posted on April 24, 2009 at 9:17 pm

suffer the little slings n arrows
to come unto me
one step forwards
one step sideways
one step beyond
one thing goes right
on thing goes left behind
one thing goes haywire
publicity
fame
photo ops
slow mo
i see my name slandered n bandied about
i see my picture reproduced in some rag
i see the great unwashed public
who dont give a flying frig about me or what i do
i read the reviews…..hmmmmm…so this ones ok?
i keep knocking out stuff
more things incessantly
more more more
knock knock knock
knock it out
knock it off
a whirl of action
oh god i need a holiday
no time
no money
no possibility
must keep pressing ahead
trying to come up with something
cant rest on my laurel wreath
yes u23 is a masterpeace
but which way is the wind blowing today?
painkiller is wearing off
antarctica starts here
the ice melting down down down
the rain soaks into the earth
the music soaks into the ether
the people fade into oblivion
eventually everything is forgotten
the masterpeaces and the lumps of rubbish
the ‘andsome kings and the hugly villains
the knuckleheads n the clever sods
pessimism falls down on me
i struggle against myself
i thrash around in anxiety
i anticipate the cold dread of worry
fear sours my stomach
i nervously apprehend time
i approach the future with great caution
someone deal me a king
someone deal me another
someone slip me a joker
someone send me a cheque
thank you my generous subscribers
thank you my kind donators
thank you my patrons and ladies
thank you my readers
thank you my good friends and well wishers
thank you my former lives which led up to now
i am beginning to see who i am
oh how hilarious it all is
8 a.m. on a saturday morning
its so nice out there
why do i sit in here n type type type?
dont wanna let you down
i know you wanted yer ttb
people rely on me to be there
n goddamm it
im gonna be there
a facta life you can count on
kilbey/inevitable
like the sun n moon
i will fucking prevail
i will overcome
i will turn it around
and somehow pay off my tax
and somehow sell some records
and somehow shake off the various pests
who still try to infest my head
the blackmailing failing
the poison pen that nauseates me
keeping on keeping on
like a tick or a flea
or a parasite in someone elses mind
so unnecessary
coward!
get over it!
get thee fucking behind me all you worms
gnawing at my confidence n peace of mind
i will prevail
i will endure
with or without
i will go on n i will create
and some people will understand
and some people will love it
and some people will hate it
and someone might even pay for it
and thats enough for today
i shower blessings down on your house
go forth and multiply
or just have a nice day
sk

34 Responses to “on track”

  1. avatar
    Cee | 24 April 2009 at 10:25 pm #

    Thanks for setting up my weekend with such a great vibe.

  2. avatar
    stealthblue | 24 April 2009 at 11:48 pm #

    Amen, Kilbo! Hey, we’re right here with ya, brother. Thanks for EVERYTHING! Much Peace and Love to you and the fam…
    Ben

  3. avatar
    ronbonham | 24 April 2009 at 11:58 pm #

    Ah, mate sounds as if you have a

    case of what we call the “Houstons”

    Don’t let it drag you down, can’t

    even begin to tell you how many

    people you touch in a good way.

    I have turned on 4 and counting

    folks to #23, and every one says

    the same thing; “Thank You for

    giving that album to me”. Feel a

    little guilty b/c I downloaded it

    off the net, for free. PROMISE I

    will buy a copy on CD the day it

    comes out and the LP at one of your

    shows, PROMISE!!

    And I am efforting to have some of

    my bandmates drive w/me up to KC to

    come down and testify to the CHURCH

    almost have them committed to it!!

    Love n Light Ron Bonham

    PS any chance you cats will play
    Anchorage on the upcoming tour? I saw that it was played in some of
    the early shows in March….

  4. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 25 April 2009 at 12:17 am #

    What else can you do. You create the best progressive and psychedelic music on the planet and get very little financial and commercial reinforcement for it. I now think the Newspaper article was good publicity. Being a bad boy sells records in London and Los Angeles. Motley Crew innnately suck and their bad boy image sells records. Your music is too exquisite for the paltry masses to gauge. The people who rule our world are malevolent irreverence for life reprobates. I need money too. I might incessantly eat and drink and get recognized as the world’s fattest vegan. I need fame and shame if necessary for money !!!

