posted on January 13, 2007 at 8:40 pm

what if everything……?
i mean…..
i been wrong so many times
about so many things…
in fact, i aint hardly ever been right….
and now
now its sunday again
the twillies gone 5 days now
yesterday the rest of us go to balmoral beach again
i swim my laps between the jetty walls
evie swears shes sees a sting-ray
(but ya never know with evie)
baby bumper not so keen on the slightly cold water
we have lunch on the grass
nk has schnapper n chips
i have veggy bugger n chips
doodles have chips n muffin (how nutritious!)
bumper has a bit of everything
its a warm overcast day
sks flavourite kinda day
a storm threatens but never arrives
a dark day that holds you like a lover
we have peaceful relaxing time
theres a cricket match going in the distance
i ask the doodles if they wanna know the rules
they watch the tedious carryon for a moment n say in unison
no thanks, dad
scarlet keeps runnin’ towards the match
n i have ‘orrible visions of her being brained by a cricket ball
(which are effing hard!)
so the doodles keep rushing off and tackling the baby
when she wanders too far
(evie a little too enthusiastically)
we have a nice ride back
over the bridge to bondi
we get home
do a bit of yoga
read mums book
(very entertaining)
we’re about to emmy-grate to OZ (as she puts it)
pretty brave leaving blighty for the unknown quantity of aust
and if theyd stayed in england……?
but they didnt
and here i am in the middle of a strangely cool summer
(delicious tho!)
lassanite last nite of play for a while
oh i’ll miss that crazy bunch of thesps n bohos
also must mention the bricklane workshop in bondi
at last some culcha in bondi
a real place where it feels like somethings happening
oh i hope they can keep it open
(zoning restrictions?)
andrew h is a true bohemian artist
living it painting it
trying to make it groovy for ya
lucien savron is my bohemian idol
a man who does it coz he loves it
and the money is the last thing on his mind
and his jobs never done
even in the audience i hear him laughing the loudest
sucking in his breath and clapping madly
all at stuff hes seen a million times
hes like a very proud father when the shows a success
(and on its own terms the thing is a mega success!)
theres a review promised in the smh even (wow)
oh and thanks to bonsa for their review
we may do the play some more
we may move around
i also must thank seb goldspink
for being a brilliant actor
and another guy whos main motivation
as far as i can tell
is the love of it
jerry i read yer blog and its hard to comment
i tried but i went into some weird limbo
but ah…you gotta be a bit more eloquent than that
and the tech crew matt n richard
and the musos gav n svet who maybe deported back to bulgaria(?)
bulgaria? he says…theres nothing there…
well maybe the zoo story will ride again
its another ticket in the lottery for me
along with everything else i do
i mean
i just need some bigshot to discover me
take me onboard
remunerate me handsomely with an annual package + bonuses
i can still be bohemian n rich
believe me
i know i can do it
i dont mind being poor on my own
but when you gotta big fambley its very frustrating
i mean me in a caravan by the sea on my own….
well i could enjoy that
but me n doodles n twillies n bumper in caravan
would be rather…er…arduous, i’d imagine…
oh god sometimes im so sick of myself
being locked in this skull with all my familiar tricks
anyway
i maybe rehursing with the cretch today…or not
some new argy bargy looms…so im uncertain
i gotta finish my book n its cover v.soon
essays on rock….mmm brilliant title, olde noggin
theres so much bullshit n yibber yabber in the book
that i thought the title could at least be simple n “straight”forward
ok {{“.”]} …you better let me know some name i can put ya under
for the pretenders in melb. ok……?
doesnt haf to be yer real name or nuthing….
still
everything remains up in the air
a feeling of incompletion
a worry i cant focus on
something in the periphery
trying to hurt me
trying to get at me
never just easy
always something
something missing
something you want
where does it end
what can i do
is it up to me
this is all illusion
remember that n beware
if you take it for the real thing
(and i do constantly)
youll get burned
you get addicted
youll get dependent n co-dependent
youll try to get things you shouldnt have
and theres a good reason that you shouldnt
(kilbey takes a gulp of ricemilk
who is this sermon aimed at? one wonders)
i just thought by the time i got to fifty fuckin’ 2
i’d be a bit more….uh…together
still the stupid me i always seem to be
despite everything
all the accolades or whatever
why aint i comfortable in this skin?

