59 pm #

    Rock n Roll=the church.
    What a show last night! You saved the best till last, lucky Sydney. So much energy, you all gave 100% plus more. SK you sure had all the moves and even Timbo ejected from his drummer’s seat and joined party central at the end. You were on fire and the crowd loved it.
    SK you looked so handsome all dressed up, I wanted to take you to the prom!
    Thank you for a magical night, definitely one to remember. I’m still on a high as I type away, while Another Century plays in the background.

    Love from a devoted fan

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    Therese | 12 December 2017 at 3:11 pm #

    What a nite Sat was, would love to see the band again this Sat.
    U were on fire and the good vibes were with each band member.
    One of the best gigs for sure.
    U and the guys gave it your all, the fans could not have asked for anything better
    and the crowd young to old grooved to every song as though it was the first time seeing the band.
    Thank u so very much for your hard work, u looked incredibly fit and healthy and
    hope u enjoyed it as much as I did.
    Played the new cd again on Sun & still can’t pick the standout songs, love them all but

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    Therese | 12 December 2017 at 3:15 pm #

    Another Century is definitely one of the faves.
    Hope u put your feet up now and rest and relax, think it’s well overdue.
    Take care.

    Peace & love

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    Ingrid | 20 December 2017 at 11:13 am #

    Be good to see this, any more screenings?

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    Lady Di | 21 December 2017 at 1:53 pm #

    Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year SK to you and the girls. Hope it’s a good one.

    Love Di

  32. avatar | 22 December 2017 at 8:54 am #

    On a side note, one of the writers top Prog rock albums of 2017 gave Glow and Fade a nod as one of the top prog albums of the year. I agree….


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    Therese | 23 December 2017 at 3:20 pm #

    Bah Humbug to u sk,

    Wishing u all the very best karma and lots of happiness
    for Christmas.
    Hope the man in the red suit brings u lots of
    Have a relaxing, safe and enjoyable Christmas with the family.
    Peace & love

  34. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 26 December 2017 at 2:37 pm #

    Ripples. The sugary ice icing out there. The menthol in the howls of wind “now we have peace” oh wait another passerby says “there is never peace”. Oh wait “peace be with you”. I then step up to the podium and ask if I can have a piece of the Christmas cake. Either the Queen of Sheba or Marie A then proliferates to me about how I certainly may keep my peace and eat it too. I gobble the thing down with the colony of seagulls that haunt me. Love me know me. To them peace is some random humanoid sound rather indiscernible really from cake or pace or pass I’m starting to think the same For as for the sake of jubilance let the dictionary be the king of hearts and as for anything else let the tide tonight relinquish its madnesses. Gladnesses. Sadnesses. “For cosmos tho I once conquered you, only know shall I surrender to your starry portrait”

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