posted on April 6, 2007 at 8:16 am

a strange day
even for a strange man like me
some sad news i shant be the 1st to reveal…

im sitting here alone
gravenhurst is playing on the eye boxx
outside a cold rainy night has come down
nk n doodles n bumper have flown the coop
off to the u.s. to visit family
so here i am feeling a bit lonely
the empty house so devoid of children
often ive wished for this; the solitude the peace
but now ive got it…..
dear god please
see my fambley safely home
so im sitting here
eating some candy n typing my blogge
on monday i leave for europe
and all that continental jive
i dunno what to say…
im lookin’ forward to it
im open for whatever may happen….
rock on ! or something…
hey its gonna be great
are ya comin?
fandroolin’ yeah
i finished the golem
wow!
prague baby…you gotta love it
anyhow
its the day they say that j.c. got nailed to that cross
typical
the cat says some nice things
then they bang him up
excruciating
i feel today
the iron tips of the nails against my flesh
the red spurt as they hammer them home
thru skin n bone
excruciation
that poor gentle man
that lovely healing soothing beautiful fellow
his soft voice and his downcast eyes
into your hands i commend my spirit
nice one to all involved
of course nobody takes the blame for that mistake
has anything changed?
a load more atrocities we had to have
mans basic inhumanity to man
and to the beasts
and to his planet
good going
happy easter!

55 Responses to “ok friday”

  1. avatar
    metal_petal | 6 April 2007 at 9:30 am #

    Good Friday’s kind of funny like that. Even if you’re not one to be thinking about Jesus, a big attack of he solemns can get to you.

    The Jehovah’s Witnesses next door are having a party now. I guess I should just be glad they’re not listening to songs of praise.

    Godspeed to your family.

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 April 2007 at 9:38 am #

    dela-where? wish you were there?

    peace,
    the beast

  3. avatar
    eek | 6 April 2007 at 9:47 am #

    My best wishes for everyone’s safe travels and for a great visit for your family and a great tour for you and the rest of the band. I’ll eagerly (and a little enviously) await your tour blog entries.
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
    When I think of crucifixion (and other tortures and particularly brutal methods of execution) I’m always chilled by the number of “fans” each seemed (and still seem) to have among ordinary people. I can fathom that there are enough twisted people to come up with these heinous tortures, but what boggles my mind is the public entertainment aspect of so many of them. Just how does a average joe (or jane) get to the point where he/she thinks “hey honey, isn’t there a crucifixion (hanging/beheading/stoning/burning at the stake, etc.) on today? It’s nice out, why don’t we head over there for a bit after lunch?”

  4. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 April 2007 at 9:48 am #

    hey dude you sound down but hey
    im drunk its happy friday and all is well so things cant be all that bad. love your ones when they return.

    love you

    m

  5. avatar
    malcolm arkey | 6 April 2007 at 10:29 am #

    Saints of the Latter Day
    ————————

    “She’s crying for loss
    For the man on the cross”

    I remember so well listening to that song again and again five years ago when I was in the Philippines…even while watching worshippers flagellate themselves and be nailed to crosses with sterilized stainless nails.

    For me, I now can’t dissociate that country from that song.

    Powerful.
    Some of your best work, Steve.

  6. avatar
    namaste | 6 April 2007 at 10:33 am #

    at the risk of appearing insensitive, here’s an easter joke…
    q) whats this?(picture jc, arms stretched out across cross, legs pinned down – your usual crucifix position)
    a) a fucked way to spend easter

    happy oestra x

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 April 2007 at 10:50 am #

    will feel right soon…..i see you surrounded by many riteful souls ….all is good,gentle one…you are never alone…remember what they used to do to the see ers…oh,i can see very well …even better now……now that im grown,i dont have to blame the cat for what i know/say …..strength nchillies n candy to you,xxxxx xlove to you…genx

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 April 2007 at 11:06 am #

    Sorry to hear you have sad news sk. I hope the tour will help you cope with missing your family. Take care & love always,
    Amanda

  9. avatar
    Daberhasher | 6 April 2007 at 11:07 am #

    safe travels for all the Kilbeyites…
    nice reflection on the lows of mankind…
    but lo, you are one kind man…
    sail on home…

    love,
    ee

  10. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 6 April 2007 at 11:19 am #

    we are no match for family

    but wed love to keep your company

  11. avatar
    veleska1970 | 6 April 2007 at 11:38 am #

    don’t fret, steve~~the little ones will be home again before you know it, and your reunion will be a joyful one.

    easter has always been a time for personal reflection for me~~a sort of rebirth. i don’t make new year’s resolutions because i save any renewals or beginnings i would make for the easter season.