52 Responses to “no sail”

  1. avatar
    Daniel 30, 10 | 13 January 2007 at 8:54 pm #

    No one ever really is, SK… and you know where it will end (so did Ian Curtis) and sunday is still waiting to arrive (guess I should get some sleep or have another drink).

  2. avatar
    Daniel 30, 10+ | 13 January 2007 at 8:58 pm #

    I mean: in a few hours my wife and I will be together for 12,5 years… and where will it end?

  3. avatar
    davem | 13 January 2007 at 9:00 pm #

    The way you lurch from insecure uncertainty to having all the answers is part of your magic SK. It must be in part what keeps you striving, searching and creating.
    I was a bit worried about this new argy bargy thing. Hope it’s nothing too serious.
    And of course if you’d stayed in blighty there’s have been no Church (unimaginable) but then I’d have been able to see you perform far more often, cos you’d have made it anyway.
    I’m glad the doodles didn’t want to hear the cricket rules. Damn silly game and you’ve just whipped us 5-0.
    Love you more,

    Dave M
    PS The bits of Elo mo 2 on MySpace sounded absolutely fantastic. Brilliant ideas and production. Can’t wait for it to be released.

  4. avatar
    MarkM | 13 January 2007 at 9:06 pm #

    Great review yesterday B.Bon – congrats SK on the success.

    I’m glad to know I’m in esteemed company when it comes to not feeling comfortable in my own skin….

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 January 2007 at 9:13 pm #

    Hey Steve, have you ever looked at this site. Amamzing music resource. The guy even rates a couple of Church records. I spent hours the other day going through it, well worth the read…enjoy…http://www.scaruffi.com/music.html

  6. avatar
    geenunn | 13 January 2007 at 9:24 pm #

    this makes me think skin isn’t meant to be comfortable… maybe that is the real search, maybe that’s when it ends… when the skin fits.

    geenunn

  7. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 13 January 2007 at 9:35 pm #

    keep on leakin yer secrets ….
    bless..
    weve decided to adopt you in our hearts…

    with your consent of course..
    cause we love you…..

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 January 2007 at 9:50 pm #

    Good luck for your site!
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  9. avatar
    Daberhasher | 13 January 2007 at 10:04 pm #

    how can you expect to be comfortable when there are so many Beings in that skin? and it is that awareness of your many selves that shows that you do have it together for a fifty fuckin’ two year old… i mean, if you tried to put one face on, you’d be a straight, woodencha… i know you’re heavily laden with accos, so pardon me, but we love you man, all the yous… ‘cept maybe thee olde nasty one, but we all have one of those already… but worrying about money does take some of the fun out of daily doings, this i know, so maybe it is all about a big pile o’dough… cold comfort cash, i’d take it… hopefully Mr. Bigg has an artistic streak… everything is inspiration….

    aloha,
    ee

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 January 2007 at 10:20 pm #

    I’m same age as you but don’t feel the anxiety you feel. Guess I’m settled in my career, have my family and fortunately my health. On the other hand, you are still dabbling in so many different things, settled on none so the mixed feelings. Problem is, you are at the point in life where society says you should be like me – not you. Enjoy the fact that you have so many things going and haven’t succumed to middle age maliase (sp). Plus, you are a rock star – so things can’t be all that bad!

    ed in fl

  11. avatar
    damien | 13 January 2007 at 10:28 pm #

    Evie sounds like she’s got a lot of imagination. Just like her dad.

  12. avatar
    ambnt1 | 13 January 2007 at 10:33 pm #

    Steven,

    Seems to me you’re doing what you love for a living (maybe barely scrapin’ by but still above water), have a great family, good health. Probably a lot of 52-year-olds out there with loads of cash, living it large in a skyscraper flat, but lonely, with no passion in their life. I think you’re doing pretty well.

