posted on March 21, 2009 at 8:46 pm

ive gone on a painting spree
i cant stop painting
i listen to loud music and i paint n paint
the kids ask to go down the beach
all the way the images assault my eyes
the sky bends down n whispers to me
i listen to sound
i see music
my kids yabber away to me
the music pounds in my headphones
cars pull up and drive on
oh lovely march days
i march along with my 3 gals
aurora kilbey
eve kilbey
scarlet kilbey
3 of the perkiest girls you ever met
down the beach theyre straight in that sharkey sea
theres quite a few still in the flat pacific at 6 oh clock
i’m knocking out paintings at home
i’m on a roll
feel like i can do no wrong
i do eve as a dryad
i do myself as a hollow cheeked king from the old days
i do a giant bird turning to gaze at ya
i splash on the gold paint
ah i am an instant klimpt…ha ha
whatever
something supernaturally guides my hand
something outside me whispers suggestions
i access a library of human unconscious
my fingers move in new subtle ways
i thought age was a process of decline
yet here i am getting better
or am i going mad
or is it that
i simply cant tell
and ive drowned in my own egotistick wallowings
and a few accol-lites spur me on
what i do i’m doing better
but what the fuck is actually happening ?
at this incredibly late late stage of the game
almost impossible to get back in
ive rallied
ive sussed
i actually became GOOD!
yeah yeah
oh no
oh here he goes again….
but if you were me
you’d write about me,
wouldnt you?
me me me me me
what else do i know about?
you?
itd just be fiction
you got up
and you did this
and you did that
how the fuck would i know what you did?
so i am left with me
and my chiron trip
and with my kingly visage
which is hard to pull off
and my hands n voices
which pull stuff outta thin air
a strange energy drives me unrelentingly
at the very edge of raving madness
i walk the hinterlands collecting souvenirs
its ok …i’m a poet….i know what i’m doing
still i ask
when i was just another podgy washed up ninny
what happened……?
which things
if faithfully adhered to
could turn a life around like that?
must be yoga
must be vegism
must be swimming
must be luck
you gotta do yoga every day
put that hour in
get a new life back
youll start to flourish n bloom
boom boom boom
oh you ones who hate it are the ones who need it most
sooner or later
when yer natural youth runs out
you better be riding that yoga train baby
you better be swimming in the holy sea everyday hot or cold
you better leave that meat
you better ditch those eggs
you better switch off that tv
you better get creating
you better get moving
you better get walking around
you better get cracking
dont stay still
dont eat pizza
dont drink beer or smoke fags
dont loll about like a ninny
fucking up n at em
take a swing
have a shot
or whatever
see if i care or even know if ya dont….
but i wish you could feel this energy driving me
hey you dont have to feel old and tired just yet
dont give in to lethargy pal
strive hard mister…..and do a painting or something
just dont sit around
its boring
and if you aint donated
today is a good day
if you have
the time being thanks you
very much!

25 Responses to “painting spree”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 March 2009 at 9:46 pm #

    Paint any noahs?

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    matt davison | 21 March 2009 at 10:20 pm #

    It’s Intervention from above SK… You know that now……….

    Hmmmmm “works in mysterious ways”

    Good on ya my friend

    Do a pic for me!! eh

  3. avatar
    linjo | 22 March 2009 at 12:11 am #

    So true Steve. All the money in the world aint gonna make me feel good about myself if I choose to slow suicide with cigs. I am fascinated by the process of addiction and have just read two absorbing books, Silent Scream and Beautiful Boy. Thank you for today’s fresh and colourful blog and the mention of the “perky” little chicks. Linda

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    M E M | 22 March 2009 at 12:19 am #

    go killer
    go…

    see it
    believe it
    paint it…

    today..
    my birthday
    the solar
    festival…

    and

    i’ve got
    great
    music on…

    more
    soon…

    mem

  5. avatar
    loolaabillions | 22 March 2009 at 1:08 am #

    i love that
    your beside the seaside
    cause
    that in itself
    is such a great pick me up

    and i dont think being
    54/5 is that old…
    then again what would i know
    being 37…

    i guess your only as old
    as you feel…….xx

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    ronbonham | 22 March 2009 at 1:11 am #