    “mans basic inhumanity to man”
    exactly. shame nothing’s changed, and won’t. shame.

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 April 2007 at 11:53 am #

    question ,oh oracle of interstella lyric…..is it beastiality…if a mozzie…..bites me on the puzzie?/////……….maybe you laughed….maybe you only smiled a teensy bit……happy easter……genxr

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 April 2007 at 11:55 am #

    please no jesus freak trash…. remember man created god AND jesus, as smart as you are you buy that dumb story because you think you need to understand………

  14. avatar
    Emily Teechen | 6 April 2007 at 11:56 am #

    Hi ~,

    you have a lovely way of writing. Great yearning there, but the jumped synapse connections zing… Make sure you spread your writing far and wide, don’t keep it close to your chest… Roll it out and see where it leads you…

  15. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 6 April 2007 at 12:11 pm #

    Dear Blogger,

    who art in The Time Being,

    Hallowed be thy blogge. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, in sound checks as it is in The Time Being. Give us this day our daily blogge, and forgive us our trespasses, as we occasionally begrudgingly forgive some of those who trespass against us. Deliver us from y-front undies, for thine are the golden calves, the power and the glory, for ever and ever, amenandwomenandanimalsandplantsandeverythingthatis

  16. avatar
    did you ever swing on a star | 6 April 2007 at 12:18 pm #

    Dear Anonymous please no jesus freak trash.,

    has it occurred to you
    the blogmeister here
    called his band

    THE CHURCH?

    Just a thought…

  17. avatar
    restaurant mark | 6 April 2007 at 12:22 pm #

    yeah, we’ve done a great job with it, haven’t we???

    have a good time playing in europe. your family will be fine…home before you know it. it’s weird having peace when you get used to chaos. i crave the alone time…the peace. i get it…then i wonder when they’ll be home, it’s too quiet. silly…

  18. avatar
    nic | 6 April 2007 at 12:22 pm #

    sweet SK – a beautiful father and husband….. your home must be so quiet without the familiar sounds of giggles, niggling and tiny footsteps…
    “often ive wished for this; the solitude the peace
    but now ive got it…..” I also am guilty of wishing for this during the chaos of a busy life with a 3, 5 and 15 yr old – but I also feel time slipping away way too fast and know I would rather relish the vibrance of our happy house full of wild and noisy children…than trade it in EVER!!!!
    if anything – this short time will make you appreciate all that you have much much more – and (I guarantee it!) vice versa!!!
    Immerse yourself in the tour – it will all go so quick – and the reunion will be so sweet…
    hugs,
    Nic

  19. avatar
    fantasticandy | 6 April 2007 at 12:33 pm #

    happy easter blogstar!
    have a great tour,
    your’e going to some very
    bohemian places.
    enjoy ’em!

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 April 2007 at 12:40 pm #

    What the world needs is more peace and kindness. It’s the mind that’s the problem. Thinking of right and wrong, like and dislike. Believing thoughts as if they’re something real or tangible. They’re symbols and tools – nothing more. They’re no more real than the dream you had last night.

    Be what the world needs. Be peaceful, be kind.

    The mind’s devisive. The heart knows better.

    B

  21. avatar
    John Garratt | 6 April 2007 at 12:46 pm #

    “mans basic inhumanity to man
    and to the beasts
    and to his planet”

    Makes me not want to have children.

  22. avatar
    sue cee | 6 April 2007 at 1:32 pm #

    The sounds of silence in the house,family away, rain falling and gravenhurst … holy day. No wonder youre feeling strange and lonely. Easter’s always seemed more real to me than Christmas if you know what i mean. I’ve been thinking of Marty all day and his sad news. solemn friday. safe travels sk. How we wish we could cocoon the ones we love.
    Give m the biggest hug from me when you see him.
    x
    ps Candy?! 🙂

  23. avatar
    BEYOND LOVE AND ROCKETS | 6 April 2007 at 3:13 pm #

    Hey Esskay,
    me am still waiting to be taken off that cross…
    The Jesus & Mary Chain

  24. avatar
    Tim | 6 April 2007 at 3:34 pm #

    Its amazing how you sometimes don’t realize how much you miss all those things you take for granted. I travelled to a show a couple of hours from home and stopped by to see an old friend I hadn’t seen in years and found him all drugged, smoking crack, selling perks to minors to snort, a guy throwing away his life with 2 beautiful young daughters. It made me instantly count my blessings, and I wanted to be home again, with my wife, my 3 and 7 year old. It made me furious that he was this way. That he had so much to live for other than drugs and drug deals. So on this Easter weekend, count your many blessings friend. And try and enjoy yourself!

