posted on January 24, 2008 at 2:37 am

no cat
no panther
you were sleeping
you were lying naked
like marilyn
like anyone
anyone sleeping really
sleeping sleeping sleeping
so tired you were
so tired oh god
you were so tired
tired of being tired
showbiz huh
agent waffle
audition slime
preview jitters
2nd day jinxes
contract spasm
manage a smile
opening night yawning in paris
hounded by camera
cramming a script
gossip fodder scratched up n bad
bullshit lies n innuendo
pressure
inner and outer
the other side
the other side starts to call
a pressure on you to depart
dream of a train leaving a station
last drinks gentlemen
eat up
its closing
the door
door between the 2 places at once
you fall asleep
new york was it?
was it even important
who saw it coming
the invisible draft that never said nothing
7 pages in a sydney newspaper
one inch= 20 thousand children who die in congo war
per month
people weep and mourn
the world of sadness
yet you sleep and sleep
how strange to never wake up
how strange to sleep and sleep
do you ever think of us as you dream
when you wake up on the other side
will the sun be shining
will the stars gone before you
be showing you the ropes
the lie of the land
the perfect sea
the gentle rain
the theatres full of applause
films about films
the lights
the action
all the more
the more the more
not the more or less
forever
or not
who can tell?

34 Responses to “pieces of eight lives”

  1. avatar
    the dean | 24 January 2008 at 4:07 am #

    Heath Ledger RIP

  2. avatar
    craig1.618 | 24 January 2008 at 4:13 am #

    watched an interesting movie online recently

    not for the faint of heart or for those who prefer to stay asleep

    **********www.zeitgeistmovie.com************

  3. avatar
    Richard | 24 January 2008 at 4:19 am #

    “7 pages in a sydney newspaper
    one inch= 20 thousand children who die in congo war per month”

    I really worry about these increasingly disproportionate media-led public outpourings of grief.

    Sad, but hardly world shattering, ‘celebrity tragedies’ assume this vulgar life of their own. It’s the mentality behind ‘reality’ tv at its cynical best.

    “You just sit back now. We’ll tell you what to be upset about, how to be upset about it and for how long.”

    Maybe so many of us embrace this stuff because grieving about a movie star (or crocodile catcher, or princess) it’s so much easier and self-contained than worrying about how fucked up the world is.

  4. avatar
    veleska1970 | 24 January 2008 at 4:25 am #

    “a pressure on you to depart”
    i’m thinking the same thing, as i’m sure scores of others are, too.

    “7 pages in a sydney newspaper
    one inch= 20 thousand children who die in congo war
    per month”
    yes, this is sad. heath’s death is sad, but then so are the 20,000 children also.

    it’s all tragic.

  5. avatar
    matt davison | 24 January 2008 at 4:34 am #

    Only the good die young….

    we all get a mile to walk, it’s just a matter of who takes the qicker route…and where within that mile, the dangers lurk.

    md

  6. avatar
    princey | 24 January 2008 at 5:07 am #

    I just hope the media leave his poor parents and family to grieve in peace. And to have a picture on the front page of HL being carried out in a taped up body bag is such bad, bad taste, they should be ashamed.

    On a different note though sk, I just wanted to tell you I LOVE the SK Live in NZ dvd (surprise,surprise) it’s almost like being there and I’m so glad the banter between songs was left in, you always make me laugh!
    Hope to see you one day soon in Melby again, we miss you!
    Take care and love always,
    Amanda

  7. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 24 January 2008 at 5:15 am #

    WOOD HEATH BE DREAMING OF HOLLOW EARTH AS HE SLEEPS???
    HOLLYWOOD

  8. avatar
    Leelinau | 24 January 2008 at 5:28 am #

    Such a divinely twisted world.

    The gods must be in a fit lately…

    strange winds blow all over.

    o_o

  9. avatar
    matt davison | 24 January 2008 at 7:29 am #

    Thats what I tried to do princey…create an experience like you were there…at the gig” the clinical types of music shows out there just wouldn’t have done the show justice”. It’s raw and paced at a level that keeps momentum to the peak of performance in Invisible

    thanks for the feedback: mattyd
    ———————————-

    Heath was a pure tragedy.. I just wish he had some one to care for him after such a grueling work load and who needed good support resting without the bloody sleeping tabs.

