posted on April 8, 2008 at 8:39 pm

things have changed
things remain the same
my friend in hospital slowly going under
we visit him n cry n cry
i play him some songs on my 12
afterwards an old sick geezer in the next room
sees me standing in the corridor tryin’ to stop my bawling
a real old aussie geezer on deaths doorstep
hey he says
was that you playin’ n singin’…?
yeah i say
there ya go he says to his daughter helping him along
she said it was the radio but i said no no
thats comin’ straight outta here..
he indicates his heart
that music was byootiful he said
and he shuffled off
his praise meant more than a wilderness of rock festivals
then a doctor an old serious doc comes up
hes frowning a little
im half expecting a
“please respect the patients quiet times!”
but no
thanks for the music he says
and a gentle sad smile
god he has seen so much suffering
well if you need to get things in perspective….
and i do
always
i gotta keep reminding myself we are on a round rock
orbitting a big fire
and no one really knows how or why
here in my spare room
on a rainy morning every thing seems so permanent
aurora gets up
a big sleepy kiss and a grin
my doodles with the delightful habit of kissing their daddy much
oh youre lovely kids i say
i bury my nose in their hair and breathe in their warm young aroma
i hold them in my arms..
goddamm it all seems solid enough….!
ah yesterday was hard going
nelg the camera elf was round to film some more of gets toned and pain(t)
but instead of my usual ebullient motor mouth self
there i sit holding an eraser staring dumbly at a commission portrait
doing n saying nothing
i struggle on for twenny minutes
but finally i tell nelg to wrap it up for the day
hey maybe its good to see me have a bad day i say
yeah…says nelg somewhat doubtfully
im listening to bits of new church album
some sad
some rockin’
some very pretty
some quite oblique
some absolute genius
some mistakes to fix up
“we’ll fix that” says my voice after some blue notes somewhere
it makes me smile to hear it
i say those same words in my mind in synch with recorded voice
always at the same time
so….
in front of you :
1 the wild sweet hit of painkiller
space rock pomp rock psychy-fuckin’-delic rock
they may wanna ban this record in malaysia
such is the contact high oozing out of its grooves
you like wolfe live?
wait till you hear it with drums n orch
you like delicate achey ballads…try crystalline rush
you like e-like feeling… try look homeward angel
you like pounding drums and radiotronics…its all over it
some of you will like painkiller more than anything you ever heard

2kilbey n kennedy presents….something as yet untitled
you know it
this is the beautiful stuff
the simple stuff
the universal stuff
the blips and talking trumpets…
the space around the notes….
the easy on the ears stuff
the melodic stuff
the real real songs stuff
the poignant stuff
the subtle n sexy stuff
the romantic stuff
this one you will play over n over
you’ll never get sick of it

3 shriek soundtrack
ooh strange stuff dark stuff
fevered music
whispery scrawly medieval bluesy
half songs
evil basslines
snakey guitars
tribesmen chanting
opera singers and mellotrons
too much in some places
a total aural trip
dig it or
you suck!
(just jokin’)

4. coffee hounds ep
wow
a cool thing it is
the coffee song submarine n floydy
hounds o love fast n furious
instrumental ….very stoned

5 the church album
hmmm
marty said its strange in a good way
so i’ll leave it at that

well its a rainy day n a bit cold
i got my synthetic ugg boots on
a nice day to be in the sauna anyway
and swimming in the rain too…
bye

44 Responses to “my crow wave”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 8 April 2008 at 9:57 pm #

    lovely – you’ve changed the way you write recently – good before, good now but different too. who cares why this rock orbits that fire – you said it straight away anyway, the kids are what give comfort and meaning – i wouldn’t swap understanding it all for all that i’ve shared with my boy.

  2. avatar
    craig1.618 | 8 April 2008 at 10:11 pm #

    thanks for the insight

    thanks for the updates on the new material

    i also find myself stating the very same thing alot…….”it all seems solid enough”

    but in reality….well….nevermind forget reality

    sometimes it’s hard to believe we chose all this

    or

    was it chosen for us

    at any rate…….peace brother

  3. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 8 April 2008 at 10:28 pm #

    thanks for all the projects update, sweet sweet music…
    Jonny Moondog

  4. avatar
    the dean | 8 April 2008 at 10:43 pm #

    sad reality burns and you see kindness in people,reflected in our shared fate.

    does the church album have a title yet?