    KICK ASS IN EUROPE!!!!!!!!

    Tim

  25. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 6 April 2007 at 4:15 pm #

    What’s going on with Marty, please, if Sue C or SK or someone is able to say here?

    x

  26. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 6 April 2007 at 4:17 pm #

    I pray that Steve and his family members have a safe trip. Once again the truth has been revealed. Indeed we are a fallen race. Look at all the human homicides, animal genocide and decimation of God’s planet. If we were made in God’s image then we are a malevolent disgrace to our benevolent Creator who imbued us with grace.

  27. avatar
    Cee | 6 April 2007 at 4:51 pm #

    Blessed Be in the Season of Spring! Go Forth and Flower!

    Sending Marty calm energy to help deal with whatever he is facing.

    Cee

  28. avatar
    Fan-do-you-know-who | 6 April 2007 at 4:51 pm #

    Wow, Master Pernath… hope you found something for you in these pages. glad you’ll visit the place. If you like, I can do my best travel guide impersonation. cu

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 April 2007 at 4:55 pm #

    Go to Marty’s myspace page and read the comments…

  30. avatar
    GAM | 6 April 2007 at 5:02 pm #

    Hey Steve,

    You ask if anything’s changed from that day they nailed up JC. Well, it all depends on what you believe of course, but some will tell you everything changed a couple of days later. After the banality of man’s evil, the miracle of divine love.

    I look forward to seeing you and the band in London.

    GAM

  31. avatar
    Lx | 6 April 2007 at 5:26 pm #

    sometimes
    you get that feeling that
    if not enough people showed up
    for the crucifixion (fiction),
    they’d have re-scheduled.

  32. avatar
    stealthblue | 6 April 2007 at 5:33 pm #

    Hey Steve-o,
    Despite “current circumstances” I wish all the best, and much warmth and comfort to you guys, especially MWP.

    May your travels (and your fambley’s) be safe, fun and rewarding. Fare well, friends.

    Much Love and Happy Easter to all…
    Cheers,
    Ben V.

  33. avatar
    Mr. Ricky | 6 April 2007 at 6:46 pm #

    see you in Brighton!!!

    xx

  34. avatar
    ~ | 6 April 2007 at 7:12 pm #

    followed wild horses thru a pass
    to a spa retreat
    yesterday
    went there for my tired feet
    an old Mexican lady
    reached my soul
    through my soles
    no one has ever touched my feet
    so gently
    I thanked her again and again
    she laughed at me softly
    she said
    “well I must be gentle, you have baby feet, they’ve been in boots and thick socks all year, haven’t they?”
    she said I needed some sun
    I agreed
    I bought new sandals
    vegan!
    sequined!
    sky blue!
    oh happy feet
    flying up flights of stairs
    the same ones I walked heavily down
    a day ago
    a nine year old girl
    betrayed by those she loved
    becomes aggressive when vulnerable
    she sent a mean mean letter
    detailing her hurt and rage
    to the ignorant
    they that caused her pain, she thought, should know of her hurt
    but it failed to make her feel better
    in fact…
    she remembered that god has a hand in everything
    that all suffering
    guilt
    shame
    abuse
    anger
    violation
    has an antithesis
    that is meant to show us
    our lack of Love
    god wants the folks to
    don’t worry
    be happy
    sing good songs
    think good thoughts
    create good things
    the gentle and kind jc
    tried to tell em
    that virgo
    was as chaste as a pomegranite
    her purity
    was intention
    her harvest
    was kindness
    sown in springs
    reaped in falls
    but the people thought he was making stuff up
    the ones that believed him
    scattered
    the romans in catholic school
    decided nuff was nuff
    they wanted some control
    over this new found
    hope
    ha! they said, commoners don’t deserve hope!
    that is a privvy to the rich
    so they rounded them up
    sorted them out
    fed them to lions
    raped and plundered
    what was left of sweet jesus
    written into a cult of virgins
    taking a guess about things
    excluding
    omitting
    many years after the light being
    vanished
    somewhere good ol jc must be rolling his eyes heavenward
    muttering to himself:
    cult of virginity, eh?
    boring!
    this good soul loved the ladies
    he was kind to his mum
    his parents musta had quite a time with this lad
    he was probably more than a handfull!!!
    ha!
    The blame may be placed, I think
    on fear
    fear of something that cannot be controled or taken
    such as Love Faith Hope Trust
    so things that could be stolen
    innocense
    became a prize
    to be fought over or taken
    but not Loved
    not truly in the way that it was meant to
    god would not demand an act of creation
    so miraculous
    then call it vile
    give it rules
    make it circumstantial
    give it guilt and shame
    oh and all the stop with freakin jesus people
    puleez
    do you imagine anyone more freaked out about such a gift of Sight
    as Mr.Nazarine?
    what suffering the packs seek to inflict
    on those that prefer to run wild
    independantly following the call
    of their true nature
    it makes people
    jealous
    to see someone have the freedom
    they deny themselves
    they don’t see they already have
    Divine Love
    they are created by it
    they carry it out of the sea
    they bring it back home to the tide
    swimming in the surf under the sun
    spirits in the material world
    what have we manifested, easter?
    ugly things that should be beautiful
    will be again
    a new wave
    turn o the tides
    crucify and resurrect
    a painful cycle
    I feel will soon be mended
    yes I dream about it
    laugh it off, you’ll see
    I told a married woman
    a friend of my moms
    after church one day
    that the guy she was talking to
    was swishy
    he complemented me on my sweater set!
    as if he wanted one of his own, I thought
    hmmm
    the lady was shocked and chagrined
    he was married to her
    sure enough, 2 years later
    this dude packed up n left
    for Castro baby
    with some leather daddy he’d met at a bar
    well, I don’t like to say told ya so
    but I did…
    and if jc were here today
    I would sit him down
    kiss his furrowed brow
    his tears
    remove his sandals and
    sooth his aching feet