  10. avatar
    heather | 24 January 2008 at 8:48 am #

    Heath was a fine actor.
    There’s hardly any of them in Australia; Blanchett is one.

    This is a very elegant poem SK.

    xKittykat

  11. avatar
    linjo | 24 January 2008 at 9:24 am #

    Yes, beautiful words today Steve.
    Another tragedy is that little nobody dumbass in the yellow glasses getting paid big bucks for being a disrespectful little shit, couldnt you just smack his butt? Now he’s got Max whasisname as a manager! Central coast gig in March! yes!

  12. avatar
    not in nod | 24 January 2008 at 1:19 pm #

    yadda yadda, I wish I was still asleep after yesterday’s invitation to share oblivion for a few hours.
    God, I wish I could sleep.

  13. avatar
    matthew | 24 January 2008 at 1:31 pm #

    Hahaha loving this stuff SK, thanks, brilliant.

  14. avatar
    matthew | 24 January 2008 at 1:39 pm #

    “Hahaha” of course, in a bitter and sad way, just kinda triumphally reacting to the great poetry, you see…

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 24 January 2008 at 2:25 pm #

    so steve do u have any Dio in your music?

  16. avatar
    CSTCoach | 24 January 2008 at 3:04 pm #

    That clip that kept showing on the news, of a sea of flashbulbs going off as the poor guy’s body was wheeled out in a bag, was absolutely disgusting, and a sign of the sick times we live in. It’s not enough to live under that constant scrutiny, without a moment’s peace. They even hound ya when you’re dead.

    Very sad.

  17. avatar
    mandn | 24 January 2008 at 3:17 pm #

    how sad.
    he was brilliant.
    Tragic to think his life will now be more scrutinized
    than before he died. The very thing he hated…

    too soon.

    such sweet, scanthing and poignant words Orpheus
    -M

  18. avatar
    restaurant mark | 24 January 2008 at 3:33 pm #

    moving words steve…
    it’s all so sad…what? 5 million killed in the congo war over the years the news said…ridiculous. then heath’s death…a shame…liked him and his work…thought he was somehow more real. makes me think of the times in my past i could’ve had an oops moment and not woken up…

    take care everyone

  19. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 24 January 2008 at 3:44 pm #

    Another eloquent, poignant, compelling and realistically grievous blog by SK. The Congo is hell on earth for humans and animals. Amidst all the human suffering and carnage there are endangered gorillas, bonobos, orangutans, chimps and hippos being ruthlessly butchered and eaten into extinction by savage bush-meat marauders and poachers. The United Nations and the African Union seem to be callously impotent about saving the people and creatures of the Congo, Kenya and Zimbabwe. Bono will continue to blame the United States and England for all of Africa’s woes as a manipulating means to win a Nobel Peace Prize.

  20. avatar
    davem | 24 January 2008 at 5:13 pm #

    And that doesn’t include the thousands of others suffering unforgiveable abuse – sexual or otherwise.
    Weep.

  21. avatar
    snowfaller | 24 January 2008 at 9:05 pm #

    It’s amazing a “news” show would even mention this – let alone spend 20 minutes on it. Crazy. I don’t understand.

  22. avatar
    davem | 24 January 2008 at 10:18 pm #

    MattyD/SueC…or even…SK.
    I’ve got to order the dvd this weekend, one way or the other. Does SK make the same $$$’s if I go through Nick of Heyday (uk)…. please advise Matt as I don’t have your private e-mail and you never log on to your myspace and I’m really careful where I purchase from!!