  5. avatar
    daveoto | 25 April 2009 at 12:33 am #

    Steve, you mean so much to so many.
    Your music transcends any mediocrity.
    The Blurred Crusade-the first time i saw you in Preston UK. You wont remember the time we spent backstage-how can you? BUT it is imprinted on my cerebral cortex- a magical moment to take to the grave.
    Seance, Remote Luxury, Heyday-such great memories.
    Remindlessness-still my favourite solo album-but only just, Painkiller.
    P=A, still the jewel in the crown, but still to hear U#23 yet. Getting positive vibes though.
    HOB-the Renaissance-Forget Yourself- A Masterpiece.
    So much stuff.
    Amsterdam 2007-THE BEST GIG EVER.
    Don't ever give up!
    I would trade my reasonably paid, but sressfull job for yours anyday, so ENJOY.
    Make the most, make the most joyful music.
    AND if you get the chance-play London & i wilL see you there-come what may!!
    D.!!!!

  6. avatar
    princey | 25 April 2009 at 12:38 am #

    You blessed my house once before earlier this year and I thank you for it, bless you too Stevie K 🙂
    love amanda

  7. avatar
    loolaabillions | 25 April 2009 at 12:52 am #

    kilbey/inevitabe
    now thats something
    i can deal with
    thank you….xx

  8. avatar
    Richard | 25 April 2009 at 1:07 am #

    do you think maybe the tax office would let you cut it out with a few ATO benefit concerts?

    you could turn up in Canberra and belt out a bunch of songs from your lexicon with tax relevance – is this where you live, witch hunt, awful ache, numbers, I kept everything, lay low, reprieve, blood money, authority, my little problem, much too much, no explanation, take it back…

    Shit! No wonder the Church aren’t more popular – so many songs about taxation!!

    Not a religion

  9. avatar
    M E M | 25 April 2009 at 2:01 am #

    un#23“you guys found a time machine and that was recorded that in the 1960’s, right…”

    first impressions:

    MEM

  10. avatar
    Freddie | 25 April 2009 at 2:58 am #

    Atta boy!
    You ain’t that guy from back then
    anymore anyhow.
    xoxo

  11. avatar
    EDD | 25 April 2009 at 3:19 am #

    Jesus Christ, Steve. If you can’t figure it all out how tha fukk am I gonna?

  12. avatar
    kyle farley | 25 April 2009 at 3:47 am #

    I was telling my wife that you are 1 of few that can make any sentence run wild w/ any and all possibilities of the ethereal! Looking forward to visiting from Texas at your Portland Show!

  13. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 25 April 2009 at 4:09 am #

    painkiller wearing off??? BULLSHIT.
    you make the best music that i’ve ever heard (and am ever likely to hear)
    love always……

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 April 2009 at 4:25 am #

    Prevail and endure sk. I for one will love it.

    Lady Di

  15. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 25 April 2009 at 4:25 am #

    just read the smh stephen cummings article…..WANKER…..(i mean he is, not you….)
    love always….

  16. avatar
    heyday2day | 25 April 2009 at 4:31 am #

    it was a bit more than a year ago when i found that there are more in the world like me that your music, your words has touched (and continues to touch) in a very personal way. as most folks do, i have grown and changed (and you too) and your music has been a constant companion. what a gift that must be, to create pieces of music/art that are so powerful/moving that people absorb them and carry them to where it becomes a part of a persons fabric. there have been other musicians and writers that have created pieces that i carry with me but they are dwarfed by the number of creations penned by the church/kilbey. look around. there’s alot of love for you in the world and deservedly so for what you have given and the obstacles overcame to do it.
    #23 is unbelievable. it wraps itself around me each and every time i listen to it and it’s always a different ride/experience. i lack the skills to properly describe it. the best i can do is that it is so complete. it, like p=a and aent before it, must be experienced completely. it is unbelievable but i’m not suprised anymore, i’ve learned to expect it. feel good sir, you deserve it.
    looking forward to driving up from dallas to see you in kansas city. best of luck on the tv deal.

    bg

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 April 2009 at 6:21 am #

    Who’s Kilbey?

  18. avatar
    matt davison | 25 April 2009 at 7:01 am #

    dont worry sk..plonkers are everywhere…

    kurts got $$ 4 ya soon..

    MD

  19. avatar
    Verdelay | 25 April 2009 at 7:47 am #

    That’s the spirit, killer

    I am currently absorbing your latest piece of work, Unintended #32. What impresses me the most is the sheer lack of laurel-resting going on with it, another rubikquitous re-combination of colours and patterns from The Church to create something at once comfortingly familiar and yet challengingly new.

