posted on March 26, 2011 at 6:52 pm

handsome

lovebringer  sing me ya elegy

twists n turns have burned me cold

i wake up n i’m old

i sleep  n in my sleep bad dreams come cheap

like everything bad starting up again

in my dreams when i am other men

in my head too small to contain all this self infliction pain

well it certainly is strange but ive gotten out of range

i shoot my words but 2 thirds are meaning less and less

i prosecute myself

the evidence stacks up

then i got the audiences backs up

the witnesses take the stand man there all me

the jail is my self

the sentence to be in this skin

no parole no good behaviour no out or in

solitary confinement

the chains are  my brains

my mind hems me in on all sides

these bars were in my stars

my own future turned round bit my arse

a tragedy or farce

i’m locked up but free

free to choose how i lose

dont wanna roll

dont wanna role in this play

i wrote it but i cant play it

i did it but i cant say it

bored with this metaphor and my fatal flaw

floored with sealing my fate

a fraud a fake

i need a brake

my heart aint listenin’ to

my head  where the signal is unread

red my mind

blue my mind

dont mind me

i will lose all that i will find

 

 

 

 

 

 

22 Responses to “no title”

  1. avatar
    eekie | 26 March 2011 at 7:39 pm #

    “i will lose all that i will find”

    And then find all you have lost.

    Find the courage to let go of the hurt.

  2. avatar
    meg manestar | 26 March 2011 at 7:41 pm #

    sh@t thats good!!!!!!! :oD

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    meg manestar | 26 March 2011 at 7:46 pm #

    bloody awesome actually..gee thanks for that…as one of your friends said…you should be studied in schools…like lawson, henry handel richardson, malouf and ned kelly 🙂

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    Kristine | 26 March 2011 at 8:13 pm #

    If you’re at all able to, distance yourself from everyone and everything and just immerse yourself totally and completely in your art. Don’t think about people, places or things, just paint and write and ignore it all. Eventually your mind will clear and happiness will come. You don’t need people, you don’t need ‘things’, just let it all go.

  5. avatar
    Abel | 26 March 2011 at 9:12 pm #

    Contradictions… In the end, what’d we do without them?

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    Karen | 26 March 2011 at 9:25 pm #

    you have smallish fingers for some one so artistic & talented

    my mother used to say I should play the piano because I have long fingies

    obviously an old wives tale

    dont be sad
    mrk

    dont be sad mr k

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    Jason (jmb066) | 26 March 2011 at 10:23 pm #

    On one hand that was brilliant writing
    nothing new there
    however I wish you did not feel this way
    On the other hand, without knowing your circumstances
    you have mastered much in this life before, do it again!
    age, just a number
    dreams are feeding off of negative thoughts
    you need a lawyer to help you rememeber all that you have overcome
    or a partner in crime to break you out of that self imposed prison
    bite it back, you are Steve fucking Kilbey
    choose to win
    if not for you, for your children
    what are you looking for?
    maybe we can help you find it.

    Jason

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    belfy | 26 March 2011 at 10:44 pm #

    SK – in the midst of all the chaos, you still have more to be thankful for in life than many people. That’s where you would be best to focus your energy. Your girls, your art, your yoga and your real friends who still love you alot.
    bF

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 March 2011 at 12:20 am #

    Be selfish !!!

    I’ve said this before, all the time and magic you give to everyone else must now take a backseat to your life. Do what you want to do, not what you need to do. That reflection you see is not quite yours till you take control, full fucking control of everything around you. Its yours Steve, all you see, touch, hear, smell. Take hold of it…show it off to others, to everyone !!!

    Its all yours !!!!

    AsAlways,
    Darrin K.

  10. avatar
    evilren | 27 March 2011 at 12:45 am #

    there’s a song hidden in this stone.

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    neptune | 27 March 2011 at 1:03 am #

    just a quick note to tell you hello, and not to worry about sadness – sleep it off, it will pass. Prayers and hugs to you. I agree to go with the painting – at least try …. Do something different … go for the gusto, winningly of course.

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 27 March 2011 at 3:17 am #

    I sent to your other email address, what keeps me alive every day. My incredible children and the gift of their smiles that energizes me – even on my most difficult days.

    AsAlways,
    Darrin K.

  13. avatar
    KLH | 27 March 2011 at 3:54 am #

    Maybe you do need a break.

  14. avatar
    Jonny Hollywood | 27 March 2011 at 5:19 am #

    no title, feeling blah blah blah, write me a song 🙂

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    Craig | 27 March 2011 at 6:16 am #

    Believe me Steve. I know how you feel. It happened to me a couple years ago. Mom left. Then my beloved whom you meet in Indianapolis. Most days I don’t how to go on anymore. All those I loved are with me no more. And it never seems to get better. Many will say that in time it will. I don’t believe them anymore. Because it hasn’t. They just don’t know what else to say to console me. And my Muse rarely appears anymore. Most dreams wake me in tears. But I keep holding on hoping that somehow, magically, things will get better. Like one day I’ll wake up in another timeline. The Universe deciding that I’ve suffered enough.

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      DavidP | 27 March 2011 at 12:12 pm #

      Craig
      grief can become an all-consuming monster
      quite different from love
      I’ve experienced that
      you get sick of it
      then you get sick of being sick of it
      then you get sick of being sick of being sick of it
      those loved ones don’t want you to suffer at the hands of this monster
      they didn’t and don’t wish this pain upon you
      they have had to move on
      so must you
      the whole of humanity is one family
      that love that you feel
      let the world around you see it
      as testimony to the love you feel for those now gone
      Sincerely
      David

  16. avatar
    Narelle | 27 March 2011 at 8:16 am #

    sounds a bit like a classic ‘comedown’…nothing a dash a adrenaline won’t fix to kick start something old…or even something new

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    aida morgan | 27 March 2011 at 8:54 am #

    This is heavy. How do you quiet that mind that imprisons you? While I can’t seem to completely block out destructive thoughts, I’ve found that actively practicing gratitude for the smallest things helps, being conscious of what you do have as opposed to what’s lacking. I’ve been trying to discipline myself to focus on positives in my life to counter negative thoughts. Not easy for this Pisces, especially with my tendency to absorb the pain of others and withdraw from everyone & everything. And I don’t see the ‘old’, Steve. A few lines, a little grey – that’s just on the surface. Your spirit, that’s where it’s at. Hope you’re able to find a little peace of mind somewhere.

  18. avatar
    Once | 27 March 2011 at 9:32 am #

    This is amazing. I feel your pain and it’s beautiful. But still pain.

    How can you break out?

    I’ll let ya know if I find a way…I’d throw away everything to blaze that trail…or would I? Haven’t yet, but I know I can. Just me.

    🙂

  19. avatar
    Freddie | 27 March 2011 at 12:00 pm #

    (hugs)

  20. avatar
    DavidP | 27 March 2011 at 1:51 pm #

    it can be a bit unsettling when one starts to awaken from slumber and sees all the horror of ones psychological sleep
    and elements within can try to put one off from continuing to wake up
    but we need to throw off the lethargy and get up out of bed
    if we want to walk in the light

  21. avatar
    hellbound heart | 28 March 2011 at 7:46 pm #

    trapped within self…


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