  5. avatar
    linjo | 8 April 2008 at 11:08 pm #

    You are such a sensitve emotional man Steve, suppose thats whats makes for an artistic type. I’ve only cried a little over my own mum’s still impending death, too busy stressing out over the whole situation. Its when I hear of other peoples situations that the floodgates open, funny that. Lots of loving seems to be making your world go round. Happy days! Linda x

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 8 April 2008 at 11:24 pm #

    you seem well balanced these days yeblik, those kids keep ya goin, don’t they? -miracles in capcilated-
    good words and good music. I heard mwp is coming stateside soon, hope you do too..
    ^jax

  7. avatar
    princey | 9 April 2008 at 12:02 am #

    What a lovely thing to do for your friend sk, you’re such a kind & beautiful human bean (although you deny it sometimes). I think you don’t realise how much your voice and music soothes the soul sk 🙂
    Love Amanda

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 April 2008 at 12:17 am #

    I second the remark from princey, SK. You have the soothing gift, although I know sometimes it’s hard to realize that.

    Great – so when is all that stuff coming out? I want to line you guys’ pockets with $.

  9. avatar
    Daberhasher | 9 April 2008 at 12:33 am #

    from all the way down to all the way up in just one blog… amazing…
    you are giving your friend something straight from the heart, PURE LOVE…
    not much else matters really…
    BLESS YOU MAN!!!

    so looking forward to the release of all that musical manna…

    and yes, i do believe seeing an “sk bad day” in the get stoned and paint video will be a good thing… creation takes all kinds of days, doesn’t it…

    much love,

    erik

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 April 2008 at 12:57 am #

    SK

    The Projects update — yeah baby i’m hyped

    DR

  11. avatar
    syrinx | 9 April 2008 at 1:33 am #

    “strange in a good way” is close to THE most enticing advance notice for anything. Sums up *most* of my favorite things. I’m grinning and nodding my head as I type. Seems there’s going to be an embarrassment of riches for all of us soon.

    My heart goes out to you and your friend. Sweet serenades are good medicine. You do him well.

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 April 2008 at 3:40 am #

    the sound of my heart breaking,drowns out the words it truly wants to be heard

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 April 2008 at 4:06 am #

    Killer,

    I am in love with your writing…and I can’t tell you how excited I am about the list of impending releases…but one thing is missing…

    f u c k i n g W H E N ???

    Dates man, labels, come on, give us the dirt…we are pathetic, salivating jackals and we want to buy!!!!!

    Love you man!
    Olde Amps
    x

  14. avatar
    Melby Symon | 9 April 2008 at 4:34 am #

    Peter Gabriel’s song “Grieve” is touching song about life going on and on and on after life has gone. Haunting song…sad..but full of hope at the same time.

    I just don’t understand things like this…makes no sense at all. People being taken too early…so much life left to live…so much left for them to give…so much left for them to feel and cherish.

    I’m glad your music and songs gave some peace and hope to the doctor and the old man.

    Life goes on and on and on…thanks for update on all your very special projects SK

  15. avatar
    ...being here, doing this... | 9 April 2008 at 4:40 am #

    “i play him some songs on my 12
    afterwards an old sick geezer in the next room
    sees me standing in the corridor tryin’ to stop my bawling
    a real old aussie geezer on deaths doorstep
    hey he says
    was that you playin’ n singin’…?
    yeah i say
    there ya go he says to his daughter helping him along
    she said it was the radio but i said no no
    thats comin’ straight outta here..
    he indicates his heart”

    now that’s what I call integrity!

    complete, undivided

    connection

    .

  16. avatar
    B Raine | 9 April 2008 at 5:02 am #

    str8 with the members. Im in a posistion That My brother/lifetime freind —I need to get to HIM. If I cant get to him and he does what will happen…For my own grasp at sympathy and understanding. every day his chance of od’ing or JAIL worsens…id sign my 5K car over If someone could talk to me and please know he is My Brother Last time i saw him he went for a soda 5 years ago….Im dealling with not beeing at work…I know I can get himout…No interest in that neg…str8 out a plain ticket boston to SF we can work it out….I have lofyt in Maine,,,,I am asking Not everyone but someone that has lost a friend ….My freind is a poet and a book layout designer, Teacher….I cant Go …this is real im asking for help …. I can prove no illicit drug use…..2 weeks to sfo bos….I may need 1k …..which you could do whatever sec measure…
    anonymous” 335 forest ave portland me
    pls be anonymous a guy who lost his only friend and I need to show him ill travel 3k miled to save his life….this isnt a morbid plea ….I know I have and its poissible and pls have faith I ask as Im on ssdi never ….Pls help august/me rejoin