    ~

  35. avatar
    davem | 6 April 2007 at 7:21 pm #

    Sorry to hear about the sad news. I’m anxious about what it is though. I hope nk and the girls are all ok too.
    And of course we can’t wait for the european tour. Esskay “We Welcome You”!!!
    xxxx

  36. avatar
    davem | 6 April 2007 at 7:27 pm #

    Steve, you asked “are you coming?”
    Yes!!!
    Tickets and hotels sorted for Brighton and London and I can’t effing wait.
    To quote a certain singer I’m “like the cat that had the cream….you’re so easy to love”.
    xx

  37. avatar
    davem | 6 April 2007 at 7:42 pm #

    Just read about Marty’s Mum.
    Much love to him. I lost my Mum 16 years ago and it still hurts.
    x

  38. avatar
    Zorro 10-15 | 6 April 2007 at 9:47 pm #

    Man created God and Jesus? Just what we need, another fucking intellectual egomaniac w/out any blogge ethics. Happy Easter!

  39. avatar
    isolde | 6 April 2007 at 9:59 pm #

    lord the cross of loneliness is hard to bear
    but the rock will roll
    yeah yeah

  40. avatar
    ~ | 6 April 2007 at 10:29 pm #

    B
    thoughts are as real and tangible
    as dreams
    what you hold in your awareness
    co-creates your reality
    manifest from the unmanifest
    the moon follows mercury
    yes it does my friend
    whether you like it or not
    whether you believe it or not
    ancients considered the moon
    to represent the body
    cold and lifeless
    inanimate
    without the illumination of the sun
    it does not glow
    for those on spaceship earth
    without reflecting that light
    the sun is the life giver, the animate
    the soul, spirit, higher self, god
    call it what you like
    your body does not function w/o the sun
    your soul does not function here
    w/o the moon

    emily teachin’
    thank you, sweetly
    it’s my heart thats been unrollled
    not just in my chest
    it’s led me to an exceptional place
    a beautiful garden
    do I walk alone?

    MP~
    peace and condolance
    heart and solace
    thank you for the roadsigns
    thank you for the roadsigns
    I followed the 2nd
    to the letter A,B,C_5
    sped away at 111 mph
    landing time ap pro poe
    heh heh
    I stayed
    I prayed
    now I head north tomorrow
    still spring there
    still an image of pink petal showers and blue ocean watercolours
    I’d rush into
    follow the 1st
    to a point
    stranded rebanded?
    hope full
    next…
    after the…
    right turn signal?
    say yes
    yes
    yes

    ~
    safe travelling to all,
    many happy returns home

  41. avatar
    ~ | 6 April 2007 at 10:43 pm #

    mercury=the mind
    speed of conciousness
    illumination+mind+body
    =111mph
    or kph
    whatever is clever
    and gets ya there
    it’s all Projection
    golden dreams that can come true
    while you are awake
    see the signs
    baby!