    Ah Steve I can say right now I am feeling it too, re-born after a trip out to LA and seeing Primal Scream rock it so hard.I have been in the practice room trying to knock off the rust for a big upcoming week for my band, won’t mention the name, not important. Today I played non-stop for an hour and the sweat just poured and poured out while I drummed away, I feel so intune w/my instrument right now, I wish I can keep the clarity I feel…it’s so very humbling and beautful, the gift of music!

  7. avatar
    lily was here | 22 March 2009 at 1:46 am #

    There’s never enough hours in the day, is there. I love that feeling; love it when you have that feeling. Not every painting has to be a masterpiece; like every piece of music, its a part of you coming out onto paper, self expression releasing itself in art.

    Self taught american artist Bill Traylor didnt start painting till he was 84; you’re a spring chicken. BT produced thousands of drawings, favouring vivid cobalt blue.His work reminds me of the ancient egyptians; both with no influence aside from his own surroundings, unable to read or write – outsiders in their own way. Very inspiring today Steve. Wonder what you’re listening to?

    xxx

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 March 2009 at 1:48 am #

    Hey Steve and all. Ive been thinking about seizure salad, the flashbacky stuff and the gigs youve been doing. I have similar drug use in my history and a serious brush with fame going on. I am also a registered nurse (dont ask me how all that fits together…).
    Seems that maybe post or even during chemical expereince, especially one that hits the wall eventually, is that people can become highly sensitised to life’s experiences, particularly around the natural world and in relation to electricity and radio waves (as in producing telepathic or precognitive experiences). Maybe some of this stuff could be exacerbated when you do a gig where staying gounded may not be useful and there is a powerful collective experience to be had.
    Anyway, as you are getting on a tad, maybe you should take care not to over stimulate your nervous system, even though you seem to have the means to channel energy creatively.
    I would be really interested to learn if you have other experienced with electicity, car remote locking devices and other remotes, and stuff like TV antenae.
    I speculate around the nature of charisma and how this energy might be quantified scientifically, but 4 now only have personal experience t ouse as a guide. And plenty of kooky phenomena there is to speculate about.
    Warmest Regards
    Jen

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    Hellbound Heart | 22 March 2009 at 4:28 am #

    ….i rescind yesterday’s directive to burn your picture, steve…..it’s a reminder of life and living and to reach for the light…..as you obviously are doing…..spent a heap’o’ dollars at church merch last week so i’m kinda broke….hope what you get outta my spending will do for the mo’ matey…..
    can’t wait to see the new artwork and can’t wait to hear the new music!!!!
    love always….

  10. avatar
    Lian | 22 March 2009 at 6:46 am #

    Happy birthday, MEM!

  11. avatar
    Richard | 22 March 2009 at 6:46 am #

    the inner life you keep on spurning

  12. avatar
    melissa | 22 March 2009 at 7:52 am #

    dont loll about like a ninny

    heehee 😉 just made me giggle 😀

    Good for you SK!

    ..’The Seizure’ makes me feel immediately very sad 🙁 Gladly, you sound so much better, especially in today’s blog.

    All the best to you 🙂
    xxx

  13. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 22 March 2009 at 7:58 am #

    my name is donate…
    Jonny

  14. avatar
    fantasticandy | 22 March 2009 at 9:07 am #

    hey jen,
    people used to bring electrial appliances to me for me to fix ’em.
    quite often i only needed to touch things and they started working normally again.
    go figure eh?

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    Anonymous | 22 March 2009 at 9:20 am #

    Thanks for that Steve. Tomorrow I begin losing these comedy breasts that have grown on my upper torso recently…and the middle age spread that makes me long for the days when I had a 6-pack stomach and didn’t even know it! Perhaps then my creative urge will resurface, my afternoon naps will cease to be, my lust for life will return and hit me right between the eyes.