  17. avatar
    B Raine | 9 April 2008 at 5:15 am #

    God This Moon is strong I am one human and If his is in ur heart ligit, or u know…my blog has donation…….I have met the kindest humans
    and trusting……..I need to go

    asap…..willing to sign a title

    for my mental sanity however
    pls im not petty
    just a sick frind who I have to try
    however////////ticket on a train
    not looking to do anything but ask 4 luck –n trust fronted to me …..august bleed……..pls call if you wanna or donate to my paypal—–annyonw have unused flyer milel my apologies for behaving desperate I need to see him so he knows im here and alive so f ing emotional

  18. avatar
    B Raine | 9 April 2008 at 5:18 am #

    too many have gone hes my brother Ill stop at nothing……..I wont ask steve

    thats assuming and rude…..direct deposit woud assure money reimbursemeny

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 April 2008 at 5:21 am #

    Steve, nothing I can say to ease the pain of seeing a loved one slip away but I have to say: you are a strong and good man to overcome your grief and stand at their side giving them comfort at a painful, and probably scarey, time for them. Best wishes to all.

  20. avatar
    B Raine | 9 April 2008 at 5:31 am #

    k im real however i need to prove whatever i get direct dont want any thing only a loan that one person could see my thing my freinds are all over and ive met trusting and not assuming the worst look who i am 4 christ sake

  21. avatar
    B Raine | 9 April 2008 at 5:34 am #

    my apologies thats way asking more than annyone can just believe..pls im trapped my apolo

  22. avatar
    daydreamer | 9 April 2008 at 5:42 am #

    God bless you, Steve. Or Krishna. Whatever. You get the point.

    love,
    Sandy

    btw where did you get synthetic Ugg boots?

  23. avatar
    davem | 9 April 2008 at 6:20 am #

    6 We’re all going to be skint!!

    So sorry about your friend. So sorry.

    The SK output will be fab, we know. I’m really looking forward to Painkiller and the ep. No doubts it’ll be some time yet before we hear the chrunchies album so I’m not going to get to excited about that…..yet!
    xx

  24. avatar
    i know nothing of zees footwear | 9 April 2008 at 7:39 am #

    It all sounds wonderful – you talk up a forthcoming attraction like no-one else. Just one thing though – what in the Christing Hell are ugg boots?!

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 April 2008 at 8:04 am #

    “this one you will play over n over
    you’ll never get sick of it”

    This applies to all your stuff. That’s why we’re here after 28 years

  26. avatar
    fantasticandy | 9 April 2008 at 8:11 am #

    hell,
    i love my girls so much too.
    seeing a friend slowly ebb away like that is painful beyond measure.
    such a lot of new work,
    your tenacity is amazing….
    so much yet to do…so little time left in which to do it….
    i can’t write anymore…
    luv ya,
    andy.

  27. avatar
    captain mission | 9 April 2008 at 8:23 am #

    i am so sorry about your friend, really sorry, what a gift you give to him, your heart, what a gift you give to us all, your art.
    love man, its where it’s at.

  28. avatar
    veleska1970 | 9 April 2008 at 9:16 am #

    can’t wait for the new album. “strange in a good way”….i can only imagine!!

    i was thinking about your friend yesterday and wondering how he was doing. you are so sweet to sing to him. he hears you. bless you, steve.

    lotza love…..

  29. avatar
    Celticat | 9 April 2008 at 10:47 am #

    Hi Steve,

    That was sooo good.

    Thank you mate

    Love
    Celticat

  30. avatar
    melissa | 9 April 2008 at 11:13 am #

    Bless your heart SK, you’re a beautiful soul! I know for me, I find it very difficult at times to work in my job (caring for the elderly) but if you can put a smile on someones face or give someone some comfort, then it makes my day better too.

    On a more positive note, all the new music sounds brilliant, so excited about it all!

    Take care and love & peace to you and your friend

    xx

  31. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 9 April 2008 at 11:19 am #

    experiencing the slow death of someone you care deeply about tears at you in a really harsh way and makes you wonder why you fill up your life with so much crap when what you should be doing is dealing with the people and things that really matter…don’t ask me, i wish i had more time for things that really mattered to me…
    as for you upcoming goodies
    W H E N ? ? ? ? ? ?
    THROUGH WHICH RECORD COMPANIES ? ? ? ? ? ?
    for god’s sake, steve, give me a break and give me some goddam info!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    love always…

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 April 2008 at 12:09 pm #

    My 95 y.o. grannie fought so- she was courageous and brave to not give up through all the pain. Suddenly, a doc said something horrifying to her. She said ‘stop everything’ and died a day later. It still strikes me as huge, to say ‘I want to die now’. :((

    OK, yes it’s sad. How is your friends’ attitude?