    –Chris

    n.p. Radio Massacre International, “Lost in Space” (still wading through these nearly 7 hours of space jams)

  13. avatar
    Richard | 13 January 2007 at 10:42 pm #

    “locked in this skull with all my familiar tricks”

    Nice way of putting it.

    Despite all the compelling physical evidence to the contrary – kids, wrinkles, aches and pains, mortgages, friends who are 60, going to funerals – and even all that stuff about our bodies totally renewing themselves every few years, do you feel that you are a different person from when you were 5 or 15 or 45?

    I really don’t think of myself as an adult. I’m not sure that I ever thought of myself as a child.

    I’m still selfish – although opportunities are more limited.

    I still think every now and again that I am very clever – if only I were in the right line of work (whatever that may be), I could REALLY excel.

    I’m still inclined to judge people and situations.

    I’m still scared of rats and mice.

    I still pretend I’m listening when others are talking.

    I still find it impossible not to spend money as soon as I get it.

    I am still blown away by the sight of a plane taking off.

    I still hog the window seat (even from my kids).

    I’m the same person who tries so hard not to cry about sad things that his throat gets sore.

    I still half wish that The Church would release another hit (and justify to the world my unashamed devotion of the past 24 years) and half wish that they do nothing of the sort (so I can sit back smugly with my headphones on and pity the unconverted).

    I’m fundamentally the same person as I was when (as family legend has it) I fell asleep with my face in a rice pudding bowl aged 2 1/2.

    And, of course, I still believe that I can change.

    Maybe our skins are like a favourite jumper – stretch them here, tuck them away there, darn the moth holes, try to soak out the stains. Grin when we look good in them, sigh when we look bad.

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 January 2007 at 11:09 pm #

    Wow, what can I say after this amazing blog – and Richard hit so many spot-on points as well. I’m turning 40 in a few months and still feel 25, but sometimes my body feels 90 for various health reasons. That’s an interesting feeling!

    I ask the Big Questions less and less and seem more content with the Silence I get back when I do ask them. Yet something always feels missing…I call it the ‘hole in my soul’ which I am starting to think will be there til the day I die. It’s a strange feeling…not always with me…but just hangs around the edges of my being and is there enough of it to always make me feel a bit uneasy. I know I’ve tried to fill it by various means – except drugs – but I’ll take your word SK that heroin won’t do it.

    I’m starting a 14 week Buddhist meditation program Monday and am very excited – excited because I want to learn to still my mind! SK I’ve struggled so hard with meditation – sometimes I feel it’s so easy for you. Am I projecting? Probably.

    Last – you may be sick of yourself but apparently I’m not because I swear I dreamt about you and the Church all night! I’ve no idea why. Somehow I’d become part of your tour and you were building a stage that moved beneath you…and I was running around in a long man’s dress shirt and nothing else! LOL! You were upset because I forgot to tell you there was someone there to interview you. Then I sat down and started to put Christmas ornaments away. You looked good, SK. πŸ˜‰
    love,
    denise
    xxoo

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 January 2007 at 11:10 pm #

    The Return of Quetzalcoatl β€’ 2012
    by Daniel Pinchbeck

    suggeseted reading…

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 January 2007 at 11:31 pm #

    Trying to gain advantage over
    suffering, are we?..hmmm gelfling
    more irony than you can know
    Willing positivity
    while elementally bound to this
    experience of Maya,
    frustration for me too..
    Although, mood gradually gets better
    its strictly for myself,
    Preserving my soul in this cocoon of light
    constantly aware of the nature of this Maya
    loved one’s and all, everything
    completely bound to the slalom of duality