    Such an inspiration…and I bet you don’t even know it…now, where’s that yoga book I bought 16 years ago…

  16. avatar
    Richard | 22 March 2009 at 12:18 pm #

    Meet Ali

    With the spectacular exception of last weekend this has been a very sad time.

    About July last year some close friends of mine set off with their daughter Ali to sail around the world.

    They had a wonderful reason to do this.

    Ali had been variously diagnosed with Aspergers and high-functioning autism.

    She'd reached her mid teens and her mum and dad felt that her experience at school was becoming counterproductive. The same beaming, guileless enthusiasm that endeared her to most who really knew her made her a soft target in the cruel world of the playground.

    So they retired, sold up, bought a yacht, and off they went – with the aim of intensively 'home' schooling her and showing her the world.

    They kept a blog of their journey (one of the two I visit).

    By all accounts it was a great move and Ali was gaining the self-confidence that she deserved.

    And then in late February there was an accident and she was gone.

    She was, as usual, in the midst of being the first on the scene – the first to meet the new people and find out what was going on.

    Although she died in Thailand, there was a memorial service back in Darwin. There were hundreds of people there – many of whom her parents had never met.

    With all the talk here recently of Aspergers I thought I should introduce you all to Ali. There's a link to the blog below. Apart from the impossible sadness of the last posting it offers some great insights into a wonderful personality (who, for example, had become betrothed to an Indonesian Sultan – cut and paste 2nd link – go to 13 August).

    http://malaikacrew.blogspot.com/

    http://malaikacrew.blogspot.com/search?updated-max=2008-08-22T15%3A22%3A00%2B09%3A30&max-results=7

  17. avatar
    matthew | 22 March 2009 at 12:37 pm #

    “at this incredibly late late stage of the game”…

    I just think you’re proving an ancient truth which our “Youth Worshipper” culture has tried so hard to bury… getting older SHOULD be about getting better, wiser, more skilled, more in-tune.

    If you look at most cultures that have thrived for millenia without too much unfortunate “western” influence, it’s normal to find that as people age, they pass not into ridicule, but into greater relevance and being revered for their experience and wisdom.

    We’ve got it so, so wrong.

    MSM

    PS I’m loving #23 more and more!

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 March 2009 at 2:08 pm #

    You live on a wonderful roller coaster.

  19. avatar
    Freddie | 22 March 2009 at 2:53 pm #

    YES!! 😀

  20. avatar
    davem | 22 March 2009 at 3:55 pm #

    There’s a co-incidence andy…my lawn-mower broke down today…any chance you could pop over matey?
    It’s one o’clock and time for lunch bum de dum de dum dum.

    Feeling guilty sk as I’ve just read this having eaten pizza and had a couple of glasses of wine…..I know you’re correct and I don’t do meat or fish but I still do dairy from time-to-time.
    That’s why I’m fatter than is good for me.

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    catchow | 22 March 2009 at 5:29 pm #

    your painting is like your writing:prolific and talented!
    it seems so easy for you ,Steve!
    about yoga,sure it’s good,i think it brings well being and self control but it need some patience
    to keep to it…
    Thanks for your fine advices:i’m used to it and you induce me to go on!

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 March 2009 at 5:49 pm #

    Steve, with your tinnitus problem, wearing earphones or headphones with your Ipod is not a good idea…

  23. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 22 March 2009 at 6:59 pm #

    Sk’s imbued with manic nirvana augmented by the holy manna he consumes. Now the bad news. A horrible oil spill in Australia has killed countless fish and marine species.

  24. avatar
    lily was here | 25 March 2009 at 1:56 pm #

    Richard, you can see the spirit in Ali shine through in her photo. Condolences on her loss x

  25. avatar
    smoochgirl | 9 April 2009 at 8:58 pm #

    i LOVE being in that creative mode when wonderful things happen. the key is to YEILD to the moment, without questioning whether it’s right or wrong. that’s when your true creative self emerges. if only there were enough hours in the day…


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