posted on May 21, 2007 at 5:10 am

killaboy sat down at his little off white computer
oohh that rsi smarts but he perseveres
you know that killaboy cares for you
you can feel it
in these words he keeps writing
we are in the real universe
where nothing adds up
what are you trying to say killaboy
say it say it say it
oh my shoulder
type with left hand
thinks of something to say
gets a littlebit atta time
cant remember what he wanted to say
house is momentarily quiet
my ears ring
shadow of sadness
time flows out of the day
the sun shines thru a hole in the gathering clouds
night waits in the wings
patiently in darkness
ready to take hold again
summer and its promises have fled
leaving this greying afternoon
leaving me here in my may
then came the last days of may
the baby sits on my lap
continuity in action
blue eyed baby
her eyelids impossibly lilac
she watches me type solemnly
she waits impassively
warm soft heavy on my lap
my brother comes over
the baby stares at him the whole time
the sky is rent with golden slices of light
the baby is deep in thought
something so liz taylor about her
been typing with left hand
muse: where is the renaissance man today?
me : he hadda day off

37 Responses to “oh killaboy !”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 May 2007 at 7:16 am #

    Well goddam, i’m first in line…we all have times when our muse goes on holidays….i’ll be like that when i’ve typed out the umpteenth half-yearly school report…blahhhh….
    -The Hellbound Heart

  2. avatar
    isolde | 21 May 2007 at 7:52 am #

    out of comment box auto reply …

    … isolde is unavailable for comment
    due to other reading commitments

    … can’t put down JC Wallop!

    … having lots of giggles!!

    … loved the last few posts!!!

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 May 2007 at 8:15 am #

    Tinnitus & RSI?
    Talk about two real bastard conditions to afflict a musician, eh…kripes.
    We might envy you many elements of your life, Steve, but fuck, I don’t envy you those!
    Especially the fuckin tinnitus.
    The quietest moments – there it is.
    No escape from it, no rest, no ignoring it – the soundtrack to every beautiful sight or attempt at relaxation.

  4. avatar
    mo tucker | 21 May 2007 at 8:20 am #

    Fuck, yeah, imagine having Metal Machine Music as the soundtrack to every waking minute!

  5. avatar
    emmkay | 21 May 2007 at 8:30 am #

    That’s OK, killa.
    Even muses need a day off.

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 May 2007 at 8:34 am #

    a post script for yesterdays blog…..SHAZZAM!……for today, there aint nuttin like “Baby Love”in this world,or out of it!! coming to Bondi in the next few wekks,possibly anyway.Am bringing my table with me,for lushing over my lovely gentleman friend,in Edward st………if you wish,I can treat you and the dreadful RSI……its still only a MAYBE,logistically,very loco……love to all…….genx xxxxxx

  7. avatar
    fantasticandy | 21 May 2007 at 8:34 am #

    that BOC song was always best live.

    ‘you know that killaboy cares for you’
    do you? realy?
    nice to have bumper back on your lap!
    andy L.

  8. avatar
    eek | 21 May 2007 at 8:50 am #

    been typing with left hand

    You really are devoted to this aren’t you? 🙂

    my brother comes over
    the baby stares at him the whole time
    the sky is rent with golden slices of light
    the baby is deep in thought

    My guess is that she’s plotting how to get your brother as deeply under her control as she has you. Yep, she’s thinking “I have this one wrapped around my little tiny finger. I’m going for that one next. hmmm…how shall I go about my newest conquest?”

  9. avatar
    ~ | 21 May 2007 at 9:36 am #

    where did the camera go?
    miss the missing photos
    prolly easier than typing
    save your tendons for music
    space rocka

    peace and luvvv to ya

  10. avatar
    Symon | 21 May 2007 at 9:59 am #

    can’t be a genuis every minute of every day sk….hell knows…I struggle so why shouldn’t you..LOL.

    I like the term unpredictable genius. Friends used to call me “dim sim”…..never quite sure what you’re going to get !!!!

    must be great having the fambley back…that would take a little bit of adjustment, but nice adjustment all the same.

    take care


  11. avatar
    nickfiction | 21 May 2007 at 12:20 pm #

    i listen to the ” el momento ” version of ” it’s no reason ” this morn, what a great mood. You guys are the most underrated band in the world. wtf!?

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 May 2007 at 1:42 pm #

    ~J is right, we would love to see a fresh photo of your cub.