    I’ve more than wondered
    I’ve pleaded, how can I fully vibrate into divinity?
    as all Ive done was antagonize the very foundations
    of this humanity, the most delicate of processes..
    I tore my way to the bottom and back to the top..
    Cause lets face it, women be shopping!
    busy baking loaves of stress
    repeating, “its true” cause it is..
    this
    Realization n meditations
    all a matter of refinement
    the artistry of life
    pure sculpture
    layers of adding to scrape away
    slaps of humor, gushes of love, soreness of wisdom
    making it shine in spite of spite
    if its any consolation, go deeper
    a higher sensory, straight into samahdi..

    so Easy now, killah..
    as far as the kiddies
    get them to pray with you and
    share peaceful moments with them regularly, as yu do
    You’re a great dad..
    they will relish it, cuts down argy to the bargy
    Well anyway, hope ya feel better
    keep on, keepin on..
    and lean on a brothah.. whenevah
    like a pendulating bassline forevah..
    and now is the time
    in the segment
    when we dance…

    jaime r…..

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 January 2007 at 11:43 pm #

    To our brave koala lady, my best wishes and positive thoughts for your continued recovery. Now this will be something to tell your grandkids about – how SK invited you to see the cherch and ms chrissee good-swift-kick-bhind πŸ™‚

    SK. your little colony is started, and thriving.

    MDxx

  18. avatar
    Samosanx | 14 January 2007 at 12:27 am #

    “I have to know dear, do you have happy skin?” GW McLennan – All Her Songs. HB Star.

    Wow! Siblings!
    I value this ship SK not only for the Captain’s missives but for the Crew’s comments. It’s comforting to be amongst like-spirited souls… to know that uncomfortable skin is a familiar thing here, and questions of success, (“here comes my chinese rug…Hooray success” – Iggy Pop; “Easy Money” – Nick Cave’s dark dirge from The Lyre of Orpheus spring to mind).

    I am surrounded at work by people my own age who have grown-up kids and several houses, waiting for retirement and not going because they want to earn more money. I have no husband, (nor wife!), no house, and no children. When I get pissed off about my financial situation I try to remember that I made the choice to be free, to not be bound to a job that I didn’t enjoy just so I could get a mortgage, to get married because that’s what people do, to have kids that I could not afford nor be truly responsible for, to not play the game of climbing the ladder, indulge preposterousness and inanity, pretend, hide, to not betray my soul, to lack spirit….
    My freedom has been paid for, and many times I have felt the price has been too high, but one day at work my supervisor looked at me and said, “god, I’ve never met anyone so free..” I replied “appropos what?”. He said, “you just went out and bought an ice-cream at ten o’clock in the morning!”…..

    I just looked back at him….He was serious!!

    how weird is that?

    This from a 39 year old earning three times what I do. Would I want to live in his world?

    Nah. I don’t even recognise it.

    I’d rather be here flying SK Airways, any day.

    Love youse all.

    And Koala lady, I imaged a huge, huge bowl of frangipanis to you last night. Was thinking of taking them on the plane to Sydney (on friday, yay!) and straight to your house until I recalled that you are in Melbourne.

    xxx

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 12:52 am #

    i don’t know if anybody ever truly is comfortable in their own skin. life is such a bewindering journey, with all its twists and turns, and you’re always having to re-invent yourself. and about “being wrong so many times”~~been there, done that more times than i like to admit. i’m ALWAYS second-guessing myself, and even sometimes i second-guess the second-guesses!!

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 12:52 am #

    to ((‘~_~’)): sending some hugs and sunshine your way…

    πŸ™‚

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 1:21 am #

    As I was reading ze blogge yesterday morning, the ‘Almost With You’ vid came on ‘Rage’. I remembered what I always found even more disturbing than the clunky, hill-climbing knight – the speeded-up, high-pitched soundtrack. What happened there??!

    Confession – I miss the ‘oh oh ohs’ these days – anyone else willing to come out of the closet on that one?
    MD

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 1:44 am #

    it’s hard to be a bohemian and be ambitious.