    ~

  42. avatar
    Bob | 6 April 2007 at 10:47 pm #

    “How long must the red rain last?”
    “As long as the race endures”

  43. avatar
    mattdavison | 6 April 2007 at 11:15 pm #

    Well where do you start.. much positive energy to ya sk. And MWP

    I know the feeling you are dealing with and It’s really really hard.

    All the best with Europe.. And try to get to the manic street preachers that are touring aswell, 4 the first time in four years.. they are amazing, and playing two concert in London around your shows.

    The Church “easter”.. strange connection eh!

    Lv ya
    thinking of you all.

    M

  44. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 April 2007 at 11:25 pm #

    much love to marty…….linda and gen buckingham /xxxxxxxxxxx

  45. avatar
    veleska1970 | 6 April 2007 at 11:45 pm #

    love and hugs to marty.

  46. avatar
    knot | 6 April 2007 at 11:54 pm #

    Though they sink through the sea they shall rise again;
    Though lovers be lost love shall not;
    And death shall have no dominion.

    my regrets to mwp

  47. avatar
    kat | 6 April 2007 at 11:56 pm #

    cheer up, sk.. and happy easter. i am very sorry to hear of mwp’s mom, i lost mine on april 8th years back.. still hurts like no other pain.

    xo all

  48. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 April 2007 at 1:20 am #

    Hi sk,
    Hope you’re feeling better today and your family landed safely in the U.S.
    Write to us soon ok!
    Lots of love,
    Amanda

  49. avatar
    Celticat | 7 April 2007 at 1:22 am #

    To Anonymous said…
    please no jesus freak trash – I think you missed the point, besides it is Easter.

    I enjoyed your blogge today, Steve. All the very best for the tour, hope your able to stay in touch. Your family will be OK and will be missing you already.

    Much Love

  50. avatar
    nine | 7 April 2007 at 1:30 am #

    check one, check one, check one, two, three. real is real. Dorothy was in Oz, Alice was in Wonderland, but they couldn’t take any of thier friends to the place that only existed in thier dreams.

  51. avatar
    ~ | 7 April 2007 at 5:08 am #

    into your hands…
    I flew
    no blame
    fear
    lack of trust
    no game
    no atrocities needed, no suffering
    a feast offered
    an invitation accepted
    she said she would
    and so she did
    the truth can set us free
    you said it
    Love and Forgiveness
    freely given
    to anyone who chooses the reality of that dream
    the point of Easter
    has anything changed?
    I still Love
    I refuse to suffer because
    I can’t because…
    freed from the inhumanity of illusions
    by Love
    the adventures of a reluctant…
    name branded she
    forgives herself but can never
    forget him
    is this how it ends?
    no one else could have written it

    ~

  52. avatar
    11 | 7 April 2007 at 6:00 am #

    that real is real
    leaves no room for miracles
    or imagination
    if you think
    it’s all in your head
    that it’s somehow impossible
    to be any other way
    then
    guess what
    through the looking glass you go
    creating your own limitations
    based on what you think you see
    in the mirror
    then what you see
    will indeed be
    what you get

    peace to you
    may your dreams come true

  53. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 April 2007 at 6:17 am #

    Hi SK, Happy Easter to you,

    Sorry the family aren’t with you, but good for nk to see her family and friends,bet they can’t wait to see her and the 3 gorgeous girls.

    Hope the Easter Bunny came to you all this week. I must have been good (or so he/she thought) as it visisted me today. Will be enjoying some chocolato with some champers tonite.

    Are u packed yet? Don’t forget extra everything. Good luck with all the new security at airport, hope it will be hassell free. Hope all the planes go on or near on time (r they ever on time?) and everything goes well for the tour. Bet you’re excited about seeing the twillies again and all those beautiful European cities, lucky fella. If you need a porter to help with the bags put me up the top of the list of volunteers.

    Take care and have a good rest the next few days, before the URCH storm across Europe.

    Safe & happy travelling to u & the boys.

    Love & Peace,
    Therese

  54. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 April 2007 at 6:24 am #

    Just read comments about Martys mum, let him know he is in all the fiends thoughts and prayers.

    Lost my Dad 29th March 5 yrs ago, that day was also Good Friday then.
    Now it’s like 2 anniversaries think of him passing on both days, and since then Good Fri the last few yrs has been raining like the day he passed away.

    Therese

  55. avatar
    damien | 7 April 2007 at 8:46 am #

    Another Easter joke for you:

    What did Jesus say to the disciples as he was nailed to the cross?

    “Don’t touch my fuckin’ eggs! I’ll be back on Sunday!”


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