  23. avatar
    isolde | 24 January 2008 at 10:21 pm #

    one day in the future when we are all dead and the confidentiality agreements have all faded into the past, the slavery and exploitation in the film industry will be exposed for what it was and the world will be shocked so folks as you settle down with your fanta and popcorn at the cinema next time spare a thought for the sacrifices of sanity and health made by the crew and actors

  24. avatar
    matt davison | 24 January 2008 at 10:56 pm #

    Davem.

    go to our official website..www.stevekilbeydvd.com

    – its a secure paypal accounting system and is your’e best option, however if you want to go through heyday” I am not sure really what deal has been done by our producer. (all the .com or cerch merch sales work out the same for all of us involved . just whatever is easier for you really.
    Our .com is fine, cherch merch is fine, sk’s myspace is cool aswell.

    good luck

    enjoy

    md

  25. avatar
    Queen Hatshepsut | 25 January 2008 at 2:42 am #

    Was it Stalin who said “One death is a tragedy and a million deaths a statistic” or something along those lines…

    Steve this was really moving and sad, yet so beautiful too.

    The vultures who waited to see the body bag come out obviously have never lost anyone. Three weeks ago I waited in my grandmother’s living room for the mortuary to come take her body away and when they came my mother and I could not watch them put her in a bag. I did not watch the coroner’s office bring out my father either, after he died. It is hideous thing to know someone you once loved is now gone and placed in a bag like trash or something and those who find any entertainment in it have lost all humanity or never had any to begin with.

  26. avatar
    Celticat | 25 January 2008 at 2:49 am #

    Just so fucking sad.

  27. avatar
    Ethereal Butterfly | 25 January 2008 at 2:57 am #

    For some perverse reason our society is obsessed with ‘Greek Gods’ & when they fall, the perversity is magnified. You have to be a strong person to survive such a cut-throat industry, and or have bloody minded determination to succeed with a great pillar of emotional support behind you. I was an actor for a while – I had the drive but not the ego. Acting has so many pitfalls, & for emotionally open people, (as you need to be to be an effective naturalistic actor as he was, you need to find a balance between living a self-centred existence & somehow remaining grounded.) ‘Two Hands’ is my view is one of Australia’s finest modern films ( also stars Brian Brown).It wove the indigenous dreamtime culture into a modern day robbery -fiasco -farce story, very entertaining if you can get it. Heath was superb in it as in many other films. RIP.

  28. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 25 January 2008 at 2:59 am #

    …i think that everything that needs to be said about hl’s death is in your poem, steve…
    the media are vultures, just look at how people like poor princess di aren’t allowed to rest in peace…just one reason that i NEVER buy tabloid magazines, don’t want to help these fucking hyenas make a living from others’ misery…
    it’s a strange and confronting experience to see a loved one who has died…trying to reconcile the fact that this empty shell with the cool, waxy-looking skin was someone that you shared moments of your life with…in this case his death was an end to sickness and pain and suffering…so it was also a time of peace…
    love always…live the moment…

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 4:19 am #

    fucked up world hey.so sad.

  30. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 7:24 am #

    thanks sk i needed that.

  31. avatar
    galamor the wizard | 25 January 2008 at 7:51 am #

    Heath was an ok guy and a good actor. But as David McComb said –
    “You are not moving any mountains,
    You are not seeing any visions,
    You are not freeing any people from prison”.
    All this hype about celebrities who might have been good people etc but it’s not like people had their quotes pinned up on the wall like say John Lennon….and he was in no way perfect! I was and am still dumbstruck as to all the hoopla that surrounded princess Di. Blue blood good looker who seemingly only came to charities because women in blue blood society are expected to do that just as male royals are expected to go and learn how to kill people in the defence(attack) forces.

    Poor bastard for dying with so much life expected to be in front of him! There is no more and so this little life is all that much more precious.

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 25 January 2008 at 8:03 am #

    ever since i heard ive had CSN in my head

    In the morning when you rise
    Do you think of me and how you left me cryin’?
    Are you thinkin’ of telephones
    And managers and where you got to be at noon?

    You are living a reality
    I left years ago it quite nearly killed me
    In the long run it will make you cry
    Make you crazy and old before your time

  33. avatar
    Anonymous | 28 January 2008 at 1:04 am #

    this post reminds me of purity and youth.when the rubik’s cube was the biggest challenge of your dreamy days.the magical days,when the most intimate thing to share was your record collection.longings for the holidays,and sand in your everywhere.beautiful SK.

  34. avatar
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