    Jolly splendid trip old bean

    v

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 April 2009 at 8:34 am #

    I was purchasing the Pangaea e.p. a few weeks back and the clerk says, “Oh, The Church! I like that song Under the Milky Way. Aren’t they from Australia?” While secretly rolling my eyes in disgust/annoyance, I managed to comment, “Hmmm, never heard that one. I’m only familiar with the other 300 they recorded.” With a puzzled look, she handed me my receipt and I crept quietly into the night.

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 April 2009 at 8:48 am #

    Hi Steve, Davem here, can’t get login to work so trying anon, oh boy. Anyway, never forget how much you mean to us out here Steve, you are a true diamond geezer. Today I listened to Church records, and I do mean records and not cd’s, all day while my wife and kids went to the park. Absolutely priceless.

  22. avatar
    davem | 25 April 2009 at 9:19 am #

    Totally in your corner. Every day.
    xx

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 April 2009 at 10:03 am #

    on track for what.

    do you think about how Scarlett is going to be able to attend Uni if she desires.
    Your fans aren’t going to pay, they barely pay now. Is the universe going to provide or do you just not give a shit about your kids future.
    Oh ah they dont eat meat, thats gonna get them thru life. You talk about worms. Worms are very productive and useful.
    The reason you fans only toss you coins is that they are in fairly low paying jobs. Giving you handouts must be an awesome thrill for them. When are you going to man up.
    You must be exhausted by living in the past, avoiding taxes and not having a job. Getting you head out of your own arse must be impossible.

  24. avatar
    restaurant mark | 25 April 2009 at 4:06 pm #

    and you have a nice day as well sir…

    take care…appreciate ya
    mark

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 April 2009 at 5:01 pm #

    you will fucking prevail:
    http://lucidculture.wordpress.com/2009/04/25/cd-review-steve-kilbey-painkiller

    see you at Irving Plaza in July

  26. avatar
    veleska1970 | 25 April 2009 at 5:20 pm #

    thank you, sir, for your thoughtfulness. and also for writing everyday.

    you have a nice day, too, steve.

    lotza love…..

  27. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 25 April 2009 at 6:44 pm #

    Must mention the wondrous 3 track Coffee Hounds EP. Dreamy and lush vocals instrumentals and for me your version of “The Hounds Of Love” is better than Kate’s. The only Kate Bush CD that I love is “The Sensual World”.

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 April 2009 at 7:06 pm #

    Hey, you made my day.
    I was just checking the concert listings
    for my local venue,
    and saw that you’ll be performing
    in Annapolis, MD in June.
    I was so excited and wasted no time to buy my tickets.
    I’ve seen you perform there before,
    it’s a nice little venue.
    What do I have to do to get the opportunity to meet you this time?
    (besides the jazz cigarette thing)
    I missed you a few years ago at the State Theater in Falls Church Va., I did get to meet Marty though.
    Anyhow, you have many devoted fans, and we appreciate what you do,
    I’m just sorry that it’s not enough to make you a wealthy man!

    Lots of love,
    Renee

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 April 2009 at 7:07 pm #

    Wow, what’s with the approval thing?

    Nevermind, I know.

    Renee

  30. avatar
    steve kilbey | 25 April 2009 at 8:58 pm #

    anon at 803
    scarlet is spelt with one t
    lots of love
    your very good friend
    steve
    ps thanks for the kind words
    i can tell youre such a precious person
    if only everyone was like you
    what a wonderful world it would be…!

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 April 2009 at 9:51 pm #

    Good one, SK! Kill them with kindness; it’s the best way to silence the 803’s of the world

  32. avatar
    fantasticandy | 25 April 2009 at 9:58 pm #

    nice comeback guv’ner!
    hecklers eh?
    the buggers get everyware don’t they……..

  33. avatar
    davem | 26 April 2009 at 6:21 am #

    That anon comment at 6.48 wasn’t me.
    There are some very strange people out there!!!!
    Take care.

  34. avatar
    smoochgirl | 26 April 2009 at 2:54 pm #

    i can relate to your concerns on a MUCH more miniscule level. these self pep talks are great, but make sure you say it out loud! for me, it makes it real and convinces me that i am actually not doing as bad as i thought. 🙂


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