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 1:56 am #

    You’re too aware that you are in a skin.
    Some people aren’t even aware they are alive. Yobs.
    Some people take comfort in the crowd, follow the Straight and narrow.
    All the rocky and metallic materials we stand on, the iron in our blood, the calcium in our teeth, the carbon in our genes were produced billions of years ago in the interiors of a red giant star.

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 3:33 am #

    Peter? SK?…… SK? Peter?
    You become one. Sterling performance old chap. Love the haircut too. You look about 35.
    Have you considered auditioning for the Ensemble Theatre at Kirribilli? You’re as good as any actor I’ve seen there. Seriously.
    Hope you do another play.

    When I got home was thinking of you and just had to play Guitar Man. Yep, I’m out of the bread cupboard too.
    “You want to get the meaning out of each and every song. You find yourself a message and some words to call your own and take them home.” So true.

    Is there any chance The Church might support Eric Clapton?

    Always your captive audience.
    Lady Di

  25. avatar
    restaurant mark | 14 January 2007 at 3:44 am #

    veleska’s right…who really is? but i tell ya, if i could make myself and everyone else comfortable in their own skin…a rich man i’d be…but i’d do it just for the love and satisfaction of it…the money’s not important…right ; )
    take care everyone

    thanks for the kind words stealth blue…

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 3:51 am #

    embrace all the parts of you
    the ugly, dark and awesome
    accept yourself
    love yourself
    you are here to realise this
    i too find this the hard bit
    but i reckon you are very close

    xxx

  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 5:25 am #

    me am crawling out of me own skin just waiting here in me dark room for what, who knows???
    mjnjr

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 7:51 am #

    Maybe your having a mid life crisis? Feeling like your youth is gone etc? I dunno much about it but it sounds like that.

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 7:55 am #

    just fuckin keep breathin mates

  30. avatar
    Sigmund Freud | 14 January 2007 at 8:22 am #

    I think you have unresolved issues from your childhood…..

  31. avatar
    isolde | 14 January 2007 at 8:28 am #

    So shed your skin and let’s get started

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 8:45 am #

    I’d like to shed my skin for a newer model

    killah, i get feeling like this too and, for me, its having too much i still want to do now and the other is way too indepth to get into. Other times with my family i think life doesnt get any better than this…its amazing how much we do and go through just for those special moments of simple bliss.

    As for you sk, I was listening to the GB3 cd and your song ‘famished’ and thinking ‘god, you’re so good at this’… case closed πŸ™‚

    One hypothetical question I’d like to know your answer to because you have creative avenues heading everywhere these days, which one would you take if you had to choose but one but either would give you fame and fortune… im thinking you’d probably go with yr music because of the audience interraction but wouldnt it be nice to have a taste of them all?! πŸ™‚ me too but that’ll only happen in my dreams, for you everything is possible. Sometimes i sit down and dissect what exactly it is that Im wanting and it always really comes back to those simple things in life – family, friends, love and laughter.

    ok, thats enuf blah blah from me

    love
    x

    ps and to be comfortable in my skin πŸ™‚

  33. avatar
    syrinx | 14 January 2007 at 8:58 am #

    2 things, but I’m drinking jager and coke, so don’t take them seriously.

    1) if we really are light beings having merely a human *experience*, then skin is not meant for comfort, and

    2) if i woke up tomorrow, suddenly comfortable in my skin, what THEN??? there’d be no more work to do. would i be done then?

    (takes another sip)

  34. avatar
    carl jung | 14 January 2007 at 9:12 am #

    I think your life is lacking balance and you are craving harmony in some areas…you need to rely more on your spiritual self.