    Art

  33. avatar
    matthew | 9 April 2008 at 12:41 pm #

    In this order:
    -Very moving about your sick friend, I’m glad you could release some love into that place!
    -You have a Spare Oom?
    -All those impending records so keenly anticipated… can’t wait.
    Cheers n Thanks.

  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 April 2008 at 1:07 pm #

    You’re a good chap, Kilbey. We’ll find out what the suffering was all for when we cross over, eh?

  35. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 9 April 2008 at 2:11 pm #

    Sk’s friend will soon be liberated from this world of strife, irreverence for life and illness. Death will be a transformation to a much better place. None of us should be suprised that Sk’s music and voice can be solacing and beneficial to the mind, body and soul.

  36. avatar
    Cee | 9 April 2008 at 3:08 pm #

    Your friend was speaking through the old man, he heard you, he loves you, he appreciates all you do.
    Un abrazo,
    Cee
    xox

  37. avatar
    12str | 9 April 2008 at 3:21 pm #

    picture this!
    girlfriend away on trip…
    all by myself, a nice bottle of wine, some good things to add to the blend.. my newly arrived Steve Kilbey Live dvd…
    what an evening it became… WOLFE what a fantastic new song, great performance….!!drunk and stoned and happy..

    thanks man!

    /Pat

  38. avatar
    CSTCoach | 9 April 2008 at 4:00 pm #

    that was so fucking sad. it really tears your guts out. i feel for ya, druid. you’re a good friend.

  39. avatar
    fantasticandy | 9 April 2008 at 5:19 pm #

    cee….that was ‘bang on’!
    much love to you too…
    andy L.

  40. avatar
    tim | 9 April 2008 at 9:04 pm #

    ..my dad is a broken man, litterally. he has a broken leg, knee surgery, hand fractured, one good shoulder and one good ear. He broke his hip a month ago and with 2 weeks in hospital visiting I determined that its not a place to get well, but an institution. There are some very well intentioned and talented individuals, doctors, nurses, aides that you can tell are meant to do this work, to others its just a job. Its not a place to get well, but just well enough to leave or die. Your’re a nurturing caring soul mister kilbey, good on you. Those people working there need to hear you sing as much as your friend. hope someone sings a song for me…better be gettin’ better..so long for know.

  41. avatar
    Malika | 10 April 2008 at 6:45 pm #

    Hi SK,

    I read this blog & feel very moved here… Was cool & generous of you to have done that. Your friend must have been touched.

    All my love,

    Malika

  42. avatar
    B Raine | 12 April 2008 at 2:01 am #

    MY EMOTIONS GOT THER BEST DADS OFF HIS MEDS..MANIA(TBI) 00NLY HE CANT SEE IT. SPECIAL ORDERED A CROSS STONE 4 HIM- (2 ACTUALLY) THERE 4 FEAR OF GOING MAD)EVERYTHING IS 00 ITS THE HOLY SPIRIT–A NURSE WAS SUPPSOSE TO GIVE HIM A SHOT–HE CALLED THE WHITEHOUSE ASKED THEM TO HAVE BUSH READ A BIBLE VERSE-

    THIS HAS HAPPENNED 3X ONCE WHEN I WAS A SENIOR—AFTER THE BLOW TO THE HEAD–
    HE SLOWLY BECAME MANIC.PARANOID HYPER CRAZY RELIGOUS–NO RATIONALIZING
    W/HIM \WENT TO A MEDIUM –GUESS SHE THINKS IM CLOSE TO BEEING A HEALER—-GOOD TO READ -STEVE YOU CAN BE THERE 4 UR MATE IN THAT CAPACITY–
    HARD FROM MY FRIENDS MOM 2NITE-MEANS NEWS FROM THE W COAST…CANT HELP ONE TILL THIER READY—
    BACK ON SHADOW CABINET—NYC KNITTING FACTORY—PICTURE W/ MY HEAD CUTT OFF
    GUESS IM INVISIBLE ——
    DONT STAY IN THE SAUNA TOO LONG—–

    SO MANY ARE SO SELPHISH AND USING—IVE PUT A WALL UP-FINALLY FEEL HERE IN THE NOW AND DONT HAVE TO EVER BE BORED—
    PASTELS WHY NOT GIVE IT AT TRY-THANX

  43. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 April 2008 at 10:09 am #

    youre one in a gazillion SK! ox ‘-)

  44. avatar
    Anonymous | 2 August 2009 at 8:21 pm #

    Hello Mr Kilbey,

    I was fanning the pages of Earthed yesterday while in search of another book on my shelf. This is JD from NV. We entertained (I hope) many a cities in Europe in 1990. Give my regards to Marty. I'm sure he had something to do with the Kate Bush cover selection.


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