    Besides, the day before yesterday I posted a comment to your April 30 entry, telling you how great your Berlin gig last month was (a gig of a lifetime precisely). Having posted it, I thought, oh stupid, who reads 3 week old comments?

    Whilst delving into your beautiful moody family life, would you mind to tell us how often do you call your managment? Since I am a part time music promoter myself, I can assure you that every single phone call by a neglected foster artist produces guilty conscience and thus the urge to increase promotional activities.

    Europe needs you by 2008.

    synt homus

  13. avatar
    veleska1970 | 21 May 2007 at 1:46 pm #

    awwww….a sweet daddy and daughter moment. i’ll bet you missed them. sounds like things are getting back to normal.

    “type with left hand”
    oooooo~that would drive me crazy, too slow and laborsome. i have to use both hands, all fingers. but we appreciate the effort, steve. and as far as the rsi~~unfortunately, it never really goes away. i’ve had it for years. 🙁

    lotza love……

  14. avatar
    12str | 21 May 2007 at 2:14 pm #

    i sincerely hope you dont choke under the pressure from all us TTB readers…i guess we are all slaves under some lutheran “duty before all” instinct ,a heritage from our ancestors…its buried deep in our genes…duty before pleasure…oh how it kills inspiration!

    another thing…
    autumns arrived down under, while we in the northern parts got summer just around the bend..two seasons at once in cyberspace! idont know where im going with this…but anyway….i sense the expectations here and some sort of retrospective feeling there…
    (got to stop smoking this shit while trying to make sense in english…..i got it all worked out in swedish..)
    have a nice week everyone


  15. avatar
    EARTHFRIEND | 21 May 2007 at 2:18 pm #

    May, June, July, August, September…

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 May 2007 at 2:46 pm #

    I hate summer!
    Roll on October…

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 May 2007 at 2:55 pm #

    hi Pat,

    I cherish your intention to shelter the space of inspiration, but maybe we should accept a certain part of our protestant heritage, be it swedish, east-prussian or even australian. For if one doesn’t accept it, sooner or later one may start to act like Rumpelstilzchen, smashing audio devices, floor tiles etc., that’s something I know about. Does it really kill the mood to take up a phone receiver with the left arm, sharing a few words with your manager while rocking your baby with the other, to do this from time to time?

    synt homus

  18. avatar
    Big B | 21 May 2007 at 3:14 pm #

    ‘napoleon’s army, christmas eve, outside of moscow’

    this song on repeat all day

  19. avatar
    kat | 21 May 2007 at 3:36 pm #


    ya, for real, nothing adds up. thanks for writing ;

  20. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 21 May 2007 at 4:17 pm #

    The Church has many worshipping critics on Amazon.Com. Uninvited Like The CLouds is big time venerated and many reviews state that the CHurch are the greatest.

  21. avatar
    12str | 21 May 2007 at 4:42 pm #

    i think that selfdiciplin is vital for every kind of creative work aswell for life itself…but i think that we sometimes tend to forget ourselves…some of us is far to busy following the demands of our time….make a career…make money…buy this and that…you are supposed to achieve a certain level of materialistic “wellbeeing” to be accepted in this society of straight thinking…
    we forget to live….life is what goes on right now..right the race really the price?
    ive seen happy people living in cardboard shacks…ive met miserable people in palaces..
    we have an obligation to ourselves and to the people we love…
    not to anyone else really…
    if youre going to be happy buying that plasma screen,do it!
    if youre happy going that extra mile for that extra buck,do it!
    as long as youre true to yourself..
    but life is going on out here and one day you might wake up and realize that youve missed it…
    so slow down for a second and think about it..


  22. avatar
    Matthias | 21 May 2007 at 5:09 pm #

    Mr. Kilbey,

    I recently read a book “You’ve gotta read these books.” It had various people from all walks of life discussing a book or two that changed their lives in some significant way.

    I’m curious, after listening to many of your albums and lyrics, what books have inspired you?
    Case in point is the wonderful story in Priest = Aura. So what books inspire you?