  35. avatar
    sue cee | 14 January 2007 at 9:30 am #

    yes 8.12
    balance. sk you have so much happening. its a question of …

    (cantbe bothered signing in again damn blogger loginthingame and i’ve just had a quick swim and feeling relaxed)

  36. avatar
    Melquiades | 14 January 2007 at 10:11 am #

    listening to the Myspace tunes now. Wow, After Everything has such a pull on me. Takes me back to drives to the beach (Rehobeth,DE) with my girlfriend (now ex) listening to this CD or something “Churchy”. Such melancholly. oh, my heart breaks…

    passing through 25 mph towns looking at her profile laughing fighting making up (oh the makeup was so good) run along the shore smelling the salts of the air invigorated renergized love lust admiration for what lies before us this shore line watching our feet sink in the sand as the water beckons us out into her murky depths remember the walks at sunset at sunrise meditating on the shore listening to the crrash roll over and over the soft repitition of the waves. soft soft gentle sounds. nice bike rides to Henelopen State Park. through the dunes find benevolent stones left with messages scribbled on them from the First Son. making sense of it all climbing the observation towers that remained from WWII looking out over the marine horizon. you could see the curvature of the earth such memories only memories now no longer to be relived again wanna smile but only tears who wouldve thought this would all end.

    Yeah Steve your music has historical signifigance with me.

    This song is so poignant

  37. avatar
    mattdavison | 14 January 2007 at 10:52 am #

    It’s great to be a man eh killa!!!

    I wish you hadn’t had that dragon m&m on new years eve..

    {{`::”`)) or however you spell et..
    Very ,very awsome energy coming for ya, direct from Aotearoa New Zealand. the spiritual heart of the pacific.. much love.

    Sk is PK being a pain!!!!? (coppers) not koppes as it is spelt -Durrr.

  38. avatar
    mattdavison | 14 January 2007 at 10:55 am #

    and ….Fuc we are soooo lucky to have ya here.

    Thank-you Skay.

    Thankyou…………..

    ps remember i am one of NZs best young actors so if ya want some advice e-mail me.
    Matt

  39. avatar
    sue cee | 14 January 2007 at 11:20 am #

    oh isolde – ive been singing that h&c song in my head all nite! need to drown it out now with a church smooothie

  40. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 11:57 am #

    Pardonnex-moi SK for my straying from the topic today – 54 or so comments on ‘why I don’t feel comfortable in my skin either’ were so predictable.

    πŸ™‚

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 12:12 pm #

    and a negative comment at the end of the daily comments is too predictable too 10:57 πŸ™‚

  42. avatar
    master po | 14 January 2007 at 12:16 pm #

    just keep on the same path grasshopper.

  43. avatar
    fergal | 14 January 2007 at 12:24 pm #

    put some space in that rock sk

    ~

  44. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 12:32 pm #

    Thankyou anon 11:12, I aim to please…
    Reminds me why i never joined that webring. Baa humbug.

  45. avatar
    Nic | 14 January 2007 at 12:38 pm #

    Another thoughtful blogg SK. Although having just turned 35…I STILL feel like the 19 year old Gothic princess I once was…still restless, indecisive, insecure – with a sense of mischief …I hate the emotional ball and chain of adulthood – the responsibility…the worries (and oh how numerous) and the enormity of being responsible for 3 human beings….I worry….worry …worry – their health, their safety…big decisions requiring many sleepless nights… and then there;s money… I often lament how much easier life would be if we didn’t have money worries… yet, as lame as it sounds – being poor does have a positive – it makes you appreciate what we have… (although it would be great to not have to worry about the rent, petrol prices, the food bill, electricity etc etc..).
    I too am loving reading the comments from your daily blogg entry SK – great being amongst the older (and cooler!) generation.

  46. avatar
    Renee | 14 January 2007 at 1:20 pm #

    You were in my dream last night too!
    It was like a 5 second cameo, but it was nice to see you there
    I was inside somekind of diner and you were outside selling your wares (paintings)
    and you came inside for some refreshment and I approached you to introduce myself
    as one of your devoted fiends, but I never got that far
    you just looked at me and the dream was over!

    I had a wake up call yesterday
    my parents and I were driving to a local furniture store
    to pick out new furniture for them
    (they’ve had their current set for 37 years!!)
    Anyhow, we’re driving along bullshitting about various stuff and
    WHAM!
    some young buck in an SUV hits us
    fortunately my Dad has quick reflexes for 62
    and was able to swerve so that we got hit on the rear passenger side and back
    it could have been much worse, but we were fortunate
    but it got me to thinking how fragile our little lives really are
    we go about doing our routines and business and don’t realize
    in a second it can all change or be over
    and all the plans, hopes, dreams can be dramatically altered
    anyways, not trying to be a downer
    but I truly am blessed and grateful for each day
    despite having a ‘hole in the soul’ which I think makes us unique
    and sensitive, thoughtful, compassionate human beings
    sorry to write such a long comment, but it has been awhile

    luv you all!

  47. avatar
    (('{~_~}')) | 14 January 2007 at 2:48 pm #

    Steve, I will send you an email with my name.

    All this talk about living in your skin has prompted me to speak about my silkworms. Yes, I have been raising silkworms for the purpose of observing their life cycle. Bombyx mori, only exist in silk factories or in shoe boxes. As caterpillars all they do is eat Mulberry leaves and defecate. They never seem to stop eating! They need to eat to be able to produce the silk for their cocoon.

    They shed their skin four times then spin their cocoon. A cocoon is made of a single continuous thread of raw silk from 300 to 900 meters (1000 to 3000 feet) long. A single kimono requires the silk from 2100 silkworm cocoons.

    Alas the poor silkworm! In the silkworm factories they boil them alive. If the silkworm was allowed to survive after spinning its cocoon, it would make a hole in the cocoon when it exits as a moth. This would cut short the threads and ruin the silk. Boiling the cocoon also loosens the glue. Only a few moths are allowed to emerge to continue the population of silkworms. I recently mentioned this to my fill-in Chinese medicine practitioner and she said she felt really guilty having bought a silk garment just the day before. She told me they are also used in Chinese medicine, I did a web search and found out that they infect the poor silkworm with a fungus that kills it but the end result is beneficial to humans.

    I have recently read about “Peace silk”, also known as “Vegetarian silk.” It is raised and processed differently. The moths are allowed to emerge from their cocoons to live out their full life cycle. The silk is de-gummed and spun like other fiber, instead of being reeled. The resulting yarn is soft, fluffy, and light like a cloud. Unfortunately, there is currently no commercial-level production of Peace Silk in the world.

    Once the moth emerges from its cocoon it is too heavy to fly and does not eat as it does not have proper mouthparts. They will mate, lay eggs and die within one week.

    Apparently a silkworm has eleven brains. Imagine what we could do with eleven brains! Their life is so much simpler than ours, they are programmed in their DNA to do what they do and that’s that, nice and simple, short and sweet, while we humans question and we question while we are stuck in the skin we are in.

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    (('{~_~}')) | 14 January 2007 at 3:05 pm #

    Thanks MDxx (hopefully I will get to tell the grandchildren), Matt Davison and Veleska (What a beautiful name!)

    Samosanx said…
    And Koala lady, I imaged a huge, huge bowl of frangipanis to you last night. Was thinking of taking them on the plane to Sydney (on friday, yay!) and straight to your house until I recalled that you are in Melbourne.

    That is so sweet! I absolutely love frangipanis!

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    (('{~_~}')) | 14 January 2007 at 3:06 pm #

    Vote for Zoe @ Noise

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    Anonymous | 14 January 2007 at 6:19 pm #

    to renee~~wow. looks like y’all dodged the bullet. i’m glad everyone is ok. good to see you back.

    ******************

    to ((‘{~_~}’))~~11 brains??!?!?!! one is definitely enough for me. i have enough crammed into the one, i cannot imagine cramming more into 10 others, heh heh heh. a migraine to end all migraines would surely result.

    “veleska” is russian for “elizabeth”. and to answer your next question~~no, i’m not russian or of russian descent at all. the explanation is simple. my mother had a friend with the name and liked it.

  51. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 January 2007 at 12:01 am #

    yeah but we love ya

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    Anonymous | 15 January 2007 at 2:56 am #

    Thanks Killer.


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