  23. avatar
    12str | 21 May 2007 at 5:50 pm #

    dear sh!
    just speaking in general terms you know…=)
    i met this wise man a couple of weeks ago and was impressed with the integrity in wich he continued his work despite the fact that he didnt get the credit that he deserved…

    i believe that you shouldnt let certain things become a burdon…instead an inspirating interaction between minds..
    or am i wrong?
    does creativity feed on agony or lust?
    is it an addiction?

    take care


  24. avatar
    veleska1970 | 21 May 2007 at 5:59 pm #

    nothing important, just wanted to say i’m sitting here at work jamming to “UTMW” on da radio right now…..KJKK-FM in dallas plays this song all the time. (kudos to jack-fm!!!)

    now if we can just get the rest of the radio and the world to play the crunchies….

  25. avatar
    davem | 21 May 2007 at 6:57 pm #

    Love you Steve (I always feel guilty when you mention your ears – fuelled in part by our thirst for your magic).
    What did that fool in Mojo write? “Only The Church could make a track like June sound like January”…of course as Michael F (the great Michael F may I add!!) noted June is winter in Aus!!!
    It’s a lovely early summer evening here in blighty. Blessed by the strains of Freaky Concs!!!


  26. avatar
    stealthblue | 21 May 2007 at 7:13 pm #

    Hey, SK, it’s just nice to hear from ya!:) We appreciate it. Hope the hand feels better though. I know that stuff is no fun. (got a couple issues of my own these days!) Are you trying any NSAIDs and a brace of some sort?

    Well, take care. Thanks again for the entry.

    Peace and many healing thoughts,
    Ben V.

  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 May 2007 at 7:53 pm #

    Hi Patty, old Sphinx,

    that’s a cool question about creativity you are posing. If I knew the answer, would I tell it to the whole www? Would anybody do?
    Feed on agony or lust or an addiction – I’ll put these golden words into my synapses for a while, who knows what they’ll grind out.

    Keyword integrity: I guess my field of experience as a music promoter has more to do with integrity than creativity, and as such I feel like a die-hard postmodernist riddled by the enigma of creativity. Jacques Derrida wrote that the frame is working rather than being static. Integrity equals frame equals fame, sort of.

    synt homus

  28. avatar
    12str | 21 May 2007 at 9:21 pm #

    what comes to my mind is…
    integrity and creativity might be framed by fame,and becoming a non working static just repeating itself rather than beeing innovative…
    theres a lot of that shit going around in the music industry..
    i guess as a promotor you have to think in terms of selling your merchandise..
    and where does that leave the artists never compromising with their integrity?
    if youre lucky their work will emerge in the right time at the right place,otherwise they just pass into the vast nothingness..
    i mean its hard to promote stuff that doesnt really want to sell…
    and as a promotor you have to make a living…so what do you do then?
    do you go with the artist who are eager to sell out just to sell,or do you go for the real stuff,fighting for the ideal of pure artistery risking cash and reputation…

    i did all that and lost..


  29. avatar
    12str | 21 May 2007 at 9:25 pm #

    all i lost was really just cash…i do believe i kept my integrity….=)

  30. avatar
    Celticat | 22 May 2007 at 1:14 am #

    Thanks for the blog this morning Steve, don’t why – it just struck a chord.

    Much Love to you and yours.

  31. avatar
    fawn | 22 May 2007 at 3:29 am #

    Haven’t been here for weeks. I’ve been in pain. Started 10 years ago when I got RSI in the upper back playing violin. It ended that career and developed into one of the worst cases of RSI St Vincents Hospital Pain Clinic had ever encountered. After two years of agony I finally recovered and have been eight years symptom free and THEN – back again about five weeks ago, brought on by stress. Be careful Steve. RSI can turn nasty. I’m sure your readers would understand if you needed time out.

  32. avatar
    sharka | 22 May 2007 at 5:00 am #

    Some beauty there today.

  33. avatar
    sharka | 22 May 2007 at 5:20 am #

    if kurt were here, he’d agree!

  34. avatar
    Emostrange | 22 May 2007 at 6:00 am #

    How many kids do you have SK? My next question being – how do you find the time for blogging???

  35. avatar
    a believer | 22 May 2007 at 6:39 am #

    r.s.i. can fade as all things can…

    my friend cured herself of P.d.i. when on an ecstacy trip.

    Praise the Lord.

  36. avatar
    slightly off | 22 May 2007 at 6:48 am #

    In mexico there is a circus called the “Go no more…”

  37. avatar
    was quite slightly off. | 22 May 2007 at 6:52 am #

    I quite like it.

Leave a Reply

You must be logged in